quiet day

IT WAS A QUIET DAY....RAINEY AND GLOOMY AND CLOUDY, I THINK....NOT REALLY SURE, AS I SLEPT THROUGH MOST OF THE DAY.  YES, THAT IS HOW IT IS FOR A PRISONER'S WIFE.....

I LAID IN BED ALL DAY, THINKING OF MY HUSBAND, AND WISHING HE WERE HERE.........I THOUGHT ABOUT THE PAST TIMES WE HAD, AND IMAGINED IT WAS TAKING PLACE NOW..

.....HE CALLED ME ALL DAY, AS USUAL.  AND I DID MY WIFELY PHONE DUTIES FOR HIM.......THAT IS, I MADE A COUPLE OF IMPORTANT PHONE CALLS FOR JIMMY..FOR INSTANCE ONE WAS TO HIS ATTORNEY.......SEE WHAT A GOOD WIFE I AM?!..........EVEN IN MY SPORADIC SLEEP, I WILL DO THINGS FOR JIMMY.......

WHEN I FINALLY PUT MY FEET OVER THE EDGE OF THE BED, AT 7PM, JIMMY CALLS ME ONCE GAIN, FOR AROUND THE 3RD OR 4H TIME TODAY.......I YELLED AT HIM, STILL HALF ASLEEP..........WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT ME TO TALK ABOUT, JIMMY?"  I SAID......I AM JUST A LONELY PRISONER'S WIFE, WHO LIVES HERE ALONE......AND I DON'T CARE IF I SLEEP ALL DAY.........I CAN DO WHAT I WANT......AND JIMMY IS ALWAYS VERY CALM WITH ME, AND SAID THAT ALL HE WANTS IS TO HEAR MY VOICE.....WELL, I TOLD HIM I WAS IN BED ALL DAY, THINKING OF HIM, WHICH WAS THE TRUTH..........

JIMMY TOLD ME IT'S OK, AS I WENT TO SLEEP AT 7 AM IN THE MORNING........I TOLD HIM I WAS UP ALL NIGHT WATCHING TV....I WATCHED ON-DEMAND LAST NIGHT....I CAUGHT UP ON "BIG LOVE," AND WATCHED 4 EPISODES LAST NIGHT...THAT WAS AROUND 4 HOURS OF TV WATCHING..........I'VE REALLY GOTTEN INTO BIG LOVE, AND LIKE IT A LOT...YOU GET ATTACHED TO IT, AND TO THE CHARACTERS........THE MORMON HUSBAND HAS 3 WIVES.......THE SHOW IS A LITTLE TOO FOCUSED ON HIS HAVING SEX WITH THE 3 WIVES....IT IS A LITTLE TOO MODERN-AGE, I FEEL.  HAVING LIVED IN LAS VEGAS, NEVADA, I KNEW A LOT OF PEOPLE IN THE MORMON FAITH, AS THERE IS A LARGE COMMUNITY OF MORMONS THERE........THEY WERE MAINLY LDS, MOFERN DAY MORMONS....I WORKED WITH A LOT OF MORMON WOMEN, AND WE HAD A LOT OF MORMON FRIENDS.....OF COURSE NOW, ON TOP OF IT ALL, OUR COUNTRY IS CLAMPING DOWN ON POLIGAMY, AND THE LEADER IS ON THE MOT WANTED, ON THE FBI LIST....ALL THIS IS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME THAT "BIG LOVE" CAME OUT.............I DON'T GET IT..........POLOGAMY HAS BEEN AROUND FOR A REAL LONG TIME, AND WAS ALWAYS ILLEGAL IN THIS COUNTRY......AND IT IS JUST NOW, THAT OUR COUNTRY IS CLAMPING DOWN ON IT, AND EXPOSING THE TRUTH ABOUT THE POLYGAMIST COMMUNITIES OUT THERE........IT IS A VERY STRANGE WORLD WE LIVE IN.............IT IS LIKE ILLEGAL ALIENS...THEY ARE CRIMINALS IN OUR COUNTRY, AS THEY ARE ILLEGAL........AND OUR COUNTRY NEVER CLAMPED DOWN ON THEM.....IN FACT, THEY ENCOURAGE THEM TO WORK HERE.................YES, BUT THEY DO SEND THIER OWN AMERICAN CITIZENS TO PRISON...THEY HAVE NO TROUBLE WITH THAT.......

AND SO, IN ANOTHER LIGHT, JIMMY IS REAL EXCITED BECAUSE ON FRIDAY HE WILL BE TRANSFERRED TO HOPE HALL, VOA, IN CAMDEN, NEW JERSEY.  HE WILL BE TAKEN THERE AS A FREE-MAN, BY HIS PAROLE OFFICER........NO HAND-CUFFS...NOTHING.........I THINK HE WILL BE DRIVEN THRERE WITH HIS CLOTHES, IN A CAR, IN THE AFTERNOON.....HE IS SO HAPPY AND EXCITED..........THEN, ON MONDAY, HE WILL GO TO IGA, AND START WORKING IN THE FOODSTORE.  TOMORROW JIMMY IS BEING DRIVEN ALONG WITH A GROUP OF GUYS, TO THE MVA, TO RE-NEW HIS DRIVER'S LICENSE.................

AND ALL THIS MEANS THAT I WILL SEE HIM SOON............

