LUV STORY

OUR LOVE IS ALWAYS "EVERGREEN." THAT IS JIMMY AND FRAN'S LOVE....ALWAYS EVERGREEN. TOMORROW, MARCH 1 st , IS A SPECIAL DAY. IT IS THE DAY I MET JIMMY FOR THE FIRST TIME ON-LINE, IN A CHAT ROOM..."LAS VEGAS ROMANCE." IT WAS MARCH 1, 2001. HE WAS CHECKING OUT THE CHATROOM, BECAUSE IN 2 WEEKS HE WAS COMING TO VEGAS ON BUSINESS, AND THOUGHT HE MIGHT "MEET SOMEONE ON-LINE" BEFORE HE GOT THERE.HE WAS NOT LOOKING FOR MARRIAGE. WELL HE SURE MET SOMEONE...ME! THE WOMAN HE WOULD MARRY 8 WEEKS LATER, AFTER SPEAKING ON-LINE. SO TOMORROW, IN THE AFTERNOON, AROUND 5PM, WE MET ON LINE. THEN, WE SPOKE ON THE PHONE....AND THEN HE STARTED CALLING ME EVERY FEW HOURS........ROUND THE CLOCK..........NITE AND DAY...AND OUR RELATIONSHIP GREW, OVERNITE.......HE WAS NEVER MARRIED, BUT WAS THE TYPICAL DATING BACHELOR....PLENTY OF GIRLFRIENDS, BUT NONE TO GET SERIOUS WITH.  ME, ON THE OTHER HAND, HAD LIVED FOR 28 YEARS WITH A MAN...A COLLEGE PROFESSOR, WHO WOULD NEVER MARRY ME.AFTER THIS 28 YEAR RELATIONSHIP, THE PROF. WALKED OUT ON ME FEB.1, 2001............I MET  JIMMY ON-LINE EXACTLY 1 MONTH LATER...I'VE HAD A VERY UNUSUAL LIFE, YOU MIGHT SAY!......WELL I JUST SPOKE TO JIMMY A LITTLE WHILE AGO........ALL "LOVE TALK!" GOOD-NITE, EVERYONE!  I'LL GO TO BED NOW, AND THINK OF MY HUSBAND.  HE'LL HOLD ME IN HIS BIG STRONG ARMS, AND GAZE INTO MY EYES....AS HE HAS DONE FOR THE PAST 11 MONTHS FROM PRISON, AND BEFORE THAT, FOR 2 YEARS IN REALITY!!!

 

time goes on.....

