Thursday, March 24, 2005

THE STORY CONTIMUES.....

ON TUESDAY NIGHT, JIMMY CALLED ME BEFORE BOARDING THE BUS BACK TO KINTOCK....IT WAS 11:30pm......HE SAID, "HONEY, WHY DON'T YOU WATCH A MOVIE ON HBO, SINCE YOU'RE NOT SLEEPY.

SO, THAT IS JUST WHAT I DID.....I PUT THE TV ON, AND WENT TO "ON-DEMAND, "  AND , LO AND BEHOLD, STARRING AT ME ON THE SCREEN WAS AN HBO SPECIAL TITLED, YES. OF ALL THINGS, "ATLANTIC CITY PROSTITUTES!"..........YES, LIKE I SAID, STRANGE THINGS DO HAPPEN!

SO I SAT THERE WATCHING THE SHOW...........I DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING I DIDN'T ALREADY KNOW.........MY OPINION IS, THAT IF YOU ARE GOING TO BE A PROSTITUTE, THE BEST PLACE IS NEVADA....WHERE EVERYTHING IS CONTROLLED, AND TESTED........AND WOMEN IN THE SOUTHWEST DESERT ARE BLONDE AND BEAUTIFUL!

AFTERWARDS, I WATCHED A MOVIE THAT I REALLY LIKED, AND CAN'T GET OUT OF MY HEAD........."THE GIRL WITH THE PEARL EARRING"  (2003) .  IT STILL HAUNTS ME.....AND I WILL WATCH IT AGAIN, TODAY.........IT TAKES PLACE IN 16TH CENTURY , AND IS ABOUT THE FLEMISH ARTIST, VERMEER.  THE STORY IS BASICALLY ABOUT A 17 YEAR OLD SERVANT GIRL, WHO WORKS IN HIS HOUSE CLEANING HIS STUDIO, AND THEY FALL IN LOVE.  HE PAINTS HER PICTURES, AND SHE SPENDS TIME IN HIS STUDIO, LOOKING AT AND HELPING HIM TO MIX THE BEAUTIFUL DIFFERENT COLOR PAINTS.  THEY ARE NEVER SEEN KISSING...AND NEVER MAKE LOVE........HIS WIFE IS PREGNANT, AND JEALOUS OF THIS YOUNG GIRL.  AT THE END, AS PART OF A DEAL WITH A RICH MAN WHO WILL BUY HIS PAINTING, TO HANG IN HIS BEDROOM, HE PAINTS HER PORTRAIT, ...WHILE SHE WEARS HIS WIFE'S PEARL EARRING........VERMEER PENETRATES HER EARLOBE, AS SHE DOES NOT HAVE PIERCED EARS........AFTER THE PAINTING IS DONE, SHE RUNS TO HER BOYFRIEND , AND HE TAKES HER VIRGINITY..........WHEN VERMEER'S WIFE SEE THE PAINTING, SHE SHOUTS OUT "IT'S OBSCENE!".........I FEEL WHAT SHE SEES IN THE YOUNG GIRL, IS A LUST AND INNOCENCE...A YEARNING FOR THIS MAN.......SOMETHING AND SOMEONE, OUT OF HER SOCIAL STATUS...SOMEONE MARRIED....SOMEONE SHE CAN NEVER HAVE.........HER EYES AND EXPRESSION ON HER FACE ARE HAUNTING..................

IT IS REALLY A MOVIE TO SEE....I LIKE MOVIES THAT ARE SENSUAL, AND YET HAVE SOMETHING TO LEARN FROM THEM...SOMETHING HISTORICAL, OR LIKE THIS ONE, ABOUT AN ARTIST...........IT INSPIRED ME TO GO TO THE WEB-SITES ON VERMMER, AND READ UP ON HIM.........THIS MOVIE IS ACTUALLY BASED ON FICTION...THAT IS, HE PAINTED THE PAINTING, BUT THE STORY HAS BEEN FABRICATED..............HE HAS 30 SOMETHING PAINTINGS, WHICh ARE CALLED "VERMEER'S WOMEN."  ........................I FIND IT ALL VERY FASCINATING.......HOW LIFE WAS BACK IN THE 16TH CENTURY........HOW DID THESE PAINTINGS SURVIVE?...............WELL, THIS MOVIE GAVE ME "FOOD FOR THOUGHT, " AND I LIKE THAT.

