Friday, November 24, 2006

EXPLANATION

LET ME EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED ON THE TUESDAY, BEFORE THANKSGIVING..............

WE BOTH HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITJ THE PSYCHOLOGIST....JIMMY HAD GONE TWICE BEFIRE WITHOUT ME.

SO ON TUESDAY, I WAS MY HAPPY SELF.........

HAPPY THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE............HAPPY THAT LIFE WAS GOING ALONG SO WELL!..................WE WERE LAUGHING, JOKING ..............KIDDING AROUND, AS WE DROVE TO THE PSYCHOLOGIST;S OFFICE..............

AND THEN.........................BOOM!

THIS NASTY PSYCHOLOSIST...............VERBALY ATTACKED ME.......................SHE IS A YOUNG GIRL, AND SHE VERBALLY ATTACKED ME.

SHE SAYS,,,,,,"YOU ARE A DEPRESSED WOMAN/"

I SAID.....:"I AM NOT DEPRESSED.............I AM HAPPY, AND IN LOVE WITH MY HUSBAND."

SHE SAYS...................ACCORDING TO YOUR HUSBAND, YOU LIKE TO SLEEP ALOT AND ARE NOT AS ACTIVE AS YOU WERE 3.6 YEARS AGO.

I EXPLAINED I LIKE TO WRITE STORIES, AND HAVE GOTTEN AROUND 15 THINGS PUBLISHED SINCE JIMMYS INCARCERATION.  I EXPLAINED I AM LEGALLY BLIND, AND MY EYESIGHT IS WORSE RIGHT NOW AND THAT SINCE JIMMY CAME HOME, AROUND 2 MONTHS AGO, I HAVE TAKEN A LITTLE BREAK FROM MY WRITING..............................I AM A LITTLE TIRED OF WRITING AT THIS TIME.........

SHE STARTS YELLING AT ME, THAT HAPPY PEOPLE DO NOT ACT AS I DO..................

THEN SHE YELLS AT ME, THAT I AM LIKE A CHILD............THAT I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE...........THAT I AM A CRY-BABY

SHE BRINGS UP THE FACT THAT I WAS AN RN................HOW WOULD I DEAL WITH A PATIENT LIKE ME?......................SHE GOES ON AND ON.....

I TELL HER I AM NOT PRACTICING NURSING RIGHT NOW..........

I TELL HER THAT  JIMMY AND MYSELF GO  OUT EVERY, EVERY    DAY, FOR THE 2 MONTHS HE HAS BEEN HOME.......................

WE GO TO RESTAURANTS, MOVIES, STORES, KARAOKE..............WE BOUGHT A NEW CAR...................WE AREBUYING A HOUSE............WHAT MORE DOES SHE WANT!

JIMMY EXPLANED TO HER  THAT HE WANTS ME TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE.................

IN THAT SESSION I FELT TRAPPED BETWEEN THE 2 OF THEM..................I FELT I WAS NO GOOD.....................

I AKWAYS LIKE TO ACHIEVE THE BEST I CAN......................AND THAT WOMAN, WHO IS A PSYCHOLOGIST, MADE ME FEEL LIKE A PIECE OF NOTHING.......

IN MANY WAYS I WOULD LIKE TO REPORT HER ABUSIVE BEHAVOR

WE WILL NOT GO BACK THERE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,JIMMY SAYS WE MAY FIND ANOTHER COUNSELOR.

I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH THESE PSYCHOLOGISTS...........

SHE MADE ME LOOK AND FEEL LIKE A FOOL...

ALL I CAN SAY IS , I HATE THEM ALL,RIGHT NOW..............

TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY.

JIMMY HAS BEEN VERY APOLOGETIC, THAT HE EXPOSED ME TO THIS .......IF ANYTHING, IT SET ME BACK,  AROUND 10 PACES.....

AND SO, WE WERE ABLE TO ENJOY THANKSGIVING,,,,,,,,,,,,,,WE WENT TI MY SISTER;S, ALONG WITH HER DAUGHTER, AND AUNT AND UNCLE..................AND SO WE HAD A PLEASABT TIME, AFTER ALL OF THAT!

