Sunday, February 5, 2006

BAYSIDE STATE PRISON, LEESBURG, NEW JERSEY

JIMMY'S FIRST LETTER FROM BAYSIDE STATE PRISON, ARRIVED!  (it got here yesterday, Saturday, but I got it out of the mailbox today).

HE SAYS HE IS DOING GOOD, BUT MISSES ME. ...HE WRITES, " I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH, I CANNOT STAND IT."

"I HOPE TO HAVE MY PIN NUMBER ON MONDAY, THE 6TH, SO I CAN CALL YOU."........IT IS NOW 4 OR 5 DAYS, SINCE WE SPOKE ON THE PHONE.

"YOU ARE ALL I LIVE FOR IN THIS WORLD."...."PLEASE HOLD STRONG!"....'NEVER AGAIN WILL I BE AWAY FROM YOU...NEVER!".........JIMMY WRITES.

"I KNOW YOU WONDER HOW I AM HERE.  I AM OK.  AS OK AS I CAN BE WITHOUT YOU."

"THEY HAVE ME IN THE TRAILORS.  I MAY BE PUT ON THE "FARM."......."I DO NOT CARE.  ALL I WANT IS TO BE WITH YOU."

IT IS NOW, AS OF TODAY, 28 DAYS UNTIL JIMMY IS PAROLLED.  THAT IS, 4 WEEKS AS OF TOMORROW, MONDAY.  I CONTINUE TO CHECK THE DAYS OFF ON THE CALENDER THAT JIMMY MADE FOR ME, THAT HANGS ON OUR BEDROOM WALL.

....HERE I GO AGAIN, COUNTING DAYS, WEEKS...LIVING IN THE WORLD OF COUNTING, AS WE ALL DO IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER!

ONE OF THE READER'S OF THIS JOURNAL ASKED ME ABOUT CONJUGAL VISITS.  AS FAR AS I KNOW, CONJUGAL VISITS ARE NOT ALLOWED IN THE STATE OF NEW JERSEY.  I BELIEVE IT DIFFERS STATE TO STATE.  IF IT WERE ALLOWED HERE, I WOULD BE THE FIRST TO BE THERE, THOUGH.  IT WOULDN'T BOTHER ME AT ALL, BECAUSE I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO BE WITH MY HUSBAND, EVEN FOR JUST ONE NIGHT...JUST TO SLEEP IN HIS LOVING ARMS......ONE PERSON TOLD ME HOW STRANGE IT IS...YOU ARE PUT IN A STARK, BARREN ROOM, WITH 1 PILLOW AND BLANKET...1 TOWEL AND WASHCLOTH.  IT IS ALL VERY ODD, AND "STERILE," FOR LACK OF A BETTER WORD...VERY IMPERSONAL, LET'S SAY.  AND THEN, YOU FEEL AS IF PEOPLE ARE WATCHING YOU...THAT YOU ARE ON CAMERA, WHICH I GUESS YOU MAY VERY WELL BE..........WELL, I'M THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT WOULDN'T CARE......I WOULD BE VERY HAPPY TO BE WITH MY HUSBAND, THAT'S ALL!

I SENT JIMMY 2 VALENTINE'S DAY CARDS.  I HOPE THEY GET THERE .

I AM DOING OK, HERE AT HOME...THE HOUSE IS QUITE...THE PHONE NEVER RINGS....IT GIVES ME A CHANCE TO BE MORE IN PRAYER, WITH THE LORD...........

GOOD-NITE EVERYONE.........MAY YOU SOON BE RE-UNITED WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE!............FRAN

 

1 comment:

sugar1337 said...

Glad that you heard from him.  :)