YES, I COULD HAVE STAYED IN BED EVEN LONGER, JUST DAY-DREANING ABOUT JIMMY.....TO BE HELD AND KISSED AGAIN BY HIM...........BUT I HAD TO GET UP, AND DO A FEW HOUSEHOLD THINGS.........OH WELL, SUCH IS LIFE!

AND NOW, IT'S REALLY TIME TO GO TO BED AGAIN.......HOWEVER, I'LL STAY UP A LITTLE LONGER, AND READ, AND CATCH UP ON A FEW MORE EPISODES OF "BIG LOVE."

GOOD-NIGHT!.............FRAN

LOGAN HALL, NEWARK, NJ...RESIDENTS ARE HUNGRY

THIS AFTERNOON I HAD SOME UPSETTING NEWS ABOUT LOGAN HALL.

TODAY, SUNDAY, LOGAN HALL ACTUALLY RAN OUT OF FOOD FOR LUNCH, FOR THE RESIDENTS .  THERE WERE AROUND 50 MEALS SHORT, FOR 50 BIG, HUNGRY MEN......

FORTUNATELY, ONE OF THE WOMEN WORKING THERE, WENT OUT TO BUY PIZZA FOR ALL OF THOSE MEN.....THAT IS A LOT OF PIZZA, I MUST SAY...FOR MEN WHO ARE LOCKED UP, AND VERY HUNGRY.

AS I UNDERSTAND IT, THE ADMINISTRATOR IS AWARE OF THE PROBLEM OF SHORTAGE OF FOOD...HOWEVER, TODAY, AS I SAID, THEY ACTUALLY RAN OUT OF FOOD COMPLETELY AT LUNCHTIME.

I HOPE HE WILL DO SOMETHING TO RESOLVE THIS ISSUE......

NOW, WHY IS THERE A SHORTAGE, YOU MAY BE WONDERING?

I'LL EXPLAIN...........

THE MEN ARE GIVEN A VERY SMALL AMOUNT OF FOOD AT LOGAN HALL, AND ARE ALWAYS HUNGRY...........AS FOR MY HUSBAND, I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF HIM COMPLAIN OF BEING HUNGRY, IN OVER 3 YEARS IN PRISON.  I MEAN, THE PRISON FOOD IS NOT GOURMET, BUT HE WAS NEVER HUNGRY.........BUT JIMMY IS VERY HUNGRY AT LOGAN HALL....AND MY HUSBAND IS A BIG MAN, AND IS A DIABETIC, WHO IS ON DIABETIC PILLS, AND HIS SUGAR OFTEN RUNS TOO LOW........NOW, THIS SEEMS TO BE A PROBLEM...

WHAT IS HAPPENING, IS THAT THE RESIDENTS HAVE TAKEN IT INTO THEIR OWN HANDS, TO SOLVE THE ISSUE OF HUNGER...................

THE MEN WHO ARE WORKING IN THE KITCHEN, ARE RESIDENTS THEMSELVES...THEY ARE FORMER CONVICTS......AND THEY ARE ACTUALLY SELLING THE FOOD TO THE MEN, TO MAKE THE MEN HAPPY, AND TO EARN A LITTLE EXTRA MONEY FOR THEMSELVES...........THESE MEN MAKE DELICIOUS BIG SANDWICHES FOR THE MEN...AND THINGS LIKE THAT.........THEN THEY CHARGE EACH RESIDENT, A DOLLAR OR SO, SO THEY CAN MAKE A PROFIT. 

.....AND TODAY IT ALL BACK-FIRED......

...AS I SAID EARLIER, THE KITCHEN ACTUALLY RAN OUT OF FOOD FOR LUNCH-TIME.......

AS THE ADMINISTRATOR IS ALREADY AWARE OF THIS, I THINK HE SHOULD DO SOMETHING QUICK ABOUT IT......I CANNOT STAND TO SEE ANYONE HUNGRY...NO LESS LOCKED UP MEN, WHO ARE BIG AND MUSCULAR.......

I UNDERSTAND MY HUSBAND GETS 2000 CALORIES /DAY AT LOGAN HALL...I THINK ALL THE MEN GET THAT..........WELL, LET ME TELL YOU, THAT IS NOT ENOUGH...........AND I DON'T CARE WHAT ALL THE NUTRITION BOOKS IN THE WORLD SAY!...............TRY IT YOURSELF, AND SEE.......AND IT IS WORSE WHEN YOU ARE LOCKED UP IN AN INSTITUTION, AND CAN'T MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS ABOUT FOOD, BUT MUST EAT WHAT IS PUT ON A PLATE IN FRONT OF YOU.

WHEN I WAS HOSPITALIZED IN 2004, I WAS PUT ON AN 1800 CALORIE DIET........I WAS ALSO ON LOTS AND LOTS OF INSULIN, AND DIABETIC PILLS...............AND I WAS LITERALLY STARVING ALL THE TIME..........MOST DAYS MY BLOOD SUGAR WOULD PLUNGE TO DANGEROUS LOW LEVELS OF 50............I WOULD SIT AND WAIT FROM ONE MEAL TO THE NEXT..........JUST THINKING OF FOOD..........BEING ON INSTITUTIONAL FOOD IS THE WORST...AND THE PORTIONS ARE VERY, VERY SMALL....1800 CALORIES IS IN REALITY, NOTHING...ESPECIALLY FOR A BIG MAN......AND WHEN YOU ARE LOCKED UP, AND UNABLE TO DIVERT YOUR MIND, IT IS EVEN WORSE....

