Tuesday, October 18, 2005

furlough's home began once again,after 5 weeks

I'M BACK AGAIN WRITING IN THIS JOURNAL!  JIMMY CAME HOME, AND FIXED THIS SILLY COMPUTER...HE KEEPS CLEANING UP THE FILES, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, SINCE HE HAS BEEN GONE FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS, AND 7 MONTHS, AND NO ONE HAS 'CLEANED' THE COMPUTER.......!

SO, JIMMY ARRIVED HOME LAST SUNDAY, AT AROUND 1PM, AND WAS ABLE TO STAY UNTIL 5PM THE NEXT DAY!  THAT WAS MUCH MORE TIME THAN THE PREVIOUS FURLOUGHS.........WERE TOGETHER FOR 28 HOURS.

I JUST STARTED GETTING MYSELF TOGETHER TODAY, TUESDAY, AND WAS FEELING A LITTLE WEAK ALL DAY, SO I WAS RESTING IN BED MOST OF THE DAY..........MY HUSBAND IS LIKE A SHOT OF ENERGY WHEN HE COMES HERE...I'VE ALWAYS FELT HIS BURST OF ENERGY AROUND ME, SINCE I'VE KNOWN HIM...........HE GIVES ME STRENGTH, BUT LIKE TODAY, MY EQUILIBRIUM WAS OFF BALANCE!..............FUNNY THING IS, WE REALLY DIDN'T DO MUCH ON THIS FURLOUGH!........WE HAD PLANNED TO GO OUT TO A FEW PLACES, BUT NEVER MADE IT!.........WE JUST FELT LIKE STAYING SNUGGLED UP AT HOME, IN BED, MOST OF THE TIME.....SIMPLY PUT, WE ATE AND MADE LOVE, JUST ABOUT THE WHOLE TIME!.....OH YES, NOTHING LIKE A MAN WHO "WHISPERS SWEET NOTHINGS" IN A WOMAN'S EARS....FOREVER ON END....OVER AND OVER..............AND GIVES HER WONDERFUL MASSAGES, TO RELAX HER.  I'M TELLING YOU, IF THERE IS A MAN OUT THERE IN COMPUTER-LAND READING THIS, YOU CAN CERTAINLY TAKE LESSONS FROM JIMMY.  HE IS THE BEST!....AND HE NEVER GETS TIRED OF IT!  HE KNOWS HOW TO PLEASE A WOMAN.  AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT A WOMAN WANTS AND NEEDS, TO MAKE HER FEEL HAPPY AND LOVED. 

AND YES, I HAD COOKED SOME FOOD AHEAD OF TIME, SO WE WOULDN'T WASTE TIME COOKING!...........I MADE CURRIED CHICKEN, ROASTED CHICKEN THIGHS (IN CASE HE DIDN'YT LIKE THE CURRY), FRIED POTATOES, BROCOLLI, SALAD, SHELLS WITH BUTTER AND CHEESE...LATER , THERE WAS RIGATONI WITH MEAT SAUCE, CHOCOLATE AND VANILLA SUGAR FREE PUDDING, LEMON JELLO.........IN THE MORNING , JIMMY MADE FRIED EGGS, AND I MADE THE COFFEE.......FOR LUNCH WE HAD STEAK AND SALAD..............LOTS OF ICED TEA!.........AND APPLES, OF COURSE!

WE WATCHED TV TOGETHER, AND HE CAUGHT UP ON LARRY DAVID'S SHOWS, WHICH WE BOTH LOVE, AND HE GOT TO SEE "DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES," FOR THE FIRST TIME.

WE BOTH GOT A GOOD-NIGHTS SLEEP, BUT WHEN JIMMY WOKE UP AT 6 AM, HE FOUND THE HOUSE BITTERLY COLD, AS I HAD THE AIR-CONDITIONER ON, AND THE HOUSE TEMPERATURE WAS 61.6 DEGREES, AND I HAD THE BIG FAN IN THE BEDROOM BLOWING ON US..........WE HAD A VERY BIG LAUGH!......BUT I JUST CAN'T HELP IT!....I GET THOSE HOT FLASHES, AND NIGHT SWEATS, THAT YOU ALWAYS READ ABOUT!  WELL, IT'S TRUE!  IT REALLY HAPPENS TO WOMEN.....AND ALL OF THIS STARTED WHEN JIMMY HAS BEEN AWAWY FROM HOME!

