FRIDAY THOUGHTS

JIMMY CAME HOME, ONCE AGAIN, YESTERDAY , AND IT WAS GREAT, AS ALWAYS!  IT WAS AROUND HIS 20TH TIME HOME.

I FIGURE OUT HE SHOULD COME HOME AROUND 7 MORE TIMES, AND THEN COME HOME FOR GOOD, SEPT. 19, 2006

LIFE IS ABOUT COUNTING THINGS, AND LOOKING FORWARD TO THINGS.

PEOPLE TELL ME THAT  "TIME MUST BE MOVING SLOWLY RIGHT NOW, FOR YOU."    BUT IT REALLY ISN'T.  JIMMY AND I ARE ALWAYS BUSY DOING THINGS, AND KEEPING THINGS PLANNED, AND ORGANIZED.

SEEING EACH OTHER TWICE A WEEK REALLY HELPS.  WE LOVE BEING WITH EACH OTHER, AND DOING SO MANY THINGS...................AND TALKING ALL THE TIME.

I TOLD HIM TODAY, "YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE I CAN CONFIDE IN."  

AND THAT IS REALLY HOW IT IS.  I MAY TALK TO MANY PEOPLE, BUT JIMMY IS THE ONLY PERSON THAT "KNOWS THE TRUE FRAN."

JIMMY ANSWERED ME, BY SAYING,  "THAT IS HOW IT SHOULD BE BETWEEN A MARRIED COUPLE."  HUSBAND AND WIFE SHOULD BE EACH OTHER'S CONFIDANTS.

I KNOW HIM, AND HE KNOWS ME, AND THAT IS HOW IT IS, AND ALWAYS WILL BE..............AND IT SHOULD BE THAT WAY BETWEEN 2 PEOPLE WHO ARE MARRIED.

PEOPLE MAY SEE YOUR PUBLIC FACE, WHEN YOU ARE OUT IN THE OPEN, BUT IT IS YOUR SPOUSE THAT KNOWS AND UNDERSTANDS THE TRUE YOU.

JIMMY KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME.................EVEN THE INNER ME.  HE STUDIED ME ALL THESE 5. 4 YEARS OF MARRIAGE.

HE EVEN TELLS ME, THAT HE STUDIES EVERYTHING ABOUT ME.  IN SOME WAYS, JIMMY IS LIKE A PSYCHOLOGIST TO ME.....................AND, I STUDY HIM SO THEREFORE I AM HIS PSYCHOLOGIST!

I HAVE A LOT OF VERY DEEP PARTS WITHIN ME.............SO IT IS JIMMY'S PLEASURE TO STUDY ME!

AND HE KNOWS IT ALL..HE KNOWS ME, BETTER THAN I KNOW MYSELF.

YESTERDAY, JIMMY COOKED TORTOLINI WITH MEAT SAUCE, AND I HAD A ROASTED CHICKEN WITH SALAD.....HE BROUGHT ME LOTS OF FRESH FRUIT, WHICH I LOVE THIS SUMMER................PEACHES, MELON, STRAWBERRIES, GRAPES,APLLES........

HE BROUGHT ME FOR A ROUTINE DOCTOR VISIT............SHE ONCE AGAIN FOUND LOTS OF PROBLEMS WITHIN MY BLOODWORK.  BUT I CHEERFULLY LOOKED AT THE DOCTOE, AND SAID THE LABS MAY SHOW PROBLEMS, BUT I FEEL BETTER THAN EVER................I WAS THERE, SMILING............JIMMY AT MY SIDE, HOLDING MY HAND..........JIMMY SAYS MY COMPLEXION IS ROSY AND HEALTHY LOOKING...MY EYES ARE BRIGHT...........WE ARE ALWAYS TALKING AND LAUGHING.

