ANSWER TO COMMENTS

IN ANSWER TO EVRYONE'S QUESTION ABOUT JIMMY WORKING................

JIMMY IS STILL WITH THE FOODSTORE.  HOWEVER, HE HAS TAKEN A LITTLE BREAK, NOW, TO BE HOME WITH ME................PROBABLY FOR A FEW WEEKS..............

JIMMY IS A MAN OF MANY TALENTS..................AND SO HE NEVER HAS DIFFICULTY IN JOBS..................HE IS A VERY PRODUCTIVE PERSON, WHO LOVES TO WORK................HE LOVES TO BE PROGRESSIVE!

HOWEVER, I DO UNDERSTAND THAT FOR MANY MEN OUT OF PRISON, FINDING A JOB IS VERY DIFFICULT.

DUE TO JIMMY'S HIGHER EDUCATION, AND HIS EXTREME KNOWLEDGE, HE IS ACTUALLY SOUGHT AFTER, IN MANY JOBS........................HE IS AN ASSET TO SOCIETY.................

AND NOW THAT HE IS MARRIED TO ME, HE WILL ONLY DO LEGAL THINGS IN LIFE......................LOL.  AS HIS WIFE, YOU MAY SAY I CARRY A BIG RESPONSIBILITY ON MY SHOULDERS!............BUT, I CAN HANDLE IT..............I LOVE JIMMY!

JIMMY TOOK OUR 2 CATS, MISTY AND JIMBO, TO BE GROOMED , THIS MORNING.  PRINCE WAS AT THE WINDOW, CRYING AS THE CATS LEFT.........

 WE INVITED MY SISTER OUT TO LUNCH TODAY,  AND WE WILL BE GOING TO A VERY CUTE MEXICAN RESTAURANT, WHICH JIMMY AND I FOUND, AND ATE IN A FEW WEEKS AGO.......................THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS, AND THE ATMOSPHERE WAS GREAT!

TALK TO YOU LATER!  ............................FRAN

HAPPY..HAPPY...................HAPPY

HI EVERYONE!

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME I'VE TALKED TO YOU.................

BUT I WOULD NOW LIKE TO SAY, I AM A VERY HAPPY PERSON................................ONCE AGAIN!

IT IS LIKE I HAVE NOW STEPPED OUT OF A VERY CONFINING BOX.....................A PLACE I EXISTED IN FOR THE PAST 3.6 YEARS.....................

AND NOW, ONCE AGAIN, I AM PART OF THE WORLD..................I AM PART OF SOCIETY..................I AM PART OF MY HUSBAND.......WE ARE A FAMILY!

I AM MY NORMAL, USUAL SELF....................THE WAY I ALWAYS WAS IN LIFE........................HAPPY TO BE A PERSON.........

JIMMY IS A VERY FAST MAN...........................AND SO, HE KEEPS LIFE VERY FAST FOR ME!......................AND I'M THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT NEEDS THAT!

SO EVERYDAY IS LIKE A WHIRLWIND FOR THE BOTH OF US.....................RESTAURANTS.............SHOPPING..............GOING HERE AND THERE!

WE ALSO KEEP EVERYTHING VERY ORGANIZED......WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR US!

YOU MAY SAY , I AM THE "WRITER," IN OUR MARRIAGE...................I WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN, AND KEEP EXCELLENT TRACK OF EVERYTHING IN OUR LIVES..........

WE HAvE EVEN BEEN GOING THROUGH BOXES AND BOXES OF THINGS I SAVED ALL THESE YEARS....................JIMMY IS EXTREMELY IMPRESSED BY THE THINGS AND NOTEBOOKS I WROTE........................HE SAYS I WROTE AN IMMENSE AMOUNT OF THINGS.........................ANY PERSONS NAME........PHONE NUMBER..............EVERY RECIEPT...................EVERYTHING.......I KEPT TRACK OF IT ALL..................AND NOW, WE ARE SLOWLY THROWING MOST OF THAT STUFF AWAY!

PAROLE CAME HERE A FEW DAYS AGO.................AND ALL IS WELL!

JIMMY WENT TO THE PAROLE OFFICE, ON THE DAYS HE MUST GO.......................SO WE KEEP UP WITH EVERYTHING, AND DO THE RIGHT THINGS................

WE LOVE TO GO TO MASS ON SUNDAYS, AND WILL BE ACTIVE IN SOME CHURCH ACTIVITIES, TOO.

WE ALSO WENT TO ATLANTIC CITY..THE TROPICANA...............AND ENJOYED IT VERY MUCH!

AS I TRY TO EXPLAIN, THE PROCESS ONE GOES THROUGH AFTER PRISON, IS TO GET USED TO THE WORLD, AND PEOPLE ONCE AGAIN....................EVEN THOUGH JIMMY WAS THE ONE INCARCERATED, I , HIS WIFE, ACTUALLY HAD A HARDER TIME EMERGING FROM THE RECLUSIVE LIFE I WAS LEADING.............................

THERE HAVE BEEN A COUPLE OF TIMES AT NIGHT, I WAKE UP AROUND 3 AM, AND START CRYING, JUST A LITTLE.  JIMMY WAKES UP, HOLDS ME IN HIS ARMS, AND ASKS ME WHAT'S WRONG.  I TELL HIM NOTHING IS WRONG,  ONLY I FEEL ANXIOUS  AND CANNOT WAIT FOR DAYLIGHT.............................JIMMY KNOWS THAT THROUGH THE 3.6 YEARS, I WOULD ALWAYS BE AWAKE AT NIGHT, IN A STATE OF ANXIETY...............AND I GREW TO HATE THE NIGHT TIME, AND THE DARKNESS.......................

