SPECIAL PRAYERS

LET US SAY SOME SPECIAL PRAYERS, FOR ALL THOSE WHO WANDER BY HERE, AND STOP BY, TO EXPRESS THEIR OPINIONS .  LET US NOT JUDGE OUR FELLOW MAN.  LET US ESPECIALLY PRAY FOR ALL THOSE WHO WORK WITHIN THE PRISON SYSTEM.  LET US NOT CARRY ANY ANGER OR JUDGEMENT.  THEY HAVE A VERY DIFFICULT JOB, DEALING WITH THE CRIMINALS OF THE WORLD.  ...LET THERE BE PEACE, BALANCE, AND HARMONY, IN HOPES OF MAKING THIS A BETTER WORLD TO LIVE IN..........FRAN

GO TO "PRISON TALK"

HI EVERYONE!

WHEN YOU GET A CHANCE , GO TO THE FOLLOWING WEB-SITE...IT IS REALLY GREAT, AND YOU WILL LEARN ALOT ABOUT THE PRISON SYSTEM IN OUR COUNTRY, AND EXACTLY WHAT IS GOING ON.  THERE ARE 2 WEB-SITES, AS IT IS CURRENTLY BEING SWITCHED OVER TO BLOGSPOT.  WHAT I READ ON HER MSN, LITERALLY GAVE ME NIGHTMARES, TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE PRISON SYSTEM, IN OUR COUNTRY.

http://prisontalk.blogspot.com

http://spaces.msn.com/members/prisontalk

STEFFI, THE EDITOR, IS LOOKING FOR MALE INMATES TO WRITE THEIR "VIEW" OF PRISON.  SO, YES, YOU GOT IT!  I TOLD JIMMY ABOUT IT EARLIER TODAY, AND HE IS NOW WRITING SOMETHING, WHICH HE WILL SEND ME....ALSO, HE IS TELLING OTHER INMATES, AND I'M SURE THEY ARE ALL BUSY WRITING ESSAYS.....JIMMY WILL CALL ME IN ABOUT 20 MINUTES, SO I'LL FIND OUT THEN.

A LOT OF YOU ARE WORRIED JUST WHY JIMMY HAS NOT BEEN MOVED OUT OF "CRAF," AND INTO THE NEW FACILITY YET....WE ARE ACTUALLY HOPING THAT IT IS WEDNESDAY OF THIS WEEK. YOU SEE, I HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT ON TUESDAY, AND I NEED MY HUSBAND'S SUPPORT ON THE PHONE....ONCE HE MOVES TO THE NEW FACILITY, WE WILL LOSE CONTACT FOR AT LEAST A FEW DAYS, UNTIL HIS PIN NUMBER CAN GO THROUGH.....AND SO, ONCE AGAIN, MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND IS ACTUALLY SACRIFICING HIMSELF, IN THE 9X8 FT. CELL, JUST SO HE CAN STAY IN COMMUNICATION WITH ME.....SO, ACTUALLY, WE ARE PRAYING HE STAYS RIGHT WHERE HE IS UNTIL AT LEAST WEDNESDAY.