MY HUSBAND, ALTHOUGH A BIG MAN, HAS LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT, AND CAN FEEL IT IN HIS CLOTHES, AND I SAW IT WHEN I VISITED HIM..........HE USES THE TREADMILL ON AN UPWARD ANGLE, AND WALKS 5 MILES /DAY...WITHOUT A SWEAT.......HE IS IN GOOD SHAPE, SO IT IS EASY FOR HIM........THE OTHER YOUNG GUYS STAND AROUND HIM, IN DISBELIEF, THAT HE DOES SO WELL....

SO, WHEN JIMMY TELLS ME HE IS HUNGRY........I BEGIN TO WORRY, BECAUSE HE NEVER COMPLAINS ABOUT THAT......

I AM ALSO WORRIED ABOUT ALL THE REST OF THE GUYS AT LOGAN HALL..........THIS IS A VERY IMPORTANT ISSUE....AND NEEDS TO QUICKLY BE RESOLVED.......

GOOD-NITE!               FRAN

SOME GOOD NEWS

WELL, I FINALLY HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS.......

JIMMY WILL BE MOVED TO VOA, A HALF-WAY HOUSE, IN CAMDEN, NEW JERSEY, NEXT FRIDAY.  IT IS ALL ARRANGED....THEN, HE WILL START BACK ON HIS JOB AT THE FOODSTORE, ON MAY 15, 2006.  THE FOODSTORE WILL BE IN THE TOWN OF LITTLE EGG HARBOR, SINCE ATLANTIC CITY IS NO LONGER AN OPTION....

I SPOKE WITH ONE OF THE OWNER'S OF IGA TODAY...HE IS SO NICE, AND WE ARE REALLY THANKFUL THAT THEY KEPT JIMMY'S JOB FOR HIM SINCE THE FIRST WEEK OF DECEMBER....THEN THE OWNER CALLED JIMMY'S PAROLE OFFICER AND SPOKE WITH HIM, SO NOW, EVERYTHING IS SET!......................

THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO ARE EXTREMELY NICE.  THE OWNER'S OF IGA FOODSTORE ARE LIKE THAT, AND WE ARE REALLY BLESSED TO HAVE MET THEM IN LIFE............

SO NOW...JIMMY IS EXCITED, AND SO AM I.......

ANOTHER THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY, IS THAT JIMMY TOLD ME HE HAS BECOME SO GOOD AT LATIN, THAT HE CAN READ THE STORIES IN THE CLASSICAL READER I SENT HIM IN LATIN...THE BOOK HAS ONE PAGE OF ENGLISH, AND ANOTHER OF LATIN AND GREEK....HE SAYS IT IS SO MUCH BETTER WHEN HE READS IT IN LATIN...........I AM REALLY PROUD OF HIM, TO HAVE ACCOMPLISHED THIS IN PRISON....WHATEVER ANYONE MAY SAY, I HAVE MARRIED THE MOST WONDERFUL MAN !

I AM A LITLE TIRED...IT IS 4 AM...SHOULD I SAY GOOD MORNING OR GOOD NIGHT....WELL, FOR ME IT IS GOOD NIGHT, AS I HAVEN'T SLEPT YET!

FRAN

THE FLOW OF THOUGHT

TODAY I ONCE AGAIN WENT TO THE POST OFFICE, AND MAILED JIMMY 4 ENVELOPES.  HE NEEDS TO RECEIVE THE DOCUMENTS I SENT HIM BY TOMORROW, SO GOING DIRECTLY TO THE POST OFFICE IS THE FASTEST....HE WILL BE GOING TO RENEW HIS DRIVER'S LICENSE , HOPEFULLY ON FRIDAY...SO, I SENT HIM ALL THE NECESSARY DOCUMENTS.  BEING THE WIFE OF A PRISONER, IS A VERY IMPORTANT JOB...SHE DDDOES THINGS TO KEEP HER MARRIAGE INTACT, ALTHOUGH IT IS FROM A DISTANCE.....I LOVE MY HUSBAND SO MUCH, THAT I LOVE DOING ANYTHING FOR HIM.  "QUICK AND EFFECIENT," IS WHAT HE CALLS ME!

JIMMY IS HALF-WAY THROUGH "THE DISAPPEARANCE OF THR UNIVERSE."  I'M ONLY ON PAGE 30, SO I'D BETTER CATCH UP TO HIM, SO WE CAN DISCUSS IT ON THE PHONE!

TWO NIGHTS AGO, LARRY KING HAD ON HIS SHOW, THE FORMER SECRETARY OF STATE, JAMES BAKER AND HIS DAUGHTER-IN-LAW.  HIS GRAND CHILD , WHO WAS 7 YEARS OLD AT THE TIME, HAD DROWNED IN A SWIMMING POOL. DURING A PARTY AT A FRIEND'S HOUSE, AND IT WAS DUE TO "ENTRAPMENT."  MOST PEOPLE ARE UNAWARE OF ENTRAPMENT, AND THAT IS WHY I'VE CHOSEN TO WRITE ABOUT IT HERE...TO HELP IN EDUCATING THE PUBLIC, AND MAYBE HELP TO PREVENT ANY FURTHER TRAGEDIES FROM HAPPENING.....

