Monday, May 8, 2006

quiet day

IT WAS A QUIET DAY....RAINEY AND GLOOMY AND CLOUDY, I THINK....NOT REALLY SURE, AS I SLEPT THROUGH MOST OF THE DAY.  YES, THAT IS HOW IT IS FOR A PRISONER'S WIFE.....

I LAID IN BED ALL DAY, THINKING OF MY HUSBAND, AND WISHING HE WERE HERE.........I THOUGHT ABOUT THE PAST TIMES WE HAD, AND IMAGINED IT WAS TAKING PLACE NOW..

.....HE CALLED ME ALL DAY, AS USUAL.  AND I DID MY WIFELY PHONE DUTIES FOR HIM.......THAT IS, I MADE A COUPLE OF IMPORTANT PHONE CALLS FOR JIMMY..FOR INSTANCE ONE WAS TO HIS ATTORNEY.......SEE WHAT A GOOD WIFE I AM?!..........EVEN IN MY SPORADIC SLEEP, I WILL DO THINGS FOR JIMMY.......

WHEN I FINALLY PUT MY FEET OVER THE EDGE OF THE BED, AT 7PM, JIMMY CALLS ME ONCE GAIN, FOR AROUND THE 3RD OR 4H TIME TODAY.......I YELLED AT HIM, STILL HALF ASLEEP..........WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT ME TO TALK ABOUT, JIMMY?"  I SAID......I AM JUST A LONELY PRISONER'S WIFE, WHO LIVES HERE ALONE......AND I DON'T CARE IF I SLEEP ALL DAY.........I CAN DO WHAT I WANT......AND JIMMY IS ALWAYS VERY CALM WITH ME, AND SAID THAT ALL HE WANTS IS TO HEAR MY VOICE.....WELL, I TOLD HIM I WAS IN BED ALL DAY, THINKING OF HIM, WHICH WAS THE TRUTH..........

JIMMY TOLD ME IT'S OK, AS I WENT TO SLEEP AT 7 AM IN THE MORNING........I TOLD HIM I WAS UP ALL NIGHT WATCHING TV....I WATCHED ON-DEMAND LAST NIGHT....I CAUGHT UP ON "BIG LOVE," AND WATCHED 4 EPISODES LAST NIGHT...THAT WAS AROUND 4 HOURS OF TV WATCHING..........I'VE REALLY GOTTEN INTO BIG LOVE, AND LIKE IT A LOT...YOU GET ATTACHED TO IT, AND TO THE CHARACTERS........THE MORMON HUSBAND HAS 3 WIVES.......THE SHOW IS A LITTLE TOO FOCUSED ON HIS HAVING SEX WITH THE 3 WIVES....IT IS A LITTLE TOO MODERN-AGE, I FEEL.  HAVING LIVED IN LAS VEGAS, NEVADA, I KNEW A LOT OF PEOPLE IN THE MORMON FAITH, AS THERE IS A LARGE COMMUNITY OF MORMONS THERE........THEY WERE MAINLY LDS, MOFERN DAY MORMONS....I WORKED WITH A LOT OF MORMON WOMEN, AND WE HAD A LOT OF MORMON FRIENDS.....OF COURSE NOW, ON TOP OF IT ALL, OUR COUNTRY IS CLAMPING DOWN ON POLIGAMY, AND THE LEADER IS ON THE MOT WANTED, ON THE FBI LIST....ALL THIS IS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME THAT "BIG LOVE" CAME OUT.............I DON'T GET IT..........POLOGAMY HAS BEEN AROUND FOR A REAL LONG TIME, AND WAS ALWAYS ILLEGAL IN THIS COUNTRY......AND IT IS JUST NOW, THAT OUR COUNTRY IS CLAMPING DOWN ON IT, AND EXPOSING THE TRUTH ABOUT THE POLYGAMIST COMMUNITIES OUT THERE........IT IS A VERY STRANGE WORLD WE LIVE IN.............IT IS LIKE ILLEGAL ALIENS...THEY ARE CRIMINALS IN OUR COUNTRY, AS THEY ARE ILLEGAL........AND OUR COUNTRY NEVER CLAMPED DOWN ON THEM.....IN FACT, THEY ENCOURAGE THEM TO WORK HERE.................YES, BUT THEY DO SEND THIER OWN AMERICAN CITIZENS TO PRISON...THEY HAVE NO TROUBLE WITH THAT.......

AND SO, IN ANOTHER LIGHT, JIMMY IS REAL EXCITED BECAUSE ON FRIDAY HE WILL BE TRANSFERRED TO HOPE HALL, VOA, IN CAMDEN, NEW JERSEY.  HE WILL BE TAKEN THERE AS A FREE-MAN, BY HIS PAROLE OFFICER........NO HAND-CUFFS...NOTHING.........I THINK HE WILL BE DRIVEN THRERE WITH HIS CLOTHES, IN A CAR, IN THE AFTERNOON.....HE IS SO HAPPY AND EXCITED..........THEN, ON MONDAY, HE WILL GO TO IGA, AND START WORKING IN THE FOODSTORE.  TOMORROW JIMMY IS BEING DRIVEN ALONG WITH A GROUP OF GUYS, TO THE MVA, TO RE-NEW HIS DRIVER'S LICENSE.................

AND ALL THIS MEANS THAT I WILL SEE HIM SOON............

YES, I COULD HAVE STAYED IN BED EVEN LONGER, JUST DAY-DREANING ABOUT JIMMY.....TO BE HELD AND KISSED AGAIN BY HIM...........BUT I HAD TO GET UP, AND DO A FEW HOUSEHOLD THINGS.........OH WELL, SUCH IS LIFE!

AND NOW, IT'S REALLY TIME TO GO TO BED AGAIN.......HOWEVER, I'LL STAY UP A LITTLE LONGER, AND READ, AND CATCH UP ON A FEW MORE EPISODES OF "BIG LOVE."

GOOD-NIGHT!.............FRAN

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

That's great news about Friday...before you know it he'll be home...hang tight!

Anonymous said...

Great news about Jimmy Fran, hope all goes well on Friday for him. Will be thinking of you - hope your reunion is not so far off. It will be good then to look back on your blog and compare your feelings then and now,
Best wishes,
Kate.
P.S. Thanks for you recent comments on my blog. They are much appreciated.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/bobandkate/AnAnalysisofLife/

Anonymous said...

that's great about Jimmy. Do you work? Just wondering. I hope it all works out.

Anonymous said...

no, i don't work...retired, but dabble in writing stories, etc....

yes, i often go back to read my first entries...my thoughts and life have changed over the 3 years of jimmy's incarceration....we all change...life changes...our writing changes....and it is nice to see it in our writings!..........fran

Anonymous said...


Such good news.    
Such joy.     Dawn      A Couple of Nomadfs