WELL THE WEATHER WAS NICE TODAY..AROUND 45 DEGREES, AND TOMORROW WILL BE 50! I TOOK A NICE LONG WALK(1 LAP AROUND THE CIRCLE=1/2 mile)..WEARING MY WALKMAN,LISTENING TO MUSIC.IT WAS CHILLY WHEN WALKING UNDER THE TREES, SO I COULDN'T DO MORE. THEN I SAT ON A PARK BENCH FOR 1 HOUR, LOOKING AT THE BLUE SKY, AND STILL BARREN TREES. THEN I WALKED PRINCE FOR 1/2 HOUR. LATER I WENT TO THE LIBRARY.I TOOK OUT A COUPLE OF DANIELLE STEELE BOOKS...I WAS A BIG FAN OF HERS YEARS AGO.I REALLY AM NOT INTERESTED IN TOO MUCH FICTION ANYMORE.HOWEVER, I SAW HER ON "THE VIEW" FRIDAY AND I FOUND HER VERY INSPIRING! SHE'E WRITTEN  SOMETHING LIKE OVER 40 BOOKS AND HAS 9 CHILDREN..........YES 9!.........I AM AMAZED! HERE IS THIS WOMAN, PREGNANT MOST OF HER LIFE....RAISING 9 KIDS, AND TURNING OUT NOVELS LIKE CRAZY!....IF SHE CAN DO IT, I'M SURE WE ALL CAN! AND, SHE TYPES ON AN OLD-FASHIONED MANUAL TYPEWRITER, LIKE THE KIND THEY HAD BACK IN THE 50'S! NOW WHEN SHE WRITES HER NOVELS, SHE GETS SO MUCH INTO HER CHARACTERS, SHE CLOSES HERSELF IN HER WRITING ROOM, AND CANNOT NOT SOCIALIZE, OTHERWISE SHE WILL LOSE TRACK OF HER NOVEL. IT IS MIND-BOGGLING TO ME! SHE'S THIN,PRETTY,THE MOTHER OF 9 KIDS,BESTSELLARS GALORE,AND SHE HAS HER OWN MUSEUM..."THE STEELE MUSEUM"...OF ART. SHE ONLY WANTS HAPPY,COLORFUL ARTWORK THERE,SHE SAID......SHE WANTS TO BE SURROUNDED BY HAPPY THINGS! SHE HAS ALSO NEVER DONE A BOOK-TOUR AND VERY RARELY MAKES APPEARANCES. ANOTHER BOOK I FOUND, IN THE CURRENT BOOK SECTION WAS,"A PRISON DIARY," BY JEFFREY ARCHER. I LOOKED UP, AND THE BOOK WAS ACTUALLY STARING AT ME! IT IS A TRUE STORY ABOUT A FAMOUS INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLING AUTHOR,FOLLOWING A CONVICTION FOR PERJURY,WAS SENTENCED TO 4 YEARS IN PRISON, IN LONDON.HE WAS PUT IN A CELL WITH A MURDERER AND A DRUG ADDICT.THIS A DAY BY DAY DIARY HE WROTE IN PRISON.WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT, THE BOOK WAS CONDEMNED BY THE PRISON SYSTEM IN ENGLAND,BUT PRAISED BY CRITICS.I SEE SOME FAMILAR THINGS HERE..SUCH AS, COLD CEREAL FOR BREAKFAST, NOT ENOUGH FOOD, FOR BIG HUNGRY MEN...LOTS OF NOISE AND INMATES SHOUTING AND TALKING VERY LOUD.MR. ARCHER WRITES FOR HOURS AT A TIME, LIKE MY HUSBAND....I LOVE YOU MY JIMMY!...EVEN GOOD PEOPLE GO TO PRISON!

IN LOVE

WELL, IT'S 6:30 AM...I'VE BEEN UP ALL NIGHT, DOING SOME "PAPERWORK." IT'S OKAY WITH ME....I HAVE "TIME" ON MY HANDS. JIMMY DOES HIS "TIME," AND I DO MY "TIME." I WROTE A POEM ABOUT THAT LAST SUMMER......"DOING TIME."........I'LL GO TO SLEEP AFTER WRITING THIS.  JIMMY WILL CALL ME AROUND 11 AM.......THEN, AT 2:30 PM, A FRIEND, NAMED CARMINE...MY ANGEL, WHO HELPS ME OUT WHEN I NEED TO BE DRIVEN SOMEWHERE(JIMMY DOESN'T LIKE ME TO GO CERTAIN PLACES ALONE) WILL PICK ME UP. AFTERWARDS HE'LL COME AND FIX THE FRONT SCREEN DOOR, WHOSE HINGE BROKE. YESTERDAY, JIMMY SAID"FRAN, IN THE BEGINNING I WOULD CALL YOU TO HELP YOU THROUGH THIS ORDEAL. BUT NOW, I CALL YOU TO GET STRENGTH FROM HEARING YOUR VOICE." WE CONTINUE TO TALK 3-4 TIMES/DAY.WE CUT OUR PHONE BILL DOWN TO $400 THIS MONTH. BUT I STILL OWE 446 FROM LAST MONTH........SO THAT'S $880. AT&T MADE AN EXCEPTION LAST MONTH, AND LET ME PAY ONLY PART OF THE BILL($300),SINCE I AM AN EXCELLENT CUSTOMER!FOR THE PAST 10 MONTHS I'VE PAID THE TOTAL BILL ON TIME..AND THAT'S LIKE, $700---800---900.....LOL...I'M SO GOOD!I MUST GIVE MYSELF A GOLD STAR! I FEEL AS IF I OWN PART OF AT&T!...ONE MONTH, THEY EVEN SENT ME A GIFT....CAN YOU IMAGINE...A NOTEPAD!....WELL. I BETTER GO TO BED...I'M GETTING SILLY!  WELL, NITEY,NITE!.......OR IS IT GOOD MORNING!...................SEE YOU LATER

