Friday, April 23, 2004

50 MORE FACTS

51.JIMMY AND I WERE IN LOVE BEFORE WE EVER MET

52.WE MET ON-LINE FEB 1, IN PERSON MARCH 16, AND GOT MARRIED APRIL 29, 2001

53. WE FEEL OUR MARRIAGE WAS MADE IN HEAVEN

54. WE ARE SOULMATES AND HAVE BEEN TOGETHER MANY LIFETIMES AND IN MANY DIMENSIONS

55.A FEW WEEKS BEFORE I MET HIM, I PRAYED TO GOD TO SEND ME SOME ONE LIKE HIM.

56. WE HAVE MANY SIMILARITIES

57.WE ARE BOTH ITALIAN...HE IS SICILIAN. MY MOTHER IS FROM NAPLES, MY FATHER FROM THE SWISS ALP AREA

58. MY GREAT GRANDFATHER IMMIGRATED HERE FROM NAPLES.  HE WAS A DOCTOR ON A SHIP (cunard lines), THEN SETTLED IN JERSEY CITY

59. MY GREAT- GRANDAD WAS ONE OF MY FAVORITE PEOPLE IN LIFE

60. HE TAUGHT ME LATIN AND ITALIAN....

61. I LOVED LATIN, AND BECAME AN "A" STUDENT IN IT.

62.  I LOVE TO READ

63. I LOVE TO SING

64.I LOVE TO WRITE.

65. I LOVE TO SLEEP AND DREAM!

66.I LOVE HAVING TAKEN MY HUSBANDS NAME IN MARRIAGE...IT IS THE GREATEST HONOR

67. I LOVE "BELONGING" TO MY HUSBAND....I AM HIS PROPERTY, AND I LIKE IT THAT WAY.

68.WHEN HE GETS HOME, WE WILL GET A SURGERY TO JOIN US AT THE HIP (JUST KIDDING)

69. BUT WE WILL DEFINETLY GET TATOOS......MINE WILL READ "PROPERTY OF JIMMY."  HIS WILL BE A HEART WITH "FRAN" IN IT.

70. I LOVE MY DOG, PRINCE, MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD....HE IS A 5 YR OLD BLACK LAB/BORDER COLLIE........HE IS NOW MY ALPHA, NOW THAT JIMMY'S GONE. HE PROTECTS ME AND BARKS AND TRIES TO ATTACK ANYONE WITHIN 5 FT, OF ME

71.  I LOVE MY 2 CATS......MISTY AND JIMBO......SOMALIAN, PERSION......12 YEARS OLD.........WE ARE ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY

72. THROUGHOUT MY LIFE, I'VE ALWAYS HAD A PET..DOG OR CAT

73.  I LIVED 16 YEARS IN NEW YORK, ON THE UPPER WEST SIDE...I LOVED BEING A "NEW YORKER."

74. I ENJOYED BALLET, OPERA, THEATER, AND VARIOUS SHOWS........RADIO CITY, ALVIN AILEY.

75. I LOVE OUTDOOR CAFES......SIPPING CAPPACHINO!!!

76. I LIVED IN CALIFORNIA.........PALM SPRINGS.......AND WORKED IN EISONHOWER HOSPITAL, TAKING CARE OF THE RICH AND FAMOUS!....betty ford clinic

77.  I ALSO LIVED IN DEL MAR(SAN DIEGO), AND WORKED IN SCRIPP'S MEMORIAL HOSPITAL, LA JOLLA, AS A CLINICAL CO-ORDINATOR

78. I LIVED IN LAS VEGAS 10 YRS.

79. I LOVED VIDEO POLKER

80. I WON MANY ROYAL FLUSHES, USUALLY WITHIN THE FIRST FEW MINUTES.......LOTS IN FOOD STORES OR 7-11

81. AS A CHILD, I LOVED NANCY DREW, THE BOBSEY TWINS, AND CHERRY AMES....I STILL HAVE MY ORIGINAL COLLECTION

82. I LIVED WITH A MAN FOR 28 YRS BEFORE I MET JIMMY

83. HE WAS A PROFESSOR OF BUSINESS AND INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS...IN SEVERAL UNIVERSITIES

84.  HE WAS INDIAN (SOUTHEAST ASIA)...and moslem

85.  I KNOW THE INDIAN CULTURE VERY WELL...I LIVED IT......I HAD LONG HAIR IN A BRAID.......I WORE SARI'S AND INDIAN CLOTHES...I COOKED INDIAN FOOD......CURRIES........AND KNOW ALL THE INDIAN SPICES..........AND STILL COOK IT

86.  I AM VERY WELL-VERSED IN CULTURES.....AND LANGUAGE

87.  I CAN SPEAK SOME ARABIC, AND KNOW THE MOSLEM PRAYERS........I KNOW SOME URDU (PERSIAN)....WHICH IS LIKE HINDI....I WAS GIVEN AN INDIAN/MOSLEM (SUNNI) NAME....FARHAT

88. LIFE SOMEHOW MOVES ON, AND I AM HAPPIER THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN NOW, WITH JIMMY.

89.  I HAVE A POEM PUBLISHED IN A BOOK.........IT'S CALLED  "THE SILENT RING."

90. I HAVE ANOTHER POEM COMING OUT SOON......."REFLECTIONS OF A PRISON WIFE."

91.  I AM RELATED TO THE MOVIE ACTOR, PAUL SORVINO  (2nd cousins)

92.I LOVE JIMMY

93. I LOVE JIMMY

94. I LOVE JIMMY

95. JIMMY LOVES FRAN

96.  JIMMY LOVES FRAN

97. JIMMY LOVES FRAN

98.  JIMMY AND FRAN

99. JIMMY AND FRAN

100. JIMMY AND FRAN, AND PRINCE AND MISTY AND JIMBO....ONE BIG HAPPY AND LOVING FAMILY.....

 

50 facts about me

50 FACTS ABOUT ME..........here i go, like everyone else!

1.I AM THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON THE PLANET BEING MARRIED TO JIMMY.

