HELLO! SORRY I HAVEN'T WRITTEN LATELY........
WELL, LIFE GOES ON!
THE FALL BECAME THE WINTER, AND NOW WE ARE INTO THE SPRING.......
JIMMY IS CLEANING THE HOUSE, AND GETTING THINGS ORGANIZED..........TOMORROW WE ARE HAVING A BAR B QUE, AND HAVE INVITED AROUND 10 PEOPLE..........
I AM JUST WRITING TO LET YOU KNOW THAT THINGS ARE GOING WELL.......EVERYTHING IS ON THE UP AND UP!...................fran and jimmy
For the silly lady who made the comment...........lighten UP.............Look, for 3 and a half years, Jimmy and I went through Hell............My husband says I suffered much more then him..............That is why we try to look at ALL things with a smile..........yes Kids have cell phones................But do they have 4 each, and that cost over $600.00 a peice ...............I hope to heaven not...........We are just busy people trying to make the best of our time together............making money having fun .not breaking the law and now hurtting anyone.or thing. But help those we can.
As for going throught his cell phones.......wallet............and drawers........Is there a parent who does not go throught her kids things.........I love my Jimmy.he loves.........I do not want him ever do do anything to get himself into trouble.............Know what.......he tease me about it.....tell pever one I go through he stuff..............But He knows I love him, that is what I do it. . he feels loved because I do it.He make mistakes in his live, my job is to help him never to do it again.
Please Moms............check your kids.....and even your husbands.............you know that on line porn.............As for Jimmy and I, we do not need porn..........Ou entire bedroom is mirrored
Fran...........
HELLO!
JIMMY READ THE LAST ENTRY. HE SAID I MADE A BIG MISTAKE...................SO SORRY!
HE SAYS HE DISTINCTLY REMEMBERS MAKING LOVE TO ME ON THE NIGHT BEFORE HE WENT TO PRISON. SORRY, I JUST DON'T REMEMBER IT :)
I CANNOT SAY THAT I DID OR DID NOT HAVE AN ORGASIM!....I JUST DO NOT REMEMBER!...............AS TIME GOES ON, I CAN;T REMEMBER EVERYTHING.
I HOPE YOU ALL UNDERSTAND THAT JIMMY AND I MADE LOVE EVERY DAY AND NIGHT FOR THE 2 YEARS WE WERE MARRIED BEFORE HE WENT TO PRISON...............AND THAT IS A LOT OF LOVE MAKING FOR 2 PEOPLE....................WE ARE VERY SEXUAL PEOPLE.....................AND THAT IS WHY I HATED IT WHEN JIMMY WRNT TO PRISON...........I MISSED HIM SO MUCH..................TOUCHING ME, KISSING ME, AND MAKING LOVE TO ME!..............I WAS NO LONGER USED TO BEING ALL ALONE.
NOW, WE ARE TOGETHER ALL THE TIME. I WAS JUST NOW LYING IN BED WITH JIMMY IN HIS ARMS.
TODAY WE TOOK A RIDE TO SEASIDE....THE JERSEY SHORE. IT WAS BRIGHT ABD SUNNY AND WARM. THE PEOPLE WERE BUSY OPENING THE CONCESSIONS. THEN WE WENT OUT TO DINNER, AT OUR FAVORITE CHINESE BUFFET.
JIMMY RECENTLY BOUGHT ME A BLACKBERRY CELL PHONE............THE TOP OF THE LINE, WITH A BEAUTIFUL LEATHER CASE. HE ALSO BOUGHT ME A SECOND CELL PHONE, IN CASE I DON'T LIKE THE BLACkberry!...........
WE ALSO HAVE A CAR PHONE IN OUR CADALAC.
JIMMY CARRIES 2 CELL PHONES...........PALM TRIO.........WHICH HE JUST LOVES.........
AND DON'T FORGET THE HOUSEPHONES............WE HAVE 3 PHONES, AND A FAX .
AND NO, HE NOT BACK TO DEALING DRUGS, AS YOU ALL MAY THINK!
THE REASON FOR ALL THESE PHONES, IS WE ARE NOW RUNNING MANY BUSNISES.
I'M JUST SUCH A NAUGHTY GIRL! I GO THROUGH JIMMY'S CELL PHONES WHENEVER I CAN..............I READ HIS MESSAGES AND LISTEN TO HIS VOICE MAIL................AFTER ALL, I HAVE TO KEEP TRACK OF JIMMY, AND MAKE SURE HE DOES NOT DO ANYTHING WRONG!
