RESPONSE TO LAST COMMENT..............I MADE ALL THE NECESSARY CALLS, TO ALL THE RIGHT PLACES, AND IT IS TRUE, JIMMY IS NO LONGER AT KINTOCK, AND HAS BEEN SENT BACK TO PRISON.  I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT HAPPENED......I SPOKE TO HIM LAST ON SATURDAY NIGHT, AND EVERYTHING WAS OK.

DEBBIE........THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE WITH ME , NOW....I FEEL SO ALONE, YOU JUST DON'T KNOW..........I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANYONE TO CALL AND TELL THIS TO ON THE PHONE..................WELL, THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE, BUT THEY WOU;D SAY THAT JIMMY GOT WHAT HE DESERVED, I GUESS.........

I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN GO ON LIVING THE LIFE OF A CRIMINAL'S WIFE..............I JUST NEVER WAS IN THIS KIND OF POSITION IN MY LIFE......

THANK YOU DEBBIE AND BECKY...........

I FEEL SO SICK IN MY HEAD AND JEART RIGHT NOW, THAT I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO YOU....I CAN OMLY WRITE IN THIS JOURNAL, WHO HAS BEEN MY FRIEND, THROUGH THICK AND THIN..........

RIGHT NOW, I NEED ALL OF YOU...JUST TO KNOW YOU ARE THERE.............

FOR ME, THE FUTURE LOOKS BLEAK.....

I CAN'T THINK ABOUT 6 MONTHS...OR EVEN 6  MINUTES RIGHT NOW..........

I KNOW HOW JIMMY IS FEELING RIGHT NOW.......VERY TERRIBLE....

WHEN HE CAN'T TALK TO ME, HE GETS VERY DEPRESSED, AND GETS VERY QUIET........HE IS VERY QUIET RIGHT NOW.....

I WILL LAY DOWN, AND REST RIGHT NOW.  I WILL THINK OF JIMMY, AND TALK TO HIM IN MY THOUGHTS..............WE ALWAYS DO IT...COMMUNICATE TO EACH OTHER IN OUR THOUGHTS...

I WILL TAKE ONE MINUTE AT A TIME, AS I DID IN THE BEGINNING.......

I DON'T HAVE THE FACTS............I CALLED THE STORE WHERE HE WAS WORKING, AND THEY SAID HE DIDN'T WORK THERE ANYMORE.........THEY SAID HE WAS SENT BACK TO PRISON.....

NOW, IT WILL BE A VERY LONG PROCESS.........THEY USUALLY SEND THEM BACK TO A PLACE CALLED "CRAF," SO THAT THEY CAN PLACE THEM IN A PRISON. 

SO, HE IS OUT OF KINTOCK.....SOMEWHERE, I'M NOT SURE........AND HE CAN NOT MAKE ANY CALLS TO ME, UNTIL HE IS ASSIGNED A PRISON, AND GETS A PIN NUMBER..........THE PROCESS MAY TAKE SEVERAL WEEKS.........HOPEFULLY ONLY DAYS.........WE JUST DON'T KNOW........

AND SO, JIMMY WON'T BE COMING HOME IN MARCH, ON PAROLE, AS HE SHOULD HAVE........

IT WILL NOW GO INTO 4 OR MORE YERAS.........

I DON'T THINK I CAN REALLY WAIT THIS OUT......

I ONLY PRAY TO BE TAKEN AWAY...........

AND THAT IS THAT.......

I'M SO SICK , TOO, DEBBIE...............IT IS COMPARABLE TO A SHOCK, WHEN SOMEONE DIES, AND THEY ARE NO LONGER HERE.........

BETTY.....DEBBIE....DAWN......KATH...........AND ALL THE REST WHO READ THIS JOURNAL AND PRAY FOR ME EVERYDAY.......

YESSSSSSSSSSS, PRAY FOR ME RIGHT NOW...........

I FEEL LILKE I AM NOT HERE..........IT IS ALL LIKE A DREAM

THE UNTHINKABLE HAS HAPPENED

THE UNTHINKABLE HAS HAPPENED............JIMMY HAS BEEN SENT BACK TO PRISON.

 

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HELLO.  JIMMY HASN'T CALLED YET.  LAST TIME HE CALLED ME WAS SOMETIME SATURDAY NIGHT, AND NOW IT IS MONDAY AFTERNOON.

THAT IS EXACTLY PART OF THE PURPOSE OF THIS JOURNAL.....THE PRISONER'S WIFE AND LOVED ONE HAS NO RIGHTS.........SHE IS THE LAST ONE TO KNOW ANYTHING......SHE IS NEVER INFORMED.

I  CAN MAKE A LIST HERE OF SO MANY REASONS THAT JIMMY HASN'T CALLED ME.  I PREFER TO THINK THE REASON IS THAT KINTOCK HAS THE PHONES CLOSED, MAYBE BECAUSE SOMEBODY RAN AWAY, OR THE WEATHER IS BAD.   I DON'T KNOW.....I JUST DON'T KNOW.....

THERE ARE ALWAYS THE FEARS, SUCH AS IS HE SICK?   WAS HE SENT BACK TO PRISON?

NO ONE TELLS YOU ANYTHING.  SO I JUST SIT HERE AND WAIT......UNTIL I HEAR FROM HIM.

THERE IS A BIG SNOW STORM COMING HERE TO SOUTH JERSEY.......THEY PREDICT 4-6 INCHES, STARTING THIS AFTERNOON............

...................FRAN