2. I AM A MOON-CHILD...A CANCERIAN, BORN JULY 1

3..JIMMY IS A GEMINI...BORN IN MAY

4.WE BOTH WATCH JEOPARDY, AND ENJOY PLAYING SCRABBLE AND CHESS

5.MY FAVORITE FOOD IS LOBSTER, FED TO ME BY MY HUBBY.

6.I ALSO LOVE SMOKED OYSTERS AND CLAMS ON THE HALF SHELL

7.I ENJOY A GLASS OF RED WINE WITH MY DINNER, OR A COLD BEER ON A HOT DAY.

8.I LOVE THE SOUTHWEST DESERT.....IT IS PART OF MY SPIRIT

9.PEOPLE TELL ME I'M PSYCIC

10.MY DREAMS ARE VERY ACCURATE, AND OFTEN FORETELL THE FUTURE.

11.I LOVE CRYSTALS...AND OF COURSE DIAMONDS, TOO! I ALWAYS WEAR ONE OR THE OTHER

12.I BELIEVE IN ANGELS.  I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT MANY ANGELS SURROUND ME

13.JIMMY TOLD ME I AM ECLEPTIC...THAT IS MY INTERESTS IN LIFE VARY. I CAN BE BUSINESS-LIKE, OR LOST IN MY DREAMWORLD

14.I BELIEVE IN OTHER DIMENSIONS AND GALAXIES

15.SOME OF MY FAVORITE PEOPLE ARE ART BELL, SYLVIA BROWN,AND CRYSTAL GAYLE

16.I HAVE BEEN A REGISTERED NURSE FOR 30 YEARS.

17.I BECAME A NURSE AT A VERY YOUNG AGE....19 YRS. OLD

18.AS A NURSE, IT IS MY JOB TO HELP PEOPLE IN THE HEALING PROCESS. I HELP PEOPLE THROUGH THEIR JOURNEY THROUGH THE HOSPITAL EXPERIENCE. I WANT TO MAKE THEM COMFORTABLE AND LESS AFRAID.

19.I HAVE A MASTER'S DEGREE FROM COLUMBIA UNIVERSITY/TEACHER'S COLLEGE.....NURSE EXECUTIVE PROGRAM

20.I HAD A 3.8 AVERAGE IN COLUMBIA

21.I BELONGED TO KAPPA DELTA PI...INTERNATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY IN EDUCATION  (DR. RUTH WESTIEMER WAS A MEMBER)

22.I AM LICENSED AS AN RN IN 5STATES........CALIFORNIA, NEVADA,WASHINGTON,NEW YORK,NEW JERSEY

23.I HAVE MED-SURG CERTIFICATION FROM THE AMERICAN NURSES ASSOCIATION

24.I AM LISTED IN THE BOOK "WHO'S WHO IN YOUNG AMERICAN EXECUTIVES."

25.I AM LISTED IN THE BOOK,  "WHO'S WHO AMONG YOUNG AMERICAN PROFESSIONALS."

26.I AM CURRENTLY A DOCTORAL CANDIDATE AT COLUMBIA UNIVERSITY...EDUCATION AND RESEARCH IN NURSING

27.I RECEIVED THE "AMBASSADOR OF COURTESY AWARD" IN LAS VEGAS...ONE OF MY PATIENTS NOMINATED ME FOR THE EXCELLENT CARE I GAVE HIM

28. I HAVE A LARGE BARBIE DOLL COLLECTION...AROUND 100 BARBIE DOLLS, MOSTLY GIVEN TO ME FROM JIMMY

29. I STILL HAVE MY VINTAGE BARBIE DOLL ALONG WITH KEN AND SKIPPER FROM 1960....PLATINUM BUBBLE CUT HAIRDO!

30.I HAVE A LARGE COLLECTION OF ANGEL STATUES

31.I HAVE "MEMORY BOOKS," AND VARIOUS SCRAPBOOKS...I HAVE AROUND 30 OR MORE PHOTO ALBUMS

32.MY HUSBAND LOVES "HIGH TECH" STUFF.....SO OUR HOUSE IS ALWAYs  "THE LATEST IN HIGH TECHNOLOGY."

32.I HAVE DUAL RESIDENCY AND MAINTAIN A HOME IN NEW JERSEY, AND A HOME IN LAS VEGAS

33.I DRIVE A BEAUTIFUL BLACK JAQUAR  XR...2002...SPORTS MODEL, 4-WHEEL DRIVE......JIMMY'S GIFT TO ME

34.I WOULD LIKE TO DRIVE A TRUCK, BUT WITH MY EYESIGHT IT'S TOO DIFFICULT...HOWEVER, JIMMY TOOK ME TO TEST DRIVE A LINCOLN NAVAGATOR........HE WANTED TO GIVE ME IT AS A SECOND CAR!

35.TO ME, LIFE IS A JOURNEY!!...IT IS FUN, EVEN IN THE DEPTHS OF DARKNESS.........LIFE IS JUST A GAME

36. I'VE TRAVELLED THE WORLD OVER....28 TIMES....I'VE BEEN TO PLACES LIKE INDIA, MOROCCO,SCANDINAVIA, SWITZELAND, SPAIN, GREECE, ITALY,MONACO

37.I DID NOT BACKPACK, BUT STAYED IN BEAUTIFUL HOTELS!

