Monday, September 12, 2005

KINTOCK...WRITTEN UP FOR LAYING IN HIS OWN BED

GOOD MORNING, EVERYONE!

A VERY STRANGE THING HAPPENED TO MY HUSBAND AT KINTOCK TODAY.  HE GOT BACK FROM WORK AT AROUND 2 OR 3 AM....SLEPT, AND THEN GOT UP EARLY AND TOOK HIS SHOWER....HE LAID BACK DOWN ON HIS BED, WITH HIS CLOTHES ON, UNDER THE COVERS....AND TOOK A LITTLE NAP, BEFORE HE LEFT AT 11 AM FOR WORK.....WELL, HE FINDS A SLIP OF PAPER THAT HE WAS WRITTEN UP BECAUSE HE LEFT SOMETHING ON HIS BED.  NOW CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS!....HE WAS ON HIS BED...NOTHING ELSE, AND WAS TAKING A NAP, BEFORE LEAVING FOR WORK.  NOW, THIS IS KIND OF SILLY.  JIMMY WAS TOLD TO "IGNORE IT, ".....TO FORGET ABOUT IT.".............BUT HE SAID TO THE PERSON WORKING THERE,  'I CAN'T JUST FORGET ABOUT IT.  IF I GET WRITTEN UP TWICE, I WILL LOSE MY FURLOUGH HOME FOR 1 WEEK."  THIS WILL ALSO GO ON HIS RECORD, AND I DON'T FEEL THAT IS A GOOD THING, ALSO.  NOW, THIS SAME INDIVIDUAL WHO WROTE JIMMY UP TODAY, WELL, LAST WEEK, JIMMY WAS LATE FOR WORK 40 MINUTES, AFTER HIS FURLOUGH HOME.....IN OTHER WORDS, WHEN JIMMY RETURNED FROM HIS FURLOUGH HOME, THIS INDIVIDUAL DRIVES THE VAN TO THE BUS STOP, AND WAS 40 MINUTES LATE IN DOING SO.  AND SO, JIMMY'S BOSS AT THE FOODSTORE WAS ANGRY BECAUSE HE WAS LATE FOR WORK, AND IT WAS NOT JIMMY'S FAULT.  JIMMY HAS A RESPONSIBLE JOB...IF HE IS LATE FOR WORK, THE OTHER PEOPLE WORKING CAN'T LEAVE THE STORE....EVERYBODY AND EVERYTHING RELIES ON EACH OTHER.......JIMMY HAS TO BE IN THAT STORE TO COVER PEOPLE WHO DON'T SHOW UP FOR WORK, PEOPLE WHO CALL IN SICK, OR GET SICK ON THE JOB.......THOSE CASH REGISTERS HAVE TO BE COVERED....IF THEY ARE NOT, HE HIMSELF COVERS THE DIFFERENT DEPTS., FOR EXAMPLE, HE COVERS THE DELI COUNTER FOR BREAKS..........AND OF COURSE, THERE ARE A  MILLION OTHER THINGS THAT JIMMY HANDLES....CUSTOMERS...CUSTOMER COMPLAINTS....MAKING SURE THE SHELVES ARE STOCKED, ETC......I AM AMAZED AT HOW MY HUSBAND DOES IT ALL!.........HE IS A VERY CONSCIENCIOUS WORKER.....I KNOW HOW MY HUSBAND IS..........HE HAS  A VERY STRONG WORK ETHIC THAT IS BORN WITHIN HIM............IT WAS THE SAME WHEN I WORKED AS AN RN IN THE HOSPITAL....ONE HAD TO BE ON TIME, AND VERY CONSCIENSIOUS OF YOUR JOB...AFTER ALL, YOUR JOB AFFECTS EVERYONE WORKING....IT IS LIKE A CHAIN REACTION........OF COURSE, IT IS DIFFERENT IF THE BUS BREAKS DOWN, OR IF THERE IS EXTRA TRAFFIC...BUT JUST FOR NO REASON, THAT IS INEXCUSABLE. 

I WILL ALWAYS DEFEND MY HUSBAND, IF I KNOW HE IS RIGHT....................AND I KNOW ONE THING...THAT HE TELLS ME THE TRUTH.............JIMMY IS THE TYPE OF MAN WHO DEFENDS ME, HIS WIFE.  HE IS THE ONE PERSON IN MY LIFE WHO HAS EVER STUCK UP FOR ME, HIS WIFE.......AND I DO THE SAME FOR HIM, AS LONG AS I KNOW HE IS DOING THE RIGHT THING.