I WAS AWARE OF THIS, A LONG TIME AGO, HAVING LIVED IN PALM SPRINGS, CALIFORNIA, AND LAS VEGAS, NEVADA, WHERE JUST ABOUT EVERYONE HAS A SWIMMING POOL AND JACUZZI.  ,,,ON THE BOTTOM OF POOLS, AND SPAS, ARE DRAINS, WHICH HAVE A TREMENDOUS SUCTION...A SUCTION THAT WOULD TAKE HUNDREDS OF LBS. OF WEIGHT TO TRY AND REMOVE THE PERSON WHO IS CAUGHT THERE......SO, A PERSON'S BODY PART, SUCH AS ARM, OR HAIR, OR JEWELRY...OR IN THE CASE OF JAMES BAKER'S GRAND CHILD , HER BUTTOCKS...GETS STUCK THERE, DUE TO THE SUCTION, AND THEY DROWN, UNABLE TO ESCAPE. 

IT WAS TERRIBLE TO SEE THE FOOTAGE AND PICTURES  OF THIS SWEET, INNOCENT CHILD...JUST A LITTLE ANGEL, AS HER GRAND-FATHER SAID..SO ALIVE ONE MINUTE, AND GONE THE NEXT......SHE WAS ONE OF A SET OF TWINS, AND ONE OF 5 CHILDREN....IT WAS DISTRESSING FOR ME TO SEE THE MOTHER'S FACE, EXPLAINING EVERYTHING ON TV......THE MOTHER DID A FINE JOB, BUT NOTHING CAN TAKE AWAY THE LOOK OF DEPRESSION IN THAT WOMAN'S FACE.

AND SO...I WRITE THIS, BECAUSE THIS DRWNINGS OF CHILDREN CAN BE PREVENTED...THE PUBLIC NEEDS TO BE MADE AWARE, THAT CHILDREN AND SWIMMING POOLS JUST DON'T MIX

JAMES BAKER IS TRYING TO GET LEGISLATION PASSED ABOUT THIS.......THAT CAPS FOR THE DRAINS BE MANDATORY IN ALL STATES...THE PROTECTIVE CAPS ONLY COST AROUND $65.00, (which of course is nothing when it comes to the cost of a child's life)

HE SAID THAT LAWS ABOUT THIS WILL TAKE A LONG TIME TO BE PASSED.

SO, WHAT ELSE CAN WE DO, TO HELP PROTECT OUR CHILDREN IN AMERICA, AND PREVENT FURTHER UNNECESSARY DROWNINGS?

HE SAYS 3 THINGS........1.. IF YOU HAVE A POOL OR JACUZZI, OR HAVING ONE BUILT, MAKE SURE IT HAS A PROTECTIVE CAP ON THE DRAINS.  2.MAKE SURE ALL SWIMMING POOLS AND SPAS ARE ENCLOSED WITH LOCKED, CHILD-PROOF GATES (FENCES), AND 3...MAKE SURE YOUR SWIMMING POOL HAS AN EMERGENCY SHUT OFF VALVE, IN CASE SOME ONE GETS CAUGHT IN ENTRAPMENT.

IF YOU HAVE A SWIMMING POOL/SPA, PLEASE ACT RESPONSIBLY, AND DO THE RIGHT THING...PLEASE PREVENT ONE MORE TRAGEDY FROM HAPPENING............AND OF COURS, SUPERVISE AND WATCH YOUR CHILDREN AT ALL TIMES..............IN OR OUT OF THE POOL.

AND SO, THIS LEADS ME TO A VERY SAD STORY...A FEW NIGHTS AGO, HERE IN JERSEY, 2 CHILDREN DROWNED...THEY WERE TWINS, IN THEIR BACKYARD POOL....THEY WERE 4 YEARS OLD..........IT HAS BEEN IN THE NEWSPAPERS, AND ON THE NEWS........IT IS A VERY, VERY TERRIBLE THING.

THE FATHER OF THOSE CHILDREN WHO DROWNED , WAS A RESIDENT IN LOGAN HALL ...A FEW DOORS DOWN FROM JIMMY'S ROOM.

AND NOW, I WILL ASK YOU TO PLEASE SAY A PRAYER FOR THE 2 CHILDREN, THE MOTHER AND FATHER...AND THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS..........IT IS A TERRIBLE TRAGEDY........PLEASE PRAY FOR THESE PEOPLE, WHO NEED AN IMMENSE AMOUNT OF PRAYER AT THIS TIME........THEY NEED AN IMMENSE AMOUNT OF SUPPORT, AND STRENGTH, WHICH ONLY GOD ABOVE CAN PROVIDE AT THIS TIME..........

I'VE ASKED YOU ALL IN THE PAST TO SAY SPECIAL PRAYERS FOR PRISONER'S WHO ARE GOING THROUGH AN ESPECIALLY TOUGH TIME...SO, ONCE AGAIN, I'M ASKING YOU.......HOW MANY MORE BURDENS CAN THIS FAMILY TAKE?.....A HUSBAND IN PRISON, AND NOW THE LOSS OF THEIR 2 SMALL CHILDREN............