AND BY THE WAY.............YOU MAY FIND IT AMUSING, THAT WE HAVE A LARGE KING SIZE BED...............HOWEVER, WE SLEEP IN ONE SMALL SECTION OF IT...............WE SLEEP IN EACH OTHERS ARMS.....................WE ALWAYS DID................WE ARE ALWAYS VERY MUSCH ENTWINNED WITH EACH OTHER.................AND OH YES, MISTY THE CAT, IS THERE BETWEEN US, TOO!

TODAY JIMMY WENT TO THE PSYCHOLOGIST...........SHE LIKED HIM SO MUCH, SHE LET HIM SPEAK FOR 1 HOUR.......INSTEAD OF THE USUAL 10 MINUTE VISIT.................JIMMY SPOKE ABOUT ME, AND OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER.....................AND SO NOW, WE WILL GO TOGETHER  NEXT MONTH......................THE PSYCHOLOGIST FEELS THAT WE ARE INTERESTING PEOPLE, AND DID A GOOD JOB IN HANDLING JIMMY'S INCARCERATION, AND STAYED CONNECTED THROUGH THE YEARS...............WE HAVE A UNIQUE STORY AND BACKGROUND, TO DISCUSS................

JIMMY AND I FEEL IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST, AND TALK THINGS OUT, AND GET GUIDANCE IN OUR LIFE..................

AND NOW, I SAVED THE BEST FOR LAST!

 A FEW DAYS AGO, JIMMY BOUGHT US A GORGEOUS BRAND NEW CAR!...............

IT IS A 2007 CADILLAC CTS...............THE COLOR IS A BEAUTIFUL PLATINUM   ( HE SAYS SINCE HIS WIFE HAS PLATINUM HAIR COLOR!)

THE CARHAS "ON STAR.".................WITH THAT, IF WE ARE LOST, THEY CAN TRACE THE CAR, AND GIVE US DIRECTIONS...............IF THE CAR IS STOLEN, IT CAN BE TRACED..........

THE CAR ALSO TALKS OUT LOUD................IT WILL TELL YOU MANY THINGS.............

ALSO ON THE DASHBOARD , IT LETS YOU KNOW MANY THINGS.............FOR EXAMPLE, IF YOU LEFT THE BLINKER ON.............IF THE DOOR IS OPEN............IF THE BRAKE IS ON...........IF THE AIR IN TIRES IS LOW

WE ALSO HAVE A BUILT IN PHONE SYSTEM IN THE CAR

WE HAVE A SUN ROOF, AND JIMMY TELLS ME THE CAR IS A SPORTS MODEL.

WE HAVE 1000'S OF RADIO STATIONS...............ACROSS THE COUNTRY........WITH A SATILITE DISH

IF THE HEADLIGHTS ARE DIRTY, THERE IS A SPRAY THAT WASHES THEM

AND OF COURSE, THINGS LIKE HEATED SEATS, AND 8 POSITIONS TO THE SEATS.................

YES, I'VE ALWAYS SAID JIMMY IS A VERY ADVANCED MAN...........ELECTRONICALLY...HE JUST LOVES ALL THE LATEST IN TECHNOLOGY......................AND HE UNDERSTANDS IT ALL!...................I AM LUCKY TO HAVE A HUSBAND LIKE THAT, WHO KEEPS ME UP TO DATE ON THE LATEST THINGS!

WELL, I'D BETTER GO NOW!........................I DON'T WANT TO STAY AWAY FROM JIMMY TOO LONG!.....................HE'S IN THE BEDROOM WATCHING TV, RIGHT NOW!..............WITH THE DOG, AND 2 CATS BY HIS SIDE!

        FRAN

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HI EVERYONE!.........................I'M SO HAPPY FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL COMMENTS YOU ARE WRITING!

MOST OF ALL, I AM HAPPY THAT THIS JOURNAL CONTINUES TO HELP THOSE WOMEN WITH A HUSBAND/MAN IN PRISON.............

PRISON WIVES ARE A UNIQUE PEOPLE..............SOME OF YOU HAVE WRITTEN AND EXPRESSED THE FEAR OF HAVING YOUR MAN RETURN HOME AFTER A FEW YEARS.............

YES, WE MUST ANALYZE IT, AND UNDERSTAND IT.IT IS A WONDERFUL THING TO HAVE YOUR MAN RETURN HOME, AND YET, IN SOME WAYS IT MAY BE A LITTLE SCARY, TOO.........AS WAS EXPRESSED IN THE COMMENTS.........

JIMMY ALWAYS TOLD ME, "FRAN, WHEN I COME BACK HOME, YOU MAY EXPERIENCE POST- TRAUMATIC SYNDROME"...............

AND SO I WOULD LIKE TO SAY, THAT WE AS WOMAN, ALTHOUGH MADLY IN LOVE WITH OUR MEN, MAY HAVE SOME PSYCHOLOGICAL ADJUSTING TO DO............

YOU MAY BE SAYING, 'WHAT IS FRAN TALKING ABOUT?".............SHE IS THE WOMAN WHO WAITED 3.6 YEARS FOR HER HUSBAND TO RETURN............THEY ARE BOTH MADLY IN LOVE...............THEY ARE BOTH HAPPY ..................

