i'll be taking a break from writing this journal. i'll return if and when i have something more to say. someone wrote to me and said this journal makes them feel sad....that i am like a woman exiled. that i am an innocent women who fell in love with a man with problems.
well, it's really not the purpose to make one feel sad. life goes on, and the world goes on, but those with loved ones in prison, well, their life is very different from the norm. they live in a different world. in a bubble.
all the aol journals that i have read, are based on a "happy life," an unrealistic world. a world of happy homes, happy marriages, children, holidays, flowers that grow in their garden, cookies that bake in their ovens...but this journal is based on the realities of life. this journal is really not for everyone. yes, it can be depressing, to see what goes on behind the scenes in the life of a criminal's wife.
and those "happy journals,' are unrealistic...they are living lies. no one's life is so perfect as they portray. to prove it, we have a 50 per cent divorce rate in our country, we have how many babies being born out of wed lock today, we have how many couples living together, we have close to 2 million people in prisons in our country....and the list goes on and on. and so, i am sorry if you find my journal sad, because it is only reality.
jimmy told me today, that i remind him of KRISTIE ALLIE. my humor, my attitude, and the way about me. so, if you can imagine how she is, then you will know me, and understand just who i am. that has always been my problem in life...for people to understand me. and if i portrayed myself as a depressive person, well, i am sorry to have depressed you. see, i'm really not like that, and i guess i had you all fooled..because as you all go about in your happy little homes, that are made out of perfetion, my life continues to be one big whirlwind of excitement and pleasure. talk to you later...you will see, as life unfolds for me, just what i am talking about! i am not a depressive criminal's wife, by far and large!