LAST YEAR AT THIS TIME, IN SEPTEMBER, I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL, AND ALMOST DIED.  I WAS WHEELED INTO THE OPERATING ROOM THE SAME MORNING THAT JIMMY LEFT TALBOT HALL, AND WAS BROUGHT BY BUS TO KINTOCK...AS HE RODE THE BUS, I WAS WHEELED ON A GURNEY FOR EMERGENCY SURGERY..........I WAS IN SEPTIC SHOCK, I WAS SEVERELY ANEMIC, AND HAD BEEN TRANSFUSED...MY BOTH LEGS WERE SWOLLEN 3 TIMES THEIR SIZE....MY TOE WAS BLACK, AND READY TO FALL OFF...MY LEGS WERE RED, WITH CELLULITIS.......BLISTERS ON MY LEGS AND FEET............AN ABCESS WAS REMOVED , 9.5 centimeters long, 2 1/2 cm deep, AND THE TOE REMOVED..........AND ALL I DID WAS TELL EVERYBODY HOW I MISSED MY HUSBAND........AS  WAITED ON THE GURNEY, I TOLD EVERYONE WHO WOULD LISTEN, THAT MY HUSBAND WAS IN PRISON, AND I WANTED HIM THERE WITH ME...THEY ALL LISTENED TO ME...AS I TALKED AND CRIED....JIMMY WAS IN A PLACE I COULD NOT REACH...I WISH THAT ON NO ONE...THAT NO ONE WILL EVER EXPERIENCE THAT......THAT YOU ARE NEAR TO DEATH, AND ARE ALL ALONE, AS I WAS.............YOU SEE, IF YOU DON'T KNOW, SEPSIS GOES THROUGH-OUT YOUR BODY, ..IT IS A SEVERE INFECTION THAT ANTIBIOTICS CAN'T GET RID OF....I WAS SHAKING ALL THE TIME...SO COLD, I WOULD WRAP MYSELF FROM HEAD TO TOE IN BLANKETS....SHIVERING A.I WAS ON MASSIVE DOSES OF ANTIBX TO KILL IT......I HAD "MRSA," AND WAS ON ISOLATION.............I HAD 9, YES 9 DOCTORS WORKING ON MY CASE...........THEY THOUGHT I HAD A BLOOD DISORDER, LIKE LEUKEMIA, BECAUSE MY HEMOGLOBIN KEPT FALLING, AND THEY WERE PERPLEXED BY THAT............I WAS ALONE, TRYING TO DEAL WITH IT BY MYSELF.....JIMMY WAS IN A PLACE WHERE HE COULD NOT HELP ME...HE WAS IN PRISON.............AND SO, WHEN THE ANESTHIASIOLOGIST WAS READY TO PUT ME UNDER, I RAISED MY HEAD FROM THE PILLOW, AND SAID TO THOSE IN TH OPERATING ROOM, "WELL, IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE ABOUT MY LIFE YOU WOULD LIKE TO KNOW?"....THEY LOOKED AT ME A LITTLE PECULIAR...........AND THEN I WAS OUT, FOR 2 HOURS.  AND WOKE UP MINUS A TOE, AND WITH A HUGH INCISION..............  I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR 6 WEEKS....STILL BEING TRANSFUSED WITH BLOOD....DRESSING CHANGES TO A MASSIVE WOUND......I COULD BARELY SPEAK, BECAUSE I HAD SEVERE SHORTNESS OF BREATH, AS I HAD GAINED 45 LBS OF FLUID RETENTION, AND WAS ON OXYGEN, ETC....I STILL FELT LIKE I WAS DYING, BECAUSE I COULDN'T BREATH, OR TALK.............AND SO I JUST CRIED MOST OF THE TIME.....AND I WAS LUCKY THAT JIMMY CALLED ME CONSTANTLY...HE WAS , AND STILL IS, MY ONLY LIFE-LINE.....I MAINLY LISTENED TO HIM ON THE PHONE, BECAUSE I COULDN'T TALK......AND THE DAY I HAD MY FOOT DRESSING CHANGED FOR THE FIRST TIME BY THE SURGEON, I WANTED TO "BOLT" OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, LIKE A WILD STALLION....I CRIED TO JIMMY TO DRIVE UP TO THE FRONT DOOR OF THE HOSPITAL...I WANTED TO GET OUT OF THAT PLACE..."PLEASE TAKE ME HOME, " I SCREAMED        YOU SEE, I WAS SO SHORT OF BREATHE, I FELT LIKE I WAS DYING, AND COULD NOT HANDLE IT ALONE...........BUT, MY JIMMY ALWAYS HAD THE MAGICAL WORDS FOR ME..........HE CALMED ME DOWN, AND TOLD ME I MUST STAY IN THE HOSPITAL, AND HE WOULD BE THERE ON THE PHONE FOR ME.