ALTHOUGH I AM NOT A PSYCHOLOGIST, I MUST TELL YOU THAT THERE ARE PSYCHOLOGIOCAL FACTORS INVOLVED...........JIMMY AND I ARE INTELLIGENT ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND THIS................

AND SO, WE ARE HANDLING THINGS................I BELIEVE THAT TO HANDLE IT, IS JUST TO LET LIFE, AND YOUR FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS FLOW................

AS FOR ME, I'M A VERY PRIVATE PERSON...................AND SO, ALTHOUGH I THINK I HAVE BECOME PART OF THE WORLD, I REALIZE THAT IT IS A SLOW PROCESS, AND I WILL NOT PUSH IT........................AND JIMMY IS UNDERSTANBDING AND DOES NOT PUSH ME EITHER...........

AND AS FOR JIMMY, I LET HIM DO WHAT HE WANTS...THE THINGS HE ENJOYS DOING AROUND THE HOUSE................

I LOOK AT HIM WHILE HE SLEEPS, AND REALIZE HE IS A MAN WHO EXISTED IN A PRISON.....................

JIMMY IS AS NORMAL AS CAN BE..............HE IS ALWAYS A HAPPY MAN, AND NEVER LETS ANYTHING BOTHER HIM................HE LOVES BEING MY HUSBAND, AND LOVES HIS PETS AMD HOME

AS FOR ME, I STILL LOOK AT THE OUTSIDE WORLD AS A VERY STRANGE PLACE................I HAVE A LITTLE TROUBLE BECOMING VERY CONNECTED WITH PEOPLE, AND THE OUTSIDE WORLD.........................IT IS LIKE "BEING HAPPY," EVEN FOR A FEW SECONDS, SEEMS VERY ODD AND STRANGE TO ME.....................AND IT IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT THE PEOPLE IN OUR SOCIETY.................YES, I JUST FEEL I AM NOT REALLY PART OF THEM.................WHEN I SEE PEOPLE TALKING AND LAUGHING, I CAN UNDERSTAND IT, BUT I JUST CANNOT BE PART OF IT YET.................

TRUTHFULLY, IT IS LIKE I AM A LITTLE AFRAID OF LETTING MYSELF GO...OF LETTING ANYONE KNOW WHO I AM, AND WHAT MY THOUGHTS ARE.....................

I STILL DO NOT FEEL PART OF THE WORLD, ALTHOUGH MY HUSBAND TRIES EACH DAY TO HELP ME THROUGH IT...........

ALL PRISONERS MUST GO TO VISIT THE PSYCHOLOGIST AT LEAST ONCE WHEN HOME.................JIMMY HAS AN APPOINTMENT NEXT WEEK.  AND THEN, AFTER THAT, I MAY GO SEE THE PSYCHOLOGIST, TO TALK THINGS OUT.....OR WHATEVER...................THEN, IF WE WANT TO, WE CAN VISIT THE PSYCHOLOGIST AS A COUPLE................WE'LL TAKE IT A STEP AT A TIME.....................

IT IS NOT THAT WE HAVE ANY INTENSE PSYCHOLOGICAL PROBLEMS, BUT YOU MUST REALIZE, THAT GOING THROUGH A PRISON PROCESS FOR YEARS, DOES HAVE A CERTAIN IMPACT ON ONE, AND IT IS GOOD TO GET INTO THE SWING OF THINGS, IN A NORMAL WAY..........

TRUTHFULLY, JIMMY AND I CONTINUE TO HAVE A GREAT TIME!.....................TODAY WE WENT TO THE BOARDWALK AT SEASIDE HEIGHTS, WITH A HUSBAND AND WIFE WHOM WE ARE FRIENDLY WITH.

IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL WARM, SUNNY DAY, AND THE OCEAN WAS BEAUTIFUL!..................JIMMY WHEELED ME DOWN THE ENTIRE BOARDWALK, AND WE STAYED THERE FOR 2 HOURS.........TRUTHFULLY, I NEED THOSE QUIET TIMES WITH NATURE, TO MAKE ME FEEL AT EASE.....

THEN, WE ALL WENT OUT TO DINNER AT THE "OLIVE GARDEN."  WHAT A WONDERFUL MEAL IT WAS, AND EVERYONE WAS CHEERFULLY TALKING..................JIMMY JUST LOVES ITALIAN FOOD, SO HE HAD PASTA AND SALAD, AND BREAD STICKS........I HAD SHRIMP AND RISOTTA...

NEXT WEEKEND HE MAY TAKEME TO THE COLUMBUS DAY FAIR ON THE BOARDWALK AT SEASIDE.

YESTERDAY, ON SUNDAY, WE WENT TO 1PM MASS AT ST. MAXIMILLIAN CHURCH.  WE REALLY ENJOYED IT, AND EVEN IN CHURCH, AS WE PRAY, JIMMY LIKES TO HOLD MY HAND THROUGHOUT THE SERVICE................NEXT WEEKEND, I WILL BAKE FOR THE MONTHLY CAKE SALE IN THE CHURCH.  .......................SOME OF YOU MAY REMEMER THAT IN THE FIRST YEAR OF JIMMY'S INCARCERATION, I BAKED EVER MONTH FOR THE CHURCH BAKE SALE..............BUT AS THE YEARS WENT BY, I STOPPED DOING IT, BUT WILL NOW RESUME IT.............

YESTERDAY, WE WENT OUT TO DINNER IN A NEW MEXICAN RESTAURANT WHICH WE FOUND...............IT WAS SO GREAT AND THE FOOD DELICIOUS...................TAMALES AND ENCHILADAS!............

