jimmy's valentine's day letter

I RECEIVED THIS VALENTINE'S DAY LETTER FROM JIMMY...WEDNESDAY, FEB. 15, IS 2 WEEKS WE HAVE HAD NO PHONE CONNECTION WITH EACH OTHER.

KNOW THIS, ST. VALENTINE'S DAY, AND EVERYDAY....THAT YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.  FRANCES, PLEASE LET ME KNOW THAT YOU STILL LOVE ME.  THE LACK OF CONTACT WITH YOU, MY WIFE, MY LOVE, IS KILLING ME.  ALL I THINK ABOUT 24 HOURS/DAY, EVERYDAY, 7 DAYS A WEEK, IS MY WIFE, ALL ALONE....HER HEALTH...HER BEAUTY....MY LITTLE KIDS....MY HOME.  I SWEAR, I WILL NEVER SPEND ANOTHER DAY AWAY FROM YOU...........YOUR LOVING HUSBAND, JIMMY

BAYSIDE STATE PRISON..PHONES START WORKING

YOU ARE THE FIRST TO KNOW.  I JUST NOW GOT A CALL FROM A PRISONER'S MOTHER...IT WAS A 3 WAY CALL. WITH HER SON, AND ME.  JIMMY SAYS HE LOVES ME, AND WISHES ME A "HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY."   THE PHONES/PIN NUMBERS ARE BEING TURNED ON, A LITTLE AT A TIME.  JIMMY'S IS NOT TURNED ON YET, BUT HE THINKS IN A DAY OR SO, IT WILL BE WORKING.

SO, THAT'S IT.........THAT'S THE STORY.

                      FRAN

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THANK YOU, EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORTIVE COMMENTS, ABOUT THE MILITARY WIFE, WHO WROTE THINGS AGAINST THIS JOURNAL..........YES, I HAVE BLOCKED HER.  WHY?  BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T BELONG HERE. SHE NEEDS TO FIND A MILITARY WIFE JOURNAL, WHERE SHE CAN GO THERE FOR SUPPORT, SO SHE CAN DEAL WITH HER ANGER, IN A CONSTRUCTIVE WAY.

HOWEVER, IF SHE IS STILL READING THIS, I JUST WANT O SAY A FEW MORE THINGS, TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST.......

AT THIS MINUTE, AND MOMENT, YOU SHOULD  BE DOWN ON BENDED KNEES, PRAYING TO GOD, FOR THE SAFE RETURN OF YOUR HUSBAND....TO BRING HIM BACK TO YOU IN ONE PIECE, ALIVE AND WELL, SO YOU CAN RESUME YOUR HOME LIFE, IN A NORMAL WAY.  I WOULD NOT BE OUT THERE, JUDGING OTHER PEOPLE, AT THIS TIME. 

YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY, A BABE IN THE WOODS...STILL WET BEHIND THE EARS........YOU HAVE SEEN NOTHING IN LIFE, NOTHING YET.  SO BE CAREFUL WHERE YOU FOCUS YOUR THOUGHTS, BECAUSE IT MAY COME BACK TO YOU IN A CRUEL, WAY, IF YOU ARE NOT CAREFUL....IT IS LIKE THAT FOR ALL OF US ON THIS PLANET....THAT IS JUST HOW IT WORKS

THE WORLD OF THE MILITARY AND THE WORLD OF PRISONS, ARE WORLDS APART...BUT, THEY ARE LITTLE WORLDS, IN THEIR OWN ENTITY....EACH WORLD FUNCTIONS AS THEIR OWN LITTLE WORLD.  MOST OF WHAT GOES ON BEHIND PRISON WALLS, IS UNKNOWN TO MOST.

MOST PEOPLE "GENERALIZE"IN THEIR MINDS, WHO A CRIMINAL IS.  I KNOW THAT I DID AT ONE TIME.........CRIMINALS ARE EVIL, VICIOUS PEOPE, LURKING BEHIND EVERY CORNER...READY TO ATTACK.. THAT MAY BE THE CASE IN SO MANY, BUT THERE ARE THOSE WHO MAY NOT FIT THE "MOLD."....even if it is .1%, IT IS WELL WORTH IT....TO CARE FOR THAT .1%........AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND THEM, AND LOVE THEM.

I AM NOT TRYING, BY ANY MEANS TO COMPARE THE MILITARY TO PRISONERS, IN THIS JOURNAL.  TO DO SO, WOULD BE A BIG MISTAKE ON MY PART, AND WOULD BE VERY FOOLISH.  IF I HAVE GIVEN ANYONE THAT IMPRESSION, PLEASE FORGIVE ME, I DID NOT MEAN THAT AT ALL.  I ONLY COMPARE BEING WITHOUT THE ONE YOU LOVE...HOW DIFFICULT IT IS....AND THE DIFFICULT PASSAGE OF TIME, THROUGH DAY TO DAY LIFE, AND HOLIDAYS....HOW WE STAY ALONE...WAITING, AND WONDERING ABOUT OUR HUSBANDS.

