Wednesday, April 21, 2004

"JUST SOME THOUGHTS"...part 2

IN ANSWERING YOUR QUESTIONS FROM THE COMMENTS..........JIMMY'S ORIGINAL SENTENCE WAS FOR 10 YEARS. HE IMPORTED 800 LBS. OF POT FROM MEXICO, THROUGH ARIZONA.  HIS ACTUAL INCARCERATION WAS 24 MONTHS. HE IS ON A FARM.  11 DAYS OF HIS SENTENCE IS SUBTRACTED EACH MONTH. HE MUST NOT DO ANYTHING TO JEOPARDIZE THAT.........LIKE FIGHTING, WHICH A LOT OF GUYS DO. SO HE THINKS, BY CALCULATING EVERYTHING, HE WILL BE UP FOR PAROLE IN OCT. 2004......OH, IT IS ALL SUCH A NIGHTMARE FOR ME, WHEN I WRITE THESE WORDS.  BUT...I LOVE HIM...SIMPLE AND TO THE POINT.  TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY FOR ME, AND YET, NOW AT THE END OF THE DAY, I FEEL DEPRESSED AND "DRAWN OUT."  THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN SAY OR DO FOR ME...IT JUST IS THAT WAY...I BOUGHT SOME TOMATO PLANTS AND A RAKE AND SHOVEL YESTERDAY...ALSO, ANOTHER GARDEN ANGEL STATUE, TO ADD TO MY COLLECTION.I'M BUSY CLEANING UP AND THROWING OUT, IN ANTICIPATION OF JIMMY'S HOMECOMING........IT KEEPS MY MIND OFF THINGS, AND MAKES TIME GO FASTER...PLUS THE FACT, JIMMY IS A CLEANLINESS FREAK........CARPETS WILL BE CLEANED NEXT WEEK!...I'VE BEEN BUSY CALLING INMATE'S FAMILIES TO GIVE THEM THE NUMBER WHERE TO CALL TO GET THEIR PHONE PIN NUMBERS TURNED ON...ONE WIFE WAS SO UPSET.......SHE CALLED ME 5 OR 6 TIMES...SHE WAS HAVING A "BAD DAY.".......I FELT SORRY FOR HER. I LISTENED TO HER, AND TALKED HER THROUGH IT.......JIMMY HAS BEEN BUSY DOING THINGS FOR PEOPLE.......TAKING THEM TO THE LAW LIBRARY...WRITING LETTERS FOR THEM...MY HUSBAND, BEING A FORMER ATTORNEY, IS VERY WELL VERSED IN THE LAW.  HE WAS BORN TO BE AN Attorney.  HE LOVES LAW...HE LOVES HIS COUNTRY....HE KNOWS EVERYTHING ANYBODY COULD KNOW ABOUT LAW AND HIS COUNTRY. AND YET HE MADE A MISTAKE, AND IS IN PRISON. .........THE SENATOR AND CONGRESSMAN'S OFFICE CALLED ME THE OTHER DAY, AND TODAY I RECEIVED A LETTER FROM THE CONGRESSMAN.  IT IS ABOUT ANOTHER ISSUE(NOT PRISON), BUT JIMMY ADVISES ME ABOUT WHAT TO DO ABOUT THINGS...EVEN FROM PRISON....HE GOES RIGHT TO THE SOURCE.........HE GUIDES ME THE RIGHT WAY.  HE KNOWS ALL THE LEGALATIES, AND WHO TO GO TO ABOUT THINGS........AND GUESS WHAT!...THE CONGRESSMAN SIGNS HIS NAME ON THE ENVELOPE...HE DOESN'T EVEN NEED A STAMP!...(GIGGLE).  BEFORE I GO, WHEN YOU HAVE A CHANCE, STOP BY AND READ THE COMMENT ON 4/16, BY CINDY(INMTWIFE), IN MY JOURNAL.....CINDY, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN YOUR FEELINGS. LIKE YOU, I TOO, SOMETIMES FEEL VERY AFRAID, FOR NO REASON.  I HATE TO GO OUT AND BE AMONGST PEOPLE, ALTHOUGH I HAVEN'T QUITE TERMED IT AGORAPHOBIA, YET. REALIZE, WE ARE UNDER TREMONDOUS STRESS...IT WILL PASS WHEN HUBBY COMES HOME TO YOU.  THE SADNESS OF THIS SITUATION IS......"WE ARE THE FORGOTTEN WOMEN." IF I WERE A WIDOW OR DIVORCEE, ALL THIS WOULD PASS, AND I WOULD MOVE ON. AS A PRISON WIFE, WE BELONG NO WHERE AND WE LIVE IN A LIMBO. WE ARE ALONE, BUT MUST CARRY GOD IN OUR HEARTS. SOMEHOW, SOMEWAY, IT WILL MAKE US STRONGER WOMEN.

3 comments:

bbeckyl said...

**Hi there, glad to hear your out planting those tomatos lol.  I wonder if  I told you  that when my brother got out, he spent two years trying to get someone to hire him! The only reason why he was released to MN is because my son is hiring him to work landscape. I hope your Jimmy wont have that problem, because it seems to be a main stopper in the return into life as it is. October will be here before you know it, and boy will Jimmy be so pleased to see a new skinny you! I hope the kindness you have shown to all these other wives comes back to you ten fold. Take care.
*Becky...... psss did you find your Cayce books?

bernmilo said...

Thanks alot for sharing your story.....i spent 13 years with a convict, went through the whole prison/parole process and it sucks so bad....i wuld not wish it upon anyone...its so tough to keep strong but I will pray for you!
http://journals.aol.com/bernmilo/WAYNEATOPICTURES

dakotarose2852 said...

Fran, you are a wonderful, beautiful person, inside and out.  Although we've never met, I feel we could be friends.  Your journal is so good and look how many people you have helped and comforted with your words.  Plus, I think it's a kind of therapy for you to write down all your thoughts and feelings.  You keep writing, I'll keep reading.
Susan