AND SO, THERE IT IS...I'M GLAD I TOLD THE STORY , ONCE AGAIN, ABOUT LAST YEAR...I'M SORRY TO GO ON AND ON..........BUT IT'S BETTER I GOT IT OUT OF ME.

IN DECEMBER 2004, THE SURGEON TOLD ME "YOU HAVE  A MIRACULOUS HEALING POWER WITHIN YOU.  I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW YOUR FEET AND LEGS HEALED SO WELL...YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL CIRCULATION IN YOUR LEGS...I THOUGHT I HAD TO DO 2 MORE SURGERIES ON YOUR FOOT, BUT I DON'T NEED TO."   (well, wild horses couldn't get me back in a hospital, without my husband by my side).

AND SO, I LOOK AT THIS YEAR AS DIFFERENT.......THINGS ARE PROGRESSING............I REALLY WANTED TO WRITE TODAY ABOUT THE PEACE I FEEL...ABOUT BEING IN BALANCE AND HARMONY.................UNTIL JIMMY CALLED ME A LITTLE WHILE AGO, AND TOLD ME WHAT HAPPENED TODAY......................

AND THIS YEAR, THE FURLOUGHS ARE IMPORTANT, BECAUSE JIMMY WILL BE TAKING ME TO 3 DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS IN THE COMING WEEKS........RETINA SPECIALIST....MEDICAL DOCTOR, AND KIDNEY DOCTOR.

 

AND SO, I LOVE MY HUSBAND, AND WILL DEFEND HIM, IF OTHERS DO HIM WRONG....I THINK IT IS A NATURAL INSTINCT IN A WOMAN WHO LOVES HER MAN.

AND NOW, I WILL GO OUT AND WALK AROUND THE CIRCLE WE LIVE ON.........I WILL MEDITATE ON NATURE....THE TREES, THE PLANTS, THE BIRDS..........AND SO, I WILL KEEP MYSELF IN HARMONY AND BALANCE, AS MUCH AS I CAN..............I WISH NO HARM ON ANYONE, OR ANYTHING.  AND MOST OF ALL, I WISH GOOD HEALTH TO ALL...........TO BE DYING, AND KNOW YOU ARE DYING, WITHOUT THE MAN YOU LOVE NEXT TO YOU IS A HORRIBLE THING......................PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL.............FRAN

3 comments:

sugar1337 said...

Sorry he got written up....all those health problems are hard to deal with especially alone.

loverobin32 said...

I know that I dont leave comments very often but I try and read your journal often. I was reading the part about the hospital and all I could think was, "OMG she knows what it is like to be a Military wife!" I was in the hospital here where I live over a year ago and knew no one but my husband who was on a deployment at sea with his Ship. He was not allow to be flown home to be with me so I just choked back all my fear and did what I had no choice to do and that was wait. Wait and pray. I had my son with me but all that did was cause me to worry even more about who was going to take care of him until I was able again. I feared that I would lose him to the State or worse to his father. I was lucky and made it through and me and my son realised at that moment that we was in this alone. The Navy doesnt allow you to come home unless they deem it is within their financial ability to let them come home and even then if they grant such a leave it can take weeks before they get home. Sorry I didnt mean to turn this comment into all about me just wanted you to know that we have a lot in common even though at 1st glance you wouldnt think so. ((HUGS)) Robin

dakotarose2852 said...

Hi Fran.  I can see you and I have something in common.  Things just don't come easily for us.  WE have to agonize over something before it goes our way.  I'm very sorry Jimmy got written up and I sure hope it doesn't mess up his furloughs home.  You've waited too long for this.  I remember last year when you were so sick.  I didn't know it at the time, though.  By the time I found out you were on the rocky road to recovery.  I'm very glad you made it.  Please take care.
Susan