4 MORE DAYS TO GO

JUST 4 MORE DAYS TO GO.  TODAY IS WEDNESDAY, AND HE WILL BE HOME ON MONDAY.  HE WILL ALSO HAVE A 12 HOUR FURLOUGH ON FRIDAY................

JIMMY FEELS VERY EXCITED...............HE SAID ON THE PHONE, THAT HE FEELS LIKE A RACE-HORSE, READY TO GO!

TODAY, JIMMY MENTIONED THE "COMING HOME CAKE" HE WOULD LIKE...........

AS THE DAY APPROACHES, I AM GETTING MORE EXCITED.............HOWEVER, I TRY  NOT TO DWELL ON IT TOO MUCH, UNTIL THE TIME IS HERE.....................I REALLY CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM ON FRIDAY!

JIMMY SIGNED HIS RELEASE PAPERS THE OTHER DAY, SO WE ARE HAPPY ABOUT THAT!

MOST LIKELY HIS FRIEND WILL DRIVE ME ON MONDAY, TO PICK JIMMY UP.  HIS FRIEND IS ON A CRUISE THIS WEEK, AND RETURNS SUNDAY....SO WE WILL SEE.  HIS FRIEND HAS A MERCEDES CONVERTIBLE, AND MAY BE TOO SMALL FOR JIMMY, MYSELF, AND JIMMY'S BELONGINGS, SO WE ARE MOST LIKELY HAVING ANOTHER FRIEND, AND HIS WIFE, THERE TO DRIVE US BACK.........................SO, YES, IT WILL BE A JOLLY TIME!

JIMMY WILL REPORT, AS INSTRUCTED , DIRECTLY TO THE PAROLE OFFICE...................

JIMMY ALWAYS SAYS THAT I AM THE ONE IN LIFE WHO CHANGED HIS CRIMANALISTIC WAYS....................THAT HE WILL NEVER COMMIT A CRIME AGAIN, DUE TO ME BEING IN HIS LIFE, AND HIS WIFE........................TRUTHFULLY, I FEEL REALLY HONORED FOR A HUMAN BEING, WHO IS MY HUSBAND, TO FEEL THIS WAY, AND SAY SUCH A THING............................I AM JUST A HUMBLE, QUIET PERSON, IN REALITY....................ACCORDING TO JIMMY, HE HAS NEVER MET A PERSON LIKE ME IN LIFE..............WELL, IT'S THE SAME WAY FOR ME.  I NEVER MET ANYONE LIKE JIMMY IN LIFE.  AND I ALWAYS TELL HIM, THE ONE THING THAT TURNS ME ON ABOUT HIM IS HIS INTELLIGENCE............I LOVE A VERY INTELLIGENT MAN...........AND I'M SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW HE IS HIGHLY INTELLIGENT  :)    ................THAT'S ABOUT THE END OF MY INTELLECT  :)    .............BUT WE HAVE FUN IN SO MANY WAYS.....................LAUGHING, TALKING, JOKING..............TALKING ABOUT THINGS IN THE NEWS, PEOPLES LIVES..............EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING..................

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE FOR THEIR NICE COMMENTS, AND THEIR GOOD WISHES, AND HAPPINESS, TO KNOW THAT JIMMY WILL SOON BE HOME.

MANDYMEME....THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR COMMENT(S).......................YOU HAVE READ THIS JOURNAL FOR A LONG TIME, AND ALSO HAVE A HUSBAND IN PRISON................SO, YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IT IS LIKE!.......................YES, JIMMY WILL WRITE SOME ENTRIES HERE, WHEN HE IS HOME................

WE ESPECIALLY WOULD LIKE THIS JOURNAL TO CONTINUE TO HELP THOSE WIVES/ GIRLFRIENDS/FAMILIES OF THOSE WITH LOVED ONES IN PRISON...................

THIS JOURNAL WILL GO ON...................

IT IS FOR THE HAPPINESS OF JIMMY AND MYSELF, TO HELP OTHERS, WHO ARE OUT THERE, EXPERIENCING THIS ROUGH TIME.................

