A PRISONER'S COMMENTARY

AN INMATE HAS SENT ME A 12 PAGE COMMENTARY, THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE WITH YOU..............

"IT WASN'T MY GOAL IN LIFE TO BECOME A CONVICT GROWING UP.  I GUESS THE CIRCUMSTANCES, AT THOSE IMPRESSIONABLE CHILDHOOD AGES CAUSED ME TO BECOME WHAT I AM TODAY...A FELON.  NO DOUBT WE ARE ALL MOLDED BY OUR CHILDHOOD ENVIRONMENTS TO BECOME ONE KIND OF ADULT, OR ANOTHER.  THIS INCLUDES OUTSIDE INFLUENCES OTHER THAN FAMILY.  PARENTS WILL FOREVER NURTURE AND PRAY FOR THEIR CHILDREN TO BECOME HAPPY, SUCCESSFUL, REPUTABLE ADULTS.  OR AT LEAST MOST OF THEM WILL.  IN THE END, IT'S A ROLL OF THE DICE. 

ON TV, IN BOTH REAL AND FABRICATED CRIMINAL COURTROOMS, WE SEE DEFENDENTS BLAMING THEIR CRIMINAL   BEHAVIORS ON THEIR CHILDHOODS.  AND BECAUSE OF MY IMMERSION IN THE PENAL SYSTEM, FOR 3 COMBINED PERIODS OF 8 YEARS, I BELIEVE I AM JUSTIFIED IN STATING THAT A CHILDHOOD COULD BE A PARTIAL EXCUSE FOR COMMISION OF CRIMINAL ACTS.  IN SOME CASES, A  CHILDHOOD COULD BE SO HORRID, THAT THE DEFENDENT'S PERSONA IS SO WARPED.  IN A DEATH PENALTY CASE, REASON EXISTS FOR THIS PERSON TO BE BANNED FROM SOCIETY FOR LIFE, RATHER THAN MURDERED BY THE STATE..

THE FACT REMAINS THAT IN MY OPINION, 99% OF US HAVE PERSONAL CHOICE OR  FREE WILL.  THE OTHER 1% ARE ROBBED OF CHOICE BY SOME PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR BEYOND THEIR CONTROL.  THE ONES WHO CAN'T KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG.  ON THE OTHER HAND, THE ONES CONTAINED UNDER THE 99% , THAT HAD A TRAUMATIC CHILDHOOD, KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN RIGHT AND WRONG, REGARDLESS.  THEY HAD THE FREE WILL OR CHOICE, NOT TO COMMIT THE ACT THAT PLACED THEM IN THE ENAL SYSTEM.  THEY ARE ACCOUNTABLE AND MUST BE ACCOUNTED FORIN THEIR CRIMES.  ALTHOUGH I MAY GRIPE ABOUT THE LENGTH. I DID THE CRIME, AND DESERVE THE TIME.

THE AUTHOR CAN GENERALIZE THAT 2 FACTORS EXIST FOR MEN AND WOMEN IN DEALING WITH A PRISON SENTENCE.  tHESE THINGS ARE PERSONAL TO EACH INDIVIDUAL AND THESE THINGS SUBJECT TO ALL AS A GROUP.

ONE FACTION ALLOWS MEN AND WOMEN TO BE RECIPIENTS OF THE LONLINESS, DEGRADMENT, LEARNED HARD-HEARTEDNESS (GUARDED EMOTIONS), ACCELERATED AGING, MYRIAD FORMS OF ABUSE, MIND GAMES AND A CHANGE OF THE CORE PERSONALITY, BETWEEN PRISON INTAKE, AND RELEASE.  I AM SURE THE AUDIENCE CAN NAME OR THINK OF OTHERS I'VE MISSED.  THE REMAINING FACTION, IS THE TREATMENT OF THE IMPRISONED MEN AND WOMEN, BY CORRECTIONAL PERSONNEl."...........to be continued......

THE MEN IN THE PRISONS ARE READING THIS JOURNAL, AND THEY JUST LOVE IT.  I HAVE STORIES FROM 6 MORE INMATES, WHO WOULD LIKE TO SHARE THEIR THOUGHTS WITH YOU..........

YESTERDAY, JIMMY SENT ME SEVERAL LETTERS.  IN ONE HE STATES, " TODAY IS THE 22ND DAY SINCE WE HAVE LAST SPOKEN.  WE SAVED $700, OR MORE IN PHONE CALLS, BUT I WOULD HAVE GLADLY GIVEN UP ........TO TALK TO YOU, AND HEARD YOUR SWEET, SWEET VOICE."

IN ANSWER TO A COMMENT.......WE WOULD NOT BE ADOPTING, BUT WOULD GO THE ROUTE OF MOTHER SURROGACY, AS JOAN LUNDON DID.

NITE!....AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL!...........FRAN