Wednesday, April 27, 2005

kintock...good-nite kisses

JIMMY JUST CALLED ME A LITTLE WHILE AGO.  HE ALWAYS CALLS ME AT 2 AM, WHEN HE ARRIVES BACK TO KINTOCK FROM HIS JOB IN ATLANTIC CITY.  AND SO, HE GAVE ME SOME GOOD-NITE KISSES , BEFORE HE GOES TO SLEEP.  I'M USUALLY IN BED, BUT WAKE UP WHEN HE CALLS, AND NOW FULLY AWAKE.  TODAY IS THE 28TH OF THE MONTH.  IT IS NOW 25 MONTHS THAT JIMMY WENT TO JAIL, THEN PRISON, THEN KINTOCK.  AND ON APRIL 29, IT IS OUR 4TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY, 25 MONTHS OF WHICH WE HAVE BEEN APART.  ON THE PHONE JIMMY SAID TO ME, "IT IS ALMOST OVER, NOW , FRAN."  I ANSWERED, "ALMOST OVER, BUT NOT OVER ENOUGH."  AND SO, ANOTHER DAY GONE.  AND TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY, AND I FELEL HAPPY THAT IT IS A NEW DATE, AND TIME PROGRESSES ON.  I AM GLAD IT IS THE 28, AND NO LONGER THE 27.  AND ON THE 29TH, I'LL BE HAPPY IT IS NO LONGER THE 28TH....AND SO ON, AND SO ON...IT IS ALL SO SILLY OF ME...BUT I'M LIKE THAT, MAKING SILLY LITTLE RHYMES IN MY HEAD, JUST TO PASS THE LONG DAYS AND NIGHT...THE LONG DAYS INTO NOTHINGNESS...THE LONG WAIT....AND SO, NOW JIMMY IS ASLEEP AT KINTOCK, AND I SIT HERE AWAKE...NOT SURE OF WHAT TO EVEN THINK.  I MAY LIE DOWN AND LISTEN TO THE RAINDROPS FALL OUTSIDE.  I MAY WATCH A MOVIE ON  "ON-DEMAND."  I STARTED WATCHING "SINBAD," BUT DIDN'T FINISH IT TODAY.  AND SO, TIME MOVES ON, HOWEVER SLOWLY TONITE.  THE MINUTES TICK AWAY.  THE RADIO PLAYS, AND I FEEL LIKE DANCING...LATELY I';VE BEEN SINGING MORE THAN EVER...I LOVE TO SING, AND BECOME PART OF THE MUSIC...AT LEAST I CAN HOLD A NOTE, AND SING A VERY HIGH PITCH. PEOPLE TELL ME I HAVE A VERY UNIQUE VOICE...I HAVE A VERY DISTINCT WAY OF PROMOUNCING THE WORDS IN A SONG.  JIMMY TELLS ME I HAVE A GIFT TO SING...HE SAYS I HAVE A CERTAIN WAY, THAT MAKES ONE "FEEL" THE SONG...I GUESS THAT IS DUE TO MY LIFE EXPERIENCE.  LATELY, I'VE BEEN SINGING WITH SADE, HER CD, ALONG WITH MY MICROPHONE.  ONE DAY, YOU JUST MAY SEE ME UP THERE SINGING...I LIKE TO SING, AND DO IT FOR MYSELF, AND OTHERS...TO HOPEFULLY SPREAD JOY AND HAPPINESS.....WELL, I WILL GO NOW.  HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH EVERYONE.........FRAN

6 comments:

paintsaqha said...

FRAN I HAD TO CUT THE COMMENT IN HALF..
THIS IS THE SECOND HALF
 HAVE YOU CONSIDERED WRITING A NOVEL OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT? I HAVE BEEN TRYING BUT LAST NIGHT I WROTE TWO PARAGHRAGHS(SP?) BELIVE IT OR NOT, I DID JUST LOOK THAT UP IN THE DICTIONARY, BUT IT STILL LOOKS WRONG! ANYWAY WHEN I READ WHAT I HAD JUST WROTE I REALIZED THAT I HAD THREE DIFFERENT TIME LINES!! I WAS LIKE, "WTF!! GREAT JOB!" THEN I STARTED ON MYSELF, TEARING MYSELF DOWN, "YOU CAN'T EVEN WRITE TWO PARAGHRAGHS CORRECTLY, HOW DO YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN WRITE AN ENTIRE NOVEL, YOU IDIOT!"  :...<(


I BETTER GET RUNNING, I WOKE UP WITH A KILLER HEADACHE, SO I THINK I AM GOING TO TAKE A HOT BATH AND TAKE ANOTHER PAIN PILL... <WISH ME LUCK ON GETTING RID OF THIS STUPID HEADACH WITHOUT GOING TO THE HOSPITAL!>

I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO HAVE PUT THIS ENTRY ON TWO SEPARATE ENTRIES, BECAUSE IT IS SO LONG, BUT THIS TIME I DON'Y WANT TO DELETE ANYTHING, WHAT CAN I SAY WHEN I GET UP ON MY SOAPBOX I JUST CAN'T SHUT UP! LOL...