MANDYMEME............ABOUT THE PASSAGE OF TIME.  WHAT I DID, ALONG THE WAY (ABOUT 1  1/2  YEARS AGO), WAS TO START UNDERSTANDING TIME DIFFERENTLY ....................PEOPLE IN OUR WORLD, THINK OF TIME AS HOURS, DAYS, MONTHS AND YEARS.....FOR MOST PEOPLE, THE PASSAGE OF TIME IS FROM SEASON, TO SEASON, AND FROM HOLIDAY TO HOLIDAY.......................I REMOVED MYSELF, FROM THAT. I STARTED TO UNDERSTAND THE TRUE CONCEPT OF TIME.....................TIME, AS IT IS , ACCORDING TO GOD............TIME, FOR ME, BEGAN AS "AN EXPANSION OF TIME."....................TIME EXISTED AS ONE BIG EXPANSION..........IT DID NOT REALLY EXIST AS HOURS, OR DAYS......................................AND SO, I FELT A VERY BIG EXPANSION OF TIME, IN THAT I SAW THE TIME PERIOD FROM EACH NANOSECOND, UNTIL THE TIME JIMMY WOULD COME HOME.........................I KNOW THIS ALL SOUNDS SILLY, TO MOST PEOPLE, BUT IN A WAY, IT IS PHILOSOPHICAL....................EINSTEIN'S THEORIES SPOKE ABOUT TIME............................AND YES TIME DOES COMPRESS,,,THE FIRST TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER, AFTER A VERY LONG TIME....YEARS, JIMMY AND I FELT TIME COMPRESS, AND THAT IT FELT LIKE HE HAD WALKED OUT THE DOOR YESTERDAY..............MOST OF THIS IS THE ABILITY OF ONE TO CONTROL THEIR MINDS...........

SOME MAY SAY MY THOUGHTS ARE CRAZY.  HOWEVER,  I FEEL VERY BLESSED TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THIS, AND TO EXPERIENCE IT....................................WITHOUT YOUR LOVED ONE IN PRISON, IT WOULD BE VERY HARD TO UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.  ALSO, THE PASSAGE OF TIME WAS UNDERSTOOD,  AS I GAZED UP IN THE SKY, TO SEE THE POSITION OF THE SUN AND MOON...................TO WATCH NATURE MOVE FROM SEASON TO SEASON, AS WE LIVE IN A PERFECT WORLD, ACCORDING TO NATURE.

HOPE I DIDN'T BORE ALL  OF YOU!.............THAT WAS MY WAY OF DEALING WITH IT ALL!...............................FRAN

 

 

THE COUNTDOWN

4 MORE DAYS TO GO UNTIL JIMMY COMES HOME FOR GOOD...............

IT IS NOW 9/13/06........WEDNESDAY

HE WILL BE HOME FOR GOOD ON MONDAY, 9/18/06

THE COUNTDOWN IS ON................

WE JUST CAN'T WAIT ...........

AT THIS POINT, THE TIME IS A LITTLE SLOW, AND SEEMS TO DRAG ON.

HOWEVER, JIMMY WILL STILL BE COMING HOME FOR HIS 12 HOUR FURLOUGH , THIS COMING FRIDAY.

HE WANTED TO COME HOME AGAIN ON SUNDAY, FOR ANOTHER FURLOUGH, BUT DOESN'T THINK HE CAN.............ONCE AGAIN THE ROOM IS BEING PUNISHED FOR SOMETHING LIKE A DIRTY ROOM................SO, AS I UNDERSTAND IT, THE FURLOUGHS HAVE BEEN CUT IN HALF FOR EVERYONE..

I EVEN TOLD JIMMY, IT IS OK, BECAUSE YOU WILL BE COMING HOME FOR GOOD ON MONDAY, THE NEXT DAY, ANYHOW...................HE STILL COMTINUES TO SAY, "FRAN, I AM SO MUCH IN LOVE WITH YOU, I HAVE TO SPEND EVERY MINUTE THAT I CAN WITH YOU."

WELL, WE ARE BOTH VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER.................DESPITE 3.6 YEARS IN PRISON.............

IT IS A NICE FEELING TO LOVE SOMEOME SO MUCH, AND TO BE LOVED BY SOMEONE SO VERY MUCH.............

JIMMY IS REALLY HAPPY AND ELATED WHEN HE TALKS ON THE PHONE TO ME..................HE TELLS ME ALL DIFFERENT THINGS HE WOULD LIKE TO DO, WHEN HOME..