THIS PAST WEEK THERE WAS A NEW SHOW ON TV, CALLED "IN JUSTICE."  I THINK IT WILL BE A BIG HIT, SINCE THE TREND IN OUR COUNTRY SEEMS TO BE TV SHOWS ABOUT CRIMINALS, THE JUSTICE SYSTEM, AND PRISONS, ETC....AROUND 10 MINUTES INTO WATCHING THE SHOW, I KNEW I LIKED IT.  WHY?  THE WIFE OF THE PRISONER, WHO IS WRONGFULLY LOCKED UP, FOR KILLING SOMEONE, IS TRYING TO PROVE HE IS INNOCENT.  SHE STANDS IN FRONT OF THE LAWYER AND SAYS, "HOW FAR ARE YOU STANDING IN FRONT OF ME?"     "AROUND 8 FEET," HE REPLIES.  "THAT IS EXACTLY THE SIZE OF MY HUSBAND'S PRISON CELL. FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE.  THAT IS THE EXTENT OF HIS WORLD, FOR 24 HOURS/ DAY,...EVERYDAY." SHE ANSWERS.  WELL, I IMMEDIATELY LIKED HER.  THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN TELLING YOU HERE, THAT JIMMY HAS BEEN IN A CELL THAT SIZE, SINCE THE FIRST WEEK OF DECEMBER.  AND AS YOU KNOW, JIMMY WAS CLEARED OF THE CELL PHONE CHARGES.  IT WILL BE COMPLETELY REMOVED FROM HIS RECORDS.  BUT BECAUSE OF THE SLOWNESS AND OVER-CROWDEDNESS OF THE PRISONS, JIMMY IS STILL IN THAT SMALL CELL, AND I FEEL IT IS INHUMANE, AND VERY UNHEALTHY, PHYSICALLY, AND MENTALLY, TO PUT PEOPLE IN SUCH TINY AREAS......WHO AM I TO SAY?  I'M NO ONE. BUT NOW, EVEN A POPULAR TV SHOW, IS SHOWING THE PUBLIC WHAT GOES ON, BEHIND CLOSED DOORS...................AND SO, "IN JUSTICE, " THAT WOMAN'S HUSBAND, STARING BLANKLY, SITTING ON HIS BED, WITH BARS BEFORE HIM..................AND OF COURSE, YOU GUESSED IT...HE WAS INNOCENT AT THE END, AND SET FREE.........

NITE...JIMMY WILL CALL ME SOON.............FRAN

 

 

PLEASE READ THE COMMENTS LEFT IN THE LAST POSTING ON JANUARY 7, 2006, "CLEARING THINGS UP."....THANK YOU FOR YOUR COMMENTS.....FRAN

CLEARING "THINGS" UP

WHEN I STARTED THIS JOURNAL, 2 YEARS AGO, IT WAS ABOUT ME, A WOMAN, WHO WAS IN A STATE OF DESPAIR...A WOMAN WHO WAS SUDDENLY ALONE, WITHOUT HER HUSBAND, WHOM SHE LOVES DEARLY...IT WAS MOSTLY ABOUT MY THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS.  AND THEN, THROUGH THE YEARS, I FOUND MYSELF TALKING ABOUT JIMMY, AND THE PRISON SYSTEM.  WHY?   BECAUSE I BECAME MORE AWARE OF THINGS, THAT I NEVER KNEW ABOUT....I WAS A REGISTERED NURSE MY WHOLE LIFE, AND HAD NEVER, EVER BEEN EXPOSED TO THE PENAL SYSTEM.....IT WAS ALL VERY AMAZING AND SHOKING TO ME, AT THE AGE OF 49, TO SUDDENLY SEE WHAT GOES ON IN PRISONS, ETC.......IT HAS I MUST SAY, BEEN A LEARNING EXPERIENCE FOR ME........

IF YOU ALL HAVEN'T DONE IT ALREADY, PLEASE READ THE COMMENTS IN THE PAST FEW PREVIOUS ENTRIES.  THERE IS ONE VERY ANGRY MAN, WHO SAYS HE WORKS FOR THE DOC, WHO IS WRITING NASTY THINGS...HE IS ANGRY, AND I FEEL SORRY FOR HIM..............HOWEVER, I AM HAPPY THAT THIS JOURNAL HAS CAUSED PEOPLE THROUGHOUT AMERICA TO "THINK."......AND THAT MAKES ME EXTREMLY HAPPY.......NOT ONLY FOR MYSELF, BUT FOR THE PUBLIC TO "OPEN THEIR MINDS," TO WHAT GOES ON IN OUR SOCIETY.......TO DISCUSS THINGS OUT....TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOING ON...THE FEELINGS OF PRISONERS, THEIR LOVED ONES, AND YES, EVEN THOSE WORKING IN THE PRISON SYSTEM..........THAT IS WHAT LIFE AND OUR WORLD IS ALL ABOUT..........SO, I THANK YOU FOR EXPRESSING YOUR OPINIONS..........AND MAYBE , TOGETHER, WE CAN HELP TO MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE TO LIVE IN.