WELL, TODAY WAS ASH WEDNESDAY, SO I WENT TO CHURCH FOR THE ASHES. I SPENT SOME TIME IN THE CHURCH, WHICH WAS BRIGHT AND SUNNY..IT HAD A NICE FEELING TO IT. LOTS OF PEOPLE..THE CHOIR WAS PRACTICING(jimmy insists i join the choir,but i'm a little shy right now). I LIT A $10 CANDLE THAT WILL  BURN FOR JIMMY AND I FOR 1 MONTH, IN FRONT OF THE BLESSED VIRGIN.JIMMY GOT HIS ASHES YESTERDAY, CAUSE THE PRIEST COMES EVERY TUESDAY FOR SUNDAY MASS AND WHATEVER.JIMMY SOUNDS HAPPY ON THE PHONE.HOWEVERRRRRRRRR, HE SAYS HE JUSTY CANNOT GET HIS MIND OFF ME.WELL, IT'S THE SAME HERE. I READ SOMETHING...LOVE IS REALLY NOT AN EMOTION, LIKE ANGER, JOY OR SADNESS, BUT IT IS A NESSESCITY, A DRIVE, LIKE HUNGER AND THIRST.AN ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF METABOLIC ENERGY IS EXPENDED WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE.WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE, PARTS OF YOUR BRAIN LIGHT UP WITH INCREASED BLOOD FLOW.JIMMY AND I OFTEN WATCHED "SEX AND THE CITY." HOWEVER, THESE GIRLS NEED TO START CONCENTRATING ON SOMETHING ELSE.I KNOW WOMEN LIKE THIS.THEIR ONLY PURPOSE IN LIFE IS TO 'FIND A MAN.' WELL, THEY NEED TO LOOSEN UP A LITTLE..RELAX AND GET IN TUNE WITH THE FLOW OF THE UNIVERSE.THEN THAT SPECIAL PERSON WILL COME TO THEM, NATURALLY.WHEN WE MET, JIMMY AND I WERE NOT LOOKING FOR A MATE! IT JUST HAPPENED!NO COURTSHIP. NO DATING.WE JUST GOT MARRIED, RIGHT AWAY.WE KNEW WE WERE "SOULMATES",AND JUST HAD TO BE TOGETHER.I AM SO SORRY THAT THE WORLD IS FULL OF THESE WOMEN,SEEKING MEN.I HOPE THEY FIND THEIR HAPPINESS...........I LOVE YOU, MY JIMMY!

ALICE IN WONDERLAND...OR IS IT PRISONLAND?

SOMETIMES I WONDER JUST HOW CAN I GO ON. I HAVE PROBLEMS THAT ARE INSURMOUNTABLE.  NO ONE CAN HELP ME SOLVE THEM, BUT JIMMY.  HE DOES ON THE PHONE, HELP ME CONTINUOSLY, BUT STILL......I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN IT.  AND I FEEL SO ALL ALONE....HE KEEPS LOOKING AT MY PICTURES, AND I LOOK AT HIS...LIKE ALL DAY.  THE GUYS IN THE PRISON ASK HIM WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT...HE SAYS, MY WIFE, AS HE HAS MY PIX ABOVE  HIS BED.  TODAY WAS A BEAUTIFUL SPRING DAY. EVERYTHING WAS WONDERFUL. I WENT SHOPPING. I DID ALL THE THINGS I'M SUPPOSSED TO DO, TO BE A PART OF THIS UNIVERSE.  BUT THEN, WHEN NIGHT SETTLES IN, I JUST FEEL SO SAD. SO WHAT I DO, IS JUST THROW MYSELF INTO BED, CALM MY MIND, AND HAVE FAITH THAT TOMORROW THINGS WILL BE MUCH BRIGHTER. BECAUSE SITTING HERE, TRYING TO SOLVE ALL THE PROBLEMS IN MY HEAD...WELL I JUST CAN'T DO IT! SO I'LL SAY GOOD-NIGHT. NITE..BEAR, PAPPY, DAKOTA

"BOBBIE, THE MIRACLE CAT"