38.I'VE KISSED THE BLARNEY STONE, BEEN IN THE EIFFEL TOWER TWICE, BEEN TO THE VATICAN TWICE, TAG MAHAL,THE ACROPOLIS......TOO MANY THINGS TO LIST

39. I ARRIVED IN LONDON THE DAY PRINCESS DI GOT MARRIED.........THE STREETS WERE JAMMED AND BLOCKED OFF..NO TAXI'S..WE HAD TO DRAG OUR LUGGAGE THRU THE STREETS TO THE HOTEL

40.FINALLY SETTLED, WE SAW HER LEAVE FOR HER HONEYMOON...IN HER CARRIAGE LEAVING BUCKINGHAM PALACE

41.I SURVIVED SCARLET FEVER AT THE AGE OF 9 MONTHS OLD............MY FAMILY WAS QUARENTINED

42.AT THE AGE OF 7, I NEARLY DROWNED IN THE ATLANTIC OCEAN...THE HIGHLANDS

43. I HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE.....IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL! AFTER THAT, I AM NOT AFRAID OF DEATH. AT THE TIME, THE PHRASE "NDE" WAS NOT COINED......HOW DID I EXPERIENCE SOMETHING THAT WAS NOT HEARD OF AT THE TIME?

44.I AM THE PRODUCT OF A DIVORCE AT 10 YRS. OLD

45.I WAS SHUFFLED AROUND FROM GRANDMOTHER AND FAMILY MEMBERS....I ATTENDED MANY SCHOOLS IN A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME

46. I FOUND WAYS TO EDUCATE MYSELF THROUGH SCHOLARSHIPS AND GRANTS, BECAUSE MY MOTHER COULD NOT AFFORD IT

47. I PROMISED MYSELF I WOULD ALWAYS SUCCEED IN LIFE.........I WOULD REACH FOR THE HIGHEST STAR...AND I DID

48.I HAD GREAT NURSING JOBS...I WAS MAINLY AN ORTHO-NEURO NURSE...AND THEN DID ADMINISTRATION

49.THROUGH THE YEARS I'VE SEEN MANY PEOPLE DIE. I HAVE WRAPPED HUNDREDS OF DEAD BODIES. I HAVE DONE CPR SO MANY TIMES AND BEEN IN CODES...I'VE LOST TRACK

50. I WORKED ON THE FIRST AIDES UNIT IN NEW YOEK..WE WERE PIONEERS, AND IT WAS NOT KNOWN IF WE WOULD CONTACT AIDES OURSELF AND DIE.

....TO BE CONTINUED

 

 

 

Thursday, April 22, 2004

AT&T

THIS IS KIND OF A FUNNY STORY!  YESTERDAY, AT&T CUT MY PHONE OFF FOR ABOUT 1 HOUR. SINCE JIMMY HAS BEEN GONE, I'VE SPOKEN TO LITERALLY HUNDREDS OF AT&T REPRESENTATIVES ON THE PHONE, AND LITERALLY HUNDREDS OF DEPARTMENTS.  EVERYONE SWITCHES ME TO THE NEXT DEPT. ..AND THE NEXT DEPT.....AND THE NEXT.......I USUALLY SPEND ABOUT AN HOUR ON THE PHONE.....I ALWAYS PAY MY BILLS ON THE PHONE, BECAUSE I WANT TO MAKE SURE THE SERVICE IS NEVER SUSPENDED....WELL YESTERDAY, I ASKED THE FIRST PERSON ,"WHY DID YOU TURN MY SERVICE OFF?".......SHE HAD THE"NERVE TO TELL ME, "BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE MONEY TO PAY YOUR BILLS.".....WELL, ONCE AGAIN, THIS WOMAN SAID THE WRONG THING TO THE WRONG PERSON!.........I SAID, "WHAT!'........"ARE YOU LOOKING AT MY RECORD IN THAT COMPUTER SCREEN IN FRONT OF YOU!.....FIRST OF ALL, I HAVE PAID $1000.00, TOTAL, FOR THE MONTH OF APRIL ALONE..........I WILL MAKE ANOTHER PAYMENT FIRST WEEK OF MAY........AND I SPOKE WITH A PERSON LAST WEEK, WHO SAID "I WAS  AHEAD OF THE GAME AND DID NOT NEED TO PAY ANYTHING UNTIL MAY."  FURTHERMORE, LOOK AT THE PAST YEAR......I HAVE PAID $800 OR MORE EACH MONTH.....AND THIS GIRL IS TELLING ME....YES ME, THAT I DON'T PAY MY BILLS......IF I WERE HER BOSS, I'D FIRE HER IMMEDIATELY FOR SAYING THAT TO A CLIENT, AND BELITTLING ME.  SO I SAID, LET ME PLEASE SPEAK TO YOUR MANAGER.  WELL, IT WASN'T ANY BETTER........THIS WAS A SNIPPY GIRL, IN PROBABLY HER 20'S......SHE WAS IN A RUSH, AND REALLY COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT HER JOB, OR ME. I KNOW THE TYPE.  SHE WAS QUICK TO TELL ME THAT SHE WAS IN "MID MANAGEMENT."  SHE SAID I'D HAVE TO PAY $550.00 RIGHT NOW TO GET THE PHONE TURNED ON. I WAS PREPARED TO DO IT. BUT THEN I SAID "WHY IS IT EVERYTIME I TALK TO AT&T, I GET A DIFFERENT STORY.  I AM HANDICAPPED, BLIND, HAVE NO ONE HERE, AND MY HUSBAND IS MY ONLY FORM OF COMMUNICATION.  YOUR REPS. HAVE TOLD ME I'M A SPECIAL CASE. THEY KEEP THE PHONE ON FOR 1 MORE WEEK.....MOST PEOPLE HAVE BEEN NICE TO ME.  I ALMOST TOLD THIS GIRL, I WAS GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE, AND BEFORE DOING IT, NOTIFY THE NEWSMEDIA THAT AT&T DROVE ME TO DO THIS!  (JUST A JOKE!)......I MAY HAVE SAID IT, BUT I DIDN'T WANT THE POLICE AND NEWSMEDIA AT MY FRONT DOOR, TO COME AND HELP THE SUICIDAL PRISONERS WIFE...ALL I WANTED WAS MY PHONE TURNED ON SO I CAN TALK TO JIMMY.........OK, SO NOW, THE MID-MANAGER SAID, "WELL, LET ME GET SOMEONE FROM "HIGHER MANAGEMENT" TOTALK TO YOU. " SOON, SHE CAME BACK AND SAID,"I COULDN'T FIND ANYONE (A LIE), BUT I'VE DECIDED TO RESUME YOUR SERVICE.  DO YOU THINK YOU COULD PAY  $150 NOW,.........AND $800 THE FIRST WEEK OF MAY..........SO OF COURSE I PAID IT.......THE MID MANAGER WANTED TO PUT A FEATHER IN HER CAP, BUT IN ACTUALITY, SHE SPOKE WITH HIGHER MANAGEMENT, WHO LOOKED INTO MY RECORD AND SIMPLY TOOK CARE OF IT.......THE PHONE WAS BACK ON, BEFORE JIMMY EVEN KNEW IT WAS OFF!......AND SO, EVERYONE WAS HAPPY......AND LIFE WENT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

