OUR LOVE GROWS STRONGER WITH EACH PASSING DAY

OUR LOVE GROWS STRONGER WITH EACH PASSING DAY....EACH PASSING MOMENT.  WHEN JIMMY LEFT THIS HOUSE ON FRIDAY MORNING, MARCH 28, 2003,  TO GO TO COURT (TO TURN HIMSELF INTO OCEAN COUNTY JAIL) , FOR THE CRIME HE HAD COMMITTED, WE WERE STILL IN A STATE OF INFATUATION.  IS THAT POSSIBLE, FOR 2 PEOPLE OF OUR AGE? (i am now 51, and jimmy is 49).....YES, LET ME TELL YOU, IT IS POSSIBLE.  WE HAD BEEN MARRIED 2 YEARS AT THE TIME HE WENT TO JAIL.....AND YES, I WAS HAVING "RIPPLES" AND "CHILLS" THROUGHOUT MY BODY, WHEN I WAS ANYWHERE NEAR JIMMY...WHEN I LOOKED AT HIM, OR EVEN JUST THOUGHT OF HIM.  JIMMY TOLD ME HE HAD THE SAME SENSATIONS WHEN HE LOOKED AT ME.  IN THE 2 YEARS BEFORE JIMMY LEFT THIS HOUSE, WE WERE NEVER APART....I WAS AT HIS SIDE AT ALL TIMES.

22 MONTHS LATER, OUR LOVE HAS GROWN EVEN STRONGER AND DEEPER. ....IS IT POSSIBLE FOR LOVE TO GROW EVEN STRONGER, SEPERATED BY PRISON WALLS?  YES, IT IS.  AND WE PROVE IT.

JIMMY AND I STAY CONNECTED....THE TELEPHONE IS AN IMPORTANT PART OF OUR RELATIONSHIP.  HE WAKES ME UP EACH DAY BETWEEN 11 AM AND 12N....THEN HE'LL SAY, "I'LL CALL YOU NEXT AT 3:30....HIS CALLS COME IN EVERY 3 TO 4 HOURS.  I CARRY MY CELL PHONE WHEN SHOPPING, AND HE CALLS ME IN THE STORES, TOO..(WE'RE ABLE TO USE THE CELL PHONE IN THE HALF-WAY HOUSE, NOT IN THE PRISON)....HIS LAST CALLS COME IN DURING THE EVENING....IF I'M UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING, HE CALLS ME CONTINUOSLY THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

AND SO, WE STAY CONNECTED AT ALL TIMES.  HOWEVER, IT IS NOT JUST THE PHONE...IT IS OUR "THOUGHTS."........EVEN OUR DREAMS..........SOMETIMES AT NITE WHEN WE SLEEP, WE MEET EACH OTHER IN OUR SLEEP...WE DREAM OF EACH OTHER....WE HAVE SIMILAR DREAMS...WE COMPARE NOTES....I FEEL JIMMY'S PRESENCE ALL OVER ME...HE FEELS ME WITH HIM, TOO, AT ALL TIMES.  ONE NIGHT, I FELT JIMMY COME INTO THE BEDROOM, AND I FELT HIM SIT ON THE BED...I FELT THR BED MOVE...I KNEW HE WAS THERE.  BEFORE JIMMY LEFT HOME FOR JAIL, WE MADE AN AGREEMENT.......TO ALWAYS STAY CONNECTED, NO MATTER WHAT, NO MATTER WHERE WE WERE, AT ALL TIMES....THROUGH OUR THOUGHTS.  I KNOW IT SOUNDS STRANGE, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE!

I LOVE MY HUSBAND SO MUCH....HE IS A WONDERFUL MAN, IN SO MANY WAYS!...............AND OUR LOVE HAS ONLY GROWN STRONGER, DESPITE PRISON WALLS.....AND OUR MARRIAGE HAS GROWN DEEPER AND DEEPER, STRONGER AND STRONGER....IT HAS GROWN AND PROGRESSED.........IT HAS BECOME "MULTI-DIMENSIONAL."  IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN.  LOVE WAS ALWAYS THERE, BUT NOW IT IS EVEN MORE CEMENTED THEN EVER BEFORE...................IT IS BONDED WITH A ROPE OF STEEL..........................

THANK YOU FOR READING MY JOURNAL.  .........

....................FRAN, THE WIFE OF A PRISONER