THE ANIMALS ARE SO DIFFERENT WHEN JIMMY IS HOME...THEY ARE SO VERY HAPPY AND EXCITED...RUNNING AROUND THE HOUSE, AFTER JIMMY!......EVERYTIME JIMMY MOVES, PRINCE RUNS AFTER HIM, THINKING IT'S TIME FOR ANOTHER WALK.  HE GETS LOTS OF WALKS WHEN JIMMY IS HOME, WHICH HE DOESN'T GET WITH ME, BECAUSE HE IS TOO STRONG FOR ME, AND PULLS ME AROUND...AND AS FOR MISTY, THE CAT, SHE SAT ON TOP OF JIMMY'S CHEST ALL NIGHT.......WE HAD TO PUSH HER AWAY, SO JIMMY COULD HOLD ME IN HIS ARMS ALL NIGHT, BUT SOMEHOW, MISTY WOULD STICK HERSELF IN BETWEEN US.....MISTY ALWAYS NEEDS A LOT OF LOVE AND ATTENTION........SHE IS VERY JEALOUS OF ME, THAT I LAY IN JIMMY'S ARMS.  THEN, THERE WAS A NOISE IN THE HOUSE, AND MISTY GOT SCARED AND RAN OFF HIS CHEST....JIMMY HAS A SCRATCH AROUND 2- 3 INCHES LONG ON HIS CHEST.  WHEN HE GOT BACK TO KINTOCK, SOME OF THE GUYS SAW IT, AS HE WAS TAKING OFF HIS SHIRT.  THEY JOKED WITH HIM, THAT I SCRATCHED HIM!....TRUTHFULLY, I DIDN'T!....IT WAS MISTY THE CAT!.......ACTUALLY, JIMMY CUT MY FINGERNAILS, AND TOENAILS, SO I WOULDN'T SCRATCH HIM!

I MUST NOT LEAVE OUT JIMBO, JIMMY'S FAVORITE LITTLE CAT WITH THE CUTE FACE.  JIMBO IS THE ONE WHO SITS ALOOF, UNTIL HE IS READY FOR LOVE....THEN HE WILL APPROACH YOU....AND JIMMY IS FOREVER HOLDING JIMBO, HIS NAMESAKE, AND GIVING HIM LOTS OF LOVE.......

SO THAT'S ABOUT IT!  JIMMY WAS IMPRESSED WITH THE HOUSEHOLD...THAT ALL WAS SPOTLESS, AND IN ORDER.  WELL, I SAID, "I'M HERE ALL DAY, EVERYDAY, TO KEEP OUR HOUSEHOLD IN ORDER."  I TOLD HIM HOW I WASH THE KITCHEN FLOOR, AND 2 BATHROOM FLOORS EVERYDAY WITH LYSOL ...HOW I SWEEP, AND VACUUM ALMOST EVERYDAY.......THAT IS MY JOB AT THIS TIME IN LIFE...AND WITH 3 ANIMALS, ONE MUST FOREVER KEEP AFTER THEM..........JIMMY WAS ALSO HAPPY I HAD PUT UP SOME HALLOWEEN DECORATIONS, AND HE WORE THE WHITE MASK FOR ME (HE SAID IT IS THE MASK WORN IN THE MOVIE "HALLOWEEN")...............AS FOR JIMMY, HE CLEANED AND WASHED THE CEMENT ON THE PATIO, AS THERE WAS MOLD GROWING WITH THE RECENT RAIN STORMS AND FLOODING.  HE ALSO FIXED THE FRONT SCREEN DOOR, WHICH WAS HALF BROKEN AND STUCK.  HE CLEANED THE INSIDE OF THE CAR, AND OF COURSE, WORKED ON THIS COMPUTER TO CLEAN IT UP....

