HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

HERE WE ARE...........HALLOWEEN, ONCE AGAIN    :)

THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR, IN 3.6 YEARS, THAT JIMMY AND I WILL BE TOGETHER FOR HALLOWEEN.....................WE MAY GO TO THE PARADE, IN OUR LOCAL TOWN, FOR A LITTLE WHILE................I HAVE A LONG PINK WIG.............AND HE HAS AN UGLY MASK TO PUT ON!............SO, WE MAY FOOL AROUND A LITTLE!

AT HOME, JIMMY LOOKS VERY CUTE, BECAUSE HE BOUGHT A PAIR OF SCOOBY-DOO SLIPPERS, AND A PAIR OF SCOOBY -DOO SHORTS............AND THIS IS FOR EVERYDAY...NOT FOR HALLOWEEN.AND YES, HE LOOKS VERY CUTE!..............PRINCE, AND THE 2 CATS JUST LOVE HIS FURRY SCOOBY- DOO SLIPPERS.............YES,  EVEN MY BIG, STRONG HUSBAND, IS A CUTE FELLOW, AND LIKES TO JOKE A LOT!

IN RESPONSE TO YOUR COMMENTS, JIMMY IS BACK TO WORK, BUT ONLY WORKS 3 , 12 HOUR SHIFTS PER DAY.........HE IS A MAN WHO LOVES TO WORK, SO ALL IS GOING WELL!

TODAY, WE HAD A QUIET DAY, BUT DID GO OUT TO THE LIBRARY................JIMMY OREDERED A LOT OF CD'S, AMD I GOT SEVERAL BOOKS OUT ON FENG SHUI, WHICH I ENHOY READING....

ON THURSDAY, WE HAVE A PSYCHOLOGIST APPOINTMENT, FOR THE 2 OF US, THIS TIME...............I'M NOT  SURE EXACTLY WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO SAY, BUT I WILL BE THERE, ANYHOW, AS A SUPPORTIVE WIFE....................I GUESS THEY WANT TO ANALYZE , ME TOO!....................AFTER ALL, JIMMY AND I ARE 2 VERY UNIQUE PEOPLE......................I SUPPOSE PEOPLE LIKE TO SEE EXACTLY WHAT IS IN OUR HEADS!..........................JIMMY HAS DONE CRIMINALISTIC ACTIVITY IN HIS LIFE.  HOWEVER, AS I ALWAYS SAY, HE HAS BEEN TITLED A GENIUS , BY MANY....THAT IS HE IS A VERY SMART MAN, WHO WAS ABLE TO THINK THINGS OUT ..........BUT SINCE HE MARRIED ME, HE WANTS TO DO THINGS THE RIGHT WAY, AND WILL NO LONGER GO DOWN THE PATH OF CRIMES..................AS FOR ME, I AM A WOMAN WHO FELL IN LOVE WITH A MAN WHO WAS A CRIMINAL...................MANY PEOPLE WONDER JUST WHAT TYPE OF WOMAN DID JIMMY MARRY..........JIMMY, A HIGHLY INTELLIGENT MAN, WHO DID MANY, MANY EXCEPTIONAL THINGS IN HIS LIFE.............AND ME, FRAN.........................HIS WIFE.....................SO, ON THURSDAY, WE FEEL IT IS BETTER FOR US TO GO AND TALK THINGS OUT WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST...................WELL, MAYBE, JUST MAYBE,SHE CAN FIGURE US OUT!............i doubt it though    :)

I WOULD LIKE TO ONCE AGAIN THANK EVERYONE FOR CONTINUING TO READ THIS JOURNAL......ALL THE MANY BEAUTIFUL COMMENTS!......................I RECEIVE SO MANY THANK YOU'S, THAT THIS JOURNAL HELPS PEOPLE...........IT REALLY TOUCHES MY HEART!

I WILL JUST STEP BACK FROM THE PRESENT, AND TRY TO GIVE SOME ADVICE FOR THLSE WOMEN, WHO ARE WAITING FOR THIER HUSBAND IN PRISON................I GET SO MANY E-MAILS AND COMMENTS PER DAY, WITH WOMEN THAT SHARE THEIR STORY WITH ME............