THE FIRST THING IS, HE WANTS TO STAY HOME WITH ME AS LONG AS HE CAN..................IN OTHERWORDS, HE WANTS TO LAY IN BED WITH ME, AND MAKE LOVE, OVER AND OVER.............................HE SAID IT MAY TAKE DAYS   :)

HE JUST DOES NOT WANT TO HAVE TO GO BACK, OR RUN FOR COUNT................HE SIMPLY WANTS TO RELAX WITH ME...................AND I FEEL THE SAME WAY............

NOW, SINCE I HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR, I WILL MAKE EVERYONE LAUGH!..................JIMMY HAS COME HOME ON AROUND 25 FURLOUGHS, SINCE AROUND MAY OR JUNE.  NOW, THOSE FURLOUGHS ARE 12 HOURS...............WE LAY IN BED WITH EACH OTHER FOR AT LEAST 6 HOURS EACH TIME ON THE 12 HOUR FURLOUGH.................THE FURLOUGHS WERE USUALLY TWICE A WEEK.................NOW, HEY, THAT WAS A LOT OF EXERCISE FOR ME  :)...................AFTER ALL, I AM A 53 YEAR OLD WOMAN!.....................BUT HEY, I WAS ABLE TO KEEP UP WITH MY HUSBAND!...............................LOL....................................AFTER ALL, A MAN IN PRISON NEEDS TO BE WITH HIS WIFE/WOMAN MORE THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE.........................WELL, WE HAPPEN TO BE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER!

SO, NOW, WHEN HE COMES HOME ON MONDAY, WE WILL CLOSE THE DOOR, AND RELAX WITH EACH OTHER!

HE ALSO ASKED ME TO MAKE HIM HIS FAVORITE MEATLOAF, THAT I MAKE A SPECIAL WAY IN THE WOK, WITH GINGER ANBD GARLIC..................A READER ASKED FOR JIMMY'S RECIPES, AND I WILL  TRY AND GET HIM TO SHARE THEM WITH YOU.................HE IS A GOOD ITALIAN COOK!  HE LOVES PASTA...........ANY SHAPE, WAY, OR FORM.............SO, I'LL COOK SOME PASTA , TOO!

JIMMY CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE ME SHOPPING AT THE MALL, AND GO TO MACY'S, AND BUY ME SOME NEW CLOTHES..............HE LOVES TO SHOP FOR ME..............WE USED TO WALK IN THE WOMAN'S DEPT., AND JIMMY WOULD PULL OFF THE RACK SO MANY CLOTHES FOR ME..............THIS, THIS.THAT , THAT................HE WOULD BUY ME BUNDLES OF CLOTHES!...............PANTS, DRESSES, JACKETS, COATS......................AND OH YES, YOU SHOULD SEE HIM WITH ME IN THE LINGERIE DEPT!   :)  ...........HE USED TO BUY ME LOTS OF NIGHTIES, ETC..................HE LOVES IT, AND I DO TOO....................HE IS JUST A WONDERFUL MAN!.....................WHAT CAN I SAY!

AND OH YES, I KNOW HE JUST CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE ME TO THE BEAUTY PARLOR TO HAVE MY HAIR DONE!........

I GUESS I FORGOT ABOUT MYSELF THESE PAST FEW YEARS, BUT HE WILL BE HOME AGAIN, AND WILL PERK ME UP"

ANOTHER IMPORTANT THING, IS THAT WE WANT TO START GOING TO THE MOVIES ONCE AGAIN..............WE WILL GO NEXT WEEK, I'M SURE.....................WE USED TO SEE AT LEAST 1 TO 2 MOVIES PER WEEK..............AND OF COURSE, THERE IS THE POPCORN!

JIMMY HAS ALREADY SIGNED HIS RELESE PAPERS...........SO, IT WON'T BE LONG NOW...........

IN THIS JOURNAL, I HAVE ALWAYS SPOKEN ABOUT THE CONCEPT OF "TIME."  ONCE AGAIN, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY, TIME IS MAN MADE..............CLOCKS, LINEAR CALENDERS, ETC.................................BUT IN GOD'S WORLD, THE CONCEPT OF TIME DOES NOT EXIST.............................TIME IS ETERNAL.....TIME IS SPIRAL...............NEVER-ENDING.

