Friday, April 29, 2005

the story of being a criminal's wife

THE STORY OF BEING A CRIMINAL'S WIFE IS THIS:  THE FIRST WEDDING ANNIVERSARY HE IS INCARCERATED, YOU SIT HOME AND CRY ALL DAY, LOOKING AT YOUR WEDDING PIX.  THE SECOND WEDDING ANNIVERSARY, YOU SIT AROUND CRYING, AGAIN, HOPING HE WILL SOON BE HOME.  AND THE THIRD WEDDING ANNIVERSARY, YOU SIT AT HOME, NUMB, NO LONGER LOOKING AT YOUR PAST PIX, UNHAPPY, WONDERING TO YOURSELF JUST WHY YOU GOT YOURSELF INVOLVED IN THIS LIFE WITH HIM, JUST WHY DID YOU MARRY THIS CRIMINAL, AND WHY DO I TORTURE MYSELF SITTING HERE, WAITING FOR HIM.  AND I KNOW YOU WILL BE SURPRISED TO READ THIS .  BUT THIS JOURNAL IS BASED ON TRUTH.  ON MY FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS.  AND THAT IS THE TRUTH FOR TODAY.  ON TOP OF IT ALL, JIMMY JUST CALLED ME AND SAID , ALL TH PEOPLE IN HIS STORE  ARE MAD AT HIM, BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS SAY HOW WONDERFUL OUR MARRIAGE IS, AND THEN, ON OUR ANNIVERSARY, HE IS NOYT WITH ME.  YES, JIMMY IS A PRISONER, NOT ONLY OF THE PRISON SYSTEM, BUT NOW ALSO HIS JOB...IT'S OK.  WE'LL JUST SEE WHERE IT'S GOING TO LEAD.  I'M NOT SITTING HERE FOREVER WAITING FOR HIM...ALL THE OTHER GUYS SEE THEIR WIVES ON PASSES, BUT JIMMY HASN'T DONE IT YET.  IT'S OK.  WE WILL NOW SEE WHERE THIS WILL LEAD.  I WOULDN'T SIT HERE WAITING FOREVER...AFTER ALL, THE WEATHER IS TOO NICE......DO YOU REALIZE, THIS JOURNAL IS LIKE A "REALITY TV SHOW," ONLY IT IS A "REALITY JOURNAL," AND YOU JUST MAY BE THE FIRST TO READ ABOUT ...WHO KNOWS WHAT!

5 comments:

barbpinion said...

Your day will come, so just look forward to it. Hugs. *Barb*
http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/HEYLETSTALK

trishaham said...

Sorry you are having such a sad day. Cheer up honey, Better days are coming. We all have a bad day here and there. This will pass. Keep your chin up.

God Bless,
TiasNme2

sugar1337 said...

I hope he comes to see you soon....you shouldn't have to wait forever to see him.

fayeann36 said...

Happy Anniversey!! I know Jimmy hasen't been with you in person but I'm sure you're in his thoughts everyday!! I know he's in yours each and everyday!! Again I'm sorry if I was rude in the comment about the date!!(((((Fran)))))) Like someone once said keep reaching for the stars and hold your head up!!   Faye

cudles23 said...

i hate that u are down today but as a woman i know it gets lonely to be alone and i do not blame u for your feelings hope things get better loves.....