I'M SO EXCITED AGAIN!...LITTLE THINGS MAKE ME EXCITED IN LIFE! I SPENT ALL DAY, AND PART OF YESTERDAY, WRITING MY NEXT STORY FOR ANGELS ON EARTH MAGAZINE!...IT IS TITLED, "BOBBIE , THE MIRACLE CAT."  IT IS ABOUT MY COUSIN'S ABYSINNIAN CAT, WHO SURVIVED A FATAL KIDNEY DISEASE.  THE ANGEL APPEARED TO MY COUSIN AND HER HUSBAND IN SIMULTANEOUS DREAMS, THE SAME NITE, AND GAVE THE HUSBAND THE CURE...AS HE IS A VET. WELL, I KEEP PROOF-READING THE STORY TILL EVERY LITTLE LETTER AND COMMA IS CORRECTLY IN PLACE.  I'M VERY FUSSY ABOUT THAT.  THEN, I WROTE THE COVER LETTER. I ALSO PRINTED OUT SOME INFO ON ABYSINNIAN CATS AND PIX. EVERYTHING IS IN THE MANILLA ENVELOPE AND ON MONDAY I'LL GO TO THE POST OFFICE TO MAIL IT. I'LL TELL YOU A FUNNY STORY ABOUT PRINCE, MY DOG. TONIGHT I COOKED US A BEAUTIFUL DINNER. I MADE MYSELF SAUTEED CABBAGE ,BROWN RICE, SALAD, AND A SMALL GLASS OF WINE. I'M TRYING ONCE AGAIN O STAY AWAY FROM MEAT, TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT. FOR PRINCE, I MADE BEAUTIFUL DELICIOUS LITTLE MEATBALLS. THEY ARE CALLED KOFTA(INDIAN FOOD). I MAKE THEM WITH FLAVORED BREADCRUMBS, EGG, GRATED CHEESE, PARSLEY,GROUND GINGER, GARLIC AND CUMIN.I BROUGHT A DISH WITH 12 MEATBALLS TO THE FRONTPORCH, WHERE HE LIKES TO EAT.HE CAME BACK INTO THE KITCHEN,WHERE I WAS EATING AND HE STARTED TO EAT THE CAT FOOD AND DRY FOOD. THEN HE SNIFFED AROUND THE KITCHEN FOR MORE STUFF.WELL, HE P...D ME OFF!  I WENT AND TOOK HIS MEATBALLS BACK, AND SAT IN FRONT OF HIM AND ATE THEM .HE WANTED MY CABBAGE , SO I GAVE HIM A BIG BOWL OF IT. BUT I LOVE MY PRINCE. SO LATER, I HAD 12 MEATBALLS LEFT, AND I PUT SEVERAL OUT FOR HIM TO EAT LATER WHEN HE'LL GET HUNGRY. "I JUST LOVE MY DOG! HE CAN DO NO WRONG!"

THE STORY WE WROTE FOR ANGELS ON EARTH IS OUT!

THE STORY JIMMY AND I WROTE FOR ANGELS ON EARTH MAGAZINE, MARCH/APRIL 2004 EDITION IS NOW OUT!  THE EDITOR SENT ME 2 COPIES "HOT OFF THE PRESS," YESTERDAY.  THEY WILL SEND ME LOTS OF COPIES LATER TO SEND TO FRIENDS AND FAMILY.  THE STORY IS CALLED "LUCKY."   YOU CAN CHECK THE ANGELS ON EARTH WEBSITE. THE  STORY IS ABOUT AN ANGEL THAT APPEARED TO MY HUSBAND WHEN HE FELL ASLEEP AT THE WHEEL, ON THE GARDEN STATE PARKWAY, ON HIS WAY BACK FROM ATLANTIC CITY.  THE BEAUTIFUL ANGEL, MYSTERIOSLY  SAVED HIS LIFE, AS A MAJOR ARTEY IN HIS LEG WAS CUT.  HE WOULD HAVE DIED IF IT WEREN'T FOR HER.  AND AT THE END OF THE STORY, HE SAYS HIS LIFE CHANGED FOR THE BETTER, AS HE MET AND MARRIED ME, SOON AFTER THIS ANGEL APPEARED IN HIS LIFE.  HOWEVER, I AM A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED, BECAUSE THEY FORGOT TO PRINT OUR PICTURES AND  "AFTERGLOW," WHICH TELLS ABOUT THE PERSON WRITING THE STORY.  THE GOOD NEWS IS, I HAVE 2 MORE STORIES I JUST WROTE TO SEND THE EDITOR.  I SPOKE WITH THE EDITOR OF THE MAGAZINE, TODAY, AND HE IS EXCITED ABOUT MY STORIES AND SAID TO SEND THEM TO HIM ASAP!  HE IS A WONDERFUL PERSON, AND LOVES MY STYLE OF WRITING!..WE HAVE A VERY GOOD REPOIR.  CAN YOU BELIEVE  IT! THE FIRST STORY I  EVER WROTE,  AND  SENT AWAY TO A MAGAZINE FOR PUBLICATION, AND I  GOT PUBLISHED  RIGHT AWAY, ON  THE FIRST TRY!..NOT BAD! I AM A BEGINNER....A NOVICE.  AND TRUTHFULLY I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING! WHEN THE EDITOR HAD CALLED ME ,WAY BACK WHEN, TO SAY HE LOVED MY STORY , AND WANTED TO PUBLISH IT, AND HE WOULD  EVEN PAY ME  FOR  IT.LOL!!!..i REPLIED, I DIDN'T WANT TO BE PAID!  I'M DOING IT FOR PLEASURE!  FOR ME, THE EXCITEMENT OF HAVING A STORY PUBLISHED, FAR OUTWEIGHED MONEY!  HE WAS A LITTLE SURPRISED, THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO BE PAID,AND SO WAS I WHEN I RECEIVED A CHECK FOR $400 IN THE MAIL FOR OUR STORY! I DON'T  THINK THAT MANY WRITER'S GET THEIR  FIRST STORY PUBLISHED RIGHT AWAY!.........USUALLY, YOU FIRST GET HUNDREDS OF REJECTION SLIPS, THEN GET PUBLISHED!......LIKE STEVEN  KING WHEN HE FIRST STARTED WRITING, HE TOOK A NAIL, HUNG IT ON HIS WALL, AND PROCEEDED TO FILL IT WITH REJECTION SLIP. AFTER REJECTION SLIP, TILL HE FINALLY GOT SOMETHING PUBLISHED! WELL, GOTTA GO NOW! I GOT PLENTY OF WRITING TO DO!!!