"JUST SOME THOUGHTS"...part 2

IN ANSWERING YOUR QUESTIONS FROM THE COMMENTS..........JIMMY'S ORIGINAL SENTENCE WAS FOR 10 YEARS. HE IMPORTED 800 LBS. OF POT FROM MEXICO, THROUGH ARIZONA.  HIS ACTUAL INCARCERATION WAS 24 MONTHS. HE IS ON A FARM.  11 DAYS OF HIS SENTENCE IS SUBTRACTED EACH MONTH. HE MUST NOT DO ANYTHING TO JEOPARDIZE THAT.........LIKE FIGHTING, WHICH A LOT OF GUYS DO. SO HE THINKS, BY CALCULATING EVERYTHING, HE WILL BE UP FOR PAROLE IN OCT. 2004......OH, IT IS ALL SUCH A NIGHTMARE FOR ME, WHEN I WRITE THESE WORDS.  BUT...I LOVE HIM...SIMPLE AND TO THE POINT.  TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY FOR ME, AND YET, NOW AT THE END OF THE DAY, I FEEL DEPRESSED AND "DRAWN OUT."  THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN SAY OR DO FOR ME...IT JUST IS THAT WAY...I BOUGHT SOME TOMATO PLANTS AND A RAKE AND SHOVEL YESTERDAY...ALSO, ANOTHER GARDEN ANGEL STATUE, TO ADD TO MY COLLECTION.I'M BUSY CLEANING UP AND THROWING OUT, IN ANTICIPATION OF JIMMY'S HOMECOMING........IT KEEPS MY MIND OFF THINGS, AND MAKES TIME GO FASTER...PLUS THE FACT, JIMMY IS A CLEANLINESS FREAK........CARPETS WILL BE CLEANED NEXT WEEK!...I'VE BEEN BUSY CALLING INMATE'S FAMILIES TO GIVE THEM THE NUMBER WHERE TO CALL TO GET THEIR PHONE PIN NUMBERS TURNED ON...ONE WIFE WAS SO UPSET.......SHE CALLED ME 5 OR 6 TIMES...SHE WAS HAVING A "BAD DAY.".......I FELT SORRY FOR HER. I LISTENED TO HER, AND TALKED HER THROUGH IT.......JIMMY HAS BEEN BUSY DOING THINGS FOR PEOPLE.......TAKING THEM TO THE LAW LIBRARY...WRITING LETTERS FOR THEM...MY HUSBAND, BEING A FORMER ATTORNEY, IS VERY WELL VERSED IN THE LAW.  HE WAS BORN TO BE AN Attorney.  HE LOVES LAW...HE LOVES HIS COUNTRY....HE KNOWS EVERYTHING ANYBODY COULD KNOW ABOUT LAW AND HIS COUNTRY. AND YET HE MADE A MISTAKE, AND IS IN PRISON. .........THE SENATOR AND CONGRESSMAN'S OFFICE CALLED ME THE OTHER DAY, AND TODAY I RECEIVED A LETTER FROM THE CONGRESSMAN.  IT IS ABOUT ANOTHER ISSUE(NOT PRISON), BUT JIMMY ADVISES ME ABOUT WHAT TO DO ABOUT THINGS...EVEN FROM PRISON....HE GOES RIGHT TO THE SOURCE.........HE GUIDES ME THE RIGHT WAY.  HE KNOWS ALL THE LEGALATIES, AND WHO TO GO TO ABOUT THINGS........AND GUESS WHAT!...THE CONGRESSMAN SIGNS HIS NAME ON THE ENVELOPE...HE DOESN'T EVEN NEED A STAMP!...(GIGGLE).  BEFORE I GO, WHEN YOU HAVE A CHANCE, STOP BY AND READ THE COMMENT ON 4/16, BY CINDY(INMTWIFE), IN MY JOURNAL.....CINDY, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN YOUR FEELINGS. LIKE YOU, I TOO, SOMETIMES FEEL VERY AFRAID, FOR NO REASON.  I HATE TO GO OUT AND BE AMONGST PEOPLE, ALTHOUGH I HAVEN'T QUITE TERMED IT AGORAPHOBIA, YET. REALIZE, WE ARE UNDER TREMONDOUS STRESS...IT WILL PASS WHEN HUBBY COMES HOME TO YOU.  THE SADNESS OF THIS SITUATION IS......"WE ARE THE FORGOTTEN WOMEN." IF I WERE A WIDOW OR DIVORCEE, ALL THIS WOULD PASS, AND I WOULD MOVE ON. AS A PRISON WIFE, WE BELONG NO WHERE AND WE LIVE IN A LIMBO. WE ARE ALONE, BUT MUST CARRY GOD IN OUR HEARTS. SOMEHOW, SOMEWAY, IT WILL MAKE US STRONGER WOMEN.