 

DEAR GOD/ALLAH,............."DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER, WE ASK YOU TO PLEASE BLESS THIS FAMILY, AND GUIDE THEM AT THIS TIME....TO GIVE THEM PEACE OF MIND DURING THIS MOST DIFFICULT TIME...TO GIVE THEM STRENGTH AND HELP EASE THEIR BURDEN.......TO SHED SOME GLIMMER OF HOPE, AND TO KNOW THAT THEIR LITTLE 4 YEAR OLD TWINS ARE IN HEAVEN WITH YOU...TO KNOW THAT THEIR LITTLE ANGELIC CHILDREN, ARE NEXT TO YOU, WITH HAPPY, SMILING FACES....PLEASE HELP THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS ...WE REMAIN IN PRAYER TO YOU, AND HOPE THAT ONE DAY WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER WITH YOU, IN YOUR GLORIOUS KINGDOM"....

FRAN AND JIMMY

love story

I SPOKE TO JIMMY AT 10PM TONIGHT...HIS LAST CALL FOR THE NIGHT....OH, I'M SO IN LOVE WITH HIM!....HE IS A WONDERFUL MAN.....IT IS AMAZING WHEN 2 PEOPLE WHO ARE SO IN LOVE TALK TO ONE ANOTHER......EVEN DISTANCE DOESN'T MATTER.....YOU CAN FEEL OUR ENERGY THROUGH THE AIRWAVES..........WE WERE TALKING, JOKING, AND LAUGHING........HE PROFESSES HIS LOVE FOR ME, AND I PROFESS MY LOVE TO HIM.  OUR HOPE IS THAT EVERYONE IN THE WORLD WILL HAVE THE SAME KIND OF LOVE THAT WE HAVE BETWEEN US............IN THE BIBLE, IT IS KNOWN AS "AGUAPE LOVE." THE HIGHEST FORM OF LOVE BETWEEN 2 PEOPLE.........

WHEN THAT KIND OF LOVE COMES TO YOU, YOU WILL BOTH KNOW IT.....AND THEN, YOU WILL NEVER AGAIN BE UNHAPPY, OR SAD........YOU WILL NEVER BE AFRAID....BECAUSE IT IS "ULTIMATE LOVE," ATTAINED BY FEW, BUT ABLE TO BE ATTAINED.........

A FEW WEEKS BEFORE I EVER MET JIMMY...BEFORE WE EVER KNEW THE OTHER EVEN EXISTED, I STOOD IN MY KITCHEN IN LAS VEGAS...I REMEMBER LOOKING UP, AND ASKING GOD TO SEND ME THE MAN OF MY DREAMS...I KNEW MY RELATIONSHIP OF 28 YEARS WAS GOING BAD WITH THE MAN I WAS LIVING WITH.........STILL, I WOULD HAVE STAYED WITH HIM, IF HE (THE FIRST MAN IN MY LIFE), WOULD HAVE STRAIGHTNED HIMSELF OUT, AND GOTTEN THERAPY...HE WOULD NOT, AMD DID NOT, WHILE HE WAS WITH ME.........SO, I ASKED GOD, TO PLEASE SEND ME SOMEONE, LIKE JIMMY...FUNNY THING, I SPECIFICALLY ASKED FOR AN ITALIAN MAN, WITH THE SAME SIMILAR FAMILY BACKGROUND...SOMEONE MY AGE  (as the other man was 15 years older than me),  SOMEONE INTELLIGENT, EDUCATED, WITH A SENSE IF HUMOR...SOMEONE WITH GOOD MORALS AND VALUES........SOMEONE WHO WOULD TELL ME HE LOVED ME A MILLION TIMES A DAY.....SOMEONE WHO WANTED MARRIAGE, AND NOT JUST LIVING TOGETHER.....SAME SPIRITUAL BELIEFS, AND SAME BELIEF SYSTEM AS MYSELF.

WELL, AROUND 2 WEEKS LATER, THE OTHER MAN LEFT, AND JIMMY STEPPED RIGHT IN.....I MEAN, THERE HE WAS!...RIGHT DOWN TO THE SPECIFICATIONS THAT I HAD THROWN OUT TO THE UNIVERSE...........

I MEAN, GOD IS SOMETHING ELSE...ISN'T HE!....HE DOES AMAZING THINGS..........

UNFORTUNATELY, I DID NOT ASK FOR A CRIMINAL TO BE SENT MY WAY...ON THE OTHER HAND, I DID NOT SAY SPECIFICALLY, "DON'T SEND ME A CRIMINAL"..........

SO, GOD PUT US TOGETHER....AND SO TOGETHER WE LEARN, IN THIS LIFE, JUST WHAT GOD WANTS TO TEACH US.....

AND WE HOPE SO VERY MUCH, THAT THE WORLD WOULD BE SO IN LOVE, AS WE ARE WITH EACH OTHER!..............WHAT A BEAUTIFUL LIFE AND WORLD IT WOULD BE, BASED ON TOTAL LOVE..................ALMOST UNIMAGINABLE...............BUT IT IS EXISTANT AND IT IS POSSIBLE IN OUR LIFE.........THE LIFE OF JIMMY AND FRAN!

