Saturday, September 17, 2005

hello

DEAR SUGAR......THANKS FOR ALWAYS READING MY JOURNAL, THROUGH THE MONTHS AND YEARS, AND BEING SO FAITHFUL TO ME, AND UPLIFTING...IT IS PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE TO LIVE , WITH YOUR POSITIVE THOUGHTS!...I OFTEN THINK ABOUT YOU, IN TEXAS, WITH YOUR HORSES, THAT YOU LOVE SO MUCH....WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND, AND YOUR FAMILY...AND THE PRETTY PICTURES OF YOURSELF, AND YOUR LIFE.........YOUR COLLEGE DAYS, YOUR PRIVATE SCHOOLING, AND THE FACT THAT YOU ARE STUDYING TO BE A DOCTOR, AND MAJOR IN PSYCHOLOGY...........YOU ARE AN ASSET TO THIS JOURNAL, AND CERTAINLY HAVE HELPED ME ALONG THE WAY.....WHY?  BECAUSE YOU CARE, THAT'S WHY.DESPITE THE FACT THAT THERE IS AT LEAST A 30 YEAR AGE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN US, THERE IS NO GAP...AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES YOU A FINE PERSON, WHO HELPS THE WORLD.

TIANA...I HOPE YOU KEEP READING, AND GO BACK TO THE BEGINNING OF THIS JOURNAL, WHERE IT ALL STARTED....THANX FOR YOUR COMMENT.

LILLYF33.............THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REading my jouirnal.  sorry your boyfrind is in prison for BEING A THIEF.  I AM GLAD I INSPIRED YOU TO WRITE THE COMMENTS YOU WROTE , ESPECIALLY IN MY OTHER JOURNAL  "WIVES OF PRISONERS AND OTHER LOVED ONES."..........YES, YOU SURE DID A GOOD JOB OF "TRYING" TO PUT ME DOWN.  I AM GLAD I GOT SOME OF THAT ANGER OUT OF YOU........AT LEAST I WAS HELPFUL IN THAT WAY.  MY QUESTION IS, WHY DO YOU STAY WITH A MAN WHO IS IN PRISON, THAT YOU SEEM TO BE SO ANGRY AT...WHY DO YOU STAY WITH A MAN WHO IS A THIEF, WHOM YOU FEEL WILL NOT RE-HABILITATE.........I AM JIMMY'S WIFE FOREVER, ...I LOVE HIM, AND TRUST IN HIM....DO YOU LOVE YOUR BOYFRIEND?  TRY TO MAKE THIS PRISON EXPERIENCE A POSITIVE ONE, DESPITE THE UGLINESS OF PRISON....I KNOW YOU NEED TO LASH OUT OUT ME...IT'S OK, DO IT......I'M LIKE A SPRING-BOARD, AND WILL NEVER ABSORB YOUR NEGATIVIRIES...BUT IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD...GO AHEAD, SAY IT.

DEAR LOVEROBIN32..........I WAS SO VERY HAPPY ABOUT YOUR COMMENt!.............YES, YOU AGREED WITH ME THAT THERE ARE COMMONALITIES OF A MILITARY WIFE, AND A WIFE WHOSE HUSBAND IS IN PRISON....SEVERAL WEEKS AGO, I WAS PUT DOWN BY SOME READERS FOR SAYING THAT..........I AM GLAD YOU FOUND THE TRUTH IN THAT STATEMENT!.....THERE ARE NO 2 WAYS ABOUT IT, WE ARE ALONE WITHOUT THE HUSBAND WE LOVE WHEN HE IS GONE, DESPITE WAR OR PRISON...HE ISAWAY...IN A PLACE HE CANNOT LEAVE...THAT IS ALL I AM SAYING, AND I AM SO GLAD YOU UNDERSTAND............LOVEROBIN LEFT HER COMMENT IN A PREVIOUS ENTRY.

  WELL, JIMMY WILL NOT COME HOME UNTIL THIS ISSUE WITH THE UNION IS SETTLED...SO IT LOOKS LIKE IT WILL GO ON A FEW WEEKS, I GUESS...............