"I CAUGHT THE FLU FROM BILL!"

AFTER I WROTE MY ENTRY ON SUNDAY NIGHT, IT WAS AFTER 11PM, AND I WAS SITTING AT THE COMPUTER WRITING A LETTER TO ONE OF THE INMATES WHO LIKES TO WRITE ME LETTERS, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN OUT OF THE CLEAR-BLUE SKY, I STARTED HAVING CHILLS....I MEAN LIKE I WAS SHAKING ALL OVER, AND IT WAS SO BAD I COULDN'T MOVE. I ALSO HAD SUDDEN BODY PAINS ALL OVER. I THREW MYSELF IN THE BED, THE HEAT WAS ON AND THE HOUSE TEMP. WAS 80 DEGREES. I MADE MYSELF FALL ASLEEP, AND WOKE UP IN A LITTLE WHILE WITH 101.2 TEMPERATURE. ALSO GASTRO-INTESTINAL PROBLEMS(I WON'T BE GRAPHIC HERE). I COULD NOT EAT ANYTHING UNTIL TODAY, WHEN I STARTED WITH TEA, TOAST, AND FINALLY SOME SOUP. I DID NOT GET UP TILL TODAY.THE ANIMALS GET VERY SCARED WHEN I'M SICK.  THE 2 CATS AND PRINCE ALL SURROUND ME. THEY BECOME VERY QUIET. I MANAGED TO DRAG MYSELF TO THE KITCHEN TO FEED THEM, BECAUSE THEY ARE MY MAIN CONCERN AND WORRY.  I HAVE A FEEDER THAT IS ALWAYS FILLED WITH FOOD, AND 3 BOWLS OF WATER, AND A WATER BOWL FEEDER IN CASE I CAN'T GET THERE. WELL, I THINK I CAUGHT THIS FROM BILL! ALTHOUGH WE ARE 2500 MILES AWAY..LAS VEGAS>NEW JERSEY,STRANGE THINGS DO HAPPEN!IT HAS SNOWED AGAIN TONIGHT. JIMMY AND THE INMATES HAD TO GO OUTSIDE, AT 9PM, WHILE IT WAS SNOWING, TO SWEEP THE SNOW, BEFORE IT ACCUMULATED. I HOPE THEY DON'T GET SICK. TOO. PRISON IS A ROUGH PLACE, AND YOU JUST HAVE TO FOLLOW THEIR RULES.