...JUST SOME THOUGHTS...PART I

HI EVERYONE!.AND SPECIAL THANKS TO BILL AND LIBBY, DAKOTA AND LUCY, GRANDPAPPY, BERMILLO, BECKY, CAROL HEHE, CINDY(INMTWIFE) , DAWN ..FOR READING MY JOURNAL (AND ANYONE I MAY HAVE INADVERTANTLY LEFT OUT!  THANK YOU BILL AND LIBBY, BERMILLO, AND BECKY , FOR THE SPECIAL PRAYERS FOR THE WIDOWER INMATE.......SUCH A SAD SITUATION...IT'S BEYOND WORDS.  JIMMY TOLD HIM THAT PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET AROUND THE COUNTRY ARE PRAYING FOR HIM AND HIS WIFE.  THIS HAS MADE HIM HAPPY AND GIVEN HIM SOME PEACE OF MIND.  DAWN, THANK YOU FOR YOUR CARING WORDS, THAT WE WILL SOON BE TOGETHER SOON.  NOW, I WILL ANSWER SOME OF THE QUESTIONS THAT WERE LEFT IN THE COMMENTS......THE LAWYER WENT TO SEE HIM FOR 1 HOUR LAST WEEK. ORIGINALLY WE THOUGHT JIMMY WOULD COME HOME ON ISP....WHICH IS HOUSE ARREST, AND HE WOULD WEAR A METAL BRACELET...OUR HOME WOULD BE UNDER SCRUTINY 24/7. EVEN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT THE OFFICIALS CAN COME INTO YOUR HOUSE WHILE YOU ARE SLEEPING.  I HAVE HEARD SOME HORRIBLE STORIES ABOUT IT, AND IF YOU ARE RESPECTABLE PEOPLE, IT CAN BE EMBARRESSING WITH NEIGHBORS, ETC.  SO THE ATTORNEY SAID, IT IS NOW LATE IN THE GAME, SO FORGET ISP. INSTEAD JIMMY WILL GO TO A HALF-WAY HOUSE SOON. HE CAN WEAR STREET CLOTHES, HE MUST GET A REGULAR JOB, AFTER A FEW MONTHS HE CAN GET WEEKEND FURLOUGHS HOME..FRI., SAT., SUN.,..HE CAN COME HOME.  HE CAN USE ONE OF OUR CARS TO DRIVE HOME AND TO HIS JOB. HE CAN ORDER TAKE OUT FOOD...PIZZA, ETC.  WE WILL USE A PHONE CARD TO TALK(CHEAPER)...UPON LEAVING THE FARM, HE GOES TO AN EVALUATUON CENTER FIRST, IN TRENTON, NEW JERSEY.  I MUST GO THERE WITH HIS CLOTHES.  WE CAN KISS, HUG, AND I CAN SPEND SEVERAL HOURS WITH HIM...IT IS VERY LENIENT THERE...I TRY NOT TO THINK OF THE WHOLE PROCESS.......JUST WRITING ABOUT IT MAKES ME FEEL APPREHENSIVE...I TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.......CONTINUES IN THE NEXT ENTRY

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

PRAYERS FOR INMATE NEEDED

A WHILE BACK, I HAD TOLD YOU ABOUT AN INMATE WHO'S WIFE DIED WHILE HE IS INCARCERATED.  PLEASE LET US CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR HIM AND SEND OUR THOUGHTS OF LOVE TO HIM.  HE IS STILL AT THE PRISON AND JIMMY SEES HIM.  HE IS DOING WELL...OR SHOULD I SAY AS WELL AS HE COULD BE DOING UNDER THESE CIRCUMSTANCES.......HE WAS MARRIED TO A WONDERFUL WOMAN, AND THEY HAVE 3 CHILDREN.  SHE FELL ILL A FEW MONTHS AGO...AN UNUSUAL THING HAPPENED........SHE DEVELOPED A SEVERE INFECTION AFTER HAVING A D&C...SHE WENT DOWNHILL FAST, AND THEN DIED  (I THINK IT WAS IN FEBRUARY).....THE HUSBAND WAS NOT ALLOWED OUT OF PRISON TO GO TO HIS WIFE'S FUNERAL.  HE WAS NOT ALLOWED TO SEE HER.  THE PRISON IS A "FARM," WITH OPENED DOORS, ETC.  I FEEL IT IS CRUEL TO DO THIS TO THIS MAN.  THIS IS UNJUST.  SOMETHING SHOULD BE DONE ABOUT THESE KIND OF INHUMANE THINGS. JIMMY HELPED HIM ALONG THE WAY, WHEN SHE FIRST DIED. SO PLEASE, TODAY, WHEN YOU HAVE A CHANCE SAY A LITTLE PRAYER FOR THIS MAN, HIS DECEASED WIFE, THEIR 3 CHILDREN, AND FAMILY..........I WILL LET HIM KNOW, THROUGH JIMMY, THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE ON THE INTERNET PRAYING FOR HIM........AND I KNOW THAT WILL MAKE HIM A LITTLE MORE PEACEFUL AND HAPPIER............THANK YOU, ALL, SO VERY MUCH!

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

attorney visited

JIMMY'S ATTORNEY DID VISIT HIM TODAY, DESPITE THE TORRID WEATHER....HEAVY RAINS, AND THUNDERSTORMS...HE STILL DROVE THE 3 HOURS TO THE PRISON.  JIMMY TOLD ME THAT FOR THE YEAR HE HAS BEEN THERE, 5 ATTORNEY VISITS HAVE BEEN MADE TO INMATES, 3 OF WHICH ARE JIMMY'S ATTORNEY GOING TO SEE HIM. OUR ATTORNEY IS ONE OF THE BEST IN NEW JERSEY, IF NOT "THE BEST."  HE IS ALSO A PROSECUTOR IN SEVERAL AREAS. HE IS A VERY BUSY MAN!..............AND SO HE STAYED WITH JIMMY FOR 1 HOUR AND TALKED. BESIDES BUSINESS, THEY LIKE TO TALK ABOUT ME(giggling).....WHAT IS FRAN DOING?...HOW IS SHE HANDLING THIS WHOLE THING?....HE LOVES THAT I CALL HIM ALL THE TIME AND LEAVE MESSAGES AND WRITE TO HIM.  HE IS HAPPY JIMMY AND I ARE DOING A LOT OF FREE-LANCE WRITING........I HAVE SENT HIM THE STORY AND POEMS I GOT PUBLISHED. (RIGHT NOW, I AM PREPARING 3 BOOKS, SIMULTANEOUSLY ABOUT THIS "PRISON EXPERIENCE."............AND SO, LIFE GOES ON!...........WE ARE SO HAPPY ABOUT THE ATTORNEYS VISIT...NOW WE CAN PREPARE TO GO THROUGH THE NEXT PART OF OUR "PRISON JOURNY".......KNOWING WHAT TO EXPECT!