GOOD-NITE!.................FRAN

 

hello

I THOUGHT I'D WRITE ANOTHER ENTRY TONIGHT. I JUST SPOKE TO JIMMY A LITTLE WHILE AGO...HIS LAST CALL TO ME IS 10 PM, THEN HE GOES TO SLEEP.....HE RECEIVED THE 2 MANILLA ENVELOPES I SENT HIM, WHICH ARE FILLED WITH COMPUTER PRINT-OUTS OF SUBJECTS OF INTEREST TO HIM (and me), AND NEWSPAPER ARTICLES, THAT HE MAY LIKE TO READ...........HE LIKES ME TO DO THAT, AND THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN A WAY OF COMMUNICATING BETWEEN US........WE NORMALLY SPEND HOURS, ALL DAY, WHEN HE IS HOME, DISCUSSING DIFFERENT TOPICS, SO THIS IS A WAY WE CAN DO IT, AS WE HAVE LIMITED TIME TO TALK............SPEAKING OF THAT, MY PHONE BILLS HAVE ONCE AGAIN REACHED AN AVERAGE OF $1000.00/month. ..........IN LOGAN HALL, WE HAVE TO PAY THROUGH A PRE-PAY ACCOUNT.  WHEN JIMMY WAS AT KINTOCK, HAlF-WAY HOUSE, HE COULD USE A PHONE CARD, SO IT WAS MUCH CHEAPER THAT WAY..............WELL, I DON'T REALLY MIND, BECAUSE I LOVE MY HUSBAND, AND WE NEED TO HEAR EACH OTHER'S VOICE, ALL THE TIME.  HOWEVER, ANYONE WOULD ADMIT, IT IS A LARGE AMOUNT  OF MONEY TO PAY THE PHONE COMPANIES.......I'VE BEEN BASICALLY PAYING SOMEWHERE BETWEEN $700 TO $1200.00 EVERY MONTH FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS.  (EXCEPT DURING THE TIME HE WAS IN KIntock).

WE JOKED ON THE PHONE  ....."WHEN I DON'T HAVE TO PAY THESE PHONE BILLS ANYMORE, I'LL GO OUT AND SPEND THAT $1000.00 ON A NEW WARDROBE," I SAID.  "I GET THE FIRST MONTH, AND YOU GET THE SECOND MONTH (FOR A NEW WARDROBE," I JOKED.

ACTUALLY, JIMMY ENJOYS TAKING ME SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES, SHOES AND JEWELRY........HE PROMISES ME A NEW DESIGNER HANDBAG, WHEN HE COMES HOME...........HE KNOWS I ALWAYS LOVE GOOD DESIGNER HANDBAGS.........MAYBE DOONEY AND BURKE, OR GUCCI.......HE  LOVES TO TAKE ME TO THE SHOPPING MALL, AND HE WALKS WITH ME INTO THE WOMAN'S SECTION, AND STARTS PULLING THINGS OFF THE RACK, TELLING ME WHAT WILL LOOK GOOD ON ME............SO, I HAVE TONS OF CLOTHES JIMMY BOUGHT FOR ME..........HE ENJOYS DOING IT, AND I ENJOY HIM DOING IT..........AND, HE LOVES TO BUY ME LINGERIE, AND BEAUTIFUL, SEXY NIGHTGOWNS!................HE LOVES TO BUY ME GOOD SHOES, AND YES, OF COURSE, JEWELRY!........DIAMOND HEART PENDAMTS, GOLD CHARM BRACELETS...HE ESPECIALLY PICKS OUT EACH CHARM ( HE BOUGHT ME A MEDICAL CADUSIS, AS I AM A NURSE, A CRESENT MOON WITH A WOMAN SITTING ON IT, A HEART, AND ONE THAT SAYS, "BRAT," AS THAT WAS WHAT I WAS CALLED AS A CHILD.........AND OH YES, "CUTE ASS."......  :)

ONE OF HIS FIRST WEDDING GIFTS TO ME WERE PEARL EARRINGS, AND A PEARL NECKLACE

ALL OF THAT IS FINE, BUT SINCE JIMMY HAS BEEN IN PRISON I NEVER BOUGHT MYSELF AN ARTICLE OF CLOTHING FOR THE PAST 37 MONTHS.........WELL, JIMMY DID BRING ME TO BUY THE SPECIAL SHOES I WEAR ON MY FEET, WHEN HE CAME HOME ON A FURLOUGH...AND I BOUGHT 1 NEW BLOUSE, AND 2 SWEATER-JACKETS...BUT THAT'S REALLY ABOUT IT..........WELL, I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT CLOTHES, AND I DON'T GO ANYWHERE, ANYMORE, AND FOR ME, WELL, LIFE HAS NOT BEEN A CELEBRATION THESE PAST 37 MONTHS..........