LAST NIGHT, JIMMY DID ALL THE THINGS HE LIKES TO DO TO ME...............GAVE ME A PEDICURE..............A MANICURE, AND PAINTED MY NAILS!...............HE EVEN COLORED MY HAIR, WHICH HE LOVES TO DO.........A PRETTY SHADE OF PLATINUM BLONDE!

WE ALSO WATCHED A GOOD ROMANTIC MOVIE ON "ON DEMAND!"  (ABOUT A BRITISH ACTRESS WHO FALLS IN LOVE WITH A YOUNGER MAN)

JIMMY SAYS THAT IN THE MORNING HE WILL TAKE ME TO BUY A NEW CAR....I BELIEVE IT IS AN SUV.  AND WE WILL STILL KEEP THE JAG.......................KNOWING MY HUSBAND, HE WILL BUY THIS NEW CAR IN AROUND 20 MINUTES, FLAT.  AS I ALWAYS SAY, JIMMY IS A VERY FAST AND QUICK MAN!

ON WEDNESDAY, HE WILL GO TO THE PAROLE OFFICE,  AS REQUIRED.

SO, EVERYTHING IS FALLING INTO PLACE.

THE BEST ADVICE, WHEN HUBBY RETURNS HOME, IS TO KEEP EVERYTHING ORGANIZED FOR HIM....................KEEP YOUR BOOKS AND CALENDERS IN ORDER............

JIMMY LOVES TO DO THINGS AND GO PLACES..............HE IS A VERY ACTIVE MAN.....HE WANTS ME WITH HIM AT ALL TIMES!................I LOVE GOING AROUND WITH HIM!...........BUT HE KNOWS NOT TO PUSH ME TOO MUCH AS I LIKE TO TAKE LIFE SLOWER...

I WILL  GO NOW, AND CLIMB BACK INTO BED, INTO JIMMY'S ARMS, WHICH ARE VERY MUSCULAR AND STRONG.............IT IS THE PLACE I FEEL SAFE AND PEACEFUL, AND CONTENT....................IT IS THE PLACE I LOVE TO BE!

.............................FRAN

(WE'RE HAVING COMPUTER PROBLEMS WITH COMCAST)

 

TIS ME AGAIN!

HI EVERYONE!

TIS ME, AGAIN!

IT IS 5;30 AM, AND JIMMY IS STILL SLEEPING, AND I SNUCK OUT OF BED TO WRITE , AND KEEP YOU UP TO DATE ON THINGS!

JIMMY ASKS ME EVERYDAY, TO WRITE IN THIS JOURNAL..............I FOUND IT HARD TO DO....................ONLY BECAUSE MY LIFE CHANGED.....................MY THOUGHTS CHANGED SO INTENSELY..................................I USED THIS JOURNAL FOR SEVERAL YEARS, TO WRITE WHAT WAS ON MY MIND..............WHAT WAS IN MY THOUGHTS.....................

AND NOW, WE/ I  HAVE ENTERED A NEW PHASE IN LIFE...............

JIMMY HAS BEEN HOME FOR 12 DAYS.......................OUR LIVES RIGHT NOW, ARE VERY DIFFERENT.................WE ARE VERY CONNECTED MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY, AND SPIRITUALLY.....................

I TRY TO RELEASE THE PAST, AND WANT ONLY TO THINK OF THE PRESENT......................

AND SO I THOUGHT TO MYSELF..."HOW DO I WRITE TODAY'S ENTRY?".................."FROM A PSYCHOLOGICAL, OR PHYSICAL POINT OF VIEW?"

FOR YOU PRISON WIVES, WHO HAVE HUSBANDS THAT HAVE JUST ARRIVED HOME, OR WILL SOON BE HOME, LET ME EXPLAIN........................................JUST LET LIFE "UNFOLD."

TAKE YOUR TIME....................RELAX.....................ALLOW YOUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS TO EMERGE.................DO NOT PRESSURE YOURSELF..................LET LIFE SIMPLY TAKE PLACE...................

JIMMY IS ALWAYS A VERY QUICK AND FAST MAN................BUT WITH ME, HE BEGINS TO RELAX..................AND OF COURSE, I RELAX WITH HIM.

AS FOR MYSELF, MY AGORAPHOBIA HAS PRETTY MUCH DISAPPEARED.....................JIMMY TAKES ME OUT EVERYDAY......TO MANY DIFFERENT PLACES.............I HAVE NOW STARTED TO GET USED TO THE PUBLIC , ONCE AGAIN....................I TOLD JIMMY, "IT WAS LIKE I WAS IN A BOX FOR THE PAST 3   1/2 YEARS, AND NOW, I HAVE FINALLY BEEN LET OUT.................IT IS A VERY FUNNY AND STRANGE EXPERIENCE, THAT I DON'T WISH ON ANYONE..................AND I WOULD TELL HIM, I HEAR THE PEOPLE TALKING ALL AROUND ME, IN PUBLIC, BUT I DO NOT FEEL PARTOF THEM.........................AND NOW, AFTER 12 DAYS OF GOING OUT AND AROUND, I STARTED TO BEGIN TO FEEL CONNECTED TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD, ONCE AGAIN....................

BUT THE PEOPLE THAT WERE THERE FOR THE PAST 3  1/2 YEARS....WELL, THEY ARE STILL THERE, DOING THE SAME THING...................LEADING THEIR SAME MUNDANE LIVES.................YES, THOSE PEOPLE, WHOM I WILL NOT MENTION NAMES, ARE THE ONES WHO KEPT ME SOCIALLY ISOLATED FOR THE ENTIRE TIME MY HUSBAND WAS IN PRISON..........