CTbadCOP197, SEEMS TO THINK HE IS HERE , ON THIS JOURNAL, TO "EXPOSE,' MY HUSBAND.  THERE ARE NO SECRETS, AND I'VE BEEN HONEST ALL ALONG.  I WILL TRY TO MAKE THINGS CLEAR, AS I THINK 'CT COP," HAS THINGS A LITTLE MIXED UP.  AND I WOULD SUGGEST YOU CHECK OUT HIS PROFILE....GO THERE, AND YOU'LL SEE WHAT I MEAN.....ALSO, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK  "LOVR ROBIN," WHO WRITES A LONG COMMENT, AND SAYS IT WAY BETTER THAN ME....YOU REALLY TOLD HIM OFF, ROBIN!.. THANK YOU SO MUCH....

CT COP, SAYS TO E-MAIL HIM, AND HE WILL GIVE YOU JIMMY'S SBI NUMBER, ETC......IT IS NO SECRET.  IF YOU WANT HIS NUMBER, JUST E-MAIL ME.  YES, JIMMY WAS IN PRISON BEFORE, MANY YEARS AGO, FOR "BOOTLEGGING MUSIC"  (MAKING COPIES OF CD'S).......HE SPENT 18 MONTHS ON "JONE FARM."  THIS IS NO SECRET, BELIEVE ME!...I THINK I EVEN WRITE ABOUT IT IN THIS JPURNAL, AROUND A YEAR OR SO AGO.............JONES FARM IS TOGETHER WITH "CRAF, " WHERE HE IS RIGHT NOW.....MANY OF THE PEOPLE WORKING IN THE PRISON RECOGNIZE HIM.....ALSO, JIMMY WENT INTO PRISONS, AS A BAIL BONDSMNAN (HE WAS ONE FOR 12 YEARS), AND MANY PEOPLE KNOW HIM.  WHEN JIMMY WAS AT JONES FARM  (I THINK IT WAS IN THE 80'S), HE HAD A VERY GOOD JOB, THERE.  HE PLACED THE CRIMINALS IN JOBS IN THE PRIISON....SO, HE WORKED IN THE EMPLOYMENT CENRER, AND WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR PLACING HUNDREDS OF CRIMINALS IN PRISON JOBS.

JIMMY HAS ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT MOST PEOPLE WORKING IN THE PRISON SYSTEM ARE NICE TO HIM.  HE HAS NEVER HAD A PROBLEM WITH ANYONE...HE IS NICE TO THEM, AND THEY ARE NICE TO HIM...PERIOD.

JIMMY HAS ALWAYS BEEN A MODEL PRISONER, WHILE IN PRISON...HE FOLLOWS ALL RULES, AND IS A NON-VIOLENT PERSON.  HE REPEATEDLY SAYS HE IS SORRY FOR HIS CRIMES, AND HE WOULD NEVER DONE ANY CRIMINAL ACTIVITY, IF HE HAD MET ME EARLIER IN LIFE...