SO FRAN, I WILL KEEP YOU AND JIMMY IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS....  WHEN WILL JIMMY BE ABLE TO COME HOME TO YOU??? I HOPE THAT IT ISN'T VERY MUCH LONGER....

SHERYL
PAINTSAQHA

paintsaqha said...

FRAN,
I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU ARE SINGING THAT SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE ABLE TO FIND SOMETHING IN THIS WORLD THAT MAKES YOU A LITTLE BIT HAPPY!  I HOPE THAT IF YOU EVER DECIDE TO SING PROFESSIONALLY YOU BECOME A HUGE STAR!  JUST PROMISE ME ONE THING..... DON'T GO ON AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!  THAT SIMON PERSON IS THE LARGEST @$$HOLE I HAVE EVER SEEN, HE GETS SOME SICK PLEASURE IN TEARING PEOPLE APART, WITH HIS COMMENTS THAT ARE SAID WITH THE INTENTION TO HURT.  I WOULD HATE TO SEE HIM DO THAT, I WOULD REALLY HAVE TO  HURT HIM FOR THAT, THEN I WOULD BE IN PRISON!!!!!!! (NOT KIDDING) LOL  :O)  JUST HAVE HAD ENOUGH PEOPLE WALK ALL OVER ME, I DON'T PUT UP WITH IT IN MY LIFE, AND I AM AFRAID  IF I SAW IT HAPPEN TO ONE OF MY FRIENDS I WOULD JUST LOSE IT!  I DOUBT HE DRIVES SO MY FIRST THING NORMALLY IS OUT OF QUESTION, BUT SERIOUSLY 4-FLAT TIRES NEVER REALLY HURT ANYONE. HE IS SUCH A PRICK THAT I AM SURE HE WOULD HAVE A COMMENT ON HOW I DID IT WRONG!  LOL...

paintsaqha said...

FRAN,
SORRY I GOT MY COMMENT OUT OF ORDER, I THOUGHT THAT THE NEWER COMMENTS WERE ADDED TO THE TOP OF THE PAGE SO I SAVED THE LAST PART OF MY COMMENT FIRST THEN SENT THE FIRST PART, AND WHEN I CHECKED ON THEM THEY ARE REVERSED!!!! ALTHOUGH, I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM SUPRISED, I MEAN, I DON'T DO ANYTHING CORRECTLY, DESPITE HOW HARD I TRY....
SHERYL

paintsaqha said...

ARGHHHHHH......  NOW I CAN'T EVEN FIND TWO OF THEM.... THIS IS CRAZY!  I MEAN REALLY WTF! I GIVE UP!  <GOING BACK TO BED>  
SHERYL

fayeann36 said...

today is the 27th if you live in the usa other wise it's not!!

crystalmoon222 said...

DEAR PAINTSAQHA...HOPE YOUR HEADACHE IS BETTER.  DON'T BE TOO HARD ON YOURSELF....TAKE WRITING A STEP AT A TIME...NO I'M NOT GOING TO BECOME A FAMOUS SINGER!  TRY TO KEEP EVERYTHING BALANCED AND IN HARMONY IN YOUR LIFE.  KEPP THINKING THE WORDS, "PEACE, BALANCE, AND HARMONY."  JIMMY KEEPS TELLING ME, "HE WILL SEE ME SOON."  YOU SEE, WE ARE SO CONNECTED. I DON'T RALLY WANT TO SEE HIM FOR A FEW HOURS.  IT ISN'T ENOUGH.  I WANT HIM TO BE HOME WITH ME, SO I CAN FEEL SAFE, PROTECTED, AND AT PEACE.  SO I KNOW HE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE WITH ME..SO I KNOW WHEN I FALL ASLEEP, HE WILL BE HERE AT MY SIDE WHEN I WAKE UP.  SEEING HIM FOR A FEW HOURS IS NICE, BUT JUST DOESN'T DO THE TRICK FOR THE 2 OF US...IT WILL ONLY MAKE US CRAVE EACH OTHER MORE...ALL I CAN TELL YOU RIGHT NOW, IS THAT THINGS ARE GOING VERY WELL, OUR LAWYER IS WORKING ON STUFF FOR US, SOON MAY MEAN MONTHS, BUT AT LEAST IT IS ON THE HORIZEN...............FRAN