AND SO, I BELIEVE THAT TIME CAN COMPRESS, AND EXPAND AT A PERSON'S WILL.  WHAT I AM SAYING IS THAT FOR JIMMY AND MYSELF, TIME HAS ACTUALLY COMPRESSED.  THAT IS, WHEN HE COMES BACK HOME ON MONDAY, I WILL ALLOW MY MIND TO THINK THAT JIMMY HAD ONLY GONE AWAY TO THE STORE, FOR A FEW MINUTES.THAT HE IS BACK HOME FROM THE STORE, AND LIFE GOES ON FOR US, AS IT SHOULD BE..................YES, TIME COMPRESSED INTO JUST A FEW MINUTES.............NOT THE 3.6 YEARS..........................YOU SHOULD TRY IT, MY PRISON WIVES, TO THINK OF IT IN THAT WAY......................HUBBY MAY BE AWAY, BUT IN YOUR MIND YOU CAN ACTUALLY COMPRESS TIME, AND IT WILL BE ONLY A FEW SECONDS OR MINUTES THAT HE IS AWAY, AND WILL RETURN HOME, VERY SOON............................GOD BLESS YOU ALL..........

                                                                FRAN

 

GETTING CLOSE

IT IS NOW 9/12/06

5 MORE DAYS TO GO, AND THEN THE WAKE-UP DAY, WHEN JIMMY COMES HOME.

WHEN WE TALK ON THE PHONE, HE IS VERY HAPPY, AND LAUGHING, AND JOKING..........HE IS ALMOST "GIDDY" YOU MAY SAY................HE FEELS HE CANNOT BELIEVE HE WILL SOON BE HOME FOR GOOD, VERY SOON

BY THIS TIME NEXT WEEK, HE WILL BE HOME...................IT IS ALMOST UNBELIEVABLE!

ALSO, HE IS COMING HOME THIS THURSDAY AND SATURDAY, ON 12 HOUR FURLOUGHS............

................................................FRAN

COUNTDOWN

7 DAYS TO GO, AND 1 WAKE-UP  DAY.....

IT IS 9/10, TODAY, AND HIS RELEASE DATE IS 9/18/06.......

IT IS VERY SOON..................

I KIND OF WONDER HOW IT WILL BE FOR THIS MAN, OR ANY MAN, FOR THAT MATTER, NOT TO HAVE TO SLEPP IN A ROOM FILLED WITH MANY OTHER MEN...............TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP IN HIS OWN ROOM, NOW, WITH HIS WIFE.............

YES, FOR 3.5 YEARS, JIMMY SLEPT IN A BIG ROOM WITH OTHER MEN.....................

HE SLEPT FOR 3.6 YEARS IN A SMALL, HARD BUNK BED.............WITH MAYBE 1 PILLOW A RIPPED UP PIECE OF SHEET.........................HIS BUBKIE SLEEPING ABOVE HIM...............THINGS LIKE THAT.................NOW, HE WILL BE HOME FOR GOOD IN HIS SOFT, KING SIZE BED, FILLED WITH MANY PILLOWS, COMFORTERS, AND SOME STUFFED ANIMALS....................AND OH YES, THE 2 CATS AND DOG LAYING ON THE BED, AND RUNNING AROUND.........

..........YES, TJHE SIMPLE PLEASURES IN LIFE!

FUNNY THING IS, JIMMY NEVER, EVER COMPLAINED OF IT ALL.............................EVEN WHEN HE WAS LOCKED AWAY IN A 9 FT. BY 8 FT. CELL................AND COULD CALL ME ONCE A DAY, WHEN HE WAS LET OUT FOR A FEW MINUTES............

AND THEN, THERE WAS THE TIME, THE PHONES WERE OFF IN BAYSIDE STATE PRISON............THEY WERE HAVING A PROBLEM WITH THE PHONE SYSTEM..............JIMMY AND I COULD NOT SPEAK TO EACH OTHER FOR SOMETHING LIKE 46 DAYS, AT THAT TIME.............

AND SO, HE WILL SOON BE HOME...........COMFORTABLE AND AT PEACE IN HIS OWN HOUSE............HIS OWN BED, WITH HIS WIFE AND PETS...................

AMD OH YES, THERE WILL BE NO MORE "COUNT.".............HE IS SO USED TO "COUNT,' THAT I HOPE HE WILL FORGET IT, AFTER HE ARRIVES HOME.........

.FRAN

ANSWER TO COMMENT

IN ANSWER TO NOTTY'S COMMENT, IN THE LAST ENTRY......