SORRY TO CAUSE SUCH A "STIR,' IN YOUR LIFE, CT COP....CT COP, HAS "IM'D " ME, AND I TRIED TO EXPAIN THINGS FOR HIM, AND CLEAR THINGS UP....AS WE WERE ON THE COMPUTER, HE PULLED UP JIMMY'S PRISON RECORDS...HE THOUGHT I WOULD BE SHOCKED, AS HE TOLD ME JIMMY'S SBI NUMBER, AND OTHER INFO ABOUT HIM....YESM IT IS ALL PUBLIC RECORD....MY HUSBAND HAD TO CHECK FILES OF CRIMINALS IN HIS OWN JOB AS A ONDSMAN, SO I KNOW IT IS THERE..........I'M NOT EXACTLY SURE WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO PROVE, BUT IN MY BOOK, YOU ARE PROVING NOTHING...........YOU ARE TRYING TO SAY MY HUSBAND WAS NEVER HONEST WITH ME, AS SO MANY CRIMINALS ARE TOWARDS THEIR WIVES..........WELL, OUR LOVE AND MARRIAGE IS STRONGER THEN YOUR WORDS, BECAUSE WE WERE JOINED TOGETHER BEFORE GOD, HIMSELF, IN THIS LIFETIME.

GOOD NIGHT............FRAN

OUR MARRIAGE IS BLESSED BY GOD

HI EVERYONE!.....JIMMY IS STILL IN THE SAME PLACE...THEY HAVE NOT MOVED HIM YET...HE JUST CALLED ME A FEW MINUTES AGO...ALL IS "STATUS QUO."............WE DISCUSSED OUR LOVE AND DEVOTION TO EACH OTHER........A LOT OF PEOPLE TRY TO HURT ME, BY SAYING I MARRIED A MAN WHO IS A CRIMINAL, AND THAT IS A TERRIBLE THING.....JIMMY EXPLAINED ON THE PHONE TO ME, THAT THESE PEOPLE, WHO ARE ANGRY WITH ME, HAVE NEVER FOUND LOVE IN THEIR LIFE...THEY HAVE NEVER FOUND THE LOVE JIMMY AND I HAVE WITH EACH OTHER....AND , AS I SIT HERE , ALONE, AT HOME, WITH MY HUSBAND IN A PRISON CELL, THOSE PEOPLE THAT ARE ANGRY, AND LEAVE ANGRY COMMENTS HERE TO ME, AS YOU CAN READ IN THE PREVIOUS COMMENTS, ARE ANGRY, BECAUSE IN REALITY, THEY HAVE NEVER FOUND LOVE IN THEIR LIVES.............SOME OF THE PEOPLE WORKING IN THE DOC, ARE ANGRY, BVECAUSE THEY HAVE NEVER FOUND THE "ONE" PERSON IN THEIR LIVES WHO IS THE ULTIMATE PARTNER........AND THEY ARE ANGRY BECAUSE WOMEN, WHO ARE PRISONER'S WIVES, ARE SO DEDICATED..........ONE PERSON, WHO WORKS FOR THE DOC, (DEPT. OF CORRECTIONS)   COMMENTED SEVERAL TIMES HERE...HE WAS A VERY ANGRY PERSON....AND THEN, I SPOKE WITH HIM...HERE ON THE COMPUTER, BECAUSE HE IM'D ME...AND I TRIED TO EXPLAIN MY DEVOTION TO MY HUSBAND, ALTHOUGH I DON'T NEED TO EXPLAIN THAT TO ANYONE...BUT, I WOULD LIKE TO "TEACH" HIM EXACTLY WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT.........THIS PERSON, WAS ABLE TO PULL MY HUSBANDS PRISON RECORDS UP, ON THE COMPUTER, EVEN GIVING ME HIS SBI NUMBER....HE TOLD ME EVERYTHING HE SAW ON MY HUSBANDS CRIMINAL RECORD.......YOU SEE, HE WAS TRYING TO SCARE ME BUT HE DID NOT SUCEED..HE DID NOT TELL ME ANYTHING I DIDN'T ALREADY KNOW........HE DID NOT SCARE ME.  HOWEVER, I FEEL SORRY FOR PEOPLE LIKE THIS, BECAUSE THEY HAVE NEVER FOUND TRUE LOVE IN A RELATIONSHIP.........HE TRIED TO TELL ME THINGS THAT I ALREADY KNOW ABOUT MY HUSNBAND...HE WAS INSINUATING THAT CRIMINALS LIE TO THEIR WIVES, AND HOLD BACK THEIR PASTS...WELL, THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT MY HUSBAND THAT I DON'T KNOW, OR THAT HE WOULD NOT TELL ME ABOUT.................AND . SO, WE FEEL SO VERY BLESSED, FROM GOD HIMSELF, THAT WE MET, FELL IN LOVE, AND HAVE A STRONGER LOVE AND MARRIAGE THAN MOST PEOPLE IN OUR SOCIETY HAVE........JIMMY AND I ARE OLD-FASHIONED IN MANY WAYS, WHEN IT COMES TO OUR MARRIAGE......AND EVEN SEPERATED BY PRISON WALLS, I AM THE MOST LOVED WOMAN IN THE WORLD, ATTHIS TIME....MY HUSBAND IS TOTALLY CONNECTED WITH ME...HE KNOWS ALL THINGS GOING ON IN HISHOUSEHOLD........AND WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER IN MANY LIEFTIMES BEFORE...AND WILL CONTINUE TO BE CONNECTED THROUGH ETERNITY...........AND THAT IS MORE THAN MOST PEOPLE IN OUR COUNTRY CAN SAY, SINCE WE HAVE A DIVORCE RATE OF OVER 50 PER CENT, IN AMERICA..........SO, IF ANYMORE OF YOU DOC GUYS ARE OUT THERE READING MY JOURNAL, INSTEAD OF PUTTING ME DOWN, PRAY THAT YOU MEET A WONDERFUL WOMAN/MAN, AND HAVE A WONDERFUL RELATIONSHIP, AS JIMMY AND I DO.........JIMMY AND I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP THAT IS BOUND WITH ELEMENTS STRONGER THAN STEEL, AND PLEASE DON'T FORGET THAT....OUR PURPOSE IN LIFE IS TO SET AN EXAMPLE FOR OTHERS, THAT THEY CAN KNOW WHAT LOVE AND MARRIAGE IS ALL ABOUT, AND FIND THAT ONE PERSON THEY ARE MEANT TO BE WITH.........FRAN