SO NOW, BESIDES THE DIABETES WHICH I HAVE FOR 21 YEARS, ANYHOW..............AND IT DOESN'T REALLY BOTHER ME, BECAUSE I'M SO USED TO DEALING WITH IT...............I TEST MY BLOOD SO MANY TIMES A DAY................AND INJECT MYSELF WITH INSULIN TWICE A DAY...AND EVEN COVER MYSELF WITH INSULIN, FOR HIGH SUGARS.............MAYBE INJECTING MYSELF ANOTHER  3 OR 4 TIMES A DAY...DEPENDING........SO IT TOTALS 2 TO 6 TIMES A DAY, OF INJECTING MYSELF...........THEN, STICKING MY FINGER FOR TESTING 4 OR 6 OR MORE, TIMES PER DAY.................IT JUST DOESN'T BOTHER ME ANYMORE!

AND NOT HAVING PROPER EYESIGHT, BEING LEGALLY BLIND, DOESN'T REALLY BOTHER ME ANYMORE...............I GUESS, I JUST LEARN TO ACCEPT THINGS ALONG THE WAY OF LIFE............

YESTERDAY, I FOUND OUT THAT I HAVE HYPOTHYROIDISM.................SO, NOW I'M ON SYNTHROID, AND IT WILL BE ADJUSTED IN MY BODY....................TRUTHFULLY, I'M GLAD THEY FOUND THAT, AS I HAVE MOST OF THE SYMPTOMS, ANYWAY..............AND THAT SIMPLY EXPLAINS MY LOW METABOLISM, AND THE DIFFICULTY OF LOSING WIEGHT.............AS I ALWAYS SAY, IN THE 3.5 YEARS JIMMY HAS BEEN AWAY I SHOULD WEIGH AROUND 90 LBS., SINCE I HARDLY EVER ATE...............SO, THIS THYROID PROBLEM NOW EXPLAINS IT, AND THINGS WILL GET ADJUSTED....................I MEAN, IMAGINE GOING 3.5 YEARS WITH NEVER EATING OUT IN RESTAURANTS, NEVER EATING FAST FOOD...............HARDLY EATING AT HOME....NO SNACK FOOD.........NO SODA............WELL, IN THE FIRST 7 MONTHS OF JIMMY'S INCARCERATION , I DID LOSE 75 LBS................BUT AFTERWARDS, MY BODY CHANGED, AND I GUESS THE METABOLISM GOT LOWER, WITH THE LOW THYROID.

THEN THE DOCTOR ALSO FOUND OUT THAT I AM ONCE AGAIN  ANEMIC...............SHE IS RUNNING FURTHER TESTS ON ME.  2 YEARS AGO, WHEN I HAD THE TOE AMPUTATED, I HAD A HGB, OF 8.2  I WAS TRANSFUSED WITH 2 UNITS, AND IT REMAINED AT 8.  SO I WAS TRANSFUSED WITH ANOTHER 2 UNITS.  THEY SAID MY IMMUNE SYSTEM WAS STRIPPED FROM THE INTENSIVE ANTIBIOTICS I RECEIVED TO FIGHT THE BODY INFECTION.  THEN I WAS TOLD THAT MY BONE MARROW WAS NOT PRODUCING ENOUGH RED BLOOD CELLS.  SO I WAS GIVEN 3 INJECTIONS TO REBUILD MY BONE MARROW.

WELL NOW, WE WILL SEE WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT, AND WHY I AM ANEMIC ONCE AGAIN.....................I GOT NEWS FOR EVERYONE.  I'M NOT ABOUT TO BE SICK AT THIS TIME, AS MY HUSBAND IS ON HIS WAY HOME, AND THINGS ARE GOING WELL.

ALTHOUGH I AM A NURSE, I DO BELIEVE IN THE ABILITY OF THE PERSON TO CONTROL THEIR OWN LEVEL OF WELLNESS..............THE MIND HAS A LOT TO DO WITH IT..............I ALSO BELIEVE A LOT IN HOLISTIC MEDICINE, COMBINED WITH TRADITIONAL MEDICINE.

JIMMY WILL COME HOME AGAIN ON MONDAY..............I'LL TAKE PRINCE OUTSIDE FOR A LITTLE WHILE RIGHT NOW.................FRAN