PRISONER'S WIFE DOES "TIME"WITH HER HUSBAND

FOR THOSE OF YOU JOINING THIS JOURNAL FOR THE FIRST TIME, LET ME EXPLAION SOME THINGS.  I AM A PRISONER'S WIFE, WHOSE HUSBAND IS NOW IN A WORKING HALF-WAY HOUSE.  I AM DOING THE "TIME ," WITH JIMMY, OTHERWISE, KNOWN AS "DOING THE BID."  I WAIT AT HOME.  IY IS NOW APRIL 28, 2005...EXACTLY 25 MONTHS SINCE JIMMY WENT TO JAIL, THEN PRISON, THEN REHAB, AND NOW FINALLY A HALF-WAY HOUSE.  IN THIS JOURNAL YOU WILL HEAR FROM ME, FIRST HAND, WHAT IT IS LIKE TO WAIT , AT HOME, FOR YOUR HUSBAND WHO IS INCARCERATED.  WE ARE NOT KIDS, BUT ARE 2 MATURE PEOPLE, WHO HAPPENED TO FALL IN LOVE 4 YEARS AGO, ACROSS THE NATION...I LIVED IN LAS VEGAS, JIMMY LIVED IN NEW JERSEY.  WE MARRIED 8 WEEKS LATER, AND I FULLY KNEW HE HAD TO SERVE A PRISON TERM.  I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT THE PRISON SYSTEM, AND REALLY NEVER WANTED TO KNOW, UNTIL I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MOST WONDERFUL MAN.  I DIDN'T REALIZE HE HAD TO STAY IN PRISON FOR SO LONG.  WE THOUGHT HE MIGHT HAVE GOTTEN HOUSE ARREST, LIKE MARTHA STEWART.  SO HERE IT IS 25 MONTHS LATER.  THAT IS A LOT OF DAYS AND HOURS, LIVING FOR YOUR HUSBAND.  IN THIS JOURNAL YOU WILL EXPERIENCE JUST WHAT IT IS LIKE TO LIVE THE LIFE OF THE FORGOTTEN WOMAN, AT HOME...YES, THE FORGOTTEN WOMAN IN OUR SOCIETY.  AND SO, YOU WILL EXPERIENCE MY TEARS, MY JOY, MY JOKING, MY UPS AND DOWNS, MY EMOTIONAL TURMOIL AT TIMES.  READ THIS JOURNAL , WHEN YOU GET A CHANCE , FROM THE NIGHT I STARTED IT...A LONELY, MISERABLE  NEW YEAR'S EVE DEC. 31, 2003.  SEE HOW IT STARTED OUT .  SEE HOW THE WRITING HAS CHANGED SINCE THAT FIRST ENTRY.  SEE HOW DEPRESSED I WAS, AND HOW, NOW, SOMEHOW HAVE LIFTED MYSELF ABOVE ALL THAT, ALONE, WITH MY HUSBAND'S SUPPORT FROM PRISON.  NOTICE HOW I AM A HAPPIER MORE TOGETHER PERSON.  YES, I FIGURED THE PRISON SYSTEM OUT, BY MYSELF, BY GOING THROUGH IT.  FOR THAT I AM GRATEFUL...TO HAVE BEEN BROUGHT THROUGH THIS PRISON EXPERIENCE, LED BY MY HUSBAND, ONLY TO BECOME A STRONGER PERSON.  IF YOU ARE READING THIS, AND VERY DEPRESSED, HANG ON.  THINGS WILL AUTOMATICALLY CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE AND IN YOUR THOUGHTS...IT IS AN EMOTIONAL JOURNEY, BUT ONE WELL WORTH TRAVELING.  I INVITE YOU ALL INTO THE CORNERS OF MY MIND.  FOR SOME IT MAY EVEN BE A SCARY EXPERIENCE.  DO NOT FEAR, FOR YOU WILL ONLY LEARN FROM IT...JUST HOW IT IS TO LIVE LIKE THIS.  YOU SEE, I LIVE FOR THE RING OF THE PHONE.  THAT IS HOW WE HAVE STAYED CONNECTED.  AND FOR THE WAITING OF THE MAIL.  I HAVE BOXES OF MAIL, LETTERS, CARDS, AND HOME-MADE CARDS.  AND , OF COURSE, I LIVE FOR THIS JOURNAL, WHICH HELPED PULL ME OUT OF THE DEPTHS OF DEPRESSION.  AND YES, EVERYDAY I GET LOADS OF MAIL AND COMMENTS FROM THOSE READING THIS, TO THANK ME, AND SHARE THEIR OWN EXPERIENCES.  AND SO, I FEEL BLESSED.  AND I AM HAPPY TO GIVE YOU MY THOUGHTS.  AND NOW, APRIL 28TH IS HERE, AND WE PROCEED INTO THE 25TH MONTH OF BEING PHYSICALLY APART...........FRAN