I READ AN ARTICLE, NOT TOO LONG AGO, THAT MILITARY MEN ARE TAKING THEIR FAMILIES, AND RUNNING AWAY, OUT OF THE COUNTRY, TO CANADA.  THEY DO NOT WANT TO FIGHT THE WAR.  ISN'T THIS A CRIME?....I THINK IT IS.  WELL, I GUESS, ANYONE CAN DO WRONG THINGS, UNDER THE RIGHT CIRCUMSTANCES....

JIMMY TELLS ME EVERYDAY, HOW HE MEETS PRISONERS, IN PRIISON, WHO WERE ONCE IN THE MILITARY.  I WAS SHOCKED TO HEAR THIS.  "FRAN, HE SAYS, EVEN AN EX-MILITARY MAN CAN COMMIT CRIMES.".........SO, IT IS NOT BEYOND MILITARY MEN TO COMMIT CRIMES.

MY HUSBAND WAS IN THE MILITARY....IN THE 70'S, DURING THE VIETNAM ERA.  HE WAS PROUD TO BE IN THE ARMY, AND HAD AN "HONORABE DISCHARGE."

HE LATER BECAME AN ATTORNEY.  JIMMY KNOWS THE LAWS, AND THE HISTORY OF AMERICA, BETTER THAN MOST PEOPLE KNOW THEIR NAME.  HE CAN RE-CITE, FROM MEMEORY, THINGS WE ONLY LEARNED, AND THEN FORGOT IN HIGH SCHOOL.  HE KNOWS THINGS, BY HEART, SUCH AS THE CONSTITUTION, THE PREAMBLE....AND OTHER THINGS.  HE CAN RE-CITE EACH PRESIDENT'S NAME, SINCE GEORGE WASHINGTON, AND CAN TELL YOU ABOUT EACH ONE, AND CAN DRAW A SKETCH OF EACH ONE.....

JIMMY IS ONE OF THE MOST DEDICATED AMERICAN CITIZENS, THAT I HAVE EVER KNOWN.......GIVEN A CHANCE, HE WOULD BE RIGHT OUT THERE FIGHTING FOR HIS COUNTRY....(ALTHOUGH HIS POLITICAL VIEWS DO NOT AGREE WITH WHAT IS TAKING PLACE NOW, WITH THE WAR)...

AS I HAVE SAID....YOU ARE A BABE IN THE WOODS.  YOU HAVEN'T SEEN LIFE YET.  I HOPE YOU ARE NOT DIS-ILLISIONED OR SURPRISED ALONG THE ROAD OF LIFE....IT TAKES A STRONG PERSON TO SURVIVE THIS WORLD.

HAVING SAID ALL THAT, I WILL SAY GOOD-NITE, AND PEACE!                       FRAN

BAYSIDE STATE PRISON

THIS IS ESPECIALLY FOR NABSHELL WHO LEFT A RUDE COMMENT IN THE LAST ENTRY, AND IN ANOTHER PAST ENTRY.

LET ME TELL YOU RIGHT NOW...IF YOU DON'T LIKE READING THIS JOURNAL, THEN DON'T READ IT.  KEEP YOUR NASTY COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.  I'M SORRY YOU HAVE A HUSBAND IN THE MILITARY, AND YOU SOUND LIKE A MISERABLE WOMAN.  IF I HAD A MILITARY HUSBAND, I WOULD START MY OWN JOURNAL TO SUPPORT HIM, AND NOT GO INTO OTHER JOURNALS, ABOUT PRISONER'S AND THEIR WIVES.  I WOULD START A JOURNAL AND BE SUPPORTIVE OF HIM, AND SHOW MY LOVE TO HIM, NOT GO AND PUT OTHER PEOPLE DOWN.  MY HUSBAND WORKED VERY HARD HIS WHOLE LIFE, AND I HAVE ALSO, FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE...SO DON'T PUT PEOPLE DOWN, WHEN YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THEM....I WOULD SUGGEST YOU USE YOUR TIME CONSTRUCTIVELY IN LIFE , AND BE THE WONDERFUL CITIZEN YOU PROFESS TO BE......EVEN MILITARY MEN MAKE MISTAKES, AND GO TO PRISON...SO, YOU'D BETTER LOOK AT WHAT IS HAPPENING ON YOUR OWN SIDE OF THE FENCE..........