Pray for....Barb's sister

TONIGHT I WOULD LIKE TO ASK ALL THOSE READING THIS JOURNAL, TO PLEASE SAY A SPECIAL PRAYER FOR BARB, WHO IS A READER OF THIS JOURNAL, AND WRITES HER OWN JOURNAL, AND HER SISTER, WHO IS  VERY SICK AT THIS TIME...........I KNOW THIS JOURNAL REACHES MANY PEOPLE, SO WE NEED A "COMBINED EFFORT...THAT IS PRAYER, AT THIS TIME........IF PRISONERS ARE READING THIS, PLEASE SAY YOUR PRAYERS FOR BARB'S SISTER.......I KNOW FOR MYSELF, WHEN I WAS VERY SICK, IN 2004, MY HUSBAND HAD THE INMATES PRAYING, AND MAKING PRAYER CHAINS, AND MIRACLOUSLY, I SURVIVED IT, WHEN EVEN THE DOCTORS SAID THERE WAS NO HOPE FOR ME, AND I WOULD DIE...........SO PLEASE, INMATES AND WIVES, PRAY FOR BARB'S SISTER...........I HAVE A VERY ACTIVE IMAGINATION, AND TONIGHT I CAN SEE A VISON OF ALL THE MEN , IN THE PRISONS, ACROSS AMERICA........PRAYING FOR THIS WOMAN........ISN'T THIS A WONDERFUL THING!....THAT YOU CAN MAKE A BIG DIFFERENCE TO SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD...EVEN FROM A PRISON................I BELIEVE THE PRAYERS OF PRISONERS ARE SOME OF THE MOST POWERFUL!

