Wednesday, February 1, 2006

JIMMY WAS TRANSFERRED BACK TO BAYSIDE STATE PRISON, EARLY THIS A.M.!

THE PHONE RANG AT 7 AM THIS MORNING.  IT WAS JIMMY.  "FRAN," HE SAID EXCITEDLY, "THEY ARE TRANSFERRING ME, RIGHT NOW, TO BAYSIDE STATE PRISON."  HE GOT SPECIAL PERMISSION TO MAKE A QUICK CALL TO ME.  HE SAID IT WILL NOT AFFECT HIS COMING HOME ON PAROLE, MARCH 6TH.

JIMMY IS HAPPY IN ONE WAY, TO GO TO BAYSIDE.  ONCE THERE, HE WILL HOPEFULLY HAVE MORE FREEDOM TO WALK AROUND, AND LAST TIME HE WAS THERE, HE WAS ON "THE FARM."....UNLOCKED DOORS, SO THE INMATES CAN GO OUTSIDE AND WALK AROUND....NO BARBED WIRE FENCES.  ACCESS TO THE LIBRARY.  ALL THE MEN HAVE SOME SORT OF JOB.  LAST TIME, JIMMY TAUGHT THE GED TO INMATES  (HIGH SCHOOL EQUIVALENCY CLASSES).  I WENT TO VISIT HIM THERE, A FEW TIMES THAT SUMMER....VISITS WERE OUTSIDE, UNDER THE TREES, SITTING ACROSS FROM EACH OTHER....THERE ARE CORNFIELDS, AND SILOS, AND BARNS....IT IS VERY PRETTY AND PICTURESQUE.  I EVEN WENT TO FAMILY DAY, THAT SUMMER....IT IS 1  1/2 HOURS FROM OUR HOME.

BUT NOW, THE PROBLEM IS, WHEN THE INMATE IS TRANSFERRED, WE LOSE CONTACT BY PHONE.  I HAVE TO SIT AND WAIT, UNTIL JIMMY CAN GET HIS PIN NUMBER, SO HE CAN CALL ME COLLECT.  SO, I JUST WAIT...AND WAIT.  HE SAID, IF BY MONDAY, I DON'T HEAR FROM HIM, I SHOULD START CALLING TO SEE WHAT HAPPENED ABOUT HIS PIN............MONDAY?!   THAT'S A LONG TIME FOR ME NOT TO SPEAK TO JIMMY.  IT IS ONLY WEDNESDAY, NOW....ANOTHER 6 DAYS!

YESTERDAY WAS  VERY GOOD DAY, FOR ME.  EVERYTHING WENT VERY ORDERLY, AND ON TIME....I TOOK CARE OF ALL THE HOUSEHOLD BUSINESS, AND PHONE CALLS THAT I NEEDED TO MAKE....I FELT THAT MY LIFE WAS IN SOME SORT OF BALANCE AND HARMONY.  I EVEN CALLED VERIZON , AND PAID THE $700.00 (For 1 month, only, one month, since jimmy went to craf), SO I COULD BE SURE THAT I WOULD HAVE NO INTERRUPTIONS IN TALKING WITH JIMMY. 

BUT NOW, TODAY, LESS THAN 24 HOURS LATER, AND IT SEEMS AS IF MY WORLD HAS TURNED UPSIDE DOWN AGAIN.........WHEN I LOSE CONTACT WITH JIMMY, THE HOUSE GETS COLD AND QUIET.......I FEEL REALLY UPSET INSIDE OF ME.......THERE IS NOTHING THAT ANYONE CAN SAY OR DO FOR ME......I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN IT.  THROUGH THIS ORDEAL, I HAVE COME TO REALIZE THAT OUR PRISON SYSTEM ALMOST SEEMS TO LIKE DISRUPTION IN ONE'S LIFE......THEY TRY AS HARD AS THEY CAN TO CAUSE YOUR LIFE TO BE TOPSY-TURVEY.  I AM A WOMAN WHO IS USED TO PEACE AND HARMONY WITHIN MY HOME AND FAMILY...WORKING AS A NURSE, I BELIEVED IN PEACE AND BALANCE, BECAUSE WITHOUT IT, THE PATIENT WOULD NEVER HEAL..................AND SO, HERE I AM,......STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL THIS.

EVEN THE BOOKS I SENT JIMMY...WELL, THE PRISON REFUSED THEM, SO JIMMY SENT THEM BACK TO ME......I HAD ORDERED THEM ON-LINE THROUGH BARNES AND NOBLE, AND IT COST ME $27.00.  WELL, I TRIED.

AND SO, ONCE AGAIN I WILL TRY TO KEEP MYSELF FOCUSED, MY HOME IN BALANCE, AND TRY TO KEEP PEACE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE........I AM NOT GOING TO LET THE PRISON SYSTEM UPSET ME , JUST BECAUSE THEY LIKE TO KEEP SHUFFLING PRISONERS AROUND.....WELL, AT LEAST JIMMY IS HAPPY, BECAUSE HE IS IN TRANSIT TODAY....IT USUALLY TAKES ALL DAY TO TRAVEL AROUND, LEAVING MEN AT DIFFERENT PRISONS....I SUPPOSE HE IS HAND-CUFFED, OR MAYBE SHACKLED AT THIS TIME....JIMMY IS THE TYPE OF MAN THAT LIKES MOVEMENT...PROGRESS........FOR HIM TO BE IN THAT 8X9 FT.CELL WAS TOO MUCH, ALTHOUGH HE REFUSED TO ADMIT IT, EVEN TO ME.

NOW, I WILL PUT ALL OF THIS INTO THE HANDS OF GOD....

.........FRAN

 

P.S....IF THERE ARE ANY PRISONER'S WIVES OUT THERE READING THIS, WHO ARE INTERESTED IN COMMUNICATING WITH A JOURNALIST WHO IS WRITING A MAGAZINE STORY ABOUT PRISONER'S WIVES, PLEASE E-MAIL ME, ASAP, AND I WILL GIVE YOU THE INFO.  I SPOKE WITH HER YESTERDAY, AND SHE IS READING THIS JOURNAL.  SHE IS INTERESTED IN DIFFERENT POINTS OF VIEW.  SO, EVEN IF YOU ARE HAVING A VERY DIFFICULT TIME WITH YOUR HUSBAND/BOYFRIEND'S INCARCERATION, CONTACT HER.

MY E-MAIL ADDRESS IS:       CRYSTALMOON222@aol.com

3 comments:

lv2trnscrb said...

I know its a disappointment for you, Fran, but if Jimmy is happy where he's going and its meaning more freedom for him in his remaining month or so of jail, then I guess that is okay since he's the one that has to endure the system more than you do even though you are affected by the system as a wife of a prisoner. Just try to keep yourself busy

betty

sugar1337 said...

Wow that is a large phone bill...I hope you can talk to him again soon and at least he is going to be in a better place under the given circumstances.

adlessor said...

Well this will make Jimmy's last month much more bearable especially having a library and open space.  You my friend , can get through the next few days as you are a strong women.  Hang in there.       Dawn
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