Sunday, September 12, 2004

LIFE AT TALBOT

THINGS  ARE THE SAME AT TALBOT,REHAB......JIMMY RUNS THE LIBRARY THERE....HE OPENS IT AT 7PM, AND CLOSES IT  AT 9PM......HE WANTED TO REARANGETHE BOOKS,AND PUT IT INTO EFUSED THAT....SOME SORT OF ORDER,BUT HE WAS DENIED THAT....SOTHE BOOKS REMAIN IN THE HARDCOVER SECTION,AND THE PAPERBACK SECTION...VERY BASIC.  JIMMY COULDHAVEITRE-ORGANIZEDIN2 DAYS.

THESPACE-BARDOESN'T WORK....SOIHAVE  BECOME  FEDUP,TYPING ANYTHING......I CANNOTCONNCENTRATEONWHAT I HAVE TO WRITE, WHEN I AM ONLY CONNCENTRATINGON THE SPACEBAR.....ICAN'TWAITFORMY DESKTOPTO BE FIXED.

I HOPE TO COME AND SEE JIMMY ON TUESDAY.....I RECEIVED A LETTER FROM  MYEYE DOCTOR, A  FEW DAYS AGO,THAT STATED I AM UNABLE TO DRIVE,AND UNABLE TO READ.....MY EYESIGHT CANNOT  BE CURED, BUT WILL ONLY DETERIORATE..................MY RIGHT EYE IS LEGALLY BLIND, ANDTHE LEFT EYE IS BORDERLINE, BUT  COULD DETERIARATE AT ANY MINUTE.....AND SO,THAT'S HOW IT GOES............AND ALL AROUND ME, A BATTLE GOES ON............BEFORE JIMMY LEFT HOME, HE TRIED TO GET FAMILY AND FRIENDS TO HELP ME.....BUT UNFORTUNATELY ,EVERYONE IS TOO BUSY.....PEOPLE ARE STILL IN DENIAL....THEY DO NOT SEEM TO BELIEVE THAT I AM LEGALLY BLIND.....I  HAVE A SISTER  WHO LIVES 20 MINUTES  AWAY.........SHE IS TOO BUSY RUNNING AROUND TOWN,  LOOKING FOR MEN, TO   OFFER TO  TAKE ME FOR  MONTHLY FOOD-SHOPPING.........A FATHER IN LAW, WHO DOESN'T CARE..........I'VE SPENT EVERY HOLIDAY ALONE, IN THIS HOUSE, FOR THE  PAST  18 MONTHS.....ON CHRISTMAS DAY,MY  SISTER  CAME HERE, AND PUT CHRISTMAS GIFTS ON MY LAWN.....I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT PRESENTS THAT DAY.....I HAD A  BAD INFECTION AND WAS BURNING WITH  FEVER................SHE DOESN'T CARE....NONE OF THEM CARE...........ONLY JIMMY  CARES ABOUT ME...AND OF COURSE  OUR PETS...........THEIR RESPONSE,  WAS TO CALL  911,WHEN  I WAS SICK...

..............I WOULD NOT TREAT AN  ANIMAL LIKE THIS.....IN MY JOURNAL, I  HAVE REALLY NEVER TOLD YOU JUST  HOW TERRIBLY  I HAVE BEEN  TREATED   IN THE PAST 18  MONTHS....I ALWAYS  JOKE ABOUT DRIVING...THE  TRUTH IS,NO ONE WANTS TO DRIVE ME....I WOULD STARVE TO DEATH  HERE,WITH MY 3  PETS....

TRUTHFULLY, I AM SCARED FOR THEIR SOULS, BECAUSE ULTIMATELY,WE ALL HAVE TO STAND BEFORE GOD.....

I DO NOT WANT SYMPATHY  FOR  BEING BLIND,OR  HAVING A HUSBAND IN PRISON......AND WHEN THE DOCTOR'S  LETTER ARRIVED, I REALIZED JUST HOW CRUEL THESE PEOPLE ARE.....HOW THEY  TREAT  A BLIND WOMAN.................."FORGIVE  THEM FATHER,THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO."

