Wednesday, September 28, 2005

KEEPING BUSY

HI EVERYONE!...WELL I'M STILL HERE AT HOME, TRYING TO KEEP BUSY...DOING NOTHING, THAT IS.  I'M TRYING, ONCE AGAIN, TO STAY FOCUSED.  I'M TRYING NOT TO CONCETNTRATE ON THE CALENDER, OR THE CLOCK, FOR THAT MATTER.  I TRY MY BEST TO FOLLOW A ROUTINE IN LIFE, SO THAT NOT HAVING JIMMY AT HOME DOES NOT SEEM SO BAD.  IF I LIVE FOR MY HOUSEHOLD, MY HUSBAND AND MY PETS, I'M OK.  IF I KEEP EVERYTHING IN ORDER HERE, IT SEEMS OK TO BE GOING THROUGH THIS "PRISON THING."...IN THESE 2 1/2 YEARS OF JIMMY'S INCARCERATION, YOU CAN SAY I LIVE A VERY SIMPLISTIC LIFE....ONCE A PERSON WHO WENT OUT HERE AND THERE, I HAVE SIMPLE PLEASURES IN LIFE, LIKE SITTING OUTSIDE WITH PRINCE, AND GAZING AT THE SKY AND CLOUDS.......TODAY THE CLOUDS WERE BEAUTIFUL, AS DUSK APPROACHED......ORNGE COLORED CLOUDS....THAT IS WHAT I MISS MOST ABOUT LAS VEGAS......THE ORANGE SKIES, ESPECIALLY AT DAWN, AND DUSK.

JIMMY IS STILL AT KINTOCK.......HE NOW HELPS OUT IN THE KITCHEN, AND HE CAUGHT UP ON HIS READING, AND HIS WRITING LETTERS.........HE HAS STARTED WRITING ME LOVE LETTERS ONCE AGAIN........AND TODAY I RECEIVED 4 HALLOWEEN CARDS....................HE IS LOOKING FOR ANOTHER JOB, BUT THIS JOB WITH IGA, IS NOW IN ARBITRATION......THAT MEANS THAT HE WILL HAVE SOMETHING LIKE A TRIAL. IN A FEW WEEKS, WITH A UNION LAWYER PRESENT..........JIMMY IS VERY GOOD AT THAT SORT OF STUFF.......I MEAN, MY HUSBAND WILL ALWAYS DEFEND HIMSELF, ME, AND ANYBODY ELSE THAT HE BELIEVES HAS BEEN DONE WRONG......IT IS A NATURAL INSTINCT WITH JIMMY..  IRONICALLY, EVEN THOUGH JIMMY BROKE THE LAW, AND IS NOW IN PRISON, HE ACTUALLY BELIEVES IN MAINTAINING THE LAW, AND GOING STRICTLY BY THE RULES.......

ON SUNDAY, JIMMY CALLED ME 9 TIMES FROM KINTOCK....FINALLY I TOLD HIM I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING MORE TO SAY......SOMETIMES I GET LIKE THAT......I JUST CAN'T TALK OR THINK ANYMORE......JIMMY ALWAYS KEEPS GOING........JIMMY IS ALWAYS THINKING.......AND SO, I GUESS WE BALANCE EACH OTHER........

I USUALLY SEND JIMMY THE COMMENTS THAT ARE POSTED TO THIS JOURNAL.  WELL, HE RECEIVED THE COMMENT FROM "LILYF33," AND HE WAS NOT TOO HAPPY ABOUT IT.........LILY LEFT HER COMMENT, ON 9/16/05.........BOTH IN THIS JOIRNAL, AND IN MY OTHER JOURNAL, " WIVES OF PRISONER'S , AND OTHER LOVED ONES."    JIMMY ASKED ME TO WRITE HIS RESPONSE TO LILY, AND I SURE HOPE YOU ARE READING THIS.  "I WAS NOT FRAMED, AND NEVER CLAIMED TO BE FRAMED. I COMMITTED A CRIME, AND I'M GUILTY OF THE CRIME, AND I ADMITTED WHAT I DID AND I AM NOW PAYING FOR IT, AS I HAVE BEEN WITHIN THE PENAL SYSTEM FOR THE PAST 2 1/2 YEARS.  I AM NOW IN A HALF-WAY HOUSE, AND PEOPLE IN HALF-WAY HOUSES ARE TARGETS FOR PEOPLE...YOU ARE BEING SCRUTINIZED AND WATCHED AT ALL TIMES..........YOU MUST BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU DO AND SAY AT ALL TIMES, BECAUSE YOU ARE BEING JUDGED.  I DID SOMETHING WRONG TWICE SINCE I'VE BEEN HERE, IN THE PAST YEAR.  THAT IS MINIMAL, AS MOST RESIDENTS GET IN TROUBLE ALMOST EVERYDAY."

GOOD NITE, EVERYONE............IT WAS 1 YEAR AGO TODAY, THAT JIMMY LEFT TALBOT HALL, REHAB, AND WENT TO KINTOCK.......AT THE SAME TIME, OF HIS BEING TRANSPORTED IN A VAN, I WAS BROUGHT TO SURGERY FOR THE AMPUTATION OF MY TOE.........JIMMY REMINDED ME SEVERAL TIMES THIS PAST WEEK ABOUT HOW SICK I WAS LAST YEAR.  I FINALLY ASKED HIM NOT TO MENTION IT ANYMORE, SINCE THIS IS A NEW YEAR, AND TIME HAS PROGRESSED ON, AND I FEEL OK TODAY......FRAN

2 comments:

sugar1337 said...

I am sorry to hear someone is kinda picking on ya....but bitter resentful people with too much time on their hands are really the only ones that do, so I wouldn't let it get to you too much.  

tlanell76 said...

You know what I read her comment and frowned my face at the thought that someone could be so insensitive considering the subject matter of what is clearly written.  If you don't have anything supportive and nice to say then b*tch move on - those were my thoughts.

Keep your head up, remain strong and shake the negativity off.  We are SIS (Sisters In The Struggle) and we must look out and support one another.

Godspeed
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