WHEN YOUR HUSBAND IS IN PRISON KEEP YOURSELF FOCUSED.  ...................ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT MARRIAGE IS A COVENANT BETWEEN HUSBAND, WIFE, AND GOD.  SO THEREFORE, NO ONE CAN JUDGE YOU AND SAY TO LEAVE YOUR HUSBAND...................HOPE THAT THROUGH THE PRISON PROCESS, YOUR HUSBAND WILL BE HELPED TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON, AND NO LONGER COMMIT CRIMES...........STAND BY YOUR MAN.  ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HIM.  LISTEN TO HIM.  TRY AS HARD AS YOU CAN TO KEEP YOUR DAY TO DAY LIFE FOCUSED ON HIM.............WRITE TO HIM, SEND HIM CARDS AND COMPUTER PRINT-OUTS OF SUBJECTS OF INTEREST TO HIM........EVEN SEND HIM A PRINT-OUT OF THIS JOURNAL.IT MAY HELP HIM TO SEE HOW OTHERS HAVE COPED WITH THIS...............MANY MEN IN PRISONS HAVE ALREADY READ THIS JOURNAL.

AS A WIFE, TRY TO BETTER YOURSELF, AND FAMILY.  TAKE AS BEST CARE OF THE CHILDREN, AS POSSIBLE..........EDUCATE YOURSELF, GET A GOOD JOB....LOOK FOR A CAREER...................THERE IS A LOT IN THIS WORLD ONE CAN DO, TO PROGRESS AHEAD.......

I WOULD SUGGEST, THAT FINANCIALLY SAVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN................MAINTAIN THE HOUSEHOLD FOR YOUR MAN................KEEP THINGS ORDERLY AND ORGANIZED.....

I WAS LUCKY TO HAVE BEEN ABLE TO TALK TO JIMMY MANY TIMES PER DAY.................JIMMY CALCUALTED THAT WE SPENT OVER $20, 000 IN PHONE BILLS, IN THE 3.6 YEARS OF HIS INCARCERATION...................FOR US , IT WAS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WE DID, AND EVEN TODAY, I REFUSE TO BE SORRY FOR SPENDING SUCH AN INCREDIBLE AMOUNT OF MONEY ON PHONE BILLS............

ONE PERSON WROTE, SHE CANNOT GO TO SEE HER HUSBAND WHO IS IN PRISON. ................FOR ALL THOSE THAT MAY NOT REMEMBER, I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO VISIT AND SEE JIMMY FOR ONE ENTIRE YEAR, DURING THE BEGINNING OF HIS INCARCERATION................BECAUSE I DID NOT HAVE A NEW JERSEY ID, I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO SEE JIMMY, AS HORRIBLE AS THAT WAS.....................BUT WE ARE IN LOVE, AND EVEN NOT SEEING ONE ANOTHER DOES NOT TEAR US APART.............

NOW THAT IT IS OVER, IT DOES NOT FEEL THAT HE WAS EVER AWAY.  HOWEVER, WHILE GOING THROUGH IT, IT WAS SIMPLY PUT, A HORRIBLE THING TO GO THROUGH.

BUT IT IS POSSIBLE, AS I AM ONE EXAMPLE..............

I WILL GO TO BED NOW...............CLIMB NEXT TO JIMMY INTO HIS ARMS.............HE IS ALREADY ASLEEP IN THE BED!             :)

............................FRAN

 

HI, ONCE AGAIN!

HI, EVERYONE!

WELL, THINGS ARE STILL GOING GREAT, IN OUR NECK OF THE WOODS!

LIFE IS SIMPLY NORMAL, CALM................HAPPY.....THE WAY LIFE SHOULD BE, FOR A MARRIED COUPLE.  AND, AS I ALWAYS SAY, FOR 2 PEOPLE THAT  NOT ONLY LOVE EACH OTHER, BUT ARE IN LOVE............

OUR LIFE IS ORDERLY, BUT FUN, TOO!

WE GET A LOT OF THINGS ACCOMPLISHED................

YESTERDAY, WE WENT TO SEE THE MOVIE, "MARIE ANTOINETTE."...................THE MOVIE WAS FULL OF FUN AND GAITY..............FOOD, PARTYING............BEAUTIFUL CLOTHES AND WIGS..................WE DID NOT LIKE TNE FACT THAT THE MOVIE DID NOT SHOW THE POVERTY OF THE PEOPLE, AND  IT DID NOT SHOW THE DOWNFALL OF THE GOVERNMENT, AND THE BEHEADING OF MARIE ANTOINETTE.............