YOU ARE THE PRIME EXAMPLE OF HOW MOST PEOPLE LOOK AT PRISONER'S WIVES.  WELL., JUST BECAUSE ONE'S HUSBAND MAY BE IN PRISON, IS NOT AN EXCUSE FOR A WOMAN TO BE ON WELFARE, AND FOOD STAMPS, ETC.................I AM FORTUNATE TO BE ABLE TO  PAY LARGE PHONE BILLS FOR THE PAST 3.6 YEARS.............AND YES, EVEN  OWN A CELL PHONE..YES, I EVEN OWN A JAGUAR, FOR YOUR INFO!

BEING A PRISONER'S WIFE DOES NOT MEAN ONE HAS TO BE LIVING IN THE POOR HOUSE! 

I HOPE ALL THOSE WOMEN THAT READ THIS JOURNAL ARE DOING THINGS RIGHT NOW, TO BETTER THEMSELVES............GO TO SCHOOL........TAKE SOME COURSES..............GO TO COLLEGE............GO TO VO-TECH SCHOOL................TRY TO BETTER YOURSELF, EVEN THOUGH HUBBY IS IN PRISON, OR A HALF-WAY HOUSE.............START A CAREER...........GET A GOOD JOB...............THE LIST GOES ON AND ON..................

DON'T BE LIKE MOST OF THE WOMEN I SAW ON LINE AT BAYSIDE PRISON..............OR THOSE WOMEN I ATTENDED A COUPLE OF FAMILY CLASSES WITH AT TALBOT HALL.................MAYBE HALF, BUT NOT ALL THE WOMAN, DID LOOK DRUGGED UP THEMSELVES...............SOME WOMEN I SPOKE WITH ON THE PHONE, WHO WERE PROUD TO TELL ME THEY WERE ON WELFARE AND MEDICAID............

DON'T BE LIKE THAT!....................START TODAY TO BETTER YOURSELF.  AND WITH A GOOD JOB, AND LET'S SAY A GOOD PROFESSION, YOU CAN MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF YOURSELF............................YOU DON'E HAVE TO BE CONSIDERDD A "POOR PERSON," JUST BECAUSE YOUR HUSBAND IS IN PRISON............

START TODAY...........BETTER YOURSELF..............JUST THINK ABOUT IT..................I THOUGHT ABOUT IT MY WHOLE LIFE, AND BETTERED MYSELF, ALONG THE WAY..........

AND BY THE WAY, ALSO IN ANSWER TO YOUR COMMENT, I DID NOT EAT THE CAT AND DOG, ALONMG WITH THE ROASTED CHICKEN!...................WHAT I MEANT IS, THE CATS AND DOG, ALWAYS EAT THE ROASTED CHICKEN, ALONG WITH ME!

JIMMY CAME HOME LAST THURSDAY.IT WAS HIS 24TH FURLOUGH HOME, AMND WAS GREAT, AS USUAL!

THE BIG COUNTDOWN IS NOW ON...........JIMMY WILL BE HOMEFOR GOOD ON 9/18................THAT IS A MONDAY........................TODAY IS 9/9

SO, IT IS NOW, AS OF TODAY, 8 MORE DAYS, AND A WAKE-UP DAY (MEANING HE COMES HOME THAT DAY).

GOOD NITE!..............................FRAN

COUNTING THE DAYS

JIMMY CAME HOME YESTERDAY, ON TUESDAY, FOR HIS 23RD TIME HOME.  AND NOW, HE IS ONCE AGAIN COMING BACK HOME TOMORROW, FOR THE 24TH TIME.

THE TIME FOR HIS DAY TO COME HOME FOR GOOD IS APPROACHING RAPIDLY.

HE WILL COME HOME FOR GOOD, MOST LIKELY ON 9/17/06.  SO, TODAY IS NOW 9.7.  SO, YU MAY SAY HE WILL BVE HOME FOR GOOD IN 9 DAYS, AND ON THE 10TH WAKE-UP DAY, HE WILL BE HOME.

JIMMY SAYS THE BEST PART OF THE DAY HE COMES HOME FOR GOOD, IS THAT HE KNOWS HE WILL NOT HAVE TO LEAVE HIS HOME AT 8PM, TO RETURN TO THE HALF-WAY BACK HOUSE.  WE WILL BE ABLE TO DO THINGS LIKE WATCH TVM WATCH SOME MOVIES, ETC.  AND THEN WHEN NIGHT ROLLS AROUND, LETS SAY AROUND 11 PM, JIMMY LIKES TO FALL ASLEEP, AND I WILL BE IN HIS ARMS...................AND WE WILL BE SLEEPING NEXT TO EACH OTHER................................AND THEN IN THE BACK OF OUR MINDS, WE WILL KNOW THAT THE NEXT DAY WILL DAWNM AND WE CAN START LIFE AFRESH.

