EXPLANATION

LET ME EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED ON THE TUESDAY, BEFORE THANKSGIVING..............

WE BOTH HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITJ THE PSYCHOLOGIST....JIMMY HAD GONE TWICE BEFIRE WITHOUT ME.

SO ON TUESDAY, I WAS MY HAPPY SELF.........

HAPPY THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE............HAPPY THAT LIFE WAS GOING ALONG SO WELL!..................WE WERE LAUGHING, JOKING ..............KIDDING AROUND, AS WE DROVE TO THE PSYCHOLOGIST;S OFFICE..............

AND THEN.........................BOOM!

THIS NASTY PSYCHOLOSIST...............VERBALY ATTACKED ME.......................SHE IS A YOUNG GIRL, AND SHE VERBALLY ATTACKED ME.

SHE SAYS,,,,,,"YOU ARE A DEPRESSED WOMAN/"

I SAID.....:"I AM NOT DEPRESSED.............I AM HAPPY, AND IN LOVE WITH MY HUSBAND."

SHE SAYS...................ACCORDING TO YOUR HUSBAND, YOU LIKE TO SLEEP ALOT AND ARE NOT AS ACTIVE AS YOU WERE 3.6 YEARS AGO.

I EXPLAINED I LIKE TO WRITE STORIES, AND HAVE GOTTEN AROUND 15 THINGS PUBLISHED SINCE JIMMYS INCARCERATION.  I EXPLAINED I AM LEGALLY BLIND, AND MY EYESIGHT IS WORSE RIGHT NOW AND THAT SINCE JIMMY CAME HOME, AROUND 2 MONTHS AGO, I HAVE TAKEN A LITTLE BREAK FROM MY WRITING..............................I AM A LITTLE TIRED OF WRITING AT THIS TIME.........

SHE STARTS YELLING AT ME, THAT HAPPY PEOPLE DO NOT ACT AS I DO..................

THEN SHE YELLS AT ME, THAT I AM LIKE A CHILD............THAT I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE...........THAT I AM A CRY-BABY

SHE BRINGS UP THE FACT THAT I WAS AN RN................HOW WOULD I DEAL WITH A PATIENT LIKE ME?......................SHE GOES ON AND ON.....

I TELL HER I AM NOT PRACTICING NURSING RIGHT NOW..........

I TELL HER THAT  JIMMY AND MYSELF GO  OUT EVERY, EVERY    DAY, FOR THE 2 MONTHS HE HAS BEEN HOME.......................

WE GO TO RESTAURANTS, MOVIES, STORES, KARAOKE..............WE BOUGHT A NEW CAR...................WE AREBUYING A HOUSE............WHAT MORE DOES SHE WANT!

JIMMY EXPLANED TO HER  THAT HE WANTS ME TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE.................

IN THAT SESSION I FELT TRAPPED BETWEEN THE 2 OF THEM..................I FELT I WAS NO GOOD.....................

I AKWAYS LIKE TO ACHIEVE THE BEST I CAN......................AND THAT WOMAN, WHO IS A PSYCHOLOGIST, MADE ME FEEL LIKE A PIECE OF NOTHING.......

IN MANY WAYS I WOULD LIKE TO REPORT HER ABUSIVE BEHAVOR

WE WILL NOT GO BACK THERE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,JIMMY SAYS WE MAY FIND ANOTHER COUNSELOR.

I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH THESE PSYCHOLOGISTS...........

SHE MADE ME LOOK AND FEEL LIKE A FOOL...

ALL I CAN SAY IS , I HATE THEM ALL,RIGHT NOW..............

TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY.

JIMMY HAS BEEN VERY APOLOGETIC, THAT HE EXPOSED ME TO THIS .......IF ANYTHING, IT SET ME BACK,  AROUND 10 PACES.....

AND SO, WE WERE ABLE TO ENJOY THANKSGIVING,,,,,,,,,,,,,,WE WENT TI MY SISTER;S, ALONG WITH HER DAUGHTER, AND AUNT AND UNCLE..................AND SO WE HAD A PLEASABT TIME, AFTER ALL OF THAT!

THANK YOU FOR ALL BEING SO  WORRIED AND CONCERNED!

.............AND THUS, LIFE GOES ON!

.....................FRAN

MONDAY THOUGHTS

IT'S MONDAY MORN,  AND ALL IS WELL!

ALL IS CALM AND QUIET..........

THINGS ARE GETTING DONE, AS THEY SHOULD BE............

YESTERDAY, SUNDAY, WE WENT TO MASS, AS WE HAVE BEEN DOING EACH WEEK.  THEN WE WENT TO SEE THE HOUSE WE ARE BUYI NG.......ALL  IS WELL, AND WE REALLY LIKE THIS HOUSE...........  :)

THINGS ARE GOING VERY WELL FOR US.....................

ON SATURDAY, WE WEMNT TO MY SISTER'S HOUSE............SHE MADE ESCAROLE  SOUP AND BRACHOLETTA, AND PEAS AND MUSHROOMS, AND POTATOES..............ALL IS THE SAME WITH HER.............JIMMY WAS ON THE FLOOR, FOR HOURS, FIXING HER COMPUTER PRINTER................AS YOU CAN SEE, JIMMY AND I ARE PEOPLE WHO HELP THOSE THAT NEED HELP........AS MAN AND WIFE, WE FORGIVE THOSE THAT DID US WRONG FOR THE 3.6 YEARS OF HIS INCARCERATUON....