THIS WAS THE 3RD MOVIE WE HAVE SEEN AT THE MOVIE THEATER, SINCE JIMMY CAME BACK HOME.  WE HAVE ALSO ORDERED NET-FLICK AND THE RENTED MOVIES SHOULD START ARRIVING TOMORROW, MONDAY...................DURING THE 3.6 YEARS OF JIMMY BEING AWAY, I WATCHED HUNDREDS OF MOVIES HERE AT HOME, AND MANY I WOULD LIKE HIM TO SEE................SO WITH NET-FLICK WE CAN GET THE OLDER MOVIES.................WE ALREADY ORDERED "QUEEN ELIZABETH ", PART 1 AND PART 2, WHICH I SAW AND LOVED, AND NOW JIMMY WILL WATCH........

WE ALSO ORDERED "SHOWTIME," ON CABLE, AS WE ALREADY HAVE HBO.  NOW WE ARE WATCHING ON SHOWTIME, THINGS LIKE "WEEDS," AND "DEXTER.".............WE REALLY LIKE "DEXTER."  IT IS ABOUT A SERIAL KILLER, WHO KILLS SERIAL KILLERS.............IT IS A UNIQUE SHOW, AND I'M JUST STARTING TO GET INTO IT........AS FAR AS 'WEEDS,'  IS CONCERNED, I LAUGH TO MYSELF EVERTIME I SEE IT.................AFTER ALL, MY HUSBAND SPENT 3.6 YEARS IN PRISON, FOR SELLING POT, AND HERE, A VERY POPULAR SHOW, IS ABOUT A WOMAN WHO SELLS POT.................HA!...................I JUST DON'T GET IT!..................IF SOMETHING IS ILLEGAL, WHY PROMOTE THE SHOW ON TV........................IT'S A VERY SICK WORLD WE LIVE IN    :)

AND SO, JIMMY AND I HAVE BEEN GOING TO MASS EVERY SUNDAY, WHICH WE ENJOY DOING................THIS WEEK, JIMMY WILL TAKE ME TO TRY OUT FOR THE CHURCH CHOIR, WHICH I WILL LIKE TO DO, AS I LOVE TO SING!

LAST WEEK, WE WENT TO ATLANTIC CITY, FOR THE SECOND TIME...............THE TROPICANA................AND ENJOYED OUSELVES VERY MUCH!

OUR HOUSE IS ALL DECORATED FOR HALLOWEEN............INSIDE AND OUT!.............JIMMY PUT ORANGE LIGHTS UP,INSIDE ANBD OUT,  A BIG PUMPKIN OUTSIDE, AND A PUMPKIN INSIDE, DECORATED WITH HAT AND MASK............OUTSIDE, HE HUNG UP DECORATIONS ON THE WALLS,  AND THE PATIO.............TOMBSTONES, SKELETONS, ETC!....................AND FOR OURSELVES EVERYTIME WE GO TO THE STORE, WE BUY MASKS AND COSTUMES AND THINGS LIKE THAT!...............WE HAVE BOWLS OF CANDY FOR THE CHILDREN, AND SO WE ARE ALL SET!

JIMMY GOES TO THE PAROLE OFFICE EVERY OTHER WEEK, AS HE IS INSTRUCTED TO DO.............SO THINGS ARE GOING WELL.......

WE'VE EATEN IN THE "OLIVE GARDEN" 4 TIMES, AND LAST NIGHT WE TOOK OUT HIS FRINED...............

TODAY, JIMMY COOKED  DELICIOUS MEATLOAF, PEAS AND MASHED POTATOES.................JIMMY COOKS DELICIOUS FOOD EVERYDAY, AND SERVES ME LIKE A QUEEN!..................THE TROUBLE IS, I HAVE GAINED AROUND 10 LBS., SINCE JIMMY ARRIVED HOME.................IN ONE WAY, I REALLY DON'T CARE, AS I STARVED MYSELF, AND HATED FOOD FOR THE 3.6 YEARS HE WAS AWAY..................I HAVE ONCE AGAIN BEEN ABLE TO TASTE THE FLAVOR OF FOOD, SO I AM HAPPY TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT NOW!

WE ARE LEADING A NICE LIFE, AND ARE A HAPPY COUPLE...........

I'LL TRY TO KEEP YOU UP TO DATE, ON ALL THAT IS HAPPENING!...................................fran

HAPPY LIFE...............

LIFE IS AS HAPPY AS CAN BE !

