MERRY CHRISTMAS, AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!.....I HOPE THAT YOU ALL HAVE A NICE HOLIDAY, DESPITE WHATEVER CIRCUMSTANCES YOU MAY BE GOING THROUGH AT THIS TIME.........

WELL, FOR ME, LIFE HAS BEEN QUIET , AS USUAL, AND I JUST CONSTANTLY DAYDREAM ABOUT JIMMY.  HE SAID TO ME TONITE, ON THE PHONE..."FRAN, YOU AND I ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE USED TO GOING OUT"....MINGLING WITH THE WORLD....BEING HAPPY AND JOYFUL AT ALL TIMES....GOING TO DINNER, AND SHOWS....TRAVELING AROUND THE COUNTRY, AND THE WORLD.......GOING TO THE MOVIES...CASINOS...SHOPPING..........CELEBRATING AT ALL TIMES............AND THEN, GOING HOME AND MAKING LOVE, OVER AND OVER AGAIN............FOR US, THAT IS ONE THING WE NEVER GET TIRED OF........ALL DAY, AND ALL NITE..............EVERYDAY.....

  ON SATURDAY, CHRISTMAS DAY, I WILL GO TO VISIT JIMMY FOR 4 HOURS.......WE ARE NOT ALLOWED TO BRING FOOD, SO WE MAY CALL OUT FOR CHINESE FOOD.....THE LIFE OF A PRISON WIFE IS SO STRANGE........I JUST CAN'T GET USED TO IT...........TO  "VISIT' MY HUSBAND, IN AN INSTITUTION.......IT ALL SEEMS SO UNNATURAL.............AND SO THESE PAST DAYS I'VE BEEN QUIET....NOT MUCH ENTHUSIASM FOR ANYTHING.....EXCEPT TALKING TO JIMMY. .........IS THIS NATURAL, TO BE SO DEDICATED TO A MAN WHO IS LOCKED UP, OR SHOULD I GO OUT PARTYING, LIKE SO MANY OF YOU PRISON WIVES DO............NOPE, I'M IN LOVE WITH JIMMY, AND DEDICATED TO HIM.........

  I'VE BEEN PAINTING SUN-CATCHERS THIS PAST WEEK TO GIVE AS PRESENTS TO MY AUNT, SISTER, AND NIECE.....I ALWAYS LIKED DOING IT, BUT IT HAS REALLY GOTTEN TOO DIFFICULT WITH MY EYESIGHT....I CAN NO LONGER DISTINGUISH BETWEEN CERTAIN  COLORS....LIKE BLUE AND GREEN...........AND SO I PAINTED THE LEAVES BLUE, INSTEAD OF GREEN, AND I HOPE NO ONE NOTICES!.............

  ON CHRISTMAS EVE, I WILL GO OUT TO DINNER AT THE LANDMARK INN, WITH MY AUNT , SISTER, AND NIECE.....MY RICH AUNT ALWAYS TAKES US OUT TO A FANCY RESTAURANT ON CHRISTMAS EVE.......SO I WILL ENJOY IT.............THE NEXT DAY, I'LL GO SEE JIMMY, BRINGING HIM GIFTS, AND HE SAYS HE HAS A GIFT FOR ME...............I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING PREPARED TO BRING TO JIMMY.

   I HAVE SADLY LEARNED NOT TO DEPEND ON ANYTHING....EVEN GOOD NEWS.........I PREFER TO REMAIN NUMB ANND EMOTIONLESS.....IT IS EASIER THAT WAY........THAT IS WHAT THE "SYSTEM" DOES TO AN INDIVIDUAL..........

  JIMMY SAYS THAT I AM DEPRESSED.......I DON'T REALLY THINK I AM.........IN MY PRESENT SITUATION, IT IS NORMAL TO BE SOMEWHAT DEPRESSED..........IT WOULD BE ABNORMAL, IF I WERE RUNNING AROUND, PARTYING AND MESSING AROUND.........LIFE IS VERY FUNNY........AT LEAST I KNOW THAT MY POSITION IN LIFE RIGHT NOW IS BETWEEN THE SLATES OF LIFE..............JIMMY SAYS HE WILL PULL ME OUT OF IT WHEN HE GETS HOME, AND EVERYTHING WILL RETURN TO NORMAL.........AND I KNOW THAT HE WILL, AND IT WILL.........ALL RETURN TO NORMAL........HOWEVER, SHEDDING A LITTLE HUMOR ON THE SUBJECT, WHEN JIMMY GETS HOME, WE'LL HAVE TO REMAIN TALKING TO ONE ANOTHER ON OUR CELL PHONES.....I DON'T THINK I COULD EXIST WITHOUT TALKING TO JIMMY ON THE PHONE.......FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS, WE TALK EVERYDAY, AT LEAT 3-5 TIMES, OR MORE  A DAY, ON THE PHONE........OUR RELATIONSHIP IS DEFINETLY BUILT AROUND TELEPHONES..........WHAT A STANGE WORLD OUR SOCIETY HAS BECOME!

  THE GOOD NEWS, IS THAT THE NEWSPAPER CALLED ME TODAY, AND MY STORY WILL BE PUBLISHED IN THE NEWSPAPER ON CHRISTMAS DAY........IT WILL VBE IN THE 'ASBURY PARK PRESS,".........UNDER CHRISTMAS MEMORIES.......THEY LOVED MY STORY!......IT IS ONLY 100 WORDS LONG..........IT WILL MOST LIKELY ALSO BE ON THEIR WEB-SITE ON CHRISTMAS DAY, TOO...SO IF YOU ARE INTERESTED, YOU CAN READ IT THERE........THE STORY IS TITLED, " NEWLYWEDS...A ROMANTIC CHRISTMAS IN LAS VEGAS."............iIT IS ABOUT OUR FIRST CHRISTMAS TOGETHER, IN LAS VEGAS....HOW JIMMY WINED AND DINED ME, FOR THE WHOLE SEASON.....IT HAD TO BE ONLY 100 WORDS, SO I REALLY COULDN'T TELL EVERYTHING!..........WHAT I LOVE ABOUT WRITING, IS TO FIND OUT EXACTLY WHAT THE PUBLICATION IS LOOKING FOR....AND THEN, TO CONSTRUCT A STORY THAT WILL FIT INTO THE NEWSPAPER OR MAGAZINE.....THAT IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT...........TO CRREATE SOMETHING THAT WILL ATTRACT OTHERS.......TO MAKE IT INTERESTING..........TO TAKE AN OTHERWISE BORING SUBJECT, AND CREATE SOMETHING TO ATTRACT THE PUBLIC.................OUR WORLD ANDSOCIETY IS BASED ON "SENSATIONLISM"...AND THAT IS WHAT WRITERS AND SCREEN-WRITERS DO..................THE ART OF FINDING THAT NICHE...................

WELL, ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, AND THANK YOU FOR READING THIS JOURNAL........IT'S JUST ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF A PRISON WIFE, AS SHE AWAITS HER HUSBAND'S RETURN HOME, AFTER ALMOST 2 YEARS...................WITH LOVE,   FRAN