AND SO, WE BOTH FEEL PEACEFUL AND CALM AT THIS TIME.....................WE WILL TAKE THINGS EASILY, AS LIFE ENFOLDS FOR US.......................I WANT JIMMY TO REST, AND DO THE THINGS HE LIKES TO DO,...................I IMAGIBE IT MUST BE DIFFICULT LIVING FOR 3  1/2 YEARS IN A PRISON WITH SO MANY OTHER MEN...........YOIR LIFE BEING CONTROLEED AND SHARED WITH OTHERS.............AND AT HOME, IN HIS HOUSE, JIMMY IS THE KING HERE..........

HE TOLD ME HE CAN'T WAIT TO START CLEANING OUT ONE CLOSET, WHERE WE KEEP ALL THE HOLIDAY DECORATIONS..................HE WANTS TO GET OUT THE HALLOWEEN DECORATIONS, AS HE LOVES DECORATING FOR HALLOWEEN.......................AND I KNOW WE WILL GO BUY SOME MORE THINGS TOO!

YESTERDAY ON HIS FURLOUGH HOME, WHICH WAS TUESDAY, WE HAD A GREAT DAY!  IT WAS PROBABLY ONE OF OUR BEST DAYS....................AND I'LL TELL YOU WHY.......

WE DID ALL OUR ERRANDS EARLY.  JIMMY TOOK ME TO BJ'S, AND HE LOVES TO BUY ME THE ROASTED CHICKEM, THERE, WHICH I LOVE TO EAT, ALONG WITH THE DOG, AND 2 CATS!

WE WERE BACK HOME BY 10:30 am, AND THEN WATCHED 'THE VIEW," WHICH WAS THE FIRST SHOW OF THE SEASON, WITH ROSIE O'DONNEL.  THE SHOW WAS PRETTY GOOD.........ROSIE IS CALM, SINCE IT IS THE BEGINNING...........SOMETIME LATER, ALONG THE WAY, SHE WILL BECOME HER OUTSPOKEN SELF...............I LIKE ROSIE, AND JIMMY AND I ALWAYS ENJOY WATCHING "THE VIEW."

AND THEN, JIMMY AND I WERE IN BED BY 12 NOON.  IT WAS A GREY, RAINEY DAY....AMD WE BOTH ENJOYED IT THAT WAY..................IT WAS A VERY ROMANTIC DAY FOR US!....................LISTENING TO THE PITTER PATTER OF THE RAINDROPS...............IN EACH OTHERS ARMS...........

JIMMY LOVES TO MASSAGE ME.................MY BACK, MY ARMS, MY HANDS, MY FEET, ETC.......................HE NEVER GETS TIRED OF DOING IT....................HE ALSO LOVES TO FONDLE MY BLONDE HAIR, AND PLAY WITH IT.

SO, WE WERE VERY MUCH INTERMINGLED WITH EACH OTHER THAT DAY......................GAZING INTO EACH OTHERS EYES...................KISSING ALL DAY, AND JUST BEING SO IN LOVE.................

WE ARE 2 PEOPLE WHO SIMPLY LOVE BEING N LOVE................WE LOVE BEING IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER.............................AND FOR US, THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE, IS TO BE INTERMINGLED WITH EACH OTHER.......................

WHENEVER I MOVE, HE ALWAYS REACHES OUT FOR ME..............HE IS FOREVER HOLDING ME, AND TOUCHING ME.......................................WE WERE LIKE THIS FOR THE 2 YEARS BEFORE PRISONM AND WE HAVE REALLY NEVER STOPPED, ALTHOUGH FOR PERIODS OF TIME, PRISON WALLS SEPERATED US.

WE LOVE BEING MARRIED................

WE SAY THAT WE ARE "ONE"................AND WE ARE.

MARRIAGE IS A COVENANT BETWEEN HUSBAND, WIFE, AND GOD................

JIMMY AND I EXPRESS OUR LOVE EVERY MOMENT TO EACH OTHER..........................EVEN ON THE PHONE, AS IT HAS BEEN THESE 3.6 YEARS.............