BAYSIDE STATE PRISON....WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH THE PHONES?

TODAY WAS THE 10TH DAY...TOMORROW IS THE 11TH, OF NO PHONE CALL FROM JIMMY.......WHAT IS HAPPENING, BAYSIDE STATE PRISON, WITH YOUR INMATE PHONES?

IT IS THE WEEK-END, SO I SUPPOSE THEY ARE NOT EVEN WORKING ON IT..............IF IT IS SUCH A MAJOR PROBLEM, WITH THE PHONE LINES, I WOULD THINK THEY'D BE WORKING ON IT DAY AND NITE, 24/7.

ONE THING, EVERYONE KNOWS, IS YOU DON'T WANT TO MAKE AN ENTIRE PRISON OF MEN ANGRY...JUST BECAUSE THE PHONES ARE NOT WORKING, AND THEY CAN'T SPEAK TO THEIR LOVED ONES.

IF ANYONE ELSE HAS SOMEONE AT BAYSIDE STATE PRISON, IN LEESBURG, NEW JERSEY, AND HAVE NOT HEARD FROM YOUR PRISONER, PLEASE EITHER LEAVE A COMMENT HERE, OR E-MAIL ME, AT    CRYSTALMOON222@aol.com

IT WOULD BE INTERESTING TO SEE HOW MANY ARE GOING THROUGH THIS TIME OF SUFFERING, ALONG WITH ME. 

I HAVE ALREADY RECEIVED SOME E-MAILS FROM WIVES, WHO HAVE THANKED ME FOR ACTUALLY FINDING OUT SOME INFO THAT THE PHONE SYSTEM IS BEING REPAIRED.

I RECEIVED 2 LETTERS FROM JIMMY.  OF COURSE HE IS VERY UPSET ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO SPEAK WITH ME FOR THE PAST DAYS........

HOWEVER, ONE GOOD THING HAPPENED....HE DID SEE PAROLE, AND THEY NOW SAY HE WILL BE PAROLLED BETWEEN 3/6 AND 3/21/06.  THEY ARE NOT SURE OF THE EXACT DATE.  AND SO, NOW IT HAS BEEN MOVED UP 15 MORE DAYS.

I MISS JIMMY, SO MUCH.  WHAT CAN I DO OR SAY....I AM HELPLESS.  SO, I SIT AND WAIT.

IN HIS LETTER , HE SAYS...."THIS PLACE (BAYSIDE STATE PRISON), IS MUCH BETTER THAN 'CRAF.'  MORE AND BETTER FOOD, CLEANER, AND CAN MOVE AROUND MORE....BUT NO YOU (you're not here).  IF I WAS OFFERED ALL THE POWER AND WEALTH IN THE WORLD, TO GIVE YOU UP, I WOULD NOT TAKE IT....NOTHING MATTERS, WITHOUT YOU."

GOOD-NITE, EVERYONE................FRAN

 

 

some thoughts

IT HAS BEEN 8 DAYS, AS OF TODAY, THAT JIMMY AND I HAVE BEEN SEPERATED BY THE PHONE...THAT IS, UNABLE TO TALK.  THAT IS THE LONGEST PERIOD OF TIME THAT WE HAVE BEEN DIS-CONNECTED IN OUR 5-YEAR MARRIAGE.

WHEN I TOOK PRINCE OUT FOR A WALK, A LITTLE WHILE AGO, I GAZED UP AT THE MOON, AND KNEW WE ARE SO TOTALLY CONNECTED...JIMMY AND I, THAT IS.   CONNECTED THROUGH OUR SOUL AND SPIRIT...ALWAYS HAVE BEEN , AND ALWAYS WILL BE...INTO ETERNITY.  THAT IS WHERE WE ARE ONE UP  ON THE REST OF THE WORLD...SOMETHING THEY CAN'T TAKE AWAY FROM US...OUR CONNECTION, THAT IS.  THROUGH PAST LIFE-TIMES, AND INTO FUTURE LIVES, WE ARE INFINITELY ONE, ALONG WITH GOD, OUR CREATOR.  IT IS SOMETHING MOST PEOPLE NEVER THINK ABOUT, OR DON'T UNDERSTAND...JIMMY AND I BELIEVE IN A LOT OF META-PHYSICAL THOUGHT....SOMETHING YOU JUST MAY NOT FIND IN MOST  PRISONS...WE BELIEVE IN DIFFERENT DIMENSIONS, AND PARALLEL UNIVERSES, AND THINGS LIKE THAT...MOST IS PURELY SCIENTIFIC.  AND WITH A BRILLIANT MIND, AS MY HUSBAND HAS, IT IS EASY TO UNDERSTAND, THAT OUR COMMUNICATION IS ON A DIFFERENT LEVEL THAN MOST....I HAVE STUDIED THIS MY ENTIRE LIFE........