I WAS A VERY DEPRESSED PERSON FOR 3.6 YEARS..............

AND NOW, THE TABLES HAVE TURNED!

WHEN I HEAR PEOPLE TALKING TO ME, THEY ARE USUALLY SHARING A DEPRESSIVE DISPOSITION WITH ME.............

A LOT OF OUR PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD, ARE SIMPLY UNHAPPY.

THEY ARE UNHAPPY....UNLOVED, UNWANTED..............UN UN , UN..................AND IT GOES ON AND ON.

WITH JIMMY HOME, OUR LIFE HAS ONCE AGAIN TAKEN ON THE WHIRLWIND OF LIFE, AND LOVE, AND HAPPINESS.

JIMMY HAS ME OUT TO LUNCH AND DINNER ALMOST EVERYDAY!.............................

2 DAYS AGO, WE TOOK HIS FATHER OUT TO LUNCH, ALONG WITH DAD'S LADY FRIEND..................THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME HIS DAD SAW JIMMY.....................HE NEVER SAW HIM IN THE 3.6 YEARS HE WAS IN PRISON..................HIS DAD ALWAYS HAD A BLOCK ON HIS PHONE......................

FUNNY THING IS, WE TOOK HIM OUT....WHEN IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN DAD TAKING HIM OUT!..

HOWEVER, WE KNOW DAD LOVES THE JEWISH DELI, CALLED "WOOLFIE'S," SO WE WENT THERE FOR CORNED  BEEF AND PASTRAAMI SANDWHICHES, ALONG WITH MATZA BALL SOUP..................AND CHEESECAKE FOR DESERT............

JIMMY KEEPS BUYING ME BEAUTIFUL THINGS...AS HE LOVES TO DO THAT!......................HE BOUGHT A BEAUTIFUL LARGE TV FOR THE LIVING ROOM , YESTERDAY!

AND WE ARE BUYING A NEW HOUSE...........SOON.

JIMMY IS RIGHT NOW CALLING ME INTO THE BEDROOM...........HE WANTS ME AT HIS SIDE EVERY MINUTE...........SO, I WILL GO NOW....................WE WILL WATCH A LITTLE TV........

I'M SORRY I CAN'T TALK ABOUI DEPRESSIVE THGINGS RIGHT NOW..................I CAN ONLY TALK ABOUT HAPPY THINGS.

 I TOLD JIMMY THAT I REFUSE TO LISTEN TO ANY DEPRESSIVE THOUGHTS, FROM ANYONE, AT THIS TIME.............

THAT IS HOW LIFE IS...........

SO, PLEASE, ALL PRISONER'S WIVES AND WOMEN..........PLEASE REMAIN STRONG, AND KNOW THAT ONE DAY, ALL THE MISERIES THAT HAVE BEEN PUT UPON YOU, AT THIS TIME, WILL ONE DAY LIFT.....AND YOU WILL BE ALL HAPPY AND PEACEFUL WITH THE WORLD...........

PRISON WIVES...WHEN YOU READ A SAD STORY IN THE PAPER, OR SEE ONE ON TV, JUST REMEMBER THAT YOUR STORY, OF HAVING YOUR LOVED ONE IN PRISON, IS MOST LIKELY THE WORST PAIN A PERSON CAN BE GOING THROUGH.........................YOU ARE NOT ALONE, AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

.............FRAN

ANSWER TO COMMENTS

IN ANSWER TO EVRYONE'S QUESTION ABOUT JIMMY WORKING................

JIMMY IS STILL WITH THE FOODSTORE.  HOWEVER, HE HAS TAKEN A LITTLE BREAK, NOW, TO BE HOME WITH ME................PROBABLY FOR A FEW WEEKS..............

JIMMY IS A MAN OF MANY TALENTS..................AND SO HE NEVER HAS DIFFICULTY IN JOBS..................HE IS A VERY PRODUCTIVE PERSON, WHO LOVES TO WORK................HE LOVES TO BE PROGRESSIVE!

HOWEVER, I DO UNDERSTAND THAT FOR MANY MEN OUT OF PRISON, FINDING A JOB IS VERY DIFFICULT.

DUE TO JIMMY'S HIGHER EDUCATION, AND HIS EXTREME KNOWLEDGE, HE IS ACTUALLY SOUGHT AFTER, IN MANY JOBS........................HE IS AN ASSET TO SOCIETY.................