PEOPLE ALWAYS LOOK AT US IN PUBLIC.  THEY SAY WE GLOW.  WE ARE FOREVER TOGETHER...............HE ALWAYS HOLDS MY HAND........JE OPENS EVERY DOOR FOR ME.........I HOLD HIM AROUND THE WAIST.........................AND AS YOU ALL KNOW, I AM 53, AND JIMMY IS 51.

SOME PEOPLE MAY EVEN SAY, "MY GOSH, THE 2 OF YOU ARE OBCESSED WITH EACH OTHER!.............................AND YES WE ARE    :)                                          JIMMY ALWAYS JOKES WITH ME, THAT HE IS OBCESSED WITH ME................AND WE BOTH LIKE IT THAT WAY...............BECAUSE, BESIDES ALL THAT , WE ARE 2 MATURE PEOPLE WHO ARE VERY CENTERED AND FOCUSED................

I ALWAYS JOKE WITH HIM........"WHAT ABOUT ALL THOSE HUNDREDS, IF NOT THOUSANDS OF WOMEN YOU DATED BEFORE MARRYING ME?.................MOST WERE VERY GORGEOUS WOMEN..................ONE WAS EVEN A FORD MODEL.  HOWEVER, HE TELLS ME I AM THE MOST BEAUTIFUL.......AND THE SMARTEST................I AM THE ONE HE LIKES TO SPEND EVERY SECOND WITH................THOSE OTHER WOMEN, HE DID NOT LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH..........JIMMY AND I NEVER GET BORED WITH EACH OTHER.

JIMMY IS A VERY FAST AND QUICK MAN..HE WALKS FAST, THINKS FAST, AND DOES THINGS VERY FAST..............HE SEES EVERYTHING, AND EVERYONE...............HE SEEMS TO SIMPLY UNDERSTAND THE WORLD AROUND HIM.  AS FOR ME, I AM SLOWER THAN HIM................SO, HE TOLD ME THAT HE PACES ME, AND LETS ME DO THINGS AT MY OWN PACE....................

AND SO, WE TALKED ALL DAY, TOO, AS USUAL.  I ALWAYS TELL JIMMY EVERYTHING..............ALL MY FEELINGS.  SO, IF I SOUNDED SAD IN THE LAST ENTRY I AM OVER IT NOW................JIMMY HAS A WAY OF LISTENING TO ME, AND THEN IT ALL PASSES.  I FEEL SO LOVED BY HIM, IT IS INCREDIBLE.

I WILL GO TO BED NOW..................IT IS 1:30 AM, AND JIMMY WILL BE HOME AT 8 AM!..............................GOOD NITE!.........................................FRAN

some thoughts

IT IS NOW 12:30 AT NIGHT, AND JIMMY WILL BE HERE AROUND 8 AM, IN THE MORNING....TUESDAY, FOR HIS 12 HOUR FURLOUGH........

TODAY IS 9/5, AND JIMMY SHOULD BE HOME ON 9/17, I  BELIEVE....THAT IS AROUND 11 MORE DAYS, UNTIL HE IS HOME FOR GOOD............

WE ARE VERY HAPPY AND EXCITED.....

HOWEVER, FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS, I HAVE BEEN A LITTLE QUIET, AND CRYING A LITTLE...............YOU MAY CALL IT FEELING "SENTIMENTAL."   I THINK THAT MAY BE THE WORD.

WHEN I STARTED THIS JOURNAL, I TOLD EVERYONE, I WOULD LET YOU IN ON ALL MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.............WELL, HERE WE GO...........

JIMMY IS ABOUT TO COME HOME, AND WHY DO I CRY SOMETIMES?.........BECAUSE.    WELL, I'LL TRY TO EXPLAIN IT.

I FEEL SAD FOR MANY HUMAN BEINGS IN OUR WORLD, AT THIS TIME.

SOMETIMES, I CRY A LITTLE ON THE PHONE.  JIMMY ALWAYS TELLS ME, IT IS OK TO CRY, FRAN.  HE ALWAYS SAYS I AM A VERY SENSITIVE PERSON..........

YOU MAY SAY, I ALWAYS LOOK AT THINGS DIFFERENTLY.

WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY, IS THAT JIMMY AND I ARE STRONG.  HE HAS BEEN AWAY FOR 3.6 YEARS.

