Thursday, April 14, 2005

"JUST ANOTHER DAY"

YES, HERE IT IS, JUST ANOTHER DAY FOR ME.  I KNOW THAT IS HARD TO IMAGINE, FOR ALL YOU PRODUCTIVE , WORKING PEOPLE OUT THERE, AS YOU ALL SIT AT YOUR OFFICE DESKS, AND COMPUTERS.  YOU ARE ALL BUSY WORKING.  AND FOR ME, I'M NOT BUSY!...Ha ! Ha!.  WELL, I GUESS I'M JUST ONE OF THE LUCKY ONES WHO GOT TO RETIRE "EARLY!"  RIGHT NOW, I FEEL VERY BORED.  AND I CAN EVEN BARELY WRITE IN THIS JOURNAL.  AND I EVEN FEEL I WILL NEVER WRITE  NOR SEND ANYTHING ELSE OUT FOR PUBLICATION.  I'M JUST TIRED OF IT ALL.  I WISH I STILL LIVED IN CALIFORNIA.  I WAS ALWAYS GOING SOMEWHERE, SEEING SOMETHING NEW.  I LIVED RIGHT ON THE BEACH, OVERLOOKING THE BLUE PACIFIC OCEAN.  AS I LAID IN BED, I COULD HEAR THE WAVES ROLLING BACK AND FORTH.  I HAD PATIOS , FROM THE BEDROOM AND LIVING ROOM, AND WOULD WATCH THE SUN SET EVERY DAY.  IT IS A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT TO SEE THE SUN GO DOWN OVER THE HORIZEN.  I COULD GO ON AND ON TELLING YOU HOW LIFE WAS FOR ME ONCE UPON A TIME, BUT IT WOULD BE USELESS.  I AM HERE, WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW.  AND A LITTLE SAD AND RESTLESS TODAY.  JIMMY IS INVOLVED WITH HIS JOB, AND I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT.  HE IS OFF TODAY.  I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW HE DOES IT.  EVERYTHING IS GOING ALONG VERY SMOOTHLY RIGHT NOW.  THERE IS SOME GLIMMER OF HOPE FOR THE FUTURE.  I NEED TO FIND SOMETHING TO DO RIGHT NOW, TO HELP OTHERS.  ACTUALLY, I DO HELP OTHERS, BUT I HAVE A FEELING WITHIN ME, TO HELP OTHERS EVEN MORE...I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN IT.  I WILL NOW GO OUT AND TAKE A WALK, AND CLEAR THE PASSAGES OF MY MIND.  THEN, I WILL BE ABLE TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE LED FROM THERE.  LOVE TO ALL!.........FRAN

2 comments:

sugar1337 said...

Maybe you could volunteer or pick up a hobby you can do at home to keep you happy and busy?

p00kie2323 said...

california sounds awrsome well it seems u are going through a time of liniliness just know when no one else is there God is and he can feel that void if u just speak with him loves