AND NOW THAT HE IS MARRIED TO ME, HE WILL ONLY DO LEGAL THINGS IN LIFE......................LOL.  AS HIS WIFE, YOU MAY SAY I CARRY A BIG RESPONSIBILITY ON MY SHOULDERS!............BUT, I CAN HANDLE IT..............I LOVE JIMMY!

JIMMY TOOK OUR 2 CATS, MISTY AND JIMBO, TO BE GROOMED , THIS MORNING.  PRINCE WAS AT THE WINDOW, CRYING AS THE CATS LEFT.........

 WE INVITED MY SISTER OUT TO LUNCH TODAY,  AND WE WILL BE GOING TO A VERY CUTE MEXICAN RESTAURANT, WHICH JIMMY AND I FOUND, AND ATE IN A FEW WEEKS AGO.......................THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS, AND THE ATMOSPHERE WAS GREAT!

TALK TO YOU LATER!  ............................FRAN

HAPPY..HAPPY...................HAPPY

HI EVERYONE!

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME I'VE TALKED TO YOU.................

BUT I WOULD NOW LIKE TO SAY, I AM A VERY HAPPY PERSON................................ONCE AGAIN!

IT IS LIKE I HAVE NOW STEPPED OUT OF A VERY CONFINING BOX.....................A PLACE I EXISTED IN FOR THE PAST 3.6 YEARS.....................

AND NOW, ONCE AGAIN, I AM PART OF THE WORLD..................I AM PART OF SOCIETY..................I AM PART OF MY HUSBAND.......WE ARE A FAMILY!

I AM MY NORMAL, USUAL SELF....................THE WAY I ALWAYS WAS IN LIFE........................HAPPY TO BE A PERSON.........

JIMMY IS A VERY FAST MAN...........................AND SO, HE KEEPS LIFE VERY FAST FOR ME!......................AND I'M THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT NEEDS THAT!

SO EVERYDAY IS LIKE A WHIRLWIND FOR THE BOTH OF US.....................RESTAURANTS.............SHOPPING..............GOING HERE AND THERE!

WE ALSO KEEP EVERYTHING VERY ORGANIZED......WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR US!

YOU MAY SAY , I AM THE "WRITER," IN OUR MARRIAGE...................I WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN, AND KEEP EXCELLENT TRACK OF EVERYTHING IN OUR LIVES..........

WE HAvE EVEN BEEN GOING THROUGH BOXES AND BOXES OF THINGS I SAVED ALL THESE YEARS....................JIMMY IS EXTREMELY IMPRESSED BY THE THINGS AND NOTEBOOKS I WROTE........................HE SAYS I WROTE AN IMMENSE AMOUNT OF THINGS.........................ANY PERSONS NAME........PHONE NUMBER..............EVERY RECIEPT...................EVERYTHING.......I KEPT TRACK OF IT ALL..................AND NOW, WE ARE SLOWLY THROWING MOST OF THAT STUFF AWAY!

PAROLE CAME HERE A FEW DAYS AGO.................AND ALL IS WELL!

JIMMY WENT TO THE PAROLE OFFICE, ON THE DAYS HE MUST GO.......................SO WE KEEP UP WITH EVERYTHING, AND DO THE RIGHT THINGS................

WE LOVE TO GO TO MASS ON SUNDAYS, AND WILL BE ACTIVE IN SOME CHURCH ACTIVITIES, TOO.

WE ALSO WENT TO ATLANTIC CITY..THE TROPICANA...............AND ENJOYED IT VERY MUCH!

AS I TRY TO EXPLAIN, THE PROCESS ONE GOES THROUGH AFTER PRISON, IS TO GET USED TO THE WORLD, AND PEOPLE ONCE AGAIN....................EVEN THOUGH JIMMY WAS THE ONE INCARCERATED, I , HIS WIFE, ACTUALLY HAD A HARDER TIME EMERGING FROM THE RECLUSIVE LIFE I WAS LEADING.............................

THERE HAVE BEEN A COUPLE OF TIMES AT NIGHT, I WAKE UP AROUND 3 AM, AND START CRYING, JUST A LITTLE.  JIMMY WAKES UP, HOLDS ME IN HIS ARMS, AND ASKS ME WHAT'S WRONG.  I TELL HIM NOTHING IS WRONG,  ONLY I FEEL ANXIOUS  AND CANNOT WAIT FOR DAYLIGHT.............................JIMMY KNOWS THAT THROUGH THE 3.6 YEARS, I WOULD ALWAYS BE AWAKE AT NIGHT, IN A STATE OF ANXIETY...............AND I GREW TO HATE THE NIGHT TIME, AND THE DARKNESS.......................