FOR INSTANCE, JIMMY;'S FATHER, WHO LIVES LESS THAN 5 MINUTES AWAY, HAS NOT SEEN HIS SON YET.................I CALLED HIM SEVERAL TIMES TO TELL HIM JIMMY IS HOME, BUT .WELL, THIS IS WHAT IT IS.............

AND SO, ALL THE MISERABLE PEOPLE, THEIR LIFE GOES ON..................I ALWAYS TELL JIMMY I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE EXPERIENCED THIS PRISON THING, BECAUSE I CAN UNDERSTAND MYSELF EVEN MORE, AND THOSE AROUND ME.......

WHAT HAVE WE DONE, SINCE JIMMY HAS BEEN HOME?.............EVERYTHING!

WE WENT TO SEE THE MOVIE "BLACK DALIA," LAST THURSDAY.A PRETTY GOOD MOVIE......INTENSE, BUT SEDUCTIVE.....

IN THE MOVIE, JIMMY HELD ME IN HIS ARMS THE ENTIRE TIME.......AS HE ALWAYS HAD IN THE PAST YEARS............

WE ARE PLANNING TO GO SEE THE MOVIE ABOUT QUEEN ELIZABETH WHEN IT COMES OUT NEXT WEEK...............

WE HAVE GONE TO RESTAURANTS UPON RESTAURANTS........OVER  10, SINCE HIS ARRIVAL HOME.................AND JIMMY STILL LOVES TO COOK, AND EVERY MORNING I MAKE THE COFFEE, AS HE SAYS HE LOVES MY COFFEE!

JIMMY HAS CHANGED THE ENTIRE HOUSEHOLD!.......HE MOVES FURNTITURE AROUND, DID AND STILL DOES INTENSE CLEANING EVERYDAY, FOR A FEW HOURS EACH DAY.................THE ENTIRE COMPUTER ROOM IS CHANGED ROUND...............HE IS BUSY INTO DOING HIS ELECTRONICS...........FIXING THE COMPUTER THINGS...AND HE ATTACHED THE IPOD TO THE STEREO IN THE BEDROOM.................

WE BOTH DECIDED TO GET RID OF AS MUCH AS WE COULD.............THIS IS A NEW BEINNING TO LIFE, AND WE DID NOT WANT ANYTHING OF THE PAST....................

MOST OF MY CLOTHESHAVE BEEN CHANGED..............I DON'T WANT ANYTHING FROM THE PAST 3.6 YEARS..................AND SO, JIMMY HAS BOUGHT ME MANY NEW CLOTHES, JACKETS, AND IN A FEW DAYS A NEW COAT.............

HE BOUGHT ME A BEAUTIFUL BLACK LEATHER COACH HANDBAG, IN THE COACH STORE AT OCEAN COUNTY MALL.............IT IS GORGEOUS!.............

HE ALSO BOUGHT ME A BEAUTIFUL 2.5 KARET DIAMOND BRACELT, WHICH I REALLY LOVE.....AND ALSO ANOTHER CHARM FOR MY CHARM BRACLET, OF A CRESENT MOON, AND ANGEL ON IT...........

EVERYDAY, BEFORE WE GO OUT, JIMMY HELPS ME GET DRESSED  (HE EVEN LOVES TO WASH MY BACK IN THE SHOWER)...............HE PUTS ON MY KNEE HIGH STOCKINGS AND THE BLACK SHOES HE BOUGHT ME......................ONE PAIR IS CALLED BALLERINA SHOES, AND I JUST LOVE THOSE LITTLE SHOES!........................MY LEGS HAVE BECOME SLIM ONCE AGAIN, AND ARE NO LONGER EDEMATOUS AS THEY WERE THE PAST YEARS............................I HAVE STARTED WALKING MUCH BETTER NOW, ONCE AGAIN, WITH SHOES ON MY FEET..........................WE STILL TAKE THE WHEELCHAIR ALONG, AND JIMMY PUSHES ME, AND SOMETIMES I GET MY EXERCISE WALKING................

JIMMY HAD STANLEY STEAMER COME AND DO THE HOUSEHOLD CARPETS  LAST WEEK............I DEVELOPED ACUTE BRONCHITIS FROM THE CHEMICALS, AND HE TOOK ME TO THE E.R., LAST SUNDAY..............I LOST MY VOICE, TOO.................EVEN JIMMY WAS AFFECTED BY THE CHEMICALS, AND HAD A LITTLE COLD.............THEY GAVE ME BREATHING TX., AND PUT ME ON ANTIBX., AND COUGH SYRUP, AND INHALERS........................JIMMY KEPT TELLING ME, "LET'S GO THE THE ER."...................I KNEW IT WAS TIME TO GO, WHEN THE AREA AFFECTED IN MY LUNGS WAS TOO DEEP FOR ME TO COUGH UP..............THEY TOOK A C-XY, WHICH WAS FINE......................

IT IS WONDERFUL, TO HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL HUSBAND!......................HE TELLS ME THROUGHOUT THE DAY, THAT I AM A WONDERFUL WIFE..............THE BEST A MAN COULD HAVE!.............TO ME, HE IS THE BEST HUSBAND  A WIFE COULD HAVE!

HE IS CONSTANTLY KISSING ME, HOLDING ME, ETC.................EVEN NOW AS I WRITE THIS, I FEEL THE URGE TO CLIMB BACK INTO BED NEXT TO HIM, TO CUDDLE UP.AND I WILL VERY SOON!

