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I THOUGHT I'D WRITE ANOTHER ENTRY TONIGHT. I JUST SPOKE TO JIMMY A LITTLE WHILE AGO...HIS LAST CALL TO ME IS 10 PM, THEN HE GOES TO SLEEP.....HE RECEIVED THE 2 MANILLA ENVELOPES I SENT HIM, WHICH ARE FILLED WITH COMPUTER PRINT-OUTS OF SUBJECTS OF INTEREST TO HIM (and me), AND NEWSPAPER ARTICLES, THAT HE MAY LIKE TO READ...........HE LIKES ME TO DO THAT, AND THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN A WAY OF COMMUNICATING BETWEEN US........WE NORMALLY SPEND HOURS, ALL DAY, WHEN HE IS HOME, DISCUSSING DIFFERENT TOPICS, SO THIS IS A WAY WE CAN DO IT, AS WE HAVE LIMITED TIME TO TALK............SPEAKING OF THAT, MY PHONE BILLS HAVE ONCE AGAIN REACHED AN AVERAGE OF $1000.00/month. ..........IN LOGAN HALL, WE HAVE TO PAY THROUGH A PRE-PAY ACCOUNT.  WHEN JIMMY WAS AT KINTOCK, HAlF-WAY HOUSE, HE COULD USE A PHONE CARD, SO IT WAS MUCH CHEAPER THAT WAY..............WELL, I DON'T REALLY MIND, BECAUSE I LOVE MY HUSBAND, AND WE NEED TO HEAR EACH OTHER'S VOICE, ALL THE TIME.  HOWEVER, ANYONE WOULD ADMIT, IT IS A LARGE AMOUNT  OF MONEY TO PAY THE PHONE COMPANIES.......I'VE BEEN BASICALLY PAYING SOMEWHERE BETWEEN $700 TO $1200.00 EVERY MONTH FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS.  (EXCEPT DURING THE TIME HE WAS IN KIntock).

WE JOKED ON THE PHONE  ....."WHEN I DON'T HAVE TO PAY THESE PHONE BILLS ANYMORE, I'LL GO OUT AND SPEND THAT $1000.00 ON A NEW WARDROBE," I SAID.  "I GET THE FIRST MONTH, AND YOU GET THE SECOND MONTH (FOR A NEW WARDROBE," I JOKED.

ACTUALLY, JIMMY ENJOYS TAKING ME SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES, SHOES AND JEWELRY........HE PROMISES ME A NEW DESIGNER HANDBAG, WHEN HE COMES HOME...........HE KNOWS I ALWAYS LOVE GOOD DESIGNER HANDBAGS.........MAYBE DOONEY AND BURKE, OR GUCCI.......HE  LOVES TO TAKE ME TO THE SHOPPING MALL, AND HE WALKS WITH ME INTO THE WOMAN'S SECTION, AND STARTS PULLING THINGS OFF THE RACK, TELLING ME WHAT WILL LOOK GOOD ON ME............SO, I HAVE TONS OF CLOTHES JIMMY BOUGHT FOR ME..........HE ENJOYS DOING IT, AND I ENJOY HIM DOING IT..........AND, HE LOVES TO BUY ME LINGERIE, AND BEAUTIFUL, SEXY NIGHTGOWNS!................HE LOVES TO BUY ME GOOD SHOES, AND YES, OF COURSE, JEWELRY!........DIAMOND HEART PENDAMTS, GOLD CHARM BRACELETS...HE ESPECIALLY PICKS OUT EACH CHARM ( HE BOUGHT ME A MEDICAL CADUSIS, AS I AM A NURSE, A CRESENT MOON WITH A WOMAN SITTING ON IT, A HEART, AND ONE THAT SAYS, "BRAT," AS THAT WAS WHAT I WAS CALLED AS A CHILD.........AND OH YES, "CUTE ASS."......  :)