AND BY THE WAY.............YOU MAY FIND IT AMUSING, THAT WE HAVE A LARGE KING SIZE BED...............HOWEVER, WE SLEEP IN ONE SMALL SECTION OF IT...............WE SLEEP IN EACH OTHERS ARMS.....................WE ALWAYS DID................WE ARE ALWAYS VERY MUSCH ENTWINNED WITH EACH OTHER.................AND OH YES, MISTY THE CAT, IS THERE BETWEEN US, TOO!

TODAY JIMMY WENT TO THE PSYCHOLOGIST...........SHE LIKED HIM SO MUCH, SHE LET HIM SPEAK FOR 1 HOUR.......INSTEAD OF THE USUAL 10 MINUTE VISIT.................JIMMY SPOKE ABOUT ME, AND OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER.....................AND SO NOW, WE WILL GO TOGETHER  NEXT MONTH......................THE PSYCHOLOGIST FEELS THAT WE ARE INTERESTING PEOPLE, AND DID A GOOD JOB IN HANDLING JIMMY'S INCARCERATION, AND STAYED CONNECTED THROUGH THE YEARS...............WE HAVE A UNIQUE STORY AND BACKGROUND, TO DISCUSS................

JIMMY AND I FEEL IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST, AND TALK THINGS OUT, AND GET GUIDANCE IN OUR LIFE..................

AND NOW, I SAVED THE BEST FOR LAST!

 A FEW DAYS AGO, JIMMY BOUGHT US A GORGEOUS BRAND NEW CAR!...............

IT IS A 2007 CADILLAC CTS...............THE COLOR IS A BEAUTIFUL PLATINUM   ( HE SAYS SINCE HIS WIFE HAS PLATINUM HAIR COLOR!)

THE CARHAS "ON STAR.".................WITH THAT, IF WE ARE LOST, THEY CAN TRACE THE CAR, AND GIVE US DIRECTIONS...............IF THE CAR IS STOLEN, IT CAN BE TRACED..........

THE CAR ALSO TALKS OUT LOUD................IT WILL TELL YOU MANY THINGS.............

ALSO ON THE DASHBOARD , IT LETS YOU KNOW MANY THINGS.............FOR EXAMPLE, IF YOU LEFT THE BLINKER ON.............IF THE DOOR IS OPEN............IF THE BRAKE IS ON...........IF THE AIR IN TIRES IS LOW

WE ALSO HAVE A BUILT IN PHONE SYSTEM IN THE CAR

WE HAVE A SUN ROOF, AND JIMMY TELLS ME THE CAR IS A SPORTS MODEL.

WE HAVE 1000'S OF RADIO STATIONS...............ACROSS THE COUNTRY........WITH A SATILITE DISH

IF THE HEADLIGHTS ARE DIRTY, THERE IS A SPRAY THAT WASHES THEM

AND OF COURSE, THINGS LIKE HEATED SEATS, AND 8 POSITIONS TO THE SEATS.................

YES, I'VE ALWAYS SAID JIMMY IS A VERY ADVANCED MAN...........ELECTRONICALLY...HE JUST LOVES ALL THE LATEST IN TECHNOLOGY......................AND HE UNDERSTANDS IT ALL!...................I AM LUCKY TO HAVE A HUSBAND LIKE THAT, WHO KEEPS ME UP TO DATE ON THE LATEST THINGS!

WELL, I'D BETTER GO NOW!........................I DON'T WANT TO STAY AWAY FROM JIMMY TOO LONG!.....................HE'S IN THE BEDROOM WATCHING TV, RIGHT NOW!..............WITH THE DOG, AND 2 CATS BY HIS SIDE!

        FRAN

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HI EVERYONE!.........................I'M SO HAPPY FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL COMMENTS YOU ARE WRITING!

MOST OF ALL, I AM HAPPY THAT THIS JOURNAL CONTINUES TO HELP THOSE WOMEN WITH A HUSBAND/MAN IN PRISON.............

PRISON WIVES ARE A UNIQUE PEOPLE..............SOME OF YOU HAVE WRITTEN AND EXPRESSED THE FEAR OF HAVING YOUR MAN RETURN HOME AFTER A FEW YEARS.............