YESTERDAY, WE WENT TO THE CHURCH, FOR FRIDAY'S BENEDICTION................JIMMY THANKED ME FOR SUGGESTING TO GO THERE...............IT WAS PEACEFUL, AND WE PRAYED AND MEDITATED.....................

LAST NIGHT, I ASKED JIMMY WHAT SHOULD I WRITE IN THE JOURNAL...HE SAID, "THAT WE ARE IN LOVE1"

.....AND YES, THAT IS SIMPLY WHAT IT IS!

BUT I MUST STRESS, TO THOSE PRISON WIVES  READING THIS THAT YOUR HUSBAND COMING HOME AFTER MANY YEARS, IS A PROCESS.................EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN CONNECTED....................YOU MUST USE YOUR HEAD AND YOUR INTELLIGENCE, TO UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS A PROCESS.....................

IT IS ALMOST LIKE A DE-PROGRAMING.  THE MAN IS NOW HOME, IN A DIFFERENT ENVIRONMENT...............NO LONGER IN THE PRISON/HALF-WAY HOUSE...................AND SO, YOU MUST BOTH LET EVERYTHING FALL BACK INTO PLACE............SLOWLY.....................DO NOT PUSH ANYTHING................BE HAPPY.  BE CONTENT.............IT SIMPLY MEANS, TO LET ALL YOUR FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS FALL INTO PLACE NATURALLY AND NORMALLY...................IF EVERY MOMENT IS NOT WONDERFUL AND GREAT, IT IS OK............JUST RELAX AND GO WITH THE FLOW..............

WELL, I'LL SAY BYE FOR NOW, AND HOPE TO WRITE AGAIN SOON........................JIMMY WILL BE WRITING AN ENTRY SOON, AND MAY EVEN PUT OUR PIX HERE!                    :)

.................WITH LOVE,

                           FRAN

 

JIMMY IS HOME!

YES, EVERYONE!

JIMMY IS HOME!

I KNOW I KEPT YOU ALL IN SUSPENCE!....................BUT OUR LIVES HAVE BEEN ROLLING ALONG, SO RAPIDLY..............SO MANY THINGS TO DO!..................SO MUCH LOVE IN THE AIR!.................................JIMMY AND I ARE TOGETHER EVERY MINUTE, AS WE ALWAYS WERE BEFORE HIS INCARCERATION, AND ALWAYS WILL BE, NOW THAT HE IS HOME!

AND LIFE IS GREAT!...................WHAT MORE CAN I SAY!

JIMMY USES THE COMPUTER, BUT AS FOR ME, I USED IT SO MUCH FOR THE PAST 3.6 YEARS, WRITING THIS JOURNAL, ETC....................SO I TOOK A BREAK!.............AS MY LIFE IS SPENT WITH HUGS AND KISSES FROM JIMMY, RIGHT NOW!

I'LL EXPLAIN A LITTLE ABOUT WHAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING......................JIMMY CAME HOME ON MONDAY, 9/18/06................I HAD CALLED HIS FATHER, TO ASK TO PICK HIM UP............HE COULD NOT, AS WAS THE WAY IT WAS FOR THE PAST 3.6 YEARS...............NO DAD, NO HELP!

ALSO, ONCE AGAIN, 2 OF OUR FRIENDS , WHO KNEW JIMMY NEEDED TO BE DRIVEN HOME, COULD NOT MAKE IT EITHER.....................SEE WHAT I MEAN, PRISON WIVES?............THE PEOPLE WHOM YOU RELY ON, ALWAYS LET YOU DOWN, WITH HUBBY IN PRISON!

SO JIMMY FINALLY GOT HERE, AND THEN WE HAD THE PROBLEM OF GETTING TO RED BANK, NEW JERSEY, TO GO TO THE PAROLE OFFICE....UPON LEAVING THE HALF-WAY HOUSE, HE MUST REPORT TO THE PAROLE OFFICE THAT EXACT DAY...............IT IS A LITTLE MORE THAN A HALF HOUR AWAY, FROM OUR HOUSE.................................

AT FIRST WE HAD A LITTLE PROBLEM...........OUR CAR HAD A FLAT TIRE.................TAXI'S WERE TAKEN UP...........MY AUNT CALLED, TO WELCOME JIMMY HOME....................SO, WE FELT SO BLESSED THAT AUNT JO, AND HER BOYFRIEND, AND LITTLE MINIATURE DOGGIE, MIMI , DROVE US THERE IN HER NEW LINCOLN!

SO WE ARE DOING EVERYTHING THAT IS EXPECTED OF US!.....WE ARE FOLLOWING ALL THE RULES!

WE'VE BEEN DOING SO MANY THINGS, AND GOING SO MANY PLACES!........................YESTERDAY, JIMMY TOOK ME FOR BLOODWORK.............THEN WE STOPPED IN AN ITALIAN COFFEE SHOP FOR COFFEE, AND HE HAD AN ITALIAN PASTRY...........................AFTER THAT, HE TOOK ME TO A SHOE-STORE, AND BOUGHT ME 2 PAIRS OF BEAUTIFUL BLACK SHOES!....................YOU SEE, SINCE 2004, SINCE I HAD THE TOE AMPUTATION, NO ONE COULD TAKE ME FOR SHOES..........SO MY WALKING GOT WORSE AND WORSE, WEARING ONLY DARCO BOOTS, BECAUSE MY FEET ARE VERY NUMB......SO, I WAS ABLE TO KEEP THE SHOES ON FOR 5 HOURS AND I AM NOW STARTING TO WALK BETTER!