JIMMY ATTENDED A CLASS TODAY, AND THE LECTURER ASKED THE CLASS OF AROUND 50 MEN, WHO AMONGST YOU HAS A JOINT BANK ACCOUNT?  JIMMY AND ONE OTHER GUY RAISED THEIR HANDS...THE OTHER GUY HAS A JOINT ACCOUNT WITH HIS MOTHER.  THIS IS JUST UNBELIEVABLE TO ME...........WE TALKED ABOUT IT.  "JIMMY," I SAID, 'HAVING JOINT ACCOUNTS, MEANS YOU HAVE TO HAVE FAITH AND TRUST IN EACH OTHER.  IT ALSO MEANS THAT ONE MUST BE ORGANIZED, IN KEEPING THE RECORDS STRAIGHT."  ...........I AM VERY PROUD TO HAVE A WONDERFUL HUSBAND LIKE JIMMY......HAVING JOINT ACCCOUNTS WAS NEVER A PROBLEM FOR US.  I READ RECENTLY THAT FINANCES ARE HIGH ON THE SCALE, AS FAR AS PROBLEMS IN A MARRIAGE...EVEN HIGHER THAN SEXUAL PROBLEMS.  WELL, FOR JIMMY AND I, FINANCES HAVE NEVER BEEN A PROBLEM BETWEEN US, BUT INSTEAD, WE ENJOY HANDLING OUR FINANCES TOGETHER..........AND SEX...WELL YOU GOT IT!.....NEVER A PROBLEM IN THAT AREA........IN FACT, JIMMY AND I HAVE NO PROBLEMS IN OUR MARRIAGE....NO OBSTACLES.  GOING TO PRISON, AND BEING SEPERATED PHYSICALLY FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME, HAS BEEN THE ONLY DIFFICULTY...AND EVEN THAT, WE RISE ABOVE IT, AND GET THROUGH IT TOGETHER, ON A DAY BY DAY BASIS........

JIMMY IS EXCITED ABOUT THE BOOK OF CLASSIC STORIES I SENT HIM...THEY ARE SHORT STORIES WRITTEN BY ANCIENT ROMANS AND GREEKS.  HE LIKES IT SO MUCH, THAT HE PROMISED TO BRING THE BOOK TO THE PHONE TOMORROW, AND READ ME AN EXCET FROM IT OVER THE PHONE.  I LIKE BOOKS LIKE THAT, AND I ESPECIALLY LIKE MY HUSBAND TO READ TO ME, AS HE DOES THIS A LOT AT HOME....DURING OUR LAST CHRISTMAS TOGETHER, HE READ ME THE WHOLE NOVEL, OF "A LITTLE PRINCESS."  IT WAS A BOOK I HAD READ AS A CHILD...WE WERE FORTUNATE TOFIND IT , AND EACH NIGHT I WOULD LAY ON THE COUCH, OR IN BED, AND BY THE GLOW OF THE CHRISTMAS TREE, JIMMY WOULD READ ME A CHAPTER.  WE BOTH LOVE THAT BOOK, ALTHOUGH IT IS A CLASSIC CHILDREN'S BOOK...IT IS ON OUR BOOKSHELF, AND I GAZE AT IT OFTEN.

WELL, I HAVE "MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA,"  THAT JIMMY PROMISES TO READ TO ME WHEN HE COMES HOME...THE BOOK IS HERE, WAITING FOR HIM!  JIMMY HAS ALSO ASKED ME TO TRY AND FIND A CHILD'S BOOK, OR FAIRY-TALE THAT HE CAN READ TO ME WHEN HE COMES HOME..........I HAVE YET TO FIND THE RIGHT BOOK, YET!

AS YOU CAN WELL SEE, JIMMY AND I ARE SIMILAR, IN THAT OUR INTERESTS IN LIFE ARE VERY ECLEPTIC............THAT IS, WE ARE INTERESTED IN A WIDE VARIETY OF DIFFERENT SUBJECTS...............

I NEVER KNEW THAT ABOUT MYSELF, UNTIL I MET JIMMY, AND HE POINTED THAT OUT TO ME.  I GET BORED EASILY, AND TEND TO MOVE FROM ONE INTEREST TO ANOTHER.........I CANNOT "CATEGORIZE" MYSELF.....I LIKE TO LEARN ABOUT DIFFERENT THINGS, ON A WIDE VARIETY OF SUBJECTS...............JIMMY IS THE SAME WAY....AND THEN AGAIN, HE IS  A GEMINI!

I COULD NEVER PiN POINT iT ABOUT MYSELF...WHO I AM EXACTLY.  YOU SEE, TO ME, I WAS A LOT OF DIFFERENT PEOPLE, WITH A LOT OF DIFFERENT INTERESTS.  BUT JIMMY EXPLAINED IT TO ME....YES, HE FOUND ME, WHO I AM, DEEP WITHIN MY PERSONALITY, AND EXPLAINED IT TO ME...........NOW, I UNDERSTAND MYSELF, AND I"M HAPPY, AND I HAVE A HUSBAND THAT IS ON THE SAME WAVE-LENGTH!..........AND IT'S OK TO BE ME...ECLIPTIC!......AND JIMMY IS THE SAME WAY...THAT IS WHY WE LOVE EACH OTHER, AND HE HAD NEVER FOUND A WOMAN LIKE ME, BECAUSE THERE AREN'T TOO MANY OF US OUT THERE!

THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME.  I FEEL BETTER NOW.  WHEN I SPOKE TO JIMMY AT 10 PM, I LET HIM KNOW I WAS OK, BUT SOMEHOW FEELING OUT OF SORTS....KIND OF LIKE, NOT REALLY FEELING TO DO ANYTHING....NOT PART OF ANYTHING.........I DIDN'T EVEN MAKE THE CHICKEN CURRY I HAD PLANNED TO, TODAY.............WATCHING TV, AND SO MUCH UNREST IN OUR COUNTRY, TODAY.  SO JIMMY SAID, "I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN, FRAN."  "SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THAT, TOO."  HE DESCRIBED IT AS "BEING ONE BEAT OFF, IN LIFE."...................SO WE TALKED IT OUT, AND WE STAYED ON THE PHONE FOR LONGER THAN USUAL.  THEN, WE FELT BETTER.  JIMMY TALKINGABOUT THE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER, AND HOW HE'LL TAKE ME OUT...............YOU SEE, THESE FEELINGS ARE HARD TO EXPLAIN, UNLESS YOU ARE GOING THROUGH THEM....A LOT HAS TO BEING LOCKED UP IN A PRISON, AND ME BEING LOCKED UP IN A HOUSE............