THANK YOU FOR ALL BEING SO  WORRIED AND CONCERNED!

.............AND THUS, LIFE GOES ON!

.....................FRAN

14 comments:

mtdewkd1995 said...

Yes report her for that!!! WOW you had me very worried about you! Yes I do care about other's. I'm also happy to hear you're ok and that you and Jimmy are working through all this crap. That's great you all had a good t day! Again I'm so happy you are fine and didn't hurt yourself! ~ Faye

bobandkate said...

Dear Fran,
I am so relieved that you are alright. I am sure that Jimmy meant well, but this woman might not be the best counsellor for you. Keep writing and letting your thoughts out. Do take care of yourself!
Kate.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/bobandkate/AnAnalysisofLife/

emabecmar said...

omg fran, i am so glad you are ok. i was so worried about you. please report that witch who caused you all the stress and who put you down. and if you both must see a coucilor find one who is older, is seasoned, the young ones now a days, have no heart. i am glad you were able to work things out with jimmy, and had a nice thanksgiving. and i still mean it, if you ever need to talk just send me an email and i'll send my phone number and you can rant vent all you want to me. i really truely honestly care about you. ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
Love,
Cindy

wfhbear said...

I am glad to hear that things are better. Libby and I have been worried for you. I sure don't like the way this Psychologist acted. I think Jim is right to find someone else. Get yourself back "together" and heal a little before you go to a new one. Regards, Bill.

bvaneps834 said...

glad you are ok. That woman cannot be much of a psychologist--I don't think they act that way.

adlessor said...

Welcome back to your old self.   Your young psychologist has a lot to learn.    Dump her.       Dawn

tkelliher617 said...

Glad to hear you are alright, I kept looking yesterday to see if you left and entry letting us know your ok.  You know who you are Fran dont let anybody put you down, let it go in one ear out the other, people like that are not worth your time.
Take Care,
Tabatha

carly0042 said...

I don't really know what to say Fran. Only you know what is really going on. I am just glad that you are ok and that you did not do anything to hurt yourself. Take care Fran. God Bless.

dakotarose2852 said...

Oh Fran, I was so glad to see this post.  I was worried, as everyone else was, after your last post.  I hate that you had to be exposed to such awful stuff.  My God, haven't you been through enough.  I think it's a good idea if you take a little break and find a new psychologist.  Nobody should have to take that kind of crap.
Susan

bvaneps834 said...

Fran, I am waiting to hear "the rest of the story"---are you ok?? Things settling down I hope!!

bvaneps834 said...

Fran---you must write again--many of us are worried about you!! what is going on now!!

lanurseprn said...

Fran...where ya been?  I want to hear your Xmas plans with Jimmy...his first holiday home.
Pam

bvaneps834 said...

Fran many of us are waiting to know how you are and if you are okay. Is Jimmy still with you and hopefully you two are getting along as you had planned for over 3 years!

mzsinsational said...

Fran I have never wrote but only been reading your journal now for almost I believe a year now...I am sorry to see that someone made you feel like you needed to kill yourself, but happy for 2 reasons...#1 you didnt do it, and #2 you finally have your husband home with you. I havent read your journal in a minute so it took me sometime to get caught up..My fiance now is in jail, but he will be home in the next 41 days..It has been HELL being without him for the last 6months knowing we have been inseparable for the past 11 year. Fran I have to tell you that you are one strong woman...I know when I used to read your journal, I used to feel SAD, but not BAD for you. Because you always seemed like you would be strong enough to pull through it..And I am glad you did..So show this psychologist that you have lasted this long with people not being on your side and thinking the worst of you. Whats 1 more going to hurt...I know your husband probably hurt you and you can forgive but never forget. But you can get to a point where you know its you guys against the WORLD most of the time and you together are all you guys GOT. Thank you for being strong and allowing me to be strong also. Thanks for just being you, and if that means you where depressed, and childish and all of the other things that this woman said to you, then again..I THANK YOU...Because without you being that I wouldnt know how to be strong now...THANKS...