ONE OF HIS FIRST WEDDING GIFTS TO ME WERE PEARL EARRINGS, AND A PEARL NECKLACE

ALL OF THAT IS FINE, BUT SINCE JIMMY HAS BEEN IN PRISON I NEVER BOUGHT MYSELF AN ARTICLE OF CLOTHING FOR THE PAST 37 MONTHS.........WELL, JIMMY DID BRING ME TO BUY THE SPECIAL SHOES I WEAR ON MY FEET, WHEN HE CAME HOME ON A FURLOUGH...AND I BOUGHT 1 NEW BLOUSE, AND 2 SWEATER-JACKETS...BUT THAT'S REALLY ABOUT IT..........WELL, I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT CLOTHES, AND I DON'T GO ANYWHERE, ANYMORE, AND FOR ME, WELL, LIFE HAS NOT BEEN A CELEBRATION THESE PAST 37 MONTHS..........

JIMMY ATTENDED A CLASS TODAY, AND THE LECTURER ASKED THE CLASS OF AROUND 50 MEN, WHO AMONGST YOU HAS A JOINT BANK ACCOUNT?  JIMMY AND ONE OTHER GUY RAISED THEIR HANDS...THE OTHER GUY HAS A JOINT ACCOUNT WITH HIS MOTHER.  THIS IS JUST UNBELIEVABLE TO ME...........WE TALKED ABOUT IT.  "JIMMY," I SAID, 'HAVING JOINT ACCOUNTS, MEANS YOU HAVE TO HAVE FAITH AND TRUST IN EACH OTHER.  IT ALSO MEANS THAT ONE MUST BE ORGANIZED, IN KEEPING THE RECORDS STRAIGHT."  ...........I AM VERY PROUD TO HAVE A WONDERFUL HUSBAND LIKE JIMMY......HAVING JOINT ACCCOUNTS WAS NEVER A PROBLEM FOR US.  I READ RECENTLY THAT FINANCES ARE HIGH ON THE SCALE, AS FAR AS PROBLEMS IN A MARRIAGE...EVEN HIGHER THAN SEXUAL PROBLEMS.  WELL, FOR JIMMY AND I, FINANCES HAVE NEVER BEEN A PROBLEM BETWEEN US, BUT INSTEAD, WE ENJOY HANDLING OUR FINANCES TOGETHER..........AND SEX...WELL YOU GOT IT!.....NEVER A PROBLEM IN THAT AREA........IN FACT, JIMMY AND I HAVE NO PROBLEMS IN OUR MARRIAGE....NO OBSTACLES.  GOING TO PRISON, AND BEING SEPERATED PHYSICALLY FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME, HAS BEEN THE ONLY DIFFICULTY...AND EVEN THAT, WE RISE ABOVE IT, AND GET THROUGH IT TOGETHER, ON A DAY BY DAY BASIS........

JIMMY IS EXCITED ABOUT THE BOOK OF CLASSIC STORIES I SENT HIM...THEY ARE SHORT STORIES WRITTEN BY ANCIENT ROMANS AND GREEKS.  HE LIKES IT SO MUCH, THAT HE PROMISED TO BRING THE BOOK TO THE PHONE TOMORROW, AND READ ME AN EXCET FROM IT OVER THE PHONE.  I LIKE BOOKS LIKE THAT, AND I ESPECIALLY LIKE MY HUSBAND TO READ TO ME, AS HE DOES THIS A LOT AT HOME....DURING OUR LAST CHRISTMAS TOGETHER, HE READ ME THE WHOLE NOVEL, OF "A LITTLE PRINCESS."  IT WAS A BOOK I HAD READ AS A CHILD...WE WERE FORTUNATE TOFIND IT , AND EACH NIGHT I WOULD LAY ON THE COUCH, OR IN BED, AND BY THE GLOW OF THE CHRISTMAS TREE, JIMMY WOULD READ ME A CHAPTER.  WE BOTH LOVE THAT BOOK, ALTHOUGH IT IS A CLASSIC CHILDREN'S BOOK...IT IS ON OUR BOOKSHELF, AND I GAZE AT IT OFTEN.