AND SO, NOW THAT I WROTE MY THOUGHTS HERE, AND SET THEM FREE, I FEEL MUCH BETTER.  I WILL NOW TAKE A SHOWER, THEN READ A LITTLE, AND LOOK FOR ANOTHER GOOD MOVIE ON TV!

THANK YOU FOR READING MY JOURNAL......AND MAY THERE BE PEACE ON EARTH....................FRAN

 

thoughts for Monday...

WELL, I GOT UP TODAY, AND AS USUAL, PUT ON MY COFFEE MAKER, FOR THAT DELICIOUS CUP OF COFFEE, FIRST THING, UPON ARISING......THEN, WHAT I LIKE TO EAT IN THE MORNING, OR IS IT 12 NOON, IS EGG WHITES IN A PAN I SPRAY WITH MAZOLA SPRAY.  HOWVER, TODAY I FRIED SOME ONIONS AND GREEN PEPPER , IN OLIVE OIL, AND MADE AN OMELOT WITH SHREDDED CHEESE AND A PINCH OF TUMERIC......IT WAS VERY YUMMY......LATER, FOR DINNER, I WILL MAKE CHICKEN CURRY, IN MY WOK, WITH ALL REAL SPICES, (NOT THE STORE-BROUGHT CURRY POWDER)...I MAKE MY OWN CURRY, AND USE PLENTY OF FRESH GARLIC AND GINGER...........THEN, I'LL ALSO HAVE BROWN RICE, AND SALAD.........ALSO, IN THE CURRY, I'LL PUT A FEW FRESH VEGTABLES, AS I'M REALLY BIG ON FRESH VEGETABLES.......

LAST NIGHT I SAW A FANTASTIC MOVIE ON TV, AND WOULD RECOMMEND IT FOR EVERYBODY...IT WAS IN 2 PARTS, AND IS CURRENTLY ON HBO, BUT I WATCHED IT ON "ON-DEMAND."

THE MOVIE WAS "QUEEN ELIZABETH I.".....IT WAS GREAT!  NOT ONLY WAS IT HISTORICAL AND EDUCATIONAL, BUT IT WAS THE GREATEST LOVE STORY.............QUEEN ELIZABETH I, WAS THE DAUGHTER OF KING HENRY.  SHE RULED THE MONARCH FOR, I BELIEVE 60 YEARS........SHE WAS A POWERFUL, AND STRONG WOMAN.  THE MOVIE SHOWED THE POLITICS INVOLVED AT THAT TIME, BUT IT ALSO SHOWED THE QUEEN, AND HER ROMANCES WITH SEVERAL MEN...........SHE WAS NEVER MARRIED, AND NEVER BORE A CHILD, WHICH SHE NEEDED, TO INHERIT THE THRONE.

SHE HAD HER SISTER, MARY QUEEN OF SCOTTS BEHEADED.  SHE ALSO HAD ONE OF HER LOVER'S BEHEADED.

WHEN JIMMY CALLED ME, FIRST THING THIS MORNING, I TOLD HIM ABOUT THE MOVIE, AND HOW GREAT IT IS.  HE SAID HE READ ABOUT IT IN THE NEWSPAPER, THAT IT IS A REALLY GOOD MOVIE.  THEN HE STARTED TELLING ME THE WHOLE HISTORY OF THE BRITISH EMPIRE........HE GAVE ME NAMES AND DATES....ALL THE STUFF I STUDIED IN HIGH SCHOOL, A LONG TIME AGO, BUT FORGOT...............JIMMY HAS SOME BRAIN!....HE FORGETS NOTHING, HE ABSOLUTELY LOVES HISTORY, AND CAN RECITE DATES AND THINGS, THAT MOST PEOPLE DON'T PAY ATTENTION TO......MY HUSBAND ALWAYS IMPRESSES ME!  HE TALKS ABOUT HISTORY, AS IF HE WAS THERE, OBSERVING IT IN PERSON.....I JUST LOVE THAT....HE MAKES HISTORY COME ALIVE FOR ME, AND I FIND THAT EXCITING!

SO, FOR ALL YOU WOMEN LOOKING FOR A GOOD ROMANTIC LOVE STORY, TRY WATCHING THIS MOVIE...YOU WOULDN'T REGRET IT!.................WHAT AMAZED ME, WAS HOW THIS MOST POWERFUL WOMAN, HAD SO MANY DIFFERENT MEN, AND SOME VERY MUCH YOUNGER THAN HER...LET'S SAY AROUND 40 YEARS YOUNGER..........AMAZING, I MUST SAY.  IN OUR CULTURE TODAY, MANY YOUNG MEN ARE ATTRACTED TO OLDER WOMAN, AND THROUGH THIS MOVIE, WE CAN SEE IT WAS HAPPENING  EVEN WAY BACK THEN, IN THE 1500'S......

WELL, IT'S A NICE DAY, SO I'LL GO OUTSIDE ON THE PATIO WITH PRINCE FOR A WHILE!............FRAN