ALONE AND QUIET

TODAY WAS AN UNEVENTFUL DAY. I WENT TO WALMART AND THE FOODSTORE. I HAD WRITTEN A LETTER TO THE OWNER OF GRAND UNION, A FEW WEEKS AGO,BECAUSE ONE OF HIS EMPLOYEES REFUSED TO HELP ME WITH MY BAGS.  SHE SAID,"IT'S NOT MY JOB." IN MY LETTER, I ASKED THE OWNER EXACTLY WHO'S JOB IS IT???!!! I HAD EXPLAINED TO HIM THAT NOT ONLY AM I LEGALLY BLIND, BUT I HAVE VERY BAD NEUROPATHY OF BOTH HANDS AND LEGS AND FEET.  MY HANDS AND FINGERS ARE CONSTANTLY NUMB AND DON'T WORK RIGHT, AND I'M IN CONSTANT PAIN. NOW, I DON'T LOOK SICK, OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT! THIS GIRL PACKED MY 15 BAGS OF GROCERIES AND STOOD THERE WITH HER ARMS FOLDED AS I PAID THE CASHIER. SHE HAD SAID, "I'M ONLY HERE TO PACK YOUR BAGS, NOT PUT THEM IN THE CARRIAGE."  SHE THEN REFUSED TO TELL ME HER NAME, WHEN I ASKED HER.  WELL, SHE SAID THE WRONG THING TO THE WRONG PERSON! I WENT RIGHT HOME AND WROTE A LETTER TO THE OWNER. I AM FAMOUS FOR DOING THAT.  I WORKED FOR 30 YEARS AS A REGISTERED NURSE WITH THE PUBLIC. I KNOW IT IS DIFFICULT TO WORK WITH THE PUBLIC. BUT THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR RUDENESS. AND NOW THAT I'M RETIRED, I HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO WRITE LETTERS AND EXPRESS MYSELF. ..SO THE OWNER WROTE ME A BEAUTIFUL LETTER BACK. HE WAS APOLOGETIC AND JUST WONDERFUL. HE GAVE ME A $25.00 GIFT CERTIFICATE, WHICH I THOUGHT WAS WONDERFUL, AND I WILL WRITE HIM BACK.  SO, THAT'S WHERE I WAS TODAY..FOOD SHOPPING. JIMMY ALWAYS TELLS ME "YOU HAVE A SOFT LOOK ABOUT YOU, FRAN. THAT'S WHY THESE THINGS HAPPEN. PEOPLE THINK THEY CAN GET ONE UP ON YOU. THEY DON'T REALIZE MY WIFE IS A TOUGH LITTLE COOKIE!" WELL, I'M A PEACEFUL, LOVING PERSON, BUT I LIKE TO DEFEND MYSELF, AND I WILL STICK UP FOR MY RIGHTS, AND THE RIGHTS OF OTHERS. I FEEL BY REPORTING AN INCIDENT, I MAY BE HELPING ANOTHER PERSON THAT MAY COME ACROSS THE SAME ISSUE. I ONLY WISH OTHERS WOULD DO THE SAME!

