Tuesday, June 1, 2004

Day By Day

Well, day by day goes by...that is all it really is for me.  We are now into spring, and going into summer soon.......June is here.  I 'm glad it's this June, and not last June.  I fill my days by being "busy."  Doing things to make the day go by.  I'm probably the busyiest person alive!  I continue to get the house ready for Jimmy's return home. whenever that may be!  I fix things up around the house, as I know he will like it.  My husband is a cleanlinest freak, so I try to "clean everything."  I'm in the process of steam- cleaning the rugs...I hate rugs.  In my home in Las Vegas, I threw all wall-to-wall carpets out and tiled the entire house.  Today I transported books from the bedroom to the spare room.  Tomorrow, I'll go to Walmart to look for more shelves.  And so that is what life is like for me.  When this time of night comes (12 MIDNIGHT), it is best for me to just stop everything, and throw myself in bed...and start all over tomorrow.  Without your husband here, life just isn't the same....I've had dozens upon dozens of people tell me,  "come out with me.  You need to get out.  You need some loving.  Your husbands not here...he'll never know. "  50% of marriages in America end in divorce.  I myself am the product of a divorced mother and father.  Does it surprise you?  There are no morals left in our country.  Yes, I need to be loved, to be touched, to be kissed , to be held......but I will have to wait for Jimmy to come home.  .......Jimmy is in my heart, my body and my soul........And that is what it's all about, my friends!

Please all my fellow Prison Wives, write a comment, or e-mail me.  Tell me your thoughts and feelings.  Let us support each other at this trying time.............I'm probably the only one who knows what's in your mind and soul, because I go through it , too, along with you.............FRAN

5 comments:

dakotarose2852 said...

Hi Fran!  I really liked your last several entries, especially about your drive to NJ.  I'm like you, I hate rugs, too.  I have wall-to-wall carpeting right now, it's not that old, but I sure wish I had either left it bare wood floors or linoleum or tile.  I think a house looks fresher and cheerier without all that carpeting.  Darn, if only I'd known then what I know now.  Take care.  Tell Jimmy "hi" from one of your journal friends.  I still hope we can meet one day.
Susan

knoxhugh said...

i just pulled up fbi statistics and was amazed to find that one out of every 75 males in this country is in prison. the umber of women in prison has doubled in the last 15 years, and 9% of all black males are in prison. i am a reformed criminal and addict (clean for 12 years) and was in prison in france as an adolescent. i now work as a substance abuse counselor with parolees in a residential setting. so you are definitely not alone with your situation. have courage.

sheshespice said...

you are ridiculous.....if anyone bothered to start from the beginnig of your journal they would see that you said you were 40 but looked 30...but then you were an RN for 30 yrs while living with another man for 28 yrs.....you don't even know what is true....but you sure know how to call the phone company and the poor grocery clerk, liars and bad people...you are SUCH a victim, right?....give me a break...and driving the JAG, while legally blind? I bet that  car was not bought with HARD earned money!.....but I do believe you are a con...yes you better pray for yourself...and the government should do something about THE FORGOTTEN wome?.....get REAL LADY...your idiot husband should have thought twice about committing a crime....get a life! And quit complaining and trying to romantisize the life of crime...your life is the one you chose..I do not feel one bit sorry for you...good for the family that they did the right thing by getting your CONMAN off the streets.....

crystalmoon222 said...

Thank you so very much, Knox Hugh, for your encoraging and caring comment.  I really appreciate it.  I also worked with addicts for years in New York City as an R. N., so I'm aware of substance abuse.  MY husband never took drugs, but he got involved in an unfortunate situation  (his crime took place before I married him). He is a bailbondsman, so he is always telling me statistics, etc.  In the prison, most of the inmates know him, because he's bailed them out many times! Isn't that incredible!  Please keep in touch with me. I need good people around me, like you!  The prison system is so fascinating.  The average person knows nothing about it. They are "quick" to put the criminal down....But, hey!  We're all human.  I think the saying goes, "People who live in glass houses, shouldn't through stones."  And SHE SHE SPICE, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, for taking your precious time, to read my journal.  You are a wonderful person, and may God Bless You.  Even I myself have not taken the time to go back and read my journal since it's start , on December 31, 2003.........it was New Year's Eve, and I felt very depressed.....That was over 5 months ago.  And I still share my thoughts with everyone.To get my "record " straight, I am 51 years old.  I lived with the first man for 28 years(since I was 20).He left me on 2/01, and went to Betty Ford Clinic, because he was an alcoholic. Exactly 1 month later, I met Jimmy(3/01).  I was an R.N.
since I was 20...that makes it 31 yrs. I stopped working at the age of 48.  ...wow, those are a lot of sats about my life!.....Sorry if I sometimes get the dates wrong! ...Now, are you happy.  I am not a con, and never stole money, or whatever.  I am however, a very young looking 51 year old.......I pass for 30 or 40, and sound 25 or less .  Why, are you jealous now?!...my little she spice.  Unfortinatley, people li

crystalmoon222 said...

she spice....it didn't finish prinying what i said on the last line.  What I was saying, is "People like you are very jealous of others. "  I suppose, you are "perfect" in everyway.  And there you go!  Thinking that you are "perfect,"  makes you imperfect, because that in itself is a flaw!!!.......ha, ha, got you there!