 

   "JIMMY'S RECENT LETTER TO ME"

DEAREST BABY GIRL,

I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THE "TIME" IN PRISON WITH ME. FRANCES, I KNOW THAT YOU ARE AS MUCH AS A PRISONER AS I AM.

THE FIRST TIME WE SPOKE,(before marriage) I REALIZED YOU WERE NOT LIKE ANY OTHER PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN.

I ADMIRE YOU FOR YOUR STENGTH, YOUR COURAGE, YOUR TOUGHNESS, YOUR FORTITUDE.....PLUS, YOU ARE VERY NICE TO LOOK AT!

THERE ARE SO MANY REASONS WHY I LOVE YOU.

THANK YOU FRANCES, FO ALLOWING ME TO LOVE YOU.

                         YOUR HUSBAND,

                         YOUR BEST FRIEND,

                         YOUR LOVER,

                          YOUR JIMMY

BLESSED BY AN INMATES MOTHER

THROUGHOUT THIS PAST YEAR, JIMMY HAS HAD ME CALL ON THE PHONE FAMILY MEMBERS OF INMATES, IF THEY ARE IN NEED OF A SPECIAL FAVOR. I HAVE SPOKEN TO WONDERFUL PEOPLE!...WIVES, MOTHERS,BROTHERS, GIRLFRIENDS. THAT IS HOW WE ARE, JIMMY AND I...WE LIKE TO HELP PEOPLE .........AND SO, BEFORE CHRISTMAS, I CALLED A BROTHER OF AN INMATE.  AFTER A NICE CONVERSATION, HE ACTUALLY INVITED ME TO CHRISTMAS DINNER WITH HIS FAMILY!  CAN YOU IMAGINE...A PURE STRANGER!......KNOWING MY HUSBAND WAS IN PRISON.  HE TOLD ME AROUND 30 FAMILY MEMBERS WOULD BE THERE, COMING AND GOING, WITH CHILDREN RUNNING AROUND THE PLACE.  IT IS INDEED A BLESSING FOR ME TO MEET THESE PEOPLE!.....AND SO YESTERDAY , JIMMY ASKED ME TO CALL SOMEONES MOTHER.  IT WAS ALREADY 10PM, BUT I TOOK THE CHANCE. MAYBE THIS ONE PERSON WOULD SLEEP BETTER TONIGHT, HAVING HEARD ABOUT HER SON THRU ME..............WELL, SURE ENOUGH, I WAS HIGHLY BLESSED!........"SHE" WAS A 77 YEAR OLD WOMAN WITH 9 CHILDREN. HER "BABY," WAS IN PRISON...(44yr. old baby!....IT'S OK! MY MOTHER ALWAYS CALLED ME HER "BABY" NO MATTER HOW OLD I GOT!)  "IS HE OK?" SHE GASPED INTO THE PHONE.  "YES, HE'S DOING JUST FINE," I SAID. " HE WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW HIS PIN NUMBER HAS NOT BEEN WORKING AND HE HAS BEEN HERE FOR 1 MONTH." THEN I PROCEEDED TO GIVE HER THE NUMBER TO CALL IN THE MORNING TO GET THINGS STRAIGHTENED OUT.  SHE ASKED HOW I WAS DOING. I SOMEHOW SAID,"WELL, I'M ALL ALONE." QUICKLY SHE SAID TO ME, "NO, MY CHILD, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. NEVER SAY YOU ARE ALONE. THAT GIVES SATAN THE OPPORTUNITY TO MOVE IN WHEN HE HEARS THOSE WORDS.  ALWAYS SAY "JESUS IS WITH ME."  AND PRAISE THE LORD USING   "ALLELULIA" AND "HALLILULIA."  .......THESE WERE THE MOST COMFORTING AND BEST WORDS ANYONE COULD HAVE TOLD ME. I FELT SO BLESSED TO HAVE SPOKEN TO THIS WOMAN.....AND TRUTHFULLY, SHE FELT LIKE A CARING MOTHER TO ME.

Monday, April 12, 2004

GOOD NEWS!