WE ARE HAPPY NOW, AS EVERYTHING SEEMS MORE BALANCED IN OUR LIVES AT THIS POINT.  HIS JOB AT THE DELI IS GOING VERY WELL...HE NOW SEEMS TO HAVE REGULAR DAYS OFF...EVERY SUNDAY AND MONDAY OFF...SO HE WORKS 5 DAYS STRAIGHT, LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, AND COMES HOME ON SUNDAY AND MONDAY, LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, AND A NORMAL LIFE......

WE ARE HAPPY BECAUSE HIS JOB IS A FEW MINUTES FROM KINTOCK, AND HE DOESN'T SPEND ALL DAY TRAVELING ON A BUS..........AT LEAST I AM HAPPY, AS HIS WIFE.......AND HE SAYS THIS IS MUCH BETTER NOW, BECAUSE THAT 5 HOUR BUS TRIP WAS GETTING TO BE TOO MUCH.......AND THE PEOPLE HE WORKS WITH ARE ALL VERY NICE AND HE ENJOYS THE CUSTOMERS, TOO.  SO EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW SEEMS ORDERLY, CALM, AND IN IT'S PLACE...........NEXT SUNDAY, WHEN HE GETS HOME, WE ARE HOPING TO GO TO CHURCH.  WE WERE ALWAYS USED TO ATTENDING CHURCH TOGETHER, AND IT IS AN IMPORTANT PART OF OUR LIVES....IT ALSO MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE PART OF A COMMUNITY.

JIMMY SAYS AS THE TIME GOES ON, HE WILL TAKE ME OUT OF THE HOUSE, AND GO A FEW PLACES.  I TOLD HIM, I REALLY DON'T LIKE GOING OUT ANYMORE...I FEEL SAFE AND SECURE WITHIN MY HOUSE, AND WITH MY PETS...HE SAID, HE UNDERSTANDS, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN CONFINED WITHIN THE HOUSE FOR OVER 2 1/2 YEARS NOW...HE SAID, I'LL START TO CHANGE BACK TO MY OLD SELF AGAIN...BUT , I JUST DON'T KNOW.......IT SEEMS VERY SCARY TO GO OUT AND BE WITH PEOPLE, IN PUBLIC........I DO MAKE MY TRIPS TO THE LOCAL FOODSTORE, BUT THAT IS ABOUT IT....I'M OK IN A KNOWN ENVIRONMENT.........BUT I GET A PANICKY FEELING TO EVEN THINK ABOUT GOING OUT ANYWHERE.....I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO.  MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, I'LL BE OK, WITH HIM BY MY SIDE.  I GUESS I HAVE BECOME A BITE OF AN AGORAPHOBIC...WELL, WE'LL SEE..........

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!............Fran

ps.......jimmy has already started counting how many hours till  he comes home next sunday.......last nite, on the phone, he told me it was something like 99 hours untilwe meet again........for me, it's too much calculation!.......all you need to do, is ask jimmy at any given time, "how many more hours until you are home with fran?", and he will have the answer in the top of his head.....my husband is really too much!

4 comments:

sugar1337 said...

That is really great that have have such a loving relationship, you are very fortunate.  :)  I think you will probably enjoy going out more when you have someone to go out with, no one really ever likes going out much alone that is for sure.  

lv2trnscrb said...

Hi; I'm visiting your journal; this was great you got to have such a good visit with Jimmy! I hope you do make it a habit to get back to church together; what a blessing that will be :)

I also bet when Jimmy is home with you for good, you will feel more secure getting out and doing things within your community.

blessings,

betty

derasta said...

What a wonderful visit Fran...I love your entries when Jimmy comes home...you just come alive as you recount your visit to us.  You are strong beyond words...some women would have fallen apart...but you didn't...it just strenghtens your love for your husband as you await each visit and you both make the most of every second together...you continue to inspire me with each entry.

misscarberry said...

I can't get over how strong you are, I fall to bits if I am without the man I love. I really admire your strength.
Love Sam xXx
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