Thursday, December 1, 2005

RESPONSE TO COMMENT

DEAR BETTY,

THANK YOU FOR YOUR PROMPT ANSWER AND COMMENT....I AM SITTING HERE, CRYING, AND YOUR COMMENT POPPED UP, A FEW MINUTES AFTER I WROTE THE ENTRY............YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH YOUR COMMENT MEANT TO ME....I AM REALLY VERY TOUCHED BY IT.....,,,I KNOW, I SHOULD NOT TAKE MY UNHAPPINESS OUT ON JIMMY..........BY NOT TALKING TO HIM, THAT IS THE ONE THING TO MAKE HIM CRY...YES, MY BIG STRONG MAN, WHO IS IN A BIG , TOUGH PRISON, AND I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE HIM CRY..................

JIMMY ALWAYS TELLS ME THAT THE ONE THING YOU DON'T WANT TO SHOW IN PRISON, IS THAT YOU ARE A WEAK MAN.................................BUT YES, JIMMY HAS A STREAK OF WEAKNESS, AND THAT IS ME...........I AM THE ONE WHO CAN MAKE HIM CRY.......

I KNOW THAT HE HAS TO PROVE HIMSELF IN THIS JOB...IT IS IMPORTANT , SO HE CAN COME HOME, SOON.

YOU ARE RIGHT........JESUS WOULDN'T WANT ME TO BE MEAN AND ACT LIKE THIS...............

IT'S JUST THAT I THOUGHT FOR ONE SMALL MINUIE THAT THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT THIS YEAR.......

I'M STILL CRYING........CAN YOU FEEL MY TEARDROPS IN MONTANA.........?

IT'S JUST THAT CHRISTMAS IS SUCH A SENTIMENTAL TIME OF YEAR............AND ALL THE SENTIMENTAL CHRISTMAS SONGS KEEP PLAYING ON THE RADIO....

I FEEL BETTER NOW, BETTY.........I THINK YOU ARE PRAYING FOR ME RIGHT NOW, AND I CAN FEEL IT HERE, IN NEW JERSEY, ALL THE WAY FROM MONTANA.......THANK YOU SO MUCH...

YES, I WILL BE A GOOD WIFE TO JIMMY........I WILL SUPPORT HIM, WITH HIS JOB, ETC......

I WILL TALK TO HIM WHEN HE CALLS LATER....

WHAT I WILL DO, IN A LITTLE WHILE, IS FIND SOMETHING I CAN FOCUS MY MIND ON...SOME LITTLE PROJECT THAT I CAN DO, EACH DAY, IN TRYING TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD..........EVERY DAY. I WILL DO IT.......I'M NOT SURE WHAT IT WILL BE.........I'LL BE CREATIVE, AND TRY TO FOCUS MY MIND ON SOMETHING..........iT WILL BE MY LITTLE PROJECT....IT WILL BE CALLED "24 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS."........and everyday, i will find someyhing to help others......MAYBE SOMETHING LIKE WRITTING A LETTER TO A CHILD , WHO IS ILL, OR HAS A DADDY IN PRISON.......

AS I AM WRITING THIS, I JUST GOT 2 MORE COMMENTS , FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE SUPPORTING ME, GUIDING ME TO DO THE RIGHT THING, AND STANDING BY ME.......

YES, KATH, YOU ARE RIGHT.......JIMMY HAS NO CONTROL OVER HIS WORK SCHEDULE, AND I SHOULD NOT PUNISH HIM BY NOT TALKING TO HIM.....

AND MANDYMEME, WROTE A BEAUTIFUL COMMENT.....SHE IS MAKING ME CRY , AGAIN.........MANDY HAS 3 CHILDREN TO RAISE, WITH HER HUSBAND IN PRISON...A BABY SHE HAD WHILE HE WAS IN JAIL...SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER SHE HAS TO BE ALONE...........SHE ONLY WISHES SHE COULD SEE HER HUSBAND IN 10 DAYS.......

YES, I WILL DO THE RIGHT THING...AND CHANGE MY MODE OF THINKING............I'M GOING TO PRAY REAL HARD TONITE, TO MAKE ME STRONGER, AND FOCUS ON THOSE IN NEED..........

SEE, EVERYONE READING THIS, PRISONER'S WIVES ARE A UNIQUE GROUP OF PEOPLE, WITH UNIQUE NEEDS.......

THAT IS WHAT MAKES THIS JOURNAL SO SPECIAL......WE  CAN COME HERE, AND TALK, AND LISTEN TO ONE ANOTHER, AND KNOW WE ARE NOT ALONE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.............THANK YOU SO MUCH..........I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW............FRAN

 

3 comments:

chickidee4 said...

Fran,
I hardly leave comments in journals but I have to say, stay strong. Eventually Jimmy will come home and all will be well. I am sure that this is hurting him also. You are the love of his life and he wouldn't do this on purpose. He is doing all that he can to be with you and soon it will happen.

So you just stay strong and know that he loves you and one day soon you will be together.

Take care lady,
Robin Marie

derasta said...

Hi Fran, I'm so happy you decided to talk to Jimmy...I am sure he is just as upset about not being able to come home...but remember, he has to work his hardest there to prove that he is responsible and can do what ever they ask him to do...that looks very good for him and might even help with him coming home sooner...if he were to pull attitudes and not be a team player they might fire him and then imagine how that would be in his situation.  Just hang tight, you have all of us!

mindercella33 said...

Fran, I am so glad you decided to talk to Jimmy. I know this is hard and the only one for you to strike out at is Jimmy, but you just hurt yourself in the process. Stay strong Fran and hopefully this will al be over soon. Hugs, Cyndy