"SNOWDRIFTS"

SNOWFALLS AND SNOWDRIFTS...LAZY DAYS AND LAZY NIGHTS....STAYING "TUCKED INTO" MY WARM HOUSE....THAT IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT FOR ME!....CUPS OF TEA AND COCOA....POPCORN........MOVIES ON TV.........AND OF COURSE, WRITING STORIES ON MY COMPUTER............THE ANIMALS SURROUND ME, AND WALK FROM ROOM TO ROOM, ACCORDING TO WHERE I MAY BE................PHONE CALLS FROM JIMMY....AND OF COURSE SOME FRUSTRAYTION ALONG THE WAY......WAITING FOR THE SPRING, AND THEN THE SUMMER...WHEN HE WILL RECEIVE PAROLE.........ENDLESS DAYS AND ENDLESS NIGHTS , FOR ME AT LEAST!..........WAITING FOR THE  "NIGHTMARE " TO FINALLY END..........OH, WILL IT END, LORD?...PLEASE COMFORT ME, AND GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AND ENNDURANCE TO CARRY ON.........SOMETIMES THE "DRAGGING ON" OF THIS PRISON SITUATION, JUST MAKES ME WANT TO "SCREAM".......THAT I JUST CAN'T BEAR THE PAIN ANYMORE............................I CAN'T TAKE IT...................AND I TELL MYSELF, ONCE AGAIN, "JUST ONE MORE DAY...TAKE IT MOMENT BY MOMENT...I KNOW YOU CAN MAKE IT , FRAN."...........................AND SO, I GLARE OUT THE WINDOWS, AND LOOK AT THE SNOW...SO PRETTY, AND TOO ICY AND COLD FOR ME TO HANDLE, WITH VERY BAD NEUROPATHY IN MY HANDS AND LEGS AND FEET.........WITH STILL A DEEP WOUND IN MY FOOT THAT IS HEALING, UNABLE TO WEAR SHOES, AS MY FOOT SPREAD SO FAR OUT WITH THE SURGERY AND AMPUTATION, THAT NO SHOE OR BOOT FITS..........AND SO, I STAY AT HOME, AND WATCH THE HOURS GO BY...WATCHING THE SNOW SLOWLY MELT...REMEMBERING DAYS GONE BY WHEN I WAS ABLE TO GO OUTSIDE AND PLAY IN THE SNOW...BUILD A SNOWMAN...SHOVEL THE DRIVEWAY...THROW A SNOWBALL....................................THE FOOD DWINDLES DOWN...I STARTED RATIONING THINGS....I WONDER IF SOME KIND SOUL WILL COME AND HELP THIS POOR WOMAN WHEN ALL THE FOOD IS GONE....WHEN I'VE EATEN THE LAST CRUMB..........WILL SOMEONE HELP THIS POOR WOMAN, WHOSE HUSBAND IS AWAY AND IN PRISON?....lOL!  I'M JUST NOT SURE!...AND I HATE TO BEG, AND I HATE TO BE A BURDEN.............AND SO, I'LL JUST WAIT FOR THE SPRING!.............

  AND ON A LITTLE HAPPIER NOTE, SINCE I MISS JIMMY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW, IT PHYSICALLY  HURTS ME, AND ALL I REALLY WANT TO DO IS CRY................WELL. I DID START WRITING ARTICLES FOR THE ON-LINE MAGAZINE  "E-ZINE.".........I WROTE ONE LAST NIGHT AND ANOTHER TONIGHT........IT'S KIND OF FUN.......ONE IS LISTED UNDER 'WOMEN'S ISSUES, ' ANOTHER UNDER 'RELATIONSHIPS", AND THE STORIES ARE ABOUT....YOU GUESSED IT!....BEING A PRISON WIFE!

  HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD NIGHT , AND THANKS FOR READING MY JOURNAL.. I THANK YOU FOR THE COMMENTS, AND ESPEIALLY THAT YOU SHARE A PART OF YOUR INNER SELF WITH ME......IT MAKES LIFE LESS LONELY............THANKS AGAIN!

  AND NOW, I'LL SNUGGLE INTO BED WITH MISTY AND JIMBO, MY 2 CATS, AND PRINCE , MY DOG.........

..........................................LOVE,

             .......................................FRAN