Tuesday, May 2, 2006

love story

I SPOKE TO JIMMY AT 10PM TONIGHT...HIS LAST CALL FOR THE NIGHT....OH, I'M SO IN LOVE WITH HIM!....HE IS A WONDERFUL MAN.....IT IS AMAZING WHEN 2 PEOPLE WHO ARE SO IN LOVE TALK TO ONE ANOTHER......EVEN DISTANCE DOESN'T MATTER.....YOU CAN FEEL OUR ENERGY THROUGH THE AIRWAVES..........WE WERE TALKING, JOKING, AND LAUGHING........HE PROFESSES HIS LOVE FOR ME, AND I PROFESS MY LOVE TO HIM.  OUR HOPE IS THAT EVERYONE IN THE WORLD WILL HAVE THE SAME KIND OF LOVE THAT WE HAVE BETWEEN US............IN THE BIBLE, IT IS KNOWN AS "AGUAPE LOVE." THE HIGHEST FORM OF LOVE BETWEEN 2 PEOPLE.........

WHEN THAT KIND OF LOVE COMES TO YOU, YOU WILL BOTH KNOW IT.....AND THEN, YOU WILL NEVER AGAIN BE UNHAPPY, OR SAD........YOU WILL NEVER BE AFRAID....BECAUSE IT IS "ULTIMATE LOVE," ATTAINED BY FEW, BUT ABLE TO BE ATTAINED.........

A FEW WEEKS BEFORE I EVER MET JIMMY...BEFORE WE EVER KNEW THE OTHER EVEN EXISTED, I STOOD IN MY KITCHEN IN LAS VEGAS...I REMEMBER LOOKING UP, AND ASKING GOD TO SEND ME THE MAN OF MY DREAMS...I KNEW MY RELATIONSHIP OF 28 YEARS WAS GOING BAD WITH THE MAN I WAS LIVING WITH.........STILL, I WOULD HAVE STAYED WITH HIM, IF HE (THE FIRST MAN IN MY LIFE), WOULD HAVE STRAIGHTNED HIMSELF OUT, AND GOTTEN THERAPY...HE WOULD NOT, AMD DID NOT, WHILE HE WAS WITH ME.........SO, I ASKED GOD, TO PLEASE SEND ME SOMEONE, LIKE JIMMY...FUNNY THING, I SPECIFICALLY ASKED FOR AN ITALIAN MAN, WITH THE SAME SIMILAR FAMILY BACKGROUND...SOMEONE MY AGE  (as the other man was 15 years older than me),  SOMEONE INTELLIGENT, EDUCATED, WITH A SENSE IF HUMOR...SOMEONE WITH GOOD MORALS AND VALUES........SOMEONE WHO WOULD TELL ME HE LOVED ME A MILLION TIMES A DAY.....SOMEONE WHO WANTED MARRIAGE, AND NOT JUST LIVING TOGETHER.....SAME SPIRITUAL BELIEFS, AND SAME BELIEF SYSTEM AS MYSELF.

WELL, AROUND 2 WEEKS LATER, THE OTHER MAN LEFT, AND JIMMY STEPPED RIGHT IN.....I MEAN, THERE HE WAS!...RIGHT DOWN TO THE SPECIFICATIONS THAT I HAD THROWN OUT TO THE UNIVERSE...........

I MEAN, GOD IS SOMETHING ELSE...ISN'T HE!....HE DOES AMAZING THINGS..........

UNFORTUNATELY, I DID NOT ASK FOR A CRIMINAL TO BE SENT MY WAY...ON THE OTHER HAND, I DID NOT SAY SPECIFICALLY, "DON'T SEND ME A CRIMINAL"..........

SO, GOD PUT US TOGETHER....AND SO TOGETHER WE LEARN, IN THIS LIFE, JUST WHAT GOD WANTS TO TEACH US.....

AND WE HOPE SO VERY MUCH, THAT THE WORLD WOULD BE SO IN LOVE, AS WE ARE WITH EACH OTHER!..............WHAT A BEAUTIFUL LIFE AND WORLD IT WOULD BE, BASED ON TOTAL LOVE..................ALMOST UNIMAGINABLE...............BUT IT IS EXISTANT AND IT IS POSSIBLE IN OUR LIFE.........THE LIFE OF JIMMY AND FRAN!

GOOD-NITE!.................FRAN

 

3 comments:

bigalf42 said...

Fran, I would like to ask, and this is not intended as a barb, byt why is Jimmy in jail and for how long?
I have met many wives of prisoners and, on the whole, their loyalty was to be commended. Obviously there are those who take advantage of their men's absence, but then again none of us are perfect, except my second born son who only thinks he is  

BigAlf42

http://journals.aol.co.uk/bigalf42/anythinggoes

bobandkate said...

Dear Fran,
I have been reading your last few entries in your journal with interest. You really just let the words tumble out and your feelings of present loneliness mix with your hope for the future. You don't have long to wait now to get your life back. So keep looking forwards.
Many, many thanks for your very kind comments on my journal. I am pleased if my little pieces give you and Jimmy some pleasure. I am flattered that anyone wants to read them at all. My book will take a long time to write. The idea is all there and I am doing lots of research just now. I want to get the historical context absolutely right and don't want to rush it and not get it perfect.
Take care,
Kate.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/bobandkate/AnAnalysisofLife/

am4039 said...

so happy that you found your true love. I hope he gets out soon?