YOU SEE, PEOPLE WERE ALWAYS TOO BUSY TO HELP ME OUT, HIS WIFE, BUT NOW THAT THEY NEED HELP. WE ARE STILL THERE FOR THEM..................IT IS VERY ODD.................BUT JI MMY AND I KNOW JUST HOW FAR WE CAN GO, WITH HELPING THOSE THAT COULD NOT HELP US...........................AND YES, WE SET OUR LIMITS.............

I ALWAYS TELL JIMMY, IT IS UP TO GOD TO DECIDE JUST WHAT HAS TO BE DONE.................TO US, TO OTHERS................IT IS SIMPLY NOT OUR PLACE TO JUDGE OTHERS................................AND SO, WE HAPPILY WENT TO MY SISTER'S HOUSE.............WE LAUGHED, WE TALKED...................AND OF COURSE, WE LISTENED TO ALL HER PROBLEMS..................THE PROBLEMS OF NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND A MAN!.........................

JIMMY AND I, ARE WHAT YOU MAY SAY, THE PERFECT  COUPLE...................WE ARE EVEN CLOSER, AFTER GOING THROUGH HIS INCAECERATUON..................WE SHARE ALL THOUGHTS WITH EACH OTHER.................ALL EMOTIONS, ALL FEELINGS.........

YES, IF YOU ARE A PRISON WIFE, IT CAN BE DONE!

WE ARE VERY HAPPY!.................WE LOVE BEING MARRIED.........WE HAVE NO MENTAL STRESS...................JIMMY SAYS TO ME, "FRAN, THIS IS HOW I ALWAYS WANTED LIFE TO BE.".................THAT IS, TO BE A NORMAL, MARRIED MAN.....................

AT NIGHT, IN THE EVENING, WE SIT SURROUNDED BY ALL 3 PETS, AND WE WATCH TV, AND  READ THE NEWSPAPERS.................NO FUSS, NO MUSS, AS I ALWAYS SAY...........................SIMPLICITY.................THAT IS WHAT MAKES US HAPPY........................AND YET, WE ARE VERY PROGRESSIVE PEOPLE, TOO................

LAST WEEK WE SAW THE PSYCHOLOGIST...............JIMMY  SPOKE TO HER  FOR AROUND AN HOUR, AND I WAITED OUTSIDE............WE WILL BOTH SEE HER IN A FEW WEEKS...............SHE SPOKE TO ME A LITTLE, AND SHE SEEMS VERY NICE!.....................I THINK IT IS A GOOD IDEA FOR US TO SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST................I'M NOT SURE JUST WHAT I'M SUPPOSSED TO SAY!..........................BUT HEY!..................WHEN YOUIR HUSBAND IS A FELON, AND WAS IN PRISON MANY YEARS, AND YOU ARE A PRISONER'S WIFE, I GUESS THERE ARE THINGS YOU CAN TALK ABOUT!...........................THINGS THAT ARE UNIQUE TO THE 2 OF US!

JIMMY KEEPS TELLIMG ME THAT HE FEELS THAT HE WAS NEVER AWAY FROM ME IN PRISON............THAT THE WAY WE ARE LIVING, IS VERY NORMAL, RIGHT NOW..................AND GUESS WHAT!...........................I FEEL THE SAME WAY...................I CANNOT IMAGINE THAT I WENT THROUGH 3.6 YEARS OF BEING ALONE.....................A RECLUSE I WAS...........OR MAY I SAY, I BECAME AS TIME WENT ON.................JIMMY HAS BEEN HOME SINCE 9/18...................HE TAKES ME OUT OF THE HOUSE EVERYDAY...................WE DECIDED IN THE BEGINNING, THAT EACH DAY, NO MATTER HOW PAINFUL IT WAS MENTALLY, FOR ME TO LEAVE THE HOUSE.......AS I FEEL I HAD AGRAPHOBIA, I WOULD GET DRESSED, AND JIMMY WOULD TAKE ME HERE AND THERE..................AND EXPOSE ME TO PEOPLE..........................IN THE BEGINNING, IT WAS VERY FRIGHTENING TO ME..................TO SEE PEOPLE............TO HEAR OTHERS TALK..................IT WAS LIKE THEY WERE A BUNCH OF LITTLE MICE GATHERED TOGETHER, AND  TALKING.....I WAS VERY FAR AWAY FROM THOSE PEOPLE...................BUT NOW, I HAVE RETURNED TO BEING NORMAL..............................I DON'T PUSH IT..............I JUST LET IT FLOW.....................PEACE, BALANCE AND HARMONY, IS WHAT I ALWAYS SAY.................

JIMMY GAVE ME LITTLE ASSIGNMENTS..........................THINGS I COULD ACCOMPLISH, ON A DAILY BASIS..............HE NEVER PUSHES ME TO DO ANYTHING......................AND THAT IS HOW WE WORKED OUT OUR SITUATION IN LIFE.............

I AM HOME ALONE, RIGHT NOW............

JIMMY IS AT WORK.

HE WILL RETURN IN A FEW HOURS, AND WE WILL GO OUT A LITTLE.................

THINGS ARE NORMAL.....LIFE IS GREAT!

I HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH YOU, TOO!...............MY ADVICE IS TO JUST RELAX, AND LET IT FLOW................ENJOY THE DAY, THE TIME, THE SEASON!.............ENJOY THE GOLDEN LEAVES ON THE TREES.........THE COOL, CRISP AIR!............

..........................FRAN