JIMMY, JUST NOW,  TOLD ME, TO START TO GET READY................HE WANTS TO TAKE ME TO THE SHOPPING MALL..TO MACY'S, AMD WANTS TO BUY ME SOME NEW CLOTHES!.....................WHAT A WONDERFUL HUSBAND I HAVE.................

I WILL WRITE AGAIN, AND KEEP YOU UP TO DATE ON WHAT IS HAPPENING IN OUR LIFE, AND WHERE WE ARE GOING, AND WHAT WE ARE DOING!............................

I GUESS THE RECLUSE THAT I WAS FOR 3 .6 YEARS, HAS NOW STARTED TO CHANGE, BECAUSE MY HUSBAND IS ONCE AGAIN HOME!............

TRUTHFULLY, I AM VERY LUCKY, BECAUSE I HAVE A HUSBAND WHO LIKES TO "WORK ON ME," AS HIS WIFE...........WHAT I MEAN IS THAT HE LIKES TO ALWAYS TRY TO BRING OUT THE BEST IN ME!

YOU SEE, AFTER BEING COOPED UP, FOR SO MANY YEARS, I HAVE ONCE AGAIN STARTED TO LIKE GETTING OIT, AND MOVING AROUND......................SO, JIMMY AND I ARE BOTH VERY ACTIVE NOW, AND WE LOVE IT!.........................AND THE BEST PART IS, THERE IS NO COUNT, NO GOING BACK AT 8 PM, ETC...........AT NIGHT WE LAY IN BED TOGETHER, HOLDING EACH OTHER, AND HAVING A VERY GOOD REST!

YESTERDAY, WE WENT OUT TO LUNCH, WITH C., WHO IS A FAN OF THIS BLOG.......YES, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE    :)........WE WENT TO AN ITALIAN RESTAURANT, AND HAD SOME GOOD FOOD, AND NICE TALK...........WE HAD A GREAT TIME, AND WILL DO IT AGAIN SOON!........................AT THE LUNCHEON, HE  (C), ESPECIALLY ASKED ME TO MAKE AN ENTRY IN THIS JOURNAL.................THAT IS, TO TELL THE READERS THAT JIMMY IS HOME, AND EVERYTHING IS GOING VERY WELL................................

WELL. HERE IS THE ENTRY, EVERYONE!...................AND I'LL KEEP YOU UP TO DATE!.......................................FRAN

a love letter

IT IS NOW 1:30 AM, SUNDAY, 9/17/06

JIMMY WILL BE HOME, FOR GOOD TOMORROW..........ON MONDAY, 9/18/06

IT IS ALMOST UNBELIEVABLE.

WE SPOKE AS USUAL, MANY TIMES ON THE PHONE TODAY. 

WE FEEL THAT THROUGH THE YEARS OF JIMMY BEING IN PRISON, WE HAD IN SOME UNUSUAL WAY ALMOST PUT OURSELVES IN SOME DETACHED STATE OF MIND................ALMOST LIKE A TRANCE..........JUST SO WE CCOULD GET THROUGH IT

NOW, WE ARE BACK TO OUR NORMAL, USUAL SELVES.......

JIMMY SAYS HE ALMOST CAN'T BE.LIEVE THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY 3.6 YEARS OF BEING AWAY....................AS FOR ME, I TOLD HIM I REALLY DIDN;T WANT TO REMEMBER TOO MUCH ABOUT THE LAST 3.6 YEARS............I REALLY AM TRYING TO PUT THE PAST OUT OF MY MIND

WE ARE BOTH CALM AT THIS TIME...............

COMING HOME IS A NORMAL STATE AND IT IS NORMAL FOR JIMMY TO BE HERE.............THIS IS WHERE HE BELONGS.............THIS IS HIS HOME, AND WE ARE MARRIED, AND HAVE OUR 3 PETS..........WE HAVE A LOVING HOME......

I FEEL VERY PEACEFUL................HAPPY INSIDE AND OUT..........VERY CALM.

PEOPLE MAY SAY, "OH, IT IS A TIME TO CELEBRATE!".............

IN ONE WAY IT IS A CELEBRATION.BUT IN ANOTHER WAY, IT IS A NORMAL PHASE OF LIFE........................IT IS THE PASSAGE INTO THE NEXT ASPECT OF LIFE...

JIMMY AND I ARE INTENSELY IN LOVE, AND YET WE ARE ALSO ON AN EVEN KEEL.........................IN OUR LIFE, WE FOLLOW THE RULES, AND LIVE A GOOD CLEAN LIFE...........

AND SO, I ENJOYED MYSELF BY WASHING JIMMY'S CLOTHES TODAY!

STRANGE AS IT MAY SEEM!

JIMMY HAS BOUGHT ALL HIS CLOTHES HOME,  HE USUALLY WASHES HIS OWN CLOTHES.  HOWEVER, TODAY I DID IT!................AND I JUST LOVED DOING IT!.................SEPERATING THE WHITES FROM THE COLOR CLOTHES................HIS PANTS FROM THE SHIRTS.................WHAT A JOY TO WASH YOUR HUSBAND'S CLOTHES!.............EVERYTHING IS NOW HANGING NEATLY IN THE CLOSET FOR HIM!...........................THE SIMPLE JOYS IN LIFE!...............

THANK YOU, DEAR LORD, FOR ALLOWING ME THE SIMPLE JOYS IN LIFE!