JIMMY CALLED ME A SHORT WHILE AGO.  HIS PRIVATE ATTORNEY IS GOING TO SEE HIM TOMORROW!.........FOR THOSE THAT DON'T KNOW, IT IS A VERY BIG THING WHEN A PRIVATE LAWYER GOES TO THE PRISON!......IT IS POSTED ON THE BULLITIN BOARD, FOR ALL TO SEE.  JIMMY HAD NOT CHECKED THE BOARD TODAY, SO ALL THE GUYS CAME RUNNING TO HIM THAT HIS ATTORNEY WILL GO THERE TOMORROW.  IT'S AS IF THEY "ROLL THE RED CARPET "  OUT FOR HIM.  HIS ATTORNEY HAS TO TRAVEL AT LEAST 3 HOURS TO GET THERE TO THE PRISON, AND 3 HOURS TO DRIVE BACK....6HRS OF DRIVING, AND ANOTHER HOUR OR SO TO TALK TO JIMMY........THAT'S A WHOLE DAY 'S WORK FOR AN ATTORNEY!....BUT HE'S THE BEST ATTORNEY THERE IS, AND IT IS AN HONOR FOR US THAT HE GOES TO SEE JIMMY. HIS ATTORNEY KNOWS JIMMY FOR AT LEAST 12 YEARS, AS JIMMY WAS A BAILBONDSMAN, IN THE SAME TOWN HIS OFFICE IS.  PART OF THEIR TALK IS ABOUT ME.  JIMMY SHOWS HIM MY PIX, ETC.  THE LAWYER SAYS, "DOES FRAN KNOW HOW LONG THIS WILL TAKE, GETTING YOU OUT OF PRISON?"........THE ANSWER IS NO, I HONESTLY DIDN'T KNOW.........I THOUGHT IT WAS EASY......BUT IT'S OK.........I'M A PRISON WIFE WHO IS DETERMINED TO GET MY HUSBAND HOME ASAP...........AS WONDERFUL AS THE LAWYER IS, I GUESS HE GOT TIRED OF ME CALLING HIS OFFICE EVERYDAY, AND LEAVING MESSAGES ON HIS ANSWERING MACHINE, TO GET JIMMY HOME.  IN THE BEGINNING, HE WOULD CALL ME AT HOME, AND I COULDN'T HELP CRYING........."MR. B, PLEASEEEEEEEEEE GET MY JIMMY BACK TO ME!"........WELL, LOOKS LIKE THINGS ARE PROGRESSING ALONG!.............AND TODAY THERE IS EXCITEMENT AT THE PRISON, BECAUSE TOMORROW AN "ATTORNEY WILL BE ON BOARD!"....................

INMATES UNABLE TO MAKE CALLS EASTER WEEKEND

HAPPY EASTER MONDAY!  CAN YOU BELIEVE THERE WAS A PROBLEM WITH THE PHONES IN THE PRISON ALL WEEKEND!  HALF OF THE PRISON COULD NOT MAKE OUTGOING CALLS TO THEIR LOVED ONES FOR EASTER. THE MEN WERE GOING WILD! WITH THEIR INTELLIGENT "CRIMINAL!" MINDS THEY FIGURED OUT WHAT TO DO. i DON'T UNDERSTAND IT, BUT JIMMY WAS ABLE TO CALL ME USING SOMEONE ELSE'S PIN NUMBER. JIMMY TOLD ME TO CALL T-NETIX TO INFORM THEM OF THE PROBLEM.  SO ON SUNDAY NITE I LEFT A MESSAGE ABOUT THE PROBLEM. THEN, I CALLED THE THIS MORNING.  THEY SAID THEY GOT MY MESSAGE AND FIXED THE PROBLEM.  WITHIN MINUTES, JIMMY CALLED ME SAYING THE PROBLEM WAS FIXED.  ALL THE INMATES WERE COMING UP TO HIM THANKING HIM THAT I GOT THINGS FIXED. JIMMY SAID, EVERYBODY LOVES YOU HERE , FRAN.  IT MUST HAVE BEEN A TERRIBLE WEEKEND FOR THOSE GUYS, BUT THINGS ARE OK NOW.................THANX FOR YOUR ANSWERS AND SUGGESTIONS ABOUT WHAT I ASKED IN MY LAST ENTRY.  IRONICALLY, THE SAME SORT OF ISSUE CAME UP ON THE SOPRANO'S LAST NITE. THE PRIEST, WHO WAS HAVING LUNCH WITH CARMELLA, TONY'S WIFE SAID....YOU ARE STILL MARRIED TO TONY,EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE SEPERATED. THIS MAN(whom she wanted to have an affair with), WILL ONLY SATISFY A NEED IN YOUR LIFE.  CARMELLA ANSWERED,"DIDN'T GOD PUT THAT NEED IN MY LIFE?" SHE WOUND UP GOING TO BED WITH HIM, AND THEN LATER REGRETTING IT AFTER THEY ARGUED.HER PRIME FOCUS, THROUGHOUT THE SEX , WAS ULTIMATLEY THOUGHTS ABOUT HER SON AT SCHOOL. THE LOVER TOLD HER SHE USED HIM TO GET WHAT SHE WANTED........SO IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO ,STAY FOCUSED ON YOUR FAMILY/HUSBAND........AND DON'T GIVE IN TO THOSE SILLY PHYSICAL NEEDS.

Saturday, April 10, 2004

Happy Easter, Everyone!

HAPPY EASTER AND HAPPY SPRING!  HOPING ALL IS WELL WITH YOU, AND THANKS FOR READING ABOUT MY LIFE!  I HAD A FEW BAD DAYS THERE, BUT I'M BACK ON TRACK!  IT'S THE USUAL AT THE PRISON...EASTER OR NOT!..OF COURSE THERE ARE PHONE PROBLEMS AT THE PRISON.  AROUND EVERY 3 MONTHS, THEY MESS THINGS UP, AND THIS TIME IT FELL ON EASTER WEEKEND!  JIMMY'S BEEN FINDING WAYS TO GET THRU TO ME WITH THE HELP OF HIS FELLOW INMATES, THOUGH.  HE HAS HAD INMATES WIVES CALLING ME, TO LET ME KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON, AND MAYBE ON MONDAY I HAVE TO MAKE A PHONE CALL TO STRAIGHTEN THINGS OUT.  WELL, I'M HERE AS USUAL , ALONE FOR EASTER.EVEN BEING WITH FAMILY MEMBERS FOR THE FUNERAL DIDN'T INSPIRE THEM TO ASK ME OVER FOR EASTER DINNER.  OH WELL, AS SOME OF YOU MAY UNDERSTAND, PEOPLE DON'T LIKE ASSOCIATING WITH A PRISONER'S WIFE...SHE IS SORT OF THE 5TH WHEEL, AND DOESN'T BELONG ANYWHERE! WELL, IT'S OK.  I KEEP TRUDGING ALONG!  I HOPE IT'S SUNNY....I'LL GO FOR A WALK, AND SIT OUTSIDE, FORMULATING POEMS IN MY HEAD....TONITE ON THE PHONE, JIMMY PROMISED TO TAKE ME TO MUSEUMS AND CULTURAL THINGS WHEN HE GETS HOME, AS I REQUESTED HE DO.  BUT MOST OF ALL, HE PROMISED TO MAKE BEAUTIFUL LOVE TO ME, WHEN HE GETS HOME....AND IT WILL LAST FOR DAYS ON END.  AFTER ALL, HE TOLD ME, YOU HAVE A LOT PENT UP INSIDE OF YOU, SINCE I LEFT OVER A YEAR AGO.....AND I'LL KEEP IT THAT WAY, AS I AM A NON-CHEATING WIFE, WHO HAS MORAL VALUES...ALTHOUGH WHEN YOU ARE ALONE, IT CAN BE QUITE TEMPTING!...AND I MEAN ONLY FOR THE NEED FOR COMPANIONSHIP AND SOCIALIZATION...AND OF COURSE SEX!...........YES, EVEN PRISON WIVES HAVE BASIC NEEDS!.........LET ME KNOW IN YOUR COMMENTS..."SHOULD A PRISON WIFE GIVE IN TO HER NEEDS?"...........I HAVE MY ANSWER, PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOURS.