...........AS FOR JIMMY, HE WAS OFF FROM WORK YESTERDAY, AND WE SPOKE ALL DAY ON THE PHONE........!  WE ARE HAPPY, AND HE ENJOYS HIS JOB SO MUCH!...................GODWILLING, WE WILL BE SEEING EACH OTHER VERY SOON, AND JUST CAN'T WAIT!

  IT'S FUNNY BUT PEOPLE ALWAYS ASK ME THINGS LIKE, "HASEN'T JIMMY STARTED HIS WEEK-ENDS HOME YET ?"......ETC., ETC., ETC.............THEY ALWAYS HAVE THIS ATTITUDE LIKE  "WHY DON'T I DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT"........INSTAED OF BEING COMFORTED, I AM THE ONE TO COMFORT THEM.......AND YET, I AM THE ONE ALONE, AND MISSING JIMMY..........DON'T THEY THINK I WOULD DO SOMETHING, IF I COULD..........DO THEY REALLY REALIZE THE HOURS AND MONTHS OF TORTURE I HAVE GONE THROUGH, ALONE, AND MISSING JIMMY........DO THEY ALL REALLY UNDERSTAND?.........I DOUBT IT.

  PEOPLE ARE IMPATIENT, SO I TRY TO EXPLAIN THAT THE "PRISON PROCESS' IS A VERY SLOW ONE..........AND WE HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT.............WHEN IT ALL HAPPENS , IT HAPPENS.............WELL. I GUESS I HAVE LEARNED TO BE A MORE PATIENT PERSON, THROUGH THIS WHOLE ORDEAL............ONE THING YOU CAN NOT DO, IS PLAN YOUR LIFE AHEAD, WHILE YOUR HUSBAND IS IN PRISON....................ALL I SIMPLY KNOW, THAT THIS EASTER SUNDAY WILL BE THE 3RD EASTER WITHOUT JIMMY HOME............AND MARCH 28, WILL BEGIN THE 3RD YEAR HE IS IN PRISON................WELL, LIFE GOES ON, IN AN UNUSUAL WAY..............AND FOR ME, AND US, WELL "TIME" HAS ACTUALLY COMPRESSED.........THAT IS, I FEEL THAT JIMMY WALKED OUT THE FRONT DOOR YESTERDAY....IT NO LONGER FEELS SO LONG............EACH DAY , EACH MINUTE AND HOUR SEEMS LONG, AND THEN IT STARTS "COMPRESSING" IN YOUR MIND...........YOUR MIND ALMOST BEGINS TO PLAY TRICKS ON YOU.............JIMMY SAYS IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH "EINSTEIN'S THEORIES  OF TIME AND SPACE..........HE ALWAYS EXPLAINS IT TO ME........HOWEVER, MY OWN TTHOUGHTS ARE THAT TIME IS NOT LINEAR, AND TIME IS MAN-MADE..........IN "GOD'S WORLD", THERE IS NO TIME...THE CONCEPT OF TIME DOES NOT EXIST...IT IS REALLY AN ILLUSION............TIME IS NOT LINEAR, BUT BEGINS TO 'BEND,"......JUST LIKE RADIO WAVES THAT BEND............IT IS ALL VERY FACINATING, AND EVEN MORE SO TO ACTUALLY GO THROUGH THIS EXPERIENCE "OF TIME."

WELL, IT'S SNOWING..........SO WHAT ELSE IS NEW?..........AROUND 6 YEARS AGO I DROVE THROUGH A FREAK BLIZZARD..........IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL SPRING DAY.......THE END OF MAY, AS I STARTED OUT IN LAS VEGAS...............BY THE TIME I WAS DRIVING IN THE MOUNTAINS, GOING TO THE GRAND CANYON, IN ARIZONA, IT WAS ONE OF THE BIGGEST BLIZZRDS I HAVE EVER BEEN IN...................AND YES, IT WAS THE END OF MAY!................SO, HERE IN NEW JERSEY, WELL, WE REALLY DON'T HAVE IT THAT BAD!................AND ANYHOW, TALKING ABOUT THE SNOW, GETS BORING...........AFTER ALL, THE SNOW IS JUST A NATURAL ACT POF NATURE........AND THE POOR SNOW IS DOING JUSY WHAT IT'S SUPPOSSED TO DO....AND THAT IS , FALL FROM THE SKY!................BYE, AND HAVE A VERY NICE DAY!.........................FRAN

2 comments:

p00kie2323 said...

i have never seen that movie i will try to get it and watch it his weekends home will be soon time will fly right by and then he will be home for good with love

sugar1337 said...

I really liked that movie when I saw it too.