Sunday, January 18, 2004

it's snowing....again

IT'S 3:00 am,and I can't sleep.. .and it's snowing again..I live in South Jersey...15 minutes from the beach....it's pretty here...i live in a gated community in the woods...it's in a circle...amongst the beautiful pine trees.In the fall and summer, I would go outside and walk 2-4 miles per day. I became part of nature..I was part of the birds and the squirrels and the deer.  I sat on benches and wrote poetry and haikus to the trees. I watched the leaves turn from green to gold.  I knew by looking at the sun, just what time of day it was.I'd take my camera along and take pix.I was one with something I love...nature, that is.  And no one, but no one could take that away from me.......not laws, not legal systems..not dusty courtrooms...not judges, not attorneys.............I was alone with God and nature.  I was part of the world, the way it really is. No one could seperate me from the trees, the birds, the sky, the protective sun. In reality, all the lawyers and judges are jealous of me.......because. "I am a free-spirit.".......i am, and always have been that way. When this is all over, we'll go back to the Southwest desert..Nevada. We miss it so much. I was part of the desert, as I had lived there for 10 years.The orange sunrises and sunsets, everyday. the sky always blue.  the dry heat. The peace and tranquility of the desert. Everyone thinks Las Vegas is only glitze and glamour......but it is more, much more........simply put, "IT IS THE DESERT."..a place you can find your soul...one only has to live there to understand it.  when you live in las vegas, it almost has nothing to do with the casino's....well, i guess i love both of my homes......las vegas and new jersey......i have the best of both worlds.......now, if i only had jimmy in my arms, everything would be perfect........

3 comments:

aynetal3 said...

Hi Fran, Thanks for inviting us over. We've read through your journal and encourage you to keep writing. I believe you are right in saying that the experience is Carthetic. I'm sorry that you and your hubby has had to go through a prison kind of an ordeal. We won't undermine your experience, we know it is one deeply felt in all kinds of exclamations. Keep writing, nothing more pressing then the next movement of your hand! Our love, Ayn and all

wayoutdacloset said...

THE LOVE OF MY SO FAR LIFE IS INEZ AND YES WONDERFUL AND INSANE INEZ GOT OUT ON WORK RELEASE FROM COUNTY JAIL SHE WROTE BAD CHECKS TO COVE RHER DRUG HABIT TO NEVER GO BACK CHARGED WITH ESCAPE SHE DID 18 MONTHS IN WOMANS PRISON. OMG WAS IT HARD ON ME. I WROTE HER EVERY OTHER DAY AND WENT AND SEEN HER ALOT IN COUNTY HOWEVER SHE NEVER ALLOWED ME TO SEE HER WHILE IN PRISON. BUT I UNDERSTND HOW IT IS TO LOVE SOMEONE BEHIND BARS. NICE WRITING. ~BERLY

wfhbear said...

Hello fellow "Las Joiseeiam" I enjoyed reading your Journal entries. There is some thought provoking stuff here and a look into your life. Thanks for the glimpse. We'll talk again. Bill, "Comments on the events of my life".