VALENTINE'S DAY AT THE PRISON

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, EVERYONE!  I WROTE A WHOLE BIG ENTRY EARLIER THIS EVENING, BUT HAD COMPUTER TROUBLE, AND IT GOT DELETED...SO HERE I GO AGAIN! JIMMY CALLED ME 4 TIMES TODAY..9A, WAS THE FIRST CALL.THEN, 12N, 5P, AND 9P.I HAD MY Photo BOOK FROM LAST YEAR'S VALENTINES DAY OUT ON THE BED ALL DAY.JIMMY HAD PRESENTED ME WITH LOTS OF GIFTS LAST YEAR. CHOCOLATES, ROSES, STUFFED TOYS, AND A BEAUTIFUL DIAMOND PENDANT HEART.I KNEW THAT ON MARCH 28, HE WOULD GO TO COURT, THEN PRISON. SO, I WAS SAD AND FRIGHTENED, TOO. TIME IS LIKE A CIRCLE FOR US. IT STARTED LAST MARCH,AND THE CIRCLE WILL SOON RETURN TO WHERE IT STARTED IN MARCH."THE CIRCLE OF TIME..THE CIRCLE OF LOVE...THE CIRCLE I WALK OUTSIDE.IT ALL MEANS SOMETHING. TIME IS CYCLIC. IT IS NOT LINEAR. TIME HAS NO BEGINNING AND NO END.  IT IS INFINITY. THEREFORE THE CIRCLE WILL NOT CLOSE, BUT WILL SPIRAL UPWARD, INTO ANOTHER SPHERE...ANOTHER DIMENSION.  WE TALKED ABOUT "LOVE" THINGS ON THE PHONE TODAY. "WE MADE IT TO MARCH, DIDN'T WE , FRAN?" HE SAID.  YES. AND TIME HAS A WAY OF COMPRESSING. BOTH OF US FEEL THIS UNUSUAL PHENOMENAL OCCURANCE. THAT IS, WE DON'T FEEL IT'S A YEAR.IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY.JIMMY KEEPS MY PHOTOS ABOVE HIS BUNKBED.TONIGHT THE GUYS GATHERED AROUND HIM. HE SHOWED THEM PIX.VALENTINE'S DAY ORIGINATED IN THE 5TH CENTURY.EMPEROR CLAUDIUS HAD BANNED MARRIAGE FROM HIS EMPIRE.HE FELT MARRIED MEN MADE POOR SOLDIERS. BUT VALENTINE , A PRIEST,WOULD SECRETLY MARRY THOSE THAT CAME TO HIM .ONE NIGHT, HE WAS CAUGHT AND THROWN IN PRISON. HE WAS TOLD HE WOULD BE BEHEADED. YOUNG LOVERS STILL CAME TO THE PRISON TO VISIT HIM. THEY THREW FLOWERS AND NOTES UP TO HIS WINDOW. THEY WANTED HIM TO KNOW THAT THEY TOO STILL BELIEVED IN LOVE. HE FELL IN LOVE WITH THE BLIND DAUGHTER OF THE PRISON GUARD. SHE WAS ALLOWED TO VISIT HIM, AND SIT IN HIS CELL WITH HIM. HIS LOVE FOR HER,AND HIS GREAT FAITH, MANAGED TO MIRACULOUSLY HEAL HER BLINDNESS.IN 270 AD,VALENTINE WAS BEHEADED. BEFORE HE WAS TAKEN TO HIS DEATH, HE SIGNED A FAREWELL MESSAGE TO HIS LOVE."FROM YOUR VALENTINE,"IT SAID. ON FEB. 14, WE CELEBRATE THE TRADITION OF "LOVE" WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY. IT IS VERY IMPORTANT TO KEEP THIS TRADITION GOING, BECAUSE "LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND!"

 

 

 

 

TO MY VALENTINE

VALENTINE'S DAY WILL SOON BE HERE!...LOVE IS IN THE AIR! I SENT JIMMY 7 VALENTINE CARDS, AND HE LOVED THEM AND HAS BEEN SLEEPING WITH THEM UNDER HIS PILLOW!....SOME ARE ROMANTIC CARDS, SOME ARE FUNNY . I ESPECIALLY LIKE THE ONE WITH THE BABY BEAR SITTING ON THE BIG BEAR'S HEAD..IT SAYS  "HI DADDY!"...I WROTE, "THAT'S JUST WHERE I'D LIKE TO STAY...ON TOP OF YOUR HEAD..IT'S WARM AND COMFORTABLE AND SAFE UP THERE!"  TODAY I SANG FOR OVER AN HOUR!....I JUST LOVE TO SING!  I LIKE TO BECOME PART OF THE MUSIC AND WORDS....IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN.  I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK.  IT IS UNEXPLAINABLE, THE WAY I FEEL WITH SONGS AND MUSIC..THEY ARE MY FRIENDS AND I AM PART OF IT. THE NOTES...THE TUNES..YOU BECOME PART OF IT!...YOU ARE NEVER ALONE OR LONELY WHEN YOU HAVE MUSIC! I DO WANT TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY, TOO, WITH MY WORDS.  I HAVE MADE 10 TAPES SINCE JIMMY IS GONE.  I PLAY MY RECORDINGS FOR HIM OVER THE PHONE.  JIMMY WILL PUT ME ON CD'S WHEN HE COMES HOME. HE WANTS TO GET ME OUT IN THE PUBLIC WHEN HE COMES HOME  E.G. LOUNGE SINGING. HE HAS ALREADY PUT ME IN FRONT OF SENIOR CITIZEN GROUPS TO SING, AND EVERYONE IS PLEASED WITH ME! HE IS AMAZED AT MY VOICE.  HE SAYS I MAKE A GOOD BALLAD SINGER. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT. IT SUDDENLY EMERGED FROM ME...IT STARTED A FEW MONTHS BEFORE I KNEW JIMMY WAS LEAVING. LIKE A LITTLE BIRD..HE SAYS I HAVE AN ANGELS VOICE.....I STARTED SINGING AND SINGING....AND I JUST COULDN'T STOP...I KNEW HE WAS GOING TO PRISON, AND SONGS BECAME MY FRIEND. BUT NOW, MY VOICE HAS CHANGED AND I'M SINGING DEEPER..HE NOTICED IT ON THE PHONE. MY VOICE IS IMPROVING. MY VOICE IS MUCH STRONGER. I SING EVERY DAY, AND ENJOY SINGING INTO A MICROPHONE...MY NOTES GO HIGH, AND I CAN GO LOW..THE BEST PART IS, I CAN HOLD A NOTE!  I JUST LIKE MAKING PEOPLE HAPPY, AND IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD!...JIMMY SET EVERYTHING UP HERE BEFORE HE LEFT.....MICROPHONES, SPEAKERS, HEADPHONES. IT'S JUST LIKE A RECORDING STUDIO.  HE DID IT ALL FOR ME, SO I WOULDNT BE LONELY. TODAY I SANG ONE OF JIMMY'S FAVORITES, AND ONE OF MY BEST SONGS........HE NEARLY CRIES EVERYTIME I SING IT!..."LOVE IS A MANY SPLENDORED THING"......JIMMY SENT ME 3 MORE PIX FROM PRISON..HE LOOKS SO GOOD AND THINNER. HE ALSO SENT ME A HOMEMADE CARD AND A LOVE LETTER.  LAST YEAR HE GAVE ME A BEAUTIFUL DIAMOND HEART..I AM WEARING IT NOW...I LOVE MY JIMMY SO VERY MUCH!