YES, WE MUST ANALYZE IT, AND UNDERSTAND IT.IT IS A WONDERFUL THING TO HAVE YOUR MAN RETURN HOME, AND YET, IN SOME WAYS IT MAY BE A LITTLE SCARY, TOO.........AS WAS EXPRESSED IN THE COMMENTS.........

JIMMY ALWAYS TOLD ME, "FRAN, WHEN I COME BACK HOME, YOU MAY EXPERIENCE POST- TRAUMATIC SYNDROME"...............

AND SO I WOULD LIKE TO SAY, THAT WE AS WOMAN, ALTHOUGH MADLY IN LOVE WITH OUR MEN, MAY HAVE SOME PSYCHOLOGICAL ADJUSTING TO DO............

YOU MAY BE SAYING, 'WHAT IS FRAN TALKING ABOUT?".............SHE IS THE WOMAN WHO WAITED 3.6 YEARS FOR HER HUSBAND TO RETURN............THEY ARE BOTH MADLY IN LOVE...............THEY ARE BOTH HAPPY ..................

ALTHOUGH I AM NOT A PSYCHOLOGIST, I MUST TELL YOU THAT THERE ARE PSYCHOLOGIOCAL FACTORS INVOLVED...........JIMMY AND I ARE INTELLIGENT ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND THIS................

AND SO, WE ARE HANDLING THINGS................I BELIEVE THAT TO HANDLE IT, IS JUST TO LET LIFE, AND YOUR FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS FLOW................

AS FOR ME, I'M A VERY PRIVATE PERSON...................AND SO, ALTHOUGH I THINK I HAVE BECOME PART OF THE WORLD, I REALIZE THAT IT IS A SLOW PROCESS, AND I WILL NOT PUSH IT........................AND JIMMY IS UNDERSTANBDING AND DOES NOT PUSH ME EITHER...........

AND AS FOR JIMMY, I LET HIM DO WHAT HE WANTS...THE THINGS HE ENJOYS DOING AROUND THE HOUSE................

I LOOK AT HIM WHILE HE SLEEPS, AND REALIZE HE IS A MAN WHO EXISTED IN A PRISON.....................

JIMMY IS AS NORMAL AS CAN BE..............HE IS ALWAYS A HAPPY MAN, AND NEVER LETS ANYTHING BOTHER HIM................HE LOVES BEING MY HUSBAND, AND LOVES HIS PETS AMD HOME

AS FOR ME, I STILL LOOK AT THE OUTSIDE WORLD AS A VERY STRANGE PLACE................I HAVE A LITTLE TROUBLE BECOMING VERY CONNECTED WITH PEOPLE, AND THE OUTSIDE WORLD.........................IT IS LIKE "BEING HAPPY," EVEN FOR A FEW SECONDS, SEEMS VERY ODD AND STRANGE TO ME.....................AND IT IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT THE PEOPLE IN OUR SOCIETY.................YES, I JUST FEEL I AM NOT REALLY PART OF THEM.................WHEN I SEE PEOPLE TALKING AND LAUGHING, I CAN UNDERSTAND IT, BUT I JUST CANNOT BE PART OF IT YET.................

TRUTHFULLY, IT IS LIKE I AM A LITTLE AFRAID OF LETTING MYSELF GO...OF LETTING ANYONE KNOW WHO I AM, AND WHAT MY THOUGHTS ARE.....................

I STILL DO NOT FEEL PART OF THE WORLD, ALTHOUGH MY HUSBAND TRIES EACH DAY TO HELP ME THROUGH IT...........

ALL PRISONERS MUST GO TO VISIT THE PSYCHOLOGIST AT LEAST ONCE WHEN HOME.................JIMMY HAS AN APPOINTMENT NEXT WEEK.  AND THEN, AFTER THAT, I MAY GO SEE THE PSYCHOLOGIST, TO TALK THINGS OUT.....OR WHATEVER...................THEN, IF WE WANT TO, WE CAN VISIT THE PSYCHOLOGIST AS A COUPLE................WE'LL TAKE IT A STEP AT A TIME.....................

IT IS NOT THAT WE HAVE ANY INTENSE PSYCHOLOGICAL PROBLEMS, BUT YOU MUST REALIZE, THAT GOING THROUGH A PRISON PROCESS FOR YEARS, DOES HAVE A CERTAIN IMPACT ON ONE, AND IT IS GOOD TO GET INTO THE SWING OF THINGS, IN A NORMAL WAY..........

