Thursday, January 19, 2006

...SO IN LOVE.......

I JUST SPOKE WITH JIMMY A LITTLE WHILE AGO......WE ARE SO CONNECTED AND IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER, IT IS HARD TO PUT IT IN PRINT.   HE MUST HAVE TOLD ME HOW  MUCH HE IS IN LOVE WITH ME AROUND A MILLION TIMES, DURING THIS PHONE CALL........I ASKED HIM, FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME, WHEN DID YOU ACTUALLY KNOW YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH ME?  (i really already knew the answer, but wanted to hear it one more time.)...HE SAID, " IT WAS AFTER I MET YOU, FOR THE FIRST TIME, IN INDIAN SPRINGS, NEVADA, UPON GOING BACK TO NEW JERSEY, AFTER OUR WEEKEND TOGETHER  (IT WAS OUR ONE AND ONLY MEETING, BEFORE MARRIAGE).  THE EXACT MOMENT WAS WHEN THE AIRPLANE LEFT THE TARMAC....I KNEW I HAD TO COME BACK AND MARRY YOU.".............AND SO HE DID...JIMMY FLEW BACK 6 WEEKS LATER, AND WE GOT ,MARRIED THE NEXT DAY............YES, OURS HAS BEEN A VERY GREAT LOVE STORY!.....JIMMY TOOK ME UNDER HIS WING, AND JUST DIDN'T WANT TO LET GO..........AND I NEVER WANTED HIM TO LET GO..............OUR BIGGEST WORRY WAS THAT HE WOULD HAVE TO LEAVE ME AND GO TO PRISON.............TRUTHFULLY, IN THE FIRST 2 YEARS OF OUR MARRIAGE, JIMMY KEPT ME SHELTERED FROM THAT FACT........WE MAINTAINED A HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE HOME LIFE...........IT WAS A WHIRLWIND OF LOVE, LOVE, AND MORE LOVE...........JIMMY RARELY TALKED TO ME ABOUT PRISONS, AND I WAS HAPPY ABOUT THAT.  BUT AT TIMES HE WOULD SIT ME DOWN, AND EXPLAIN EVERYTHING.........HIS PAST CRIMES, AND HIS CURRENT CRIME.....WHAT HAPPENS IN THE PRISON SYSTEM...JIMMY PREPARED ME, AS A FATHER WOULD PREPARE A CHILD FOR SOMETHING.......HE FED IT TO ME VERY SLOWLY, SO I COULD ACCEPT AND UNDERSTAND THINGS...........

THE ONE THING I DID KNOW WAS THAT JIMMY WAS SIMPLY A WONDERFUL MAN, AND I SAW THE BEST IN HIM, AT ALL TIMES.........YES, I ONLY SAW THE BEST IN HIM........NOT THAT HE WAS A CRIMINAL..........AND WHAT JIMMY TOLD ME RECENTLY IS THAT IN ANALYZING HIMSELF, HE BELIEVES PART OF THE REASON HE LOVES ME, IS BECAUSE I AM THE ONLY WOMAN HE WAS ABLE TO BE HIMSELF WITH.......WITH HIS PAST GIRLFRIENDS, HE COULD NEVER REALLY BE HIMSELF.........HE COULD NEVER PUT HIS GUARD DOWN WITH ANYONE BEFORE...I WAS THE FIRST ONE......THAT IS KIND OF SCARY...AND SO, I'M SO HAPPY WE MET ...LIKE I ALWAYS SAY, OUR MEETING WAS NOT COINCIDENCE, BUT GOD PUT US TOGETHER, AND WE ALWAYS BELIEVE FOR A PURPOSE.

NOT TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT, BUT I GOT MY AT&T PHONE BILL TODAY...I GUESS YOU ARE ALL ANXIOUS TO KNOW HOW MUCH IT IS, SINCE WE TALK SO MUCH...WELL, SINCE HE HAS BEEN IN CRAF, IT IS 700 DOLLARS....YES, YOU GOT IT!.........BUT MORE THAN WORTH IT'S WEIGHT IN GOLD!  AND YOU MUST REMEMBER, THAT TO START TALKING TO HIM IN CRAF, I PAID $1100.00, TO CLEAR THE PHONE, AND REMOVE ANY BLOCKS.  THE REASON I TELL YOU ALL THIS, IS THAT THIS IS A COMMON THING THAT PRISONER'S WIVES GO THROUGH....A LOT OF THE PUBLIC IS NOT AWARE OF JUST HOW EPENSIVE IT IS...........AND YOU MUST REALIZE THE IMPORTANCE OF THOSE CALLS..........IT LITERALLY KEEPS THE SANITY OF THE INMATE.........JIMMY TRUTHFULLY LIVES FOR HIS CALLS TO ME.........REPEATEDLY, HE TELLS ME, HE HAS TO SIMPLY HEAR MY VOICE ON THE PHONE...EVEN FOR A FEW MINUTES.......AND THAT IS HOW IT IS FOR ME, TOO.........FOR 3 YEARS, THIS COMING MARCH.

AND NOW, FOR SOME MORE GOOD NEWS!  WHEN JIMMY WENT TO THE MEDICAL CLINIC EARLIER , THE NURSE TOLD HIM HE IS SCHEDULED IN A FEW DAYS FOR HIS "EXIT INTERVIEW,,,PHYSICAL"............WELL, JIMMY IS GETTING CLOSER NOW, MORE THAN EVER TO COME HOME........WE  CAN ONCE AGAIN START TO LIVE A SOMEWHAT "NORMAL LIFE-STYLE.".......AND TO BE IN EACH OTHERS ARMS, AND NOT WATCH THE CLOCK.

WITH LOVE,   FRAN

2 comments:

lv2trnscrb said...

each day does bring you guys closer together! What a neat love story ;)

betty

stargazed0821 said...

Fran,

I am sssooooo happy for you guys!!!! It is so great that he will be home soon.  You seem to be a wonderful person, and from what I have read, he seems to be a wonderful man, and I truly hope that now you can live your lives fully and completely with eachother.  Please feel free to email me anytime or to chat.  My regular email is steffilewis@charter.net.  Do you use any messengers?  I would love to get to know you better....

Steffi
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