WELL, I HAVE "MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA,"  THAT JIMMY PROMISES TO READ TO ME WHEN HE COMES HOME...THE BOOK IS HERE, WAITING FOR HIM!  JIMMY HAS ALSO ASKED ME TO TRY AND FIND A CHILD'S BOOK, OR FAIRY-TALE THAT HE CAN READ TO ME WHEN HE COMES HOME..........I HAVE YET TO FIND THE RIGHT BOOK, YET!

AS YOU CAN WELL SEE, JIMMY AND I ARE SIMILAR, IN THAT OUR INTERESTS IN LIFE ARE VERY ECLEPTIC............THAT IS, WE ARE INTERESTED IN A WIDE VARIETY OF DIFFERENT SUBJECTS...............

I NEVER KNEW THAT ABOUT MYSELF, UNTIL I MET JIMMY, AND HE POINTED THAT OUT TO ME.  I GET BORED EASILY, AND TEND TO MOVE FROM ONE INTEREST TO ANOTHER.........I CANNOT "CATEGORIZE" MYSELF.....I LIKE TO LEARN ABOUT DIFFERENT THINGS, ON A WIDE VARIETY OF SUBJECTS...............JIMMY IS THE SAME WAY....AND THEN AGAIN, HE IS  A GEMINI!

I COULD NEVER PiN POINT iT ABOUT MYSELF...WHO I AM EXACTLY.  YOU SEE, TO ME, I WAS A LOT OF DIFFERENT PEOPLE, WITH A LOT OF DIFFERENT INTERESTS.  BUT JIMMY EXPLAINED IT TO ME....YES, HE FOUND ME, WHO I AM, DEEP WITHIN MY PERSONALITY, AND EXPLAINED IT TO ME...........NOW, I UNDERSTAND MYSELF, AND I"M HAPPY, AND I HAVE A HUSBAND THAT IS ON THE SAME WAVE-LENGTH!..........AND IT'S OK TO BE ME...ECLIPTIC!......AND JIMMY IS THE SAME WAY...THAT IS WHY WE LOVE EACH OTHER, AND HE HAD NEVER FOUND A WOMAN LIKE ME, BECAUSE THERE AREN'T TOO MANY OF US OUT THERE!

THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME.  I FEEL BETTER NOW.  WHEN I SPOKE TO JIMMY AT 10 PM, I LET HIM KNOW I WAS OK, BUT SOMEHOW FEELING OUT OF SORTS....KIND OF LIKE, NOT REALLY FEELING TO DO ANYTHING....NOT PART OF ANYTHING.........I DIDN'T EVEN MAKE THE CHICKEN CURRY I HAD PLANNED TO, TODAY.............WATCHING TV, AND SO MUCH UNREST IN OUR COUNTRY, TODAY.  SO JIMMY SAID, "I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN, FRAN."  "SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THAT, TOO."  HE DESCRIBED IT AS "BEING ONE BEAT OFF, IN LIFE."...................SO WE TALKED IT OUT, AND WE STAYED ON THE PHONE FOR LONGER THAN USUAL.  THEN, WE FELT BETTER.  JIMMY TALKINGABOUT THE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER, AND HOW HE'LL TAKE ME OUT...............YOU SEE, THESE FEELINGS ARE HARD TO EXPLAIN, UNLESS YOU ARE GOING THROUGH THEM....A LOT HAS TO BEING LOCKED UP IN A PRISON, AND ME BEING LOCKED UP IN A HOUSE............

AND SO, NOW THAT I WROTE MY THOUGHTS HERE, AND SET THEM FREE, I FEEL MUCH BETTER.  I WILL NOW TAKE A SHOWER, THEN READ A LITTLE, AND LOOK FOR ANOTHER GOOD MOVIE ON TV!

THANK YOU FOR READING MY JOURNAL......AND MAY THERE BE PEACE ON EARTH....................FRAN