PEACE, BALANCE AND HARMONY.............THE 3 WORDS I ALWAYS LIKE TO SAY, AND THINK, INSIDE OF ME...........

I RECEIVED THIS BEAUTIFUL LOVE LETTERIN THE MAIL TODAY,  FROM JIMMY, AND I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE IT WITH EVERYONE..................

 

MY DEAREST WIFE,

THE RAIN IS POUNDING HARD AGAINST MY WINDOW, THIS MIDNIGHT.  IN 8 HOURS I WILL BE HOME ON MY LAST FURLOUGH. I TINGLE WITH THE THOUGHT THAT I WILL SOON HOLD YOU.....KISS YOU.  YES, MY LITTLE ONE.  I WILL HAVE TO LEAVE YOU AT 8PM, BUT I WILL RETURN MONDAY MORNING.  AND I SWEAR THAT I WILL  NEVER BE PHYSICALLY APART FROM YOU AGAIN. 

MY LITTLE BRIDE...YOU HAVE SHOWN YOURSELF TO BE, OVER THE TIME OF MY INCARCERATION, THE BEST THAT A WIFE CAN POSSIBLY BE. 

I THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES  FOR LOVING ME.

I AM A BETTER MAN BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME.

MAYBE I REPEAT WHAT I SAY, HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS OF TIMES, BUT I HAVE NO OTHER WORDS.

I WAS TOLD, HOW GREAT YOUR LOVE IS. , AND HOW YOU MADE THE CHOICE TO BE WITH ME, BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME FREELY.......WILLING.,...............AND WHOLEFULLY. 

THAT I NEED NOT THANK YOU, FOR YOUR LOVE, AS IT IS A GIFT YOU GIVE TO ME WILLINGLY.

I AM A VERY LUCKY MAN.  NEVER DID I SEE MYSELF  DESERVING ANYONE LIKE YOU.

WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A GREAT LIFE TOGETHER..............LOTS OF FUN...........LOVE...................JOY......................AND WE WILL GIVE IT OUT TO THE WORLD!

YOUR LOVING SOULMATE AND HUSBAND,

JIMMY

 

GOOD NITE, EVERYONE, AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

             ....FRAN

CAN'T BELIEVE IT!

IT IS NOW SATURDAY 12:45 AM.  JIMMY WILL BE RELEASED AND HOME FOR GOOD, FROM THE HALFWAY HOUSE, ON MONDAY MORNING.

RIGHT NOW, I FEEL IT IS ALMOST UNBELIEVABLE!.....THE TIME HAS ACTUALLY ARRIVED, AFTER WAITING  3  1/2 YEARS.

JIMMY WAS HOME TODAY, ON HIS 12 HOUR FURLOUGH.  HE TOLD ME OVER AND OVER THAT HE LOVES ME..........WE WERE IN EACH OTHERS ARMS MOST OF THE DAY.  HE LIKES TO HOLD ME IN HIS ARMS, AND GAZE IN MY EYES..........

HE TOLD ME THAT I AM THE ONE IMPORTANT PERSON HERE ON THIS EARTH THAT IS IMPORTANT TO HIM.........AND I TELL HIM HE IS THE ONLY IMPORTANT PERSON FOR ME ON THIS PLANET............

ACTUALLY FOR ME, GOING THROUGH THIS PRISON PROCESS WAS A NORMAL THING. JIMMY COMMITTED A CRIME, AMND I AM HIS WIFE....... YES, IT WAS ROUGH.  BUT, I NEVER, EVER STOPPED LOVING MY HUSBAND.

ALSO, NOW THAT HE IS COMING HOME, I FEEL EXCITED IN ONE WAY, BUT I ALSO FEEL LIKE IT IS SIMPLY NORMAL.  HE BELONGS HERE, AS THE HUSBAND OF THIS HOUSEHOLD..........IT IS SIMPLY NORMAL FOR HIM TO BE HOME................

I KNOW MOST PEOPLE WOULD LOVE JIMMY!  TODAY HE ONCE AGAIN COOKED.............PORK CHOPS WITH SALAD FOR ME, ALOMNG WITH SOME SHELLS AND BUTTER FOR HIM!  YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE HOW SPOTLESS HE LEAVES THE PLACE!  HE LOVES TO DO ALL THE HOUSECLEANING, AND HE ALWAYS TELLS ME HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO DO ANYTHING, ALTHOUGH I ALWAYS HAD TO DO A LITTLE, LIKE MOPPING AND VACUUMING, AS WE HAVE 3 PETS..............WHEN HE GETS HOME, HE WILL SOON HAVE PROFESSIONALS COME AND CLEAN THE CARPETS...............

JIMMY TOLD ME TODAY THAT HE IS VERY HAPPY BEING A MARRIED MAN.  HE FEELS IT IS NATURAL AND COMFORTABLE FOR HIM TO BE MARRIED..................AND IT IS THE SAME FOR ME.................AS YOU ALL KNOW, JIMMY AND I WERE MARRIED APRIL 29, 2001...............

AND SO, I WILL GO TO SLEEP NOW, AND THINK OF JIMMY.  HE IS VERY HAPPY, AND EXCITED ABOUT COMIMG HOME SO VERY SOON!

HOWEVER, OF COURSE HE WILL CALL ME IN THE MORNING,  AROUND 7 AM, AND WE WILL CONTINUE TO CHAT ON THE PHONE!...........AFTER ALL, WE ARE SO USED TO IT!

GOOD NITE!.....................FRAN