AND SO, I'D BETTER STOP, RIGHT NOW, AS I CAN GO ON AND ON ABOUT THIS SUBJECT...........

AND SO, IT GOES TO SHOW YOU, THAT EVEN SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS A TELEPHONE, CANNOT KEEP US APART...NOT PRISON WALLS, OR BARS, OR CHAINS, OR BARBED WIRE............NOTHING, I REPEAT, NOTHING, CAN KEEP US SEPERATED.........WHY?  BECAUSE WE HAVE SOMETHING GREATER BETWEEN US, WHICH IS NOT SEEN BY THE HUMAN EYE................IT IS EVEN GREATER THAN THE GREATEST LOVE....IT IS A CONNECTION, WITH OUR SOUL AND SPIRIT.

OUR BEING SEPERATED, THROUGH PHONE LINES, AND DISTANCE IN MILES, AND RULES AND REGULATIONS OF A PRISON, ONLY PROVE TO MAKE US STRONGER, TOGETHER, UNITED AS ONE SPIRIT AND SOUL...........INTO INFINITY,  I'M NOT SCARED, BECAUSE I KNOW JIMMY IS ALWAYS WITH ME...........                      FRAN

PS.....ONE NEEDS TO GO THROUGH THIS EXPERIENCE, THEMSELVES, TO TRUELY KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.  AND, YES, I FEEL "BLESSED" BY THE PRISON EXPERIENCE. 

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I JUST FINISHED MAKING MY DAILY CALLS ON THE PHONE TO TRY TO SOLVE THE PHONE PROBLEM...I ONCE AGAIN, AS EVERY DAY, CALL VERIZON, AND GTL...THE ANSWER IS THE SAME WITH THEM...NO BLOCKS, EVERYTHINGS OK.

SO, THIS TIME AROUND, WHEN I CALLED BAYSIDE, I WENT TO THE "POWER PLANT EXTENSION."...I MEAN, I FIGURED IF ANYONE SHOULD KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON AT BAYSIDE, WITH THE PHONES, IT SHOULD BE THE GUYS IN THE POWER PLANT  (I HAVE ALREADY SPOKEN TO SOCIAL WORKERS, AND BUSINESS OFFICE, AND THEY DON'T REALLY GIVE ME A PROPER ANSWER)...........

SO FINALLY, I GOT A MOST WONDERFUL MAN IN THE POWER PLANT, WHO SPOKE VERY NICELY TO ME, AND EXPLAINED EVERYTHING, IN A CALM WAY.....HE SAID THERE IS A MAJOR PROBLEM WITH THE INMATES PHONES AT BAYSIDE, AND THEY HAVE BEEN WORKING ON IT FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS, AND ARE CURRENTLY WORKING ON IT..............FINALLY, I GOT SOME PLAIN AND SIMPLE DIRECT ANSWERS...THAT IS ALL I WANTED, AT LEAST..........THAT IS ALL ANY PRISONER'S FAMILY WANTS.......ANSWERS.  AND IT SEEMS THAT OUR PRISON SYSTEM, THE WAY IT IS CURRENTLY SET UP, PROVDES NO ANSWERS FOR THE FAMILIES THAT SIT AT HOME, AND ONLY WAIT......I HAVE SAID IT ALL ALONG, IN THIS JOURNAL, AND THIS IS ONE EXAMPLE THAT PROVES IT.

AND SO, THIS NICE MAN, TOLD ME THAT BY THE BEGINNING OF NEXT WEEK, MAYBE SOONER,  THE PHONES SHOULD BE WORKING...AS IT IS A MAJOR PROBLEM....

AND I SEND MY BLESSINGS TO THIS MAN, WHO TOLD ME WHAT THE PROBLEM IS....AND HE SAID IT TO ME IN A CALM WAY...HE WAS NOT ANNOYED, THAT I HAD CALLED THE POWER PLANT.  HE WAS NOT HURRIED, OR IMPATIENT , AS MOST PEOPLE ARE.  AND SO, I BLESS HIM, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, THAT HE HAS GIVEN ME SOME PEACE OF MIND.....THERE SHOULD BE MORE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD LIKE THIS MAN.....EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE YOU DO COME ACROSS A PERSON, WHO DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN OUR WORLD, AND HE IS ONE OF THEM.....

I WILL GO OUT NOW, TO MAIL JIMMY THE 10-PAGE LETTER I WROTE HIM LAST NIGHT.

                                            FRAN