Friday, September 23, 2005

HALF-WAY HOUSES

SOMEHOW, I AM VERY MUCH ATTACHED TO THIS JOURNAL...IT IS PART OF ME........EVEN IF I SAY TO MYSELF,  "I WON'T WRITE ANYTHING,"  I STILL FIND MYSELF HERE, AT THE COMPUTER, EXPRESSING MYSELF........YOU SEE, IT MAKES ME HAPPY , THAT PERHAPS I AM HELPING OTHERS......OTHER WOMEN AND PEOPLE THAT ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION AS I AM........WOMAN, AND OTHERS, WHO WAIT FOR THEIR MAN............WIVES WHO ARE STUCK IN A SITUATION IN WHICH THEY CAN NOT MOVE OUT OF.....OR, TO RE-PHRASE THAT, " THEY ARE PART OF THIS THING CALLED "PRISON."

AND SO IF YOU ARE OUT THERE READING THIS, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, BECAUSE I AM THERE , TOO.

PLEASE WRITE TO ME, AND LET ME KNOW HOW YOU FEEL...I KNOW YOU FEEL HELPLESS, AS I DO.  I KNOW YOU PASS TIME, AS I DO...I KNOW YOU THINK HOW UNFAIR THIS ALL IS.........AND IT IS..BUT SEE, AGAIN, WE ARE HELPLESS, AND NEED ONLY TO DRAW ON THE STRENGTH OF EACH OTHER.......

THAT IS THE PURPOSE OF THIS JOURNAL....TO HELP OTHERS, WHO ARE DISTRESSED.

AS YOU CAN SEE, I WAS HAPPY A FEW WEEKS AGO, WHEN JIMMY WAS COMING HOME........BUT NOW, ALL THAT HAS CHANGED, AND I AM ONCE AGAIN IN THE SAME PLACE I WAS..........YES, I WENT UP THE SLOPE, BUT NOW I HAVE SLID DOWN THE SLOPE, ONLY TO HOPE I CAN CLIMB UP IT AGAIN...........AND I KNOW THAT IS HOW IT IS WITH SO MANY OF YOU...........PROBABLY MILLIONS OF WOMMEN AND FAMILY MEMBERS OUT THERE.........YES, IT IS VERY SAD.  AND I KNOW IN YOUR THOUGHTS IS THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE RAPIDLY APPROACHING, AND YOUR LIFE IS IN A PLACE CALLED LIMBO........NO-WHERE, NOTHING..........YES, A THIRD YEAR ALONE....A THIRD FALL, LEADING INTO WINTER...........

SO MUCH SADNESS IN THE WORLD, AND WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS..........

DID YOU WATCH "CRIMINAL MINDS," ON TV LAST NIGHT.......I LIKED IT.........CRIMINALS ARE LIKE PUZZLES, AND EACH PIECE MUST BE EXAMINED AND FIT IN.

THE ASBURY PARK PRESS RAN A STORY TODAY, (by the associated press), TITLED, "MURDER SUSPECT ONE OF MANY HALF-WAY HOUSE FUGITIVES."  I'D LIKE TO QUOTE THE ARTICLE:  "MORE THAN 100 CRIMINALS HAVE WALKED AWAY FROM HALF-WAY HOUSES IN NEW JERSEY, INCLUDING 23 VIOLENT OFFENDERS."..........."THERE ARE 2,494 INMATES IN HALFWAY HOUSES,  110 ARE ON THE LAM,"  AUTHORITIES SAID.    (FOR THE ACTUAL ARTICLE, PLEASE LOG ON TO ASBURY PARK PRESS).

WELL, I'LL GO OUTSIDE NOW, AND CONNECT WITH NATURE......HOPE YOU ALL WRITE TO ME...........I NEED YOUR SUPPORT NOW.............JIMMY HAD HIS MEETING THIS MORNING, WITH THE UNION, AND IT LOOKS LIKE HE IS NOT GOING BACK TO HIS JOB............AND SO, NOW, WE ARE AT "SQUARE ONE AGAIN."...........HE CAN NO LONGER COME HOME, UNLESS HE IS WORKING...........AND THAT IS THE STORY, ON THIS FINE AUTUMN DAY. 

............FRAN...ALWAYS A PRISONER'S WIFE

2 comments:

mindercella33 said...

Fran, I have been reading your journal for a while now and my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry about your husbands job. It really is sad that now he can't get home. I to had a husband in prison in my past, but no longer. You are in prison just as much as he is. I am saying a prayer that he will find a new job so he can get some home time with you. In the mean time stay strong Fran, God will help you and Jimmy find a way. I can't remember how much time he has left but I hope it is not to much longer. Take care and God bless Fran. Cyndy

jenettemunoz said...

Dear Fran, I also have a husband in a halfway house at times I hate everyone in there and then I realize that I am a chrisitian woman. So the thing for me to do is to leave in the "Lords" hands . Next month my husband will see his parole people and they will determine if think he is ready for society. It's been two years since my husband came out of prison and he has been doing very well. There are times when I get frustrated with the situation and take out on him ,I was very aware of the situation before I married my husband. You are not alone my prayers will be with you and hubby. God Bless!