ONE DAY I WENT THROUGH THE WALLET IN HIS POSKET. IN THE MORNING HE GOT UP, AND SEARCHED HIS PANTS POSKET, FOR HIS WALLET..................YOU SEE, EVERY MAN KEEPS HIS WALLET IN TE RIGHT HAND BACK POKET. WELL, I MADE A MISTAKE AND PUT IT IN HIS LEFT HAND POCKET..............WELL, I'LL NEVER HEAR THE END OF IT!......I PUT IT BACK INTO THE WRONG POCKET...................AND, PAROLE OFFICER JUST LOVES THAT STORY!...............WE MET HIS ATTORNEY THE OTHER DAY,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,AND THE ATTORNEY AND PAROLE OFFICER ARE SO HAPPY I'M KEEPING JIMMY STRAIGHT................HOWEVER, NOT THAT I EVER DOUBT JIMMY WILL DO ANYTHING WRONG!............THEY ARE JUST HAPPY THAT I'M ALERT AND CONCERNED.............
SEE YOU LATER!
...................................FRAN
5 YEARS AGO..................MARCH 28, 2003, JIMMY WENT TO JAIL.....THEN PRISON.
YOU SEE, JIMMY ALWAYS SAID IT WOULD ONLY BE AROUND 6 MONTHS, AND HE WOULD GET HOUSE ARREST.............HE TOLD ME THAT OVER AND OVER, SINCE WE GOT MARRIED IN 2001.
THOSE SIX MONTHS TURNED INTO 3 1/2 YEARS.
JIMMY WANTED ME HERE IN JERSEY WITH HIM...........SO, I LEFT ALL MY FRIENDS AND THE PEOPLE I KNEW BACK IN VEGAS............OVER HERE, I BARELY KNEW ANYONE, AND THOSE I KNEW, REALLY DID NOT CARE ABOUT ME............
SO, I WAS HAPPY TO BE NEAR MY HUSBAND.
BUT THOSE 3 1/2 YEARS WERE TOUGH FOR ME.
JIMMY SAYS PRISON IS REALLY NO STRUGGLE FOR HIM. AFTER ALL, HE'D BEEN THERE BEFORE.
HE SIMPLY OBEYED THE RULES AND FOLLOWED HIS ORDERS..........HE WOKED IN THE PRISON AND SAW PEOPLE..............AS FOR ME, I SAW NO ONE AND NEVER TALKED..................YOU SEE, I BECAME A RECLUSE FOR 3 1/2 YEARS.
RECENTLY MY SISTER WHO LIVES 5 MINUTES FROM HERE TOLD MY HUSBAND, "I ALWAYS KNEW YOU WERE IN PRISON. I KNEW THE ACTUAL DAY YOU WENT IN."...........................NOW, I ASK ALL OF YOU OUT THERE," ISN'T THIS JUST SHOCKING TO KNOW.................
SHE NOW SAYS SHE FELT IT WAS A PERSONAL MATTER, AND SHE DIDN'T WANT TO INTERFERE
ISN'T SHE SO VERY NICE, I ASK YOU??????????????????
SO.I WAS ALONE FOR 3 1/2 YEARS.
SPOKE LITTLE AND ACTUALLY HATED EVERYONE.......ACTUALLY I HATED THE WHOLE WORLD.
NOW AFTER 5 YEARS, JIMMY AND I REMINESSED ABOYT IT A LITTLE WHILE AGO.
THAT NIGHT, JIMMY SAT ON THE CHAIR NEAR THE BED, AND I WENT TO HIM AND SAID, "LET'S GO RIGHT NOW. LET'S RUN AWAY. PUT THE ANIMALS IN THE CAR, AND WE HAVE PLENTY OF MONEY."
JIMMY SAID "NO."
HE COULD NOT DO IT TO HIMSELF, OR ME. HE HAD TO DO IT AND GET I DONE AND OVER WITH. HE SAID, " ONCE WE RUN, WE WILL HAVE TO RUN FOREVER, AND THEN I MIGHT GET CAUGHT AND WILL HAVE EVEN A LONGER TERM.' "NO....I LOVE YOU AND CANNOT DO IT TO YOU."