TRUTHFULLY, JIMMY AND I CONTINUE TO HAVE A GREAT TIME!.....................TODAY WE WENT TO THE BOARDWALK AT SEASIDE HEIGHTS, WITH A HUSBAND AND WIFE WHOM WE ARE FRIENDLY WITH.

IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL WARM, SUNNY DAY, AND THE OCEAN WAS BEAUTIFUL!..................JIMMY WHEELED ME DOWN THE ENTIRE BOARDWALK, AND WE STAYED THERE FOR 2 HOURS.........TRUTHFULLY, I NEED THOSE QUIET TIMES WITH NATURE, TO MAKE ME FEEL AT EASE.....

THEN, WE ALL WENT OUT TO DINNER AT THE "OLIVE GARDEN."  WHAT A WONDERFUL MEAL IT WAS, AND EVERYONE WAS CHEERFULLY TALKING..................JIMMY JUST LOVES ITALIAN FOOD, SO HE HAD PASTA AND SALAD, AND BREAD STICKS........I HAD SHRIMP AND RISOTTA...

NEXT WEEKEND HE MAY TAKEME TO THE COLUMBUS DAY FAIR ON THE BOARDWALK AT SEASIDE.

YESTERDAY, ON SUNDAY, WE WENT TO 1PM MASS AT ST. MAXIMILLIAN CHURCH.  WE REALLY ENJOYED IT, AND EVEN IN CHURCH, AS WE PRAY, JIMMY LIKES TO HOLD MY HAND THROUGHOUT THE SERVICE................NEXT WEEKEND, I WILL BAKE FOR THE MONTHLY CAKE SALE IN THE CHURCH.  .......................SOME OF YOU MAY REMEMER THAT IN THE FIRST YEAR OF JIMMY'S INCARCERATION, I BAKED EVER MONTH FOR THE CHURCH BAKE SALE..............BUT AS THE YEARS WENT BY, I STOPPED DOING IT, BUT WILL NOW RESUME IT.............

YESTERDAY, WE WENT OUT TO DINNER IN A NEW MEXICAN RESTAURANT WHICH WE FOUND...............IT WAS SO GREAT AND THE FOOD DELICIOUS...................TAMALES AND ENCHILADAS!............

LAST NIGHT, JIMMY DID ALL THE THINGS HE LIKES TO DO TO ME...............GAVE ME A PEDICURE..............A MANICURE, AND PAINTED MY NAILS!...............HE EVEN COLORED MY HAIR, WHICH HE LOVES TO DO.........A PRETTY SHADE OF PLATINUM BLONDE!

WE ALSO WATCHED A GOOD ROMANTIC MOVIE ON "ON DEMAND!"  (ABOUT A BRITISH ACTRESS WHO FALLS IN LOVE WITH A YOUNGER MAN)

JIMMY SAYS THAT IN THE MORNING HE WILL TAKE ME TO BUY A NEW CAR....I BELIEVE IT IS AN SUV.  AND WE WILL STILL KEEP THE JAG.......................KNOWING MY HUSBAND, HE WILL BUY THIS NEW CAR IN AROUND 20 MINUTES, FLAT.  AS I ALWAYS SAY, JIMMY IS A VERY FAST AND QUICK MAN!

ON WEDNESDAY, HE WILL GO TO THE PAROLE OFFICE,  AS REQUIRED.

SO, EVERYTHING IS FALLING INTO PLACE.

THE BEST ADVICE, WHEN HUBBY RETURNS HOME, IS TO KEEP EVERYTHING ORGANIZED FOR HIM....................KEEP YOUR BOOKS AND CALENDERS IN ORDER............

JIMMY LOVES TO DO THINGS AND GO PLACES..............HE IS A VERY ACTIVE MAN.....HE WANTS ME WITH HIM AT ALL TIMES!................I LOVE GOING AROUND WITH HIM!...........BUT HE KNOWS NOT TO PUSH ME TOO MUCH AS I LIKE TO TAKE LIFE SLOWER...

I WILL  GO NOW, AND CLIMB BACK INTO BED, INTO JIMMY'S ARMS, WHICH ARE VERY MUSCULAR AND STRONG.............IT IS THE PLACE I FEEL SAFE AND PEACEFUL, AND CONTENT....................IT IS THE PLACE I LOVE TO BE!

.............................FRAN

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