AS I UNDERSTAND IT, SHE HAS SEVERE DIABETES, AS I MYSELF HAVE.........SHE NOW NEEDS TRIPLE BYPASS SURGERY, BUT HAS A SEVERE INFECTION, AS I , TOO HAD IN 2004.................WE ARE PRAYING THAT SHE WILL GET BETTER...................I BELIEVE IN GOD, AND THE POWER WITHIN YOURSELF, THROUGH GOD.......IN SEPT. 2004, I , TOO HAD A MASSIVE INFECTION, MRSA, UNRESPONSIVE TO ANTIBIOTICS...THE 9 DOCTORS WORKING ON ME HAD LOST HOPE, AND SAID I WOULD DIE.  THEY ASKED MY SISTER IF "MY THINGS WERE IN ORDER," AS THEY FELT I WAS DYING..........BUT I SURVIVED.......THE IMFECTION WAS SO SEVERE, IT HAD SPREAD THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE BODY, AND BRAIN....THEY INFUSED ME WITH MASSIVE DOSES OF VANCOMYCIN, AND ANOTHER ANTIBX......MY HEMOGLOBIN KEPT FALLING AND I WAS TRANSFUSED WITH 4 UNITS OF PACKED CELLS........I WAS DEHYDRATED AND ALL ELECTROLYTES WERE OFF BALANCE.....MY BONE MARROW STOPPED PRODUCING RED CELLS, AND MY ENTIRE IMMUNE SYSTEM COLLAPSED.....INJECTIONS TO REBUILD THE BONE MARROW WERE GIVEN TO ME............IN REALITY I SHOULD HAVE DIED, BUT DIDN'T........TODAY, PEOPLE CALL ME A "WALKING MIRACLE."........I HAD A TOE AMPUTATED, AND HALF MY FOOT SPLIT OPEN TO REMOVE AN ABCESS, WITH THE WOUND 9 1/2 CM X2 CM(DEEP).........I CAME HOME, ALONE, AFTER SPENDING 6 WEEKS IN THE HOSPITAL, AND NURSED MYSELF BACK TO HEALTH, BARELY ABLE TO WALK...NEARLY FAINTING ALL THE TIME, AND SHORT OF BREATH...TAKING CARE OF 3 ANIMALS...NO ONE WOULD HELP ME OUT.....MY HUSBAND WAS AT KINTOCK.............AND THEN, I WAS SEEING THE SURGEON EVERY WEEK...HE TOLD ME HE WOULD HAVE TO DO 2 MORE SURGERIES ON MY FOOT............WELL, IN MY HEAD "WILD HORSES COULD NOT GET ME BACK IN THAT HOSPITAL!.........SO, I BELIEVED THAT MY FOOT WOULD HEAL..........AND I BELIEVED, AND BELIEVED, AND BELIEVED, EVER SO STRONGLY, BECAUSE I KNEW I WOULD NOT LAY IN THAT HOSPITAL AGAIN............AND SO, THE WEEK BEFORE CHRISTMAS 2004, I WENT TO THE DOCTOR, AND HIS EXACT WORDS WERE........"THIS IS AMAZING...YOU HAVE  A MIRACULOUS HEALING QUALITY WITHIN YOUR BODY (HE WAS LOOKING AT THE FOOT, AND MY LEGS, WHICH HAD LYMPHEDEMA, AND HAD 3 INCHES OF WATER IN EACH LEG)...........YOUR WOUND IS HEALING, AND THE EDEMA IS GOING DOWN....I DO NOT NEED TO DO ANY FURTHER SURGERIES...............

