Saturday, August 20, 2005

IT'S ALREADY 29 MONTHS

I WAS JUST THINKING..."GEE, IT'S 29 MONTHS JIMMY HAS BEEN IN THE PRISON SYSTEM...THAT'S ALMOST 2 1/2 YEARS.....THAT IS ACTUALLY A VERY LONG TIME, BUT IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY HE WALKED OUT THE FRONT DOOR, ON HIS WAY TO COURT, AND THEN JAIL."..........YES, I KIND OF CAN'T BELIEVE IT HAS ACTUALLY BEEN THAT LONG...SOMETIMES, LIKE JUST THIS MINUTE, IT DAWNS ON ME...AND I THINK ABOUT IT....I ALWAYS HAVE TO COUNT THE MONTHS AND YEARS ON MY FINGERS...BECAUSE I'M NOT BRILLIANT IN MATH , AS JIMMY IS....WHEN WE FIRST GOT MARRIED, JIMMY WOULD SIT ACROSS THE ROOM, AND WATCH ME DOING SOME MATH, USING A PENCIL AND PAPER...HE WOIULD SMILE, AND I FELT SO SELF-CONSCIOUS, BECAUSE I KNEW HE ALREADY KNEW THE ANSWER...YOU SEE, MY HUSBAND IS SORT OF A WHIZ IN MATHAMATICS....HE DOES THE MATH WITHIN HIS HEAD...AND I MEAN HE SOMEHOW JUST KNOWS THE ANSWER............ANOTHER THING HE DOES IS KEEP TRACK OF THINGS...MATHIMATICALLY.........LIKE WHAT I MEAN IS, HE KEEPS TRACK , IN HIS HEAD, THINGS LIKE HOW MANY DAYS HE HAS BEEN IN PRISON, HOW MANY MINUTES....HOW MANY TIMES WE HAVE SPOKEN ON THE PHONE...HE EVEN TOLD ME LAST FEBRUARY, THE EXACT DAY IN FEB. THAT OUR MARRIAGE HIT THE MARK THAT WE WERE LIVING APART A GREATER AMOUNT OF TIME, THAN WE HAD LIVED TOGETHER IN OUR MARRIAGE.....JIMMY AMAZES ME...FOR HIM, HE SAYS IT IS NOTHING...HE SIMPLY KEEPS A RUNNING CALCULATION OF THINGS IN HIS BRAIN.....WELL GOOD THING I'M MARRIED TO HIM!.....AS FOR ME, I MUST WRITE EVERY THING DOWN, AND KEEP WRITTEN LOGS OF EVERYTHING...AND I ENJOY IT THAT WAY....I SAVE ALL CALENDERS AND DATEBOOKS, FOR AT LEAST THE PAST 7 OR MORE YEARS...SO I CAN REFER BACK TO EVERYTHING...(i even have some datebooks i saved in the 1980's)

WELL, LIFE GOES ON...I THOUGHT I'D STOP BY AND SAY HELLO;;;HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH EVERYONE....JIMMY WILL BE BACK FROM WORK, IN A LITTLE WHILE, AND WILL CALL M THEN....AS FOR THE QUESTION ASKED IN THE LAST COMMENT, FROM DEBBIE.....THE ANSWER IS, I DON'T KNOW WHEN JIMMY WILL COME HOME FOR GOOD....I JUST HAVE TO TAKE IT A DAY AT A TIME....AND MAYBE TONITE, I'LL GO OUTSIDE, AND LOOK UP IN THE SKY, AND MAKE A WISH ON THE FIRST STAR I SEE....I BET YOU KNOW WHAT THAT WISH IS     :)

NITE.......FRAN

3 comments:

derasta said...

Fran, I am wishing, praying and hoping right along with you...God bless your strength...you are such an inspiration to me.

kkasey47 said...

He is one very lucky man for yu to continue t be at hs side....hope things keep going well...I know it is hard........Kasey

sugar1337 said...

It sounds like you are able to keep your hopes high which is always important.  :)