ROBIN WRITES A COMMENT IN THE LAST ENTRY, THAT HER HUSBAND , WHO IS IN THE MILITARY, HAS BEEN SUDDENLY TAKEN AWAY , UNEXPECTEDLY, ON A SPECIAL ASSIGNMENT, WILL NOT BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS....THIS A SUDDEN AND SHOCKING THING FOR HER, AT THIS MOMENT........SO, MAYBE THOSE READING THIS CAN SAY AN EXTRA PRAYER FOR HER, AT THIS TIME, AS SHE, TOO FEELS UNHAPPY, AND DISTRAUGHT......ROBIN, I FEEL SO SORRY FOR YOU RIGHT NOW...THE FIRST FEW HOURS/DAYS IS ALWAYS SHOCKING ...AFTERWARDS, WHEN YOU KEEP BUSY, THAT IS THE KEY, "TO KEEP OCCUPIED DOING THINGS, " THE PAIN GETS A LITTLE LESS.
AS FOR ME, I HAVE TO GO OUT NOW AND BUY MONEY ORDERS TO SEND JIMMY....I HAVE A FEW MORE LETTERS TO SEND HIM, ABOUT THE HOUSEHOLD HERE........
.THE MAN IN CHARGE OF THE PHONES AT "CRAF,' CALLED ME TWICE TODAY....SUCH A WONDERFUL, NICE MAN!...HE SAYS HE TURNED THE PHONE ON, BUT THE PAPERWORK HAS TO GO THROUGH....EITHER TODAY OR TOMORROW, JIMMY WILL BE ABLE TO CALL ME..........
THE OTHER NEWS WAS THAT I HAD A BLOCK ON THE PHONE, BECAUSE I OWED SOME MONEY........AS MOST OF YOU PRISON WIVES KNOW, YOU ARE FAMILIAR WITH THIS.........SO, I HAD TO PAY $1100.00 to at&t OVER THE PHONE, BEFORE THEY WOULD REMOVE THE BLOCK....AND SO, ALL IS CLEAR, NOW...........HEHE..AND SANTA CLAUS THINKS I'M GOING TO LEAVE HIM COOKIES FOR CHRISTMAS?!...NO WAY. MAYBE A FEW BREAD CRUMBS!
jimmy's friend will have to make the 2 1/2 hOUR TRIP TO KINTOCK TO PICK UP HIS CLOTHES AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS, SUCH AS WRISTWATCH, AND PAPERS.........THE STUFF HAS TO BE PICKED UP IN 30 DAYS.........HE CAN'T GET THERE UNTIL THE WEEK BETWEEN CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR'S......NOW, THAT IS CUTTING IT REAL CLOSE....BUT I HAVE FAITH IN HIM..HE TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY.....HE IS BUSY, NOW, AS HE OWNS A FURNITURE STORE, AND IT IS RIGHT BEFORE THE HOLIDAYS.............
I TYPED OUT A NICE LONG LETTER TO JIMMY....AND YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR WHAT I HAD TO SAY TO HIM............AS MUCH AS I LOVE HIM, I AM NOT LIKE THE REST OF PRISONER'S WIVES WHO FORGIVE THEIR MAN, TIME AFTER TIME, WHEN THEY DO THE WRONG THING.........I GAVE JIMMY A PIECE OF MY MIND, AND BELIEVE ME, I THINK HE'LL THINK TWICE, BEFORE HE DOES ANYTHING WRONG AGAIN............I MEAN, TO ME IT IS "UNEXCEPTIBLE BEHAVIOR," ON HIS PART..........AND I'M JUST NOT GOING TO DO IT...NOT GOING TO BE A PART OF IT...........IF HE WILL CONTINUE TO DO WRONG THINGS, AND NOT GET OUT OF THE PRISON SYSTEM, I'M NOT GOING TO BE AROUND FOR IT.....WHY?.........BECAUSE, I'M SORRY, I'M NOT GOING TO TORTURE MYSELF ...AND THAT IS THAT.........I AM NOT 18 OR 2O YEARS OLD........I'M 52, AND EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE IS IMPORTANT............
TALK TO YOU LATER............FRAN
3 comments:
I think it is good for you to let your frustrations out on him, because without him in the picture, you wouldn't be waiting now. But I can understand why you have been loyal to him for so long as well...love is truly a crazy thing.
Glad you told Jimmy your feelings, hon. You deserve better than this. And like you said, it's not as if you're in your twenties any more. Keeping you in prayer, as always. Big hugs,
Barb- http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/HEYLETSTALK
I think you were right to write out your feelings to Jimmy, Fran. He has to know where you stand and he has to make a stand on doing right and not continually getting into trouble.
betty
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