WHY AM I TELLING YOU THIS STORY, ONCE AGAIN...I HAVE TOLD IT MANY TIMES.........."BECAUSE ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE, THROUGH GOD."........BECAUSE WITH FAITH, AND A STRONG POWER FROM WITHIN, THRUOUGH GOD, MIRACLES DO HAPPEN.................A DOCTOR MAY TELL YOU , YOU ARE ABOUT TO DIE, LIKE THEY DID WITH ME, BUT I BEAT THE ODDS OF 9, YES 9 DOCTORS!....AND THEN, 2 MONTHS LATER, MY FOOT AND AMPUITATION HEALED...AND EVEN THE SURGEON HIMSELF, SAID IT WAS A MIRACLE...........ONE MUST BELIEVE, AND HAVE A STRONG FORCE FROM WITHIN........AND, BY THE WAY, I'VE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN MIRACLES.........I'M ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT ALWAYS HAVE STRANGE THINGS HAPPENING TO HER......I'M NOT A STATISTIC...AND, OH BY THE WAY, I BELIEVE IN ANGELS, TOO!

AND SO, FOR BARB'S SISTER WE WILL PRAY....AND HELP HER THROUGH THIS DIFFICULT TIME.................LOVE, FRAN

CRAF, WEST TRENTON, NJ

HI EVERYONE, AND THANKS FOR READING MY JOURNAL!...WELL, EXACTLY HOW IS NEW YEAR'S FOR A PRISONER AT CRAF?........VERY TERRIBLE, LET ME TELL YOU.........MOST OF THE MEN ARE DEPRESSED...........JIMMY SAYS IT IS LIKE A BIG, BARREN WAREHOUSE..........VERY LITTLE READING MATERIAL.....WINDOWS ARE COVERED IN PLASTIC, DUE TO THE COLD.........ONE SMALL WINDOW THAT JIMMY WALKS TO EACH DAY, TO LOOK OUTSIDE, FOR A FEW MINUTES............NO RADIOS...........NO NEWSPAPERS........THEY ARE LET OUT OF THEIR CELLS FOR A SHORT WHILE EACH DAY, AT WHICH TIME THEY SHAVE, SHOWER, AND MAKE PHONE CALLS.............TRUTHFULLY, THERE IS NOTHING TO DO THERE, AS IT IS AN EVALUATION AND HOLDING AREA...IT IS NOT LIKE A REGULAR PRISON, WHERE YOU ARE ALLOWED YOUR OWN RADIO AND TV, AND CAN GO TO THE PRISON LIBRARY, AND WILL HOLD A SMALL JOB IN THE PRISON...........NO, NOTHING..........BOREDOM, AND I SUPPOSE APATHY CAN SET IN FOR SOME.................I'M REALLY SURPRISED AT THE PENAL SYSTEM IN THIS COUNTRY.............ONE CAN GET SICK PHYSICALLY, AND MENTALLY, BEING LOCKED UP FOR DAYS ON END, IN A VERY SMALL PLACE, WITH LITTLE OR NO STIMULATION.......CRAF IS GOOD FOR WHAT IT IS, BUT YOU MUST REALIZE, MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN CLEARED OF ALL CHARGES BY KINTOCK...HE IS INNOCENT, AND YET BECAUSE HE GOT CAUGHT IN THE HOLIDAY TIMES, HE HAS BEEN KEPT AT CRAF....IN AN 8'X9' CELL...TO ME THAT IS LIKE TREATING AN ANIMAL, ONLY WORSE..........JIMMY IS A BIG MAN, AS MANY ARE THERE........HE IS 3OO LBS, AND SHARES THAT CELL WITH A ROOMMATE, WHO IS BIPOLAR, AND TALKS ALL DAY AND NIGHT..............EVEN THE OTHER PRISONERS HEAR HIM ALL NIGHT, AND IN THE MORNING THEY ASK JIMMY HOW HE CAN STAND IT..........JIMMY JUST IGNORES IT, AND ON THE OTHER HAND, LISTENS TO THIS FELLOW ENDLESS STORIES.........JIMMY WRITES ME VERY LONG LETTERS, AND HE HAS TO LEAN ON THE TOILET THAT IS NEXT TO HIS BED, WHEN HE IS WRITING THEM......YUCK...HOW DISGUSTING.......I JUST DON'T GET IT........JIMMY SAID THERE IS A MAIN TV, THAT IS ON ALMOST ALL DAY...THE TV CAN BE SEEN FROM THE FIRST 6 CELLS....HE IS IN TH 7TH, SO HE CAN'T SEE IT, BUT HEARS IT......ON NEW YEAR'S EVE, THE INMATES PUT ON A MOVIE, THAT PLAYED OVER AND OVER...,.,JIMMY SAYS HE WISHED THEY HAD PUT ON THE NEW YEAR'S CELEBRATION WITH DICK CLARK...BUT NO. THAT IS HOW THE INMATES ARE...THEY WANT TO FORGET IT IS A HOLIDAY, I GUESS.......JIMMY CALLED ME AT 5PM TODAY....I HAD JUST GOTTEN UP, BECAUSE IT IS GETTING HARDER EVERYDAY TO GET UP  ( YOUWILL BE PROUD OF ME, HOWEVER, BECAUSE I HAD THE ENERGY TO CLEAN THE ENTIRE HOUSE, ON NEW YEAR'S EVE....MOPPING FLOORS, CLEANING STOVE...ETC., ETC).........WITH RADIO PLAYING IN THE KITCHEN, AND TV IN THE LIVING ROOM..............