AND SO THAT FATEFULL NIGHT, WE GOT INTO BED, AND JIMMY HELD ME ALL NITE.............SO TIGHT,I THOUGHT MY BONES WOULD BREAK.
TRUTHFULLY, THAT WAS ONE NIGHT I COULD NOT EVEN MAKE LOVE TO JIMMY..............."I JUST WAS NOT N THE MOOD.".................I WAS TOO DEPRESSED...........TO O UPSET..........TOO SCARED...................TOO UNHAPPY........................................................YOU NAME IT, AND I WAS IT!
AT 4 AM, WE GOT UP. JIMMY TOOK ME AND SAT ME DOWN IN THE CHAIR. HE WENT OVER EVERYTHING I WAS TO KNOW. I HAD A LITTLE NOTEBBOK, AND JIMMY TOLD ME ALL THE THINGS TO DO IN THE HOUSEHOLD.
THEN WE WENT BACK TO BED.
JIMMY'S FATHER AND HIS FRIEND CARMEN CAME TO PICK HIM UP TO TAKE HIM TO COURT...........AND YES, THOSE BASTARDS CAME AN HOUR EARLY, ON PURPOSE.............WE WANTED OUR PRIVATE TIME TOGETHER, SO JIMMY MADE THEM WAIT.......................
AS JIMMY WALKED OUT THE FRONT DOOR, I STOOD IN FRONT OF HIM..............I LEANED OVER, ONTO HIS CHEST AND SAID, "THIS IS SURREAL. I CAN'T BELIEVE THS IS HAPPENING."
AND THEN, IN A FLASH HE WAS GONE........
THE HOUSE WAS SO SILENT.
I BEGGED TO GO TO COURT WITH HIM, BUT HE DIDN'T WANT ME TO SEE THEM PUTTING HANDCUFFS ON HIM, AND TAKING HIM TO THE JAIL.................HIS FATHER DROPPED HIM OFF IN FRONT OF THE COURTHOUSE...........ISN'T THAT NICE!................JUST AS IF NOTHING HAD HAPPENED. JIMMY HAD ASKD HIS FATHER TO BUY ME A JAR OF MAYO..............THAT FATBER IN LAW IS SO NICE, THAT HE LEFT THE JAR ON THE FRONT PORCH, AS I STAYED IN THE HOUSE IN A TOTAL DAZE.
I WAITED FOR JIMMY'S CALL/
NO FOOD. NO DRINK................NO TV...........NO RADIO...........................I SAT AND SIMPLY STARRED AT THE WALL.
I LOST 75 LBS. IN 7 MONTHS...............I COULD COT EAT ANYMORE.
AFTER A FEW DAYS, I LOOKED AT BEDSIDE. SITTING THERE WAS A CAN OF DIET COFE I HAD OPENED A FEW DAYS AGO. THEN I REALIZES I JUST HAD TO FORCE MYSELF TO GO TO THE KITCHEN FOR SOME FOOD AND DRINK.
BOW, AFTER 5 YEARS, THINGS ARE GOING VERY WELL.............IT FEELS LIKE WE ARE SAILING AHEAD.
THE OTHER DAY I TOLD JIMMY THAT I FEEL LIKE I NEVER HAD THE STROKE 1 1/2 YEARS AGO. MY SPEECH IS SUDSENLY PERFECT, AND MY COGNITVE ABILITY IS BETTER THAN EVER.....................DON'T FORGET, THOUGH, THAT I AM BLIND.............LIKE THE NEW GOVERNOR OF NEW YORK!
SEE YOU ALL LATER!
FRAN AND JIMMY
HELLO!
TODAY, EXACTLY 1 YEAR AGO (that is, on the 22 nd of January), I HAD A STROKE.....................THE DOCTORS THEN FOUD THAT I HAD HAD AT LEAST 5 PREVIOUS STROKES IN THE PAST FEW YEARS.............
NOW.....................ALL OF THAT IS IN THE PAST..................
JIMMY SURPRISED ME BY GIVING ME 1 RED ROSE TODAY.......................HE WASNTED TO ASSURE ME THAT HE HAD NOT FORGOTTEN, AND ALL THAT IS IN THE PAST!
