Thursday, January 26, 2006

JIMMY JUST CALLED

JIMMY JUST CALLED...JUST ONE MORE TIME TODAY.  I WAS A LITTLE SURPRISED, AS HE NEVER CALLS THIS LATE (8:10). ....HOWEVER, HE SAID HE HAD TO CALL ME, BECAUSE HE FELT MY PRESENCE ALL OVER HIM...HE SAID HE JUST YEARNED SO MUCH TO HOLD ME AND KISS ME....WHEN HE CALLED ME, I MYSELF, WAS SITTING HERE, YEARNING FOR HIM....I WAS SAYING OUT LOUD TO MYSELF, "I WISH JIMMY WERE HERE.  ALL I WANT TO DO IS KISS HIM, AND BE IN HIS LOVING ARMS."...........AND THEN, AMAZINGLY, HE CALLED, WITH THE SAME FEELINGS......

IT IS SO HARD TO EXPLAIN TO ANYONE NOT GOING THROUGH THIS.........TO BE SEPERATED FROM THE ONE PERSON YOU LOVE.........YOU CRAVE THAT PERSON...AND NO OTHER PERSON CAN FULFILL YOU...BECAUSE NO OTHER PERSON EXISTS ON OUR PLANET, LIKE THE ONE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH..........

IN THE 2 YEARS WE WERE TOGETHER, AS HUSBAND AND WIFE, BEFORE JIMMY WAS INCARCERATED, WE WERE NEVER SEPERATED....WE WERE TOGETHER 24/7........DURING THE FIRST YEAR OF OUR MARRIAGE, I WORKED AS AN RN IN A HOSPITAL, AND LEAVING TO GO TO WORK, BECAME MORE  AND MORE DIFFICULT....JIMMY WOKE ME UP IN THE EVENING TO GO TO WORK, HE MADE ME LUNCH, HE WALKED ME TO THE CAR....I CALLED HIM ON MY CELL WHEN I GOT TO WORK...WE SPOKE ON THE PHONE THROUGHOUT MY SHIFT........AND MANY TIMES, I WOULD LOOK UP, AND THERE WAS JIMMY WALKING DOWN THE HALLWAY, COMING TO VISIT ME, CARRYING PIZZAS, AND ALL SORTS OF FOOD FOR THE STAFF!....AND IN THE MORNING WHEN I ARRIVED HOME, IT CONTINUED....HE HAD BREAKFAST MADE FOR ME...HE SAT ME DOWN, AND SERVED ME, AND WE TALKED...THEN WE WENT UPSTAIRS TOGETHER, TO BED.........AND HE SLEPT WITH ME, OR SAT WITH ME THROUGHOUT THE DAY, AS I HAD TO RETURN TO WORK THAT NIGHT, AGAIN....HE COOKED FOR ME, HE SHOPPED.....HE TOOK CARE OF THE HOUSEHOLD, THE PETS......AND HE LOVED TO TAKE CARE OF ME....HE GAVE ME MANICURES, AND PEDICURES....HE BROUGHT ME TO THE BEAUTY PARLOR....HE BROUGHT ME SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES, AND JEWELRY.....HE EVEN HELPED ME GET DRESSED FOR WORK.......

......WE GOT TO THE POINT THAT NEITHER OF US COULD STAND BEING APART......AFTER 1 YEAR OF MARRIAGE, I RETIRED FROM NURSING, AND WAS ABLE TO STAY HOME FULL TIME, WITH JIMMY........WELL, GUESS WHAT!....WE STILL NEVER GOT TIRED OF EACH OTHER!........TALKING, LIVING, LAUGHING, AND YES, MAKING LOVE, AND MORE LOVE....(smile).......SO YOU CAN IMAGINE HOW HARD IT IS NOW, BEING APART FOR 3 YEARS...........I DON'T WISH THIS ON ANYONE..........FOR ME, IT IS THE MOST CRUEL THING TO BE SEPERATED FROM THE MAN I LOVE, AND AM PART OF.............

WELL. I COULD GO ON AND ON............

EARLIER TODAY, DURING OUR 5:30 pm CALL, JIMMY TOLD ME THAT THE PRISON WHERE HE IS STAYING, WILL NOT ACCEPT THE NEWSPAPER ARTICLES I HAVE BEEN SENDING HIM, NOR THE CROSS-WORD PUZZLES I HAD  CUT OUT OF A MAGAZINE.......THAT HAPPENS TO BE THE RULE THERE....I DIDN'T KNOW IT, BECAUSE AS WE ALL KNOW, THE PRISONS DO NOT INFORM THE WIFE/FAMILY OF THE RULES THAT NEED TO BE FOLLOWED.......IT WOULD BE MUCH EASIER, AND MORE ORGANIZED IF THEY MAILED OUT A LIST OF  RULES TO THE WIVES.....BUT WHO AM I TO SAY?.........ANYHOW, I AM NOW WAITING TO SEE IF THE 3 BOOKS I SENT HIM, WILL GO THROUGH......JIMMY AND I LAUGHED ON THE PHONE....I SAID, "IT DOESN'T MATTER FOR MOST, SINCE 99.9%  OF THOSE MEN YOU ARE WITH DON'T CARE ABOUT READING ANYTHING ANYHOW, NO LESS ARTICLES FROM THE NEWSPAPER.".......AND SO IT IS TRUE....MY MATH MIGHT BE A LITTLE OFF-BALANCE, BUT MY HUSBAND FALLS IN THE 1% THAT READS LOCAL, NATIONAL, AND GLOBAL NEWS, ON A ROUTINE BASIS.......YES, IT IS TORTURE FOR A MAN TO BE COMPLETELY CUT OFF FROM RHE OUTSIDE WORLD.....AND SO, I AM SO USED TO TELLING JIMMY EVERYTHING I CAN IN HOSE 15 MINUTE CALLS.......BESIDES PROFESSING OUR LOVE, I TRY TO KEEP HIM SOMEWHAT ABREAST OF NEWS IN OUR WORLD.........CURRENT EVENTS........

I WILL GO LAY IN BED NOW......THAT IS ALWAYS WHAT I DO WHEN I MISS JIMMY.......THAT IS THE ONE PLACE I FEEL HIS PRESENCE MOST.......YES, HE STILL HOLDS ME IN HIS ARMS, AS I LAY IN OUR BED....

NITE!.......FRAN

1 comment:

derasta said...

John and I are the same way in that after all of these years of marriage we still sit and talk all night...never tiring of one another. I've never had such a great communication with another person as I do with John.  I couldn't imagine life without him and for that reason I feel for you so deeply, having to be parted with him...but he's almost home now and I'm so excited for you both!