LIFE MOVES ON

LIFE MOVES ON. SPRING IS PRETTY MUCH FINALLY HERE. I WALK OUTSIDE IN THE SUN, AND UNDER THE TREES THAT BEGIN TO GROW LEAVES.  I LOOK FOR FLOWERS THAT BEGIN TO BLOOM, AND I WATCH THE GARDENERS AT WORK.  TODAY, SEVERAL BIRDS WALKED ACROSS THE LAWN, IN FRONT OF OUR HOUSE, AND PRINCE, MY DOG WAS SO EXCITED!  HE LOVES LITTLE BIRDS AND LITTLE ANIMALS.   YES, LIFE GOES ON.  TIME MOVES ON. IT IS NOW 25 MONTHS THAT JIMMY HAS BEEN AWAY FROM HIS HOME, HIS PETS AND ME. THE TEARS ARE NOW SOMEHOW LESS THAN IN THE BEGINNING.  THE EMPTINESS IS NOT AS GREAT AS IT ONCE WAS.  WE CONTINUE TO STAY CONNECTED, AND WE ARE MORE IN LOVE THAN EVER.  ARE OTHER MARRIED COUPLES SO CONNECTED , ALTHOUGH PHYSICALLY APART, AS JIMMY AND I ARE?  AND OUR MINDS HAVE BECOME SO ACTIVELY CREATIVE, IT IS ALMOST PHENOMINAL.  WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY , IS THAT WE CREATE EACH OTHERS PERSONNA SO VIVIDLY WITHIN US.  WE CONSTANTLY CARRY THE OTHER WITH US.  IT IS HARD TO EXPLAIN.  IT IS LIKE JIMMY IS ALWAYS AT MY SIDE.  AND HE IS JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY!  THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER EVERYDAY.  JIMMY HAS A VERY GOOD JOB IN ATLANTIC CITY, AS THE MANAGER OF A LARGE FOODSTORE.  HE IS WORKING VERY HARD, AND IS DOING A GOOD JOB.  HE LOVES THE WORK, AND HAS ALWAYS ENJOYED WORKING, NO MATTER WHAT THAT WORK MAY BE.  HE LIKES BEING A PRODUCTIVE PERSON.  I/WE HAVE MOVED ON SINCE THE DAY HE WAS INCARCERATED.  TIME AND LIFE MOVED ON, AUTOMATICALLY, AND CHANGED AUTOMATICALLY.  I AM NO LONGER THAT "DESPERATE WOMAN."  I AM MORE MATURE, MORE IN CONTROL OF MY MIND AND EMOTIONS.  AND IT IS ALL FOR THE BETTER.  HOWEVER, I STILL WORRY ABOUT THOSE WOMEN THAT ARE AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS TERRIBLE JOURNEY, WITH A HUSBAND/BOYFRIEND IN PRISON.  THE BEGINNING MONTHS/YEARS ARE THE WORST.  LATELY I HAVE GOTTEN SOME E-MAILS, OF WOMEN THAT POUR THEIR HEARTS OUT TO ME.  THEY ARE ALONE, DESPERATE.  THEY FEEL LIKE THEY ARE GOING CRAZY. I CAN ONLY SHARE WITH YOU, THAT IN THE BEGINNING MONTHS OF JIMMY'S INCARCERATION, I WAS THE SAME WAY.  AND I CARE ENOUGH ABOUT THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO ARE SUFFERING NOW, AND WHO WILL SUFFER IN THE FUTURE.  IF I CAN HAVE IT MY WAY, THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER WOMAN WHO WILL SUFFER, AS I HAVE, EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY.  NO, NEVER AGAIN WILL ANOTHER PRISON WIFE HAVE TO SUFFER, IF I CAN HAVE IT MY WAY.  RIGHT NOW, I AM YOUR SUPPORT SYSTEM.  AND THROUGH ME, AND READING MY JOURNAL, YOU , TOO, WILL MAKE IT....AS I HAVE. IF YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS DAY, I PROMISE THAT TOMORROW WILL GET BETTER...EVEN IF ONLY SILGHTLY BETTER EACH DAY. EVEN IF YOU THINK IT WILL NOT GET BETTER, WELL, PLEASE LISTEN TO MY WORDS...IT WILL GET BETTER.  IN THE BEGINNING, YOU FEEL EXHAUSTED AND ALONE.  YOU MUST JUST PUT EVERYTHING ASIDE, AND LAY DOWN, AND REST.  YOU MUST REST YOUR TROUBLED MIND.  AND SO, I WOULD LIKE TO ASK THOSE READING THIS JOURNAL TO SAY A LITTLE PRAYER FOR THOSE PRISON WIVES AND LOVED ONES WHO ARE AT HOME, TROUBLED AND SUFFERING., WITH MINDS UNABLE TO FOCUS ON ANYTHING, EXCEPT "HE IS LOCKED UP."  JUST A FEW WORDS TO GOD, THAT'S ALL.  YOU SEE, IN THE BEGINNING IT MAY BE HARD FOR THE PRISON WIFE TO EVEN PRAY, SO SHE NEEDS OUR HELP...THAT IS, FOR OUR COMBINED PRAYERS....SHE NEEDS OTHERS TO "PULL HER ALONG," THROUGH PRAY, AND OF COURSE GOOD WORKS.  I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE WHO READS THIS JOURNAL.  AND I INVITE YOU TO KEEP READING AND COMMENTING AND E-MAILING ME....AS YOU WALK "THROUGH THE CORRIDERS OF MY MIND."    WITH LOVE,   FRAN