  I PREFER NOW, TO "GO WITHIN."  I watched a movie on "on-DEMAND,"...twice, AND WILL WATCH IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.  THAT CHARACTER IS ME...THE ME THAT NOBODY KNOWS  (EXCEPT MY HUSBAND)..........and JIMMY IS IN MANY WAYS THE MALE CHARACTER.........THE MOVIE IS "BEFORE SUNSET."..........JIMMY SAID HE READ THE WRITE-UP IN THE WALL STREET JOURNAL, AND IT WAS A VERY GOOD ONE.  THE MOVIE IS ALL DIALOGUE...YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO LISTEN ABOUT WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT...IT IS SORT OF A PHILISOPHICAL TYPE OF THOUGHT...THE MOVIE IS NOT FOR EVERYONE.......BUT IT IS FOR ME...BECAUSE I AM THAT PERSON.......THE MOVIE IS THE SECOND, WITH "BEFORE SUNRISE," BEING THE FIRST........IT IS A REFRESHING TYPE OF MOVIE, WITH DEEP THOUGHT AND MEANING...TRYING TO UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT IS THIS THING CALLED LIFE..........IT TAKES PLACE IN PARIS......THE COUPLE WALK THROUGH  PARIS, CONVERSING...THEY STOP IN AN OUTDOOR CAFE.....A PARK........THE BOAT THAT GOES AROUND PARIS  (I'VE BEEN ON THAT BOAT, BY THE WAY!).  THESE 2 MET 10 YEARS AGO, (THAT WAS THE FIRST MOVIE),  AND HAD A ROMANTIC 1 NIGHT INTERLUDE.  THEY PLANNED TO MEET IN 6 MONTHS IN VIENNA......HE WENT , SHE DIDIN'T,  DUE TO HER GRANDMA'S FUNERAL THAT EXACT  DAY.  THEY WERE IN LOVE, BUT NEVER EXCHANGED PHONE NUMBERS....HE WROTE A BOOK ABOUT THIS , AND WAS NOW AN INTERNATIONAL FAMOUS AUTHOR WITH THIS BOOK........SHE MET HIM AT HIS BOOK-SIGNING 10 YEARS LATER).......AND THAT IS HOW THE MOVIE STARTED...I JUST LOVE IT.....I THINK I'LL WATCH IT AGAIN.....THEN, I CAN UNDERSTAND THIS STRANGE WORLD WE LIVE IN.............AND I KNOW I AM NOT ALONE, THAT THERE ARE OTHERS THAT FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO......AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES JIMMY LOVE ME......MY THOUGHTS ABOUT LIFE....................SUGAR, I THINK YOU WILL LIKE THIS MOVIE..............

I JOTTED DOWN SOME DIALOGUE FROM THE MOVIE, AND WOULD LIKE TO SHARE IT WITH YOU......

"Memory IS WONDERFUL, IF YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THE PAST.''

"PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS BASICALLY THE SAME, EVEN IF THEIR LIFE SITUATION CHANGES."  ...

'AS A CHILD, I WAS ALWAYS LATE FOR SCHOOL."  ONE DAY, MY MOTHER FOLLOWED ME TO SCHOOL.  SHE SAW ME LOOKING AT THE CHESTNUTS FALLING FROM THE TREES....OR EACH LEAF FALLING FROM THE TREES.  ......EACH PERSON HAS SPECIFIC QUALITIES....I SEE LITTLE DETAILS IN PEOPLE.......PEOPLE ARE IRREPLACABLE BECAUSE THEY ARE MADE UP OF SMALL DETAILS."

"IF YOU WERE TO DIE TONIGHT, WHAT WOULD YOU DO TODAY?"..................." I WOULD CHECK INTO A HOTEL WITH YOU...I WOULD STILL TALK ABOUT THE UNIVERSE, AND MAGIC, IN BETWEEN SESSIONS OF F---ING,  UNTIL WE DIE."

" I LOVE YOU," HE SAYS LAUGHING, "EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVE BECOME A MANIC-DEPRESSIVE ACTIVIST."

..."I KEEP EVERYTHING WRITTEN IN JOURNALS. FROM MANY YEARS AGO."  

.............I LOVE PARIS, AND HAVE BEEN THERE TWICE.....IT IS THE CITY OF LIGHTS...AND ROMANCE.............I KNOW IN MY HEART, I WILL RETURN THERE AGAIN, ONE DAY!..YOU HAVEN'T LIVED UNLESS YOU HAVE SEEN THE WORLD!

THAT'S ABOUT IT!.........HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A NICE DAY, AND ENJOY LIFE, AND YOUR LOVED ONES............FRAN

 

1 comment:

sugar1337 said...

aww you are too sweet  :)