I AM A MUCH CHANGED PERSON SINCE LAST YEAR, WHEN I COULD NOT TALK OR THINK (AS MY COGNITIVE ABILITY WAS JUST ABOUT ZERO)...........................NOW I AM ALERT AND AS SHARP AS A BUTTON.........................WE LOVE TO WATCH ALL THE GAMAE SHOWS ( LIKE JEOPARDY AND DEAL OR NO DEAL)
EVERY DAY MY SPEECH AND COGNITIVE ABILITY GETS BETTER ABD BETTER!
......................TODAY, JIMMY TOOK ME TO TRENTON (FOR BUSINESS MEETINGS).......................THEN WE HAD DINNER AT THE MARRIOT HOTEL......................IT WAS BEAUTFUL, AND THE FOOD DELICOUS!
I'D LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE FOR READING THIS JOURNAL!
.......................................................FRAN AND JIMMY
PS................DEAR MANDYMEME,
THANKS FOR THE UPDATE OF YOUR LIFE, AND I AM SO GLAD YOU HUSBAND IS HOME!
JUST TO SAY "HELLO," AND WRITE A BRIEF NOTE...................
EVERYTHING IS GOING VERY WELL IN OUR LIVES!
IT IS A BEAUTIFUL SUNNY DAY, HERE IN SOUTH JERSEY..............BUT VERY COLD..........
I AM FEELING SO MUCH BETTER, AND IT LOOKS LIKE I WAS NEVER SICK!
WE ARE NOW TRYING TO GET IN CONTACT WITH PEOPLE WE KNOW, WHOM WE LOST CONTACT WITH.........
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LIFE GOES ON AND IT SEEMS A MILLION MILES AWAY SINCE JIMMY WAS IN PRISON..............
HOWEVER, I STILL REMEMBER THOSE 3.5 YEARS......ALWAYS REMEMBER "IF I COULD DO IT, SO CAN YOU."...................IT IS NOT EASY, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE.......................
JIMMY IS TAKING HIS SHOWER, AND WE WILL GO OUT IN A LITTLE WHILE.............
JIMMY AND I ARE MORE IN LOVE THAN EVER!................IF YOU SEE US, WE ARE THE ONES WHO ARE KISSING AND HUGGING, AND HOLDING HANDS!............................HE SAYS HE CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT ME..........AND I FEEL THE SAME.
WE ARE A HAPPY FAMILY OF 5...............THAT IS, HUSBAND, WIFE, 2 CATS AND DOG....................OUR ANIMALS ARE MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN EVER, AND FEEL SO LOVED............
............SAYING BYE FOR NOW...............
FRAN
I'M BACK ONCE AGAIN!
SORRY I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN A LONG TIME...............
THIS HOLIDAY SEASON WAS QUITE AN UNEXPECTED, MESSY TIME FOR US........
I WAS VERY SICK AGAIN..........
ON DECEMBER 8, WE WENT TO MY SISTER'S HOUSE FOR A LITTLE GATHERING..............I HAD HAD A HEAD COLD, AND MY BOUT OF BRONCHITIS ALL WEEK................LITTLE DID I KNOW!..............WE LEFT HER HOUSE AT 9PM...........AT THAT POINT, JIMMY SAID HE WAS TAKING ME STRAIGHT TO THE ER, AS I WAS HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING...............
ONCE IN THE CAR, JIMMY REALIZED I WAS GETTING WORSE.................HE PULLED OVER AND CALLED "ON STAR," WHICH WE HAVE FOR EMERGENCYS......................THE POLICE WERE THER IN SECONDS................HE GOT THE OXYGEN ON ME, AND 2 AMNULNCES WERE THERE IN SECONDS..............IT WAS A VERY COLD NIGHT, A ROAD THAT IS A WELL TRAVELLED ROAD, BUT WINDS THROUGH THE DARK SOUTH JERSEY WOODS.....
ONCE IN THE AMBULANCE, I JUST COULD NOT LAY DOWN, AS I FELT I WAS DROWNING.................JIMMY FOLLOWED IN OUR CAR...............
ONCE IN THE ER, I WAS COUGHING SO WILDLY....AND CRYING.................I JUST COULD NOT BREATH.......................FINALLY, THEY BEGAN GIVING ME MAJOR DIURETICS TO GET THE FLIUD OUT...................
THE PULSE OX WAS 89, WHICH IS NOT GOOD (WITH O2 ON)............
THEY TOOK CXY'S, AND HOOKED ME UP TO THE CARDIAC MONITOR...........AS I ALSO HAVE A RIGHT BUNDLE BRACNH BLOCK.............................