7 comments:

shermeen0621 said...

You've most certainly been through a great deal these past 18 months, but I'm a firm believer that the Lord doesn't give us more than we can cope with. Have faith that He has a plan.

pengboo said...

Its a shame you can't rely on family to help you in these difficult times.  They will someday meet their destiny.  Just keep faith that you will be back with Jimmy in the very near future.  He is definitely your soulmate.  He loves you for you...not because you are going blind, but because you have found each other.

sugar1337 said...

Ya people didn't help my mom either much minus me when she got hurt bad...still is in bed most of the time now.  I hope that you can find some caring souls to help you out soon!

adlessor said...

Gee Fran,  So sorry that you don't have real friends there or any compassionate relatives near you.  It's hard to believe that people could treat you this way.  One more for dinner certaintly wouldn't break their  budget, or to offer to take you for groceries.   I'm sorry you have to go though this alone.   Soon that will be over and Jimmy will be home.         Dawn

crystalmoon222 said...

I LEFT ALL MY FRIENDS IN LAS VEGAS, AS I HAD LIVED THERE FOR 10 YEARS BEFORE MEETING JIMMY...I WAS WORKING IN A HOSPOITAL IN LAS VEGAS, AS A NURSE, SO I KNEW A LOT OF PEOPLE...I WAS ALSO BUSY WORKING, ATTENDING IN-SERVICE PROGRAMS AND CONFERENCES, SO I WAS BUSY AND ACTIVE IN THE PROFESSIONAL WORLD.  IN THE SUMMER OF 2002, JIMMY TOOK ME TO NEW JERSEY, SO HE COULD SET ME UP IN A HOUSE, AND TURN HIMSELF INTO JAIL, FOR TH CRIME HE HAD COMMITED IN THE FALL OF 2000.  SO NOW, I AM 2500 MILES AWAY FROM MY LAS VEGAS HOME, AND I DO NOT WORK OUTSIDE THE HOUSE.....I AM LEGALLY BLIND AND REALLY CAN'T GO ANYWHERE, EXCEPT THE FOOD MARKET.....SO YOU CAN IMAGINE, IT IS HARD TO "JUST MAKE FRIENDS." .....AS FOR FAMILY....I REALLY HAVE NONE....AFTER MY PARENTS DIED IN 1984, THAT WAS PRETTY MUCH THE END OF EVERYTHING....JIMMY DID NOT BELIEVE IT, BUT NOW HE SAW IT FOR HIMSELF, WHEN HE BROUGHT ME TO NJ, WHERE MY ROOTS ARE....HE'S TOLD ME THAT HE SORRY FOR EVER BRINGING ME BACK HERE, BECAUSE HE REALIZES I HAVE NO FAMILY....JIMMY HAS A LOT OF FRIENDS HERE, BUT WHEN YOU GO TO PRISON, MOST FRIENDS AND FAMILY TURN THEIR BACK ON YOU.

mysticmomma78 said...

I'm very sorry about the letter from your doctor. It's like you keep getting hit with bomb after bomb. But since you quoted Jesus, you KNOW that God wouldn't give you more than you can handle. He'll deal with your family and their selfishness. There's no excuse for the way they've been treating you. It's not like you made yourself blind! If I lived near you, I'd be willing to lend you a helping hand. Just stay strong. God will definately see you through this, but you have to stay strong for yourself..... Peace.....

noveen02 said...

dear crystalmoon222 i read your story. i just got out of jail after 5 very long months-and i can tell you in vegas its all about the money the system will get out of you. i want you to know that being incarcerated for lengthy amounts of time means shutting down some or most of the outside world in order to do your time. please i know your faithful and loyality goes beyond all for your husband but try to continue with the rest of the world as well for if you dont when he comes back into the world with you it will be hard for him to function out there if you are still incarcerated with him. take care and know its a struggle to end all struggles.
signed noveen02@aol.com