THOSE FAMILY MEMBERS AND SOME FRIENDS, KNEW WHERE JIMMY WAS, AND THAT I WAS ALONE.  AND YET, THESE PEOPLE CHOSE TO COMPLETLY SHY AWAY FROM ME.............THEY NEVER MADE ME PART OF THEIR WORLD, BUT OSTRICIZED ME...................THEY COULD NEVER DRIVE ME TO THE PRISON, OR HALF-WAY HOUSE............I SPENT EVERY DAY ALONE, INCLUDING EVERY HOLIDAY, ONLY TALKING WITH MY HUSBAND.  I MUST SAY, THAT ONE FRIEND WAS ABLE TO TAKE ME A FEW TIMES TO KINTOCK TO SEE JIMMY.

EVERYONE ACTED AS IF I JUST DID NOT EXIST......

WHAT I'M SAYING IS, I AM VERY SAD FOR HUMAN BEINGS LIKE THIS.  THAT IS WHY I HAVE BEEN CRYING SOFTLY THESE PAST FEW DAYS................

I'VE ASKED GOD, AS WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT............HOW TO FEEL................................

JIMMY TELLS ME NOT TO WORRY ABOUT THOSE FEWPEOPLE I AM TALKING ABOUT........HE SAYS TO FORGET WHAT THEY DID, AND WE WILL JUST GO ON WITH OUR LIFE TOGETHER.

YES, I WILL NOT HOLD ANY GRUDGES, BUT IT IS VERY HARD TO FORGET.

WHY?

IT MAY HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT IF THIS PRISON JOURNEY TOOK ONLY A SHORT TIME..............

HOWEVER, IT WAS NOT DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS, ONE YEAR, 2 YEARS, 3 YEARS.........................IT WAS ACTUALLY  3.6 YEARS, THAT THEY CONTINUED THIS WAY.

AND SO I CRY, AND PRAY TO GOD, AND BEG HIM, TO PLEASE HELP THESE PEOPLE OUT..............TO HELP FORGIVE THEM...............TO HELP THEM OUT OF THEIR UNLOVING WAYS.....................PLEASE GOD, PLEASE...........SHOW THEM THE RIGHT WAY...............

AND OF COURSE, TO HELP GUIDE JIMMY AND MYSELF ALONG THE PATH OF LIFE, TOO.

I COULD NEVER BE THAT MEAN TO ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, AS THEY WERE TO ME....................

MANY PRISON WIVES ARE OUT THERE EXPEIENCING THE SAME THING, AS I HAVE.   I FOUND OUT THROUGHT THEIR E-MAILS AND COMMENTS, THAT THE SMAE THING HAPPENED TO THEM...................THEY WERE, AND STILL ARE STIGMATIZED, AS SOON AS THEIR HUSBAND WAS LOCKED UP.

TO HELP THOSE, WHO NEED SOME ENCOURAGEMENT, I WILL GIVE YOU 3 ARTICLES THAT I WROTE FOR E-ZINE MAGAZINE, AN ON-LINE MAGAZINE.  I WROTE THEM AROUND 1  1/2 years ago...............I WROTE THEM OUT OF THE TOP OF MY HEAD.  I WROTE IT ON THE COMPUTER, AND TRUTHFULLY NEVER CHANGED A WORD OR LINE................I JUST HAD TO GET IT AL OUT OF ME, AS FAST AS POSSIBLE.

THE TITLES OF THE ARTICLES ARE: 

 "PRISON WIVES:  THE FORGOTTEN WOMEN IN OUR SOCIETY."

"PRISON WIFE: STAND BY YOUR MAN."

"HOW LOVE CAN SURVIVE PRISON WALLS"

TO GET TO THESE ARTICLES, WHICH HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE HAVE READ, YOU CAN DO THE FOLLOWING:

GOOGLE "REFLECTIONS OF A PRISON WIFE."

ALSO GOOGLE "PRISON WIFE"

that should get you there.  (sorry i don't have the link)

I WILL NOW GO TO BED AND THINK OF MY HUSBAND.  SOON IT WILL BE TIME TO GET UP, AT AROUND 7 AM...TAKE A SHOWER, AND MAKE THE COFFEE, AND GET READY FOR HIM.  THEN I'LL BE IN HIS LOVING ARMS, WHERE I LOVE TO BE............BIG STRONG ARMS, AND HANDS THAT LIKE TO CARESS ME....................AND ALL WILL BE HAPPY TOMORROW, ONCE AGAIN!

..................................FRAN AND JIMMY            :)