SO WHEN JIMMY CALLED ME TODAY, HE SAID, "FRAN, THERE ARE AROUND 40 MEN OUT OF THEIR CELLS, AND WALKING AROUND, AND CAN YOU IMAGINE, I AM THE ONLY ONE TALKING ON THE PHONE"..............YES, THE POOR PRISONERS ARE SO DEPRESSED, THEY COULD CARE LESS ABOUT THEIR FAMILIES TO EVEN CALL THEM ON A HOLIDAY...............AND SO, MY LOVING HUSBAND, MADE 2 , 15 MINUTE COLLECT CALLS TO ME.......THE FIRST CALL, I WASN'T IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD, BUT BY THE SECOND, I WAS BETTER.........AND JIMMY APOLOGIZED TO ME, ONCE AGAIN FOR PUTTING ME THROUGH THIS............WHAT CAN I SAY...I'M IN LOVE WITH THE MAN...............AND BY THE 2ND CALL, WE WERE ONCE AGAIN JOKING AND LAUGHING, AND WHISPERING SWEET NOTHINGS INTO EACH OTHERS EARS........

I AM SO GLAD IT IS NOW 2006.........THIS WEEK , JIMMY WILL BE MOVED OUT OF CRAF.....I KNOW HIS DESTINATION, BUT WILL STILL KEEP IT A SECRET.......

 

................................."JIMMY'S LOVE LETTER TO ME"

.....THIS WILL BE A HAPPY NEW YEAR...2006....FROM YOUR HUSBAND

DEAR MRS. WIFE,

I AM THINKING ABOUT THE SAYING, "IT IS BETTER TO GIVE, THAN RECEIVE."....................I THINK IT MAY HAVE MISSED THE POINT.

THE TWO ACTS ARE INSEPERABLE......GIVING IS RECEIVING.

THE ULTIMATE GIFT, UNQUALIFIED LOVE, IS THE ULTIMATE SELF-REALIZATION.

IN THAT, YOU ARE, FRAN, MY SELF-REALIZATION, OF LOVE AND TRUTH, AND BEAUTY.

NO OTHER THING MATTERS......NOT TIME......NOT DISTANCE, FOR AS LONG AS I HAVE YOU TO GIVE MY LOVE TO,........I AM FREE.......I AM COMPLETE........I AM REAL.....I KNOW I HAVE A VALUE.

THIS WILL BE OUR YEAR.......THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF OUR LIVES......AND IT IS GOING TO BE WONDERFUL.

    LOVE,   YOUR JIMMY    (PLEASE READ THIS, FRAN , ON 12/31/05...AT 11:59 PM........JUST BEFORE THE NEW YEAR COMES IN)