IT WAS ALL SO SCARY FOR ME, I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE..................AND THE DOCTOR SAID IF I DIDN'T GET TO THE HOSPITAL IN TIME, I JUST MIGHT BE...........
I HAVE A VERY GOOD DOCTOR.....................I STAYED IN THE HOS[ITAL FOR 10 DAYS, AND HE PUT OVER 10 SPECIALIZED DOCTORS ON MY CASE...................SO, ALL DAY EVERY DAY, DOCORR'S WERE WALKING IN AND OUT OF MY ROOM.............
WE HAD THE NEROLOGIST, THE NEPHOLOGIST, THE GASTRENTERLOGIST, THE UROLOGIST, THE CARDIOLOGIST, THE ENDRCRINLOGIST, THE VASCUKAR DOCTOR, THE PSYCHITRIST, AMONGST MANY OTHERS................
............AND...............I WENT FO ZILLIONS OF TESTS.................
I HAD 3 MORE MRI'S WITH CONTRAST.................NO FURTHER STOKES!
MANY XRAYS OF MY SPINE AND NECK.............ULTRASOUNDS OF MY ABDOMEN AND KIDNEYS, ETC...................
WHAT THEY DID FIND IS THAT MY LEFT KIDNEY IS A VERY SMALL KIDNEY.........THEY ARE WATCHING MY CREATININE LEVEL, WHICH WAS A BIT ELEVATED..............NEXT WEEK I'LL GO THE KIDNEY DOCTOR, FOR MORE TESTS!
WHILE IN THE HOSPITAL, I NEEDED TO BE TRANSFUSED WITH 2 UNITS OF PACKED CELLS, AS I WAS SEVERLY ANEMIC WITH A HBG. OS 8.2...................I GOT A SHOT TO INCREASE MY BONE MARROW PRODUCTION, AS THE DOCTORS ARE NOT SURE WHY I GET SO ANEMIC.........THEY WANT TO CHECK ME OUT, AS I MAY HAVE A BLOOD DISODER THAT MAKES ME VERY ANEMIC..............
AND..........ONE MORE THING..............THE DOCTOR'S WANT TO PUT A STENT IN MY BRAIN, BECAUSE OF THE STROKE I HAD LAST YEAR...................WE GO FOR MY EVALUATION NEXT WEEK, BUT I DOUBT I WILL HAVE IT IMPLANTED IN ME...............................
SO, THAT'S ABOUT IT!.....................JIMMY WAS WITH ME ALL TH TIME, AND TOOK CARE ME ALL THROUGH CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR'S........................
SORRY IF I SOUND DEPRESSING TO TELL YOU ALL THIS.........
HOWEVER, ONE GOOD THING IS THAT AM 54 YEAR'S OLD,, AND DON'T REALLY LOOK MY AGE....................THE DOCTOR'S ALL LOOK AT ME, AND SAY YOU SO HEALTHY, EVEN THOUGH SO MANY THINGS ARE WRONG!
AND SO THAT'S IT! I REFUSE TO BE SICK!..................JIMMY LET ME REST AS MUCH AS I WANTED, SO NOW I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER
I KNOW THIS IS A JOURNAL ABOUT BEING A "PRISONER'S WIFE."........................................I SHARE MY THOUGHTS WITH YOU.......................THE UPS AND DOWNS, THE GOOD AND BAD........................
..................I AM STILL BY MY HUSBAND'S SIDE
.............HE DOES NO WRONG............HE GOES TO PAROLE AS HE SHOULD AND THE PAROLE OFFICER COMES HERE WHENEVER SHE WISHES...............
................SO THAT IS WHAT I SUGGEST, TO ALL OF YOU THAT WRITE TO ME.................BE STRONG FOR YOUR HUSBAND......................EVEN IF YOU HAVE NO OTHER PEOPLE TO HELP YOU.......................I KNOW YOU ARE DEPRESSED, JUST AS I WAS........................BUT SOMEHOW TRY TO GET THROUGH IT DAY BY DAY................
I KNOW IT WAS THE HOLIDAYS, AND YOUR HUSBAND IS AWAY.........SO IT IS VERY HARD TO BE JOYFUL..............THE WHOLE ISSUE OF HAVING SOMEONE IN PRISON IS VERY DISTRESSING........................
....................FRAN