I'M BACK!!!

WELL HERE I AM AGAIN!!!...I STAYED SNUGGLED UP IN BED FOR A FEW DAYS, AND EVEN THE COMPUTER WAS OFF LIMITS. WHEN I LOOKED OUTSIDE YESTERDAY, THE MOUND OF SNOW IN FRONT OF MY DOOR FINALLY MELTED...SO, PRINCE AND I WENT OUT FOR A LONG WALK...BUT NOW, I HEAR IT'S GOING TO SNOW AGAIN! OH WELL!  JIMMY IS STILL IN PRISON...SO WHAT ELSE IS NEW?!!! HE SENT ME HIS PIX..THEY TOOK HIS PIX WITH A POLAROID, FOR WINNING THE WRITING COMPETITIONS.  HE LOOKS GOOD...THINNER, BUT THAT'S GOOD.  ALWAYS SMILING...THAT'S MY MAN!  HE HAD ON HIS ORANGE PRISON OUTFIT.  HE HATES THE FOOD. YES, PRISON FOOD IS THE WORST. NOT ONLY DO THE INMATES COOK, BUT JIMMY WAS TELLING ME THAT PRISONS SPEND AROUND ONE DOLLAR PER DAY , PER INMATE ON FOOD...SO YOU CAN IMAGINE.  AND LET ME TELL YOU, JIMMY LOVES TO COOK AND EAT..AND DINE OUT! PASTA, PIZZA, STEAK,SAUSAGE FOR HIM..I LOVE CHINESE FOOD...AND, JIMMY LOVES TO BUY ME A WHOLE LOBSTER, AND FEED IT TO ME!..ALONG WITH FRENCH FRIES AND A COLD BEER!!!.NOW DON'T WORRY, I'M NOT PIGGING OUT WHILE JIMMY IS GONE.  IN FACT I'VE LOST 70 LBS. IN THE PAST 10 MONTHS..BUT WHO'S COUNTING?...ALL THE TALK TODAY IS ABOUT DIETING..EVERYONE WANTS TO KNOW, "WHAT IS THE SECRET TO LOSING WEIGHT?"..WELL, LET ME TELL YOU.......JUST HAVE YOUR HUSBAND GO AWAY TO PRISON...AND IT IS VERY EASY! BUT, I WOULD NOT SUGGEST IT TO ANYONE!  HOWEVER, I HAVE MY LITTLE SECRETS TO LOSING...LOTS OF VEGGIES , OLIVE OIL, BROWN RICE ,NO DIET SODA..THINGS LIKE THAT...........OH WELL, I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR JIMMY TO COME HOME........I WISH I COULD "FAST FORWARD TIME."