Thursday, April 8, 2004

RAINEY DAYS

SORRY I WAS AWAY FOR A FEW DAYS. MY UNCLE DIED, SO IT WAS A FEW SAD DAYS OF ATTENDING THE VIEWING, AND TODAY, THE FUNERAL. IT WAS BRIGHT AND SUNNY DURING THE FUNERAL, BUT NOW IT IS BACK TO RAINING!  WE HAD A BEAUTIFUL DINNER IN A RESTAURANT AFTERWARDS......EVERYTHING WAS CHEERFUL, AS HE WOULD HAVE LIKED IT. SO, HE EVEN MADE THE SUN COME OUT THIS MORNING TO MAKE THINGS PERFECT!.........I'LL START WRITING AGAIN SOON, TO KEEP YOU UP TO DATE ON WHAT'S HAPPENING IN MY LIFE, AS A  "PRISONER'S WIFE."

Friday, April 2, 2004

April Showers

APRIL SHOWERS BRING MAY FLOWERS!...AND THAT IS JUST WHAT ITS BEEN DOING HERE!...GREY SKIES, DRIZZLING RAIN AND A FEW PEEKS OF THE SUN.  I HOPE TODAY WILL BE SUNNY, SO I CAN GO OUT AND WALK!...I LOVE APRIL...IT SEEMS LIKE THE PERFECT MONTH, AND I DID GET MARRIED IN APRIL....APRIL 29, 2001. JIMMY WAS CHEERFUL TODAY ON THE PHONE.  HE LET ME TALK TO LES, A FELLOW IN-MATE, WHO HAS BEEN THERE FOR 4 YEARS. LES AND I ENJOY WRITING LETTERS TO EACH OTHER.  HE IS CONVERTING TO CATHOLICISM, UNDER JIMMY'S INFLUENCE.  JIMMY TAKES HIM TO MASS WITH HIM EVERY TUESDAY. LES IS STUDYING AND WILL SOON BE CONVERTED.  MIRACULOUS AND WONDERFUL THINGS DO HAPPEN IN PRISON!  THERE IS ALSO ANOTHER INMATE, WHO JIMMY INFLUENCED, AND HE STARTED GOING TO MASS AGAIN AFTER MANY YEARS.  HE, TOO , WILL SOON MAKE HIS CONFIRMATION.  LAST YEAR AT THIS TIME, JIMMY WAS IN THE COUNTY JAIL FOR A FEW WEEKS. I WAS VISITING HIM AT THAT TIME.  HOWEVER, I COULD NOT WAK 5 FEET AT THAT TIME, WITHOUT DOUBLING OVER WITH INTENSE BACK PAIN, SO, A FAMILY FRIEND, CARMINE WOULD BRING ME TO THE JAIL IN A WHEELCHAIR (IT'S AMAZING HOW TODAY, ONE YEAR LATER I CAN WALK 2-3 MILES/DAY).  THE VISITS ARE TERRIBLE!...YOU TALK THROUGH A GLASS PLATE.  NO PHONE. ONLY A SMALL OPENING AT THE BASE OF THE GLASS.  YOU CAN'T HEAR A THING, AND EVERYONE IN THE ROOM IS SHOUTING.  YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH 2 SECURITY CHECKS.  EVERYTHING IS SO BARREN.  ALL METAL. SO STRANGE, LIKE YOU ARE IN ANOTHER WORLD. ALL GREY AND DEPRESSIVE. THE FIRST TIME I SAW JIMMY, I THOUGHT HE WAS SICK. HIS EYES HAD A FAR-AWAY LOOK. TOWARDS THE END OF THE 20 MINUTE VISIT, HE PERKED UP, AFTER SEEING ME. I WAS LATER TOLD THE MEN LOOK LIKE THIS AFTER FIRST BEING LOCKED UP...DEHYDRATION,DEPRESSION, SLEEPING ON THE FLOOR.  WELL, THE NEXT DAY, I MADE EVERY CALL I COULD...SOCIAL WORKER, JAIL MEDICAL UNIT.  THE HEAD NURSE HERSELF REASSURED ME, SHE PERSONALLY WENT TO SEE JIMMY AND HE WAS FINE. WELL, I HAD TO DO IT! I WAS NOT GOING TO SEE MY HUSBAND SICK IN JAIL...NO, I HAD TO HELP HIM!..AND STILL TODAY, JIMMY JOKES WITH ME "HOW I STIRRED UP A RUCKUS IN THAT JAIL